I have sort of the same problems. I don't know where or what I want to do
I'm out of highschool(been out for quite awhile now). I've been unemployed since november(and before november, I was unemployed for quite a few months). I don't know what I want to do. Or where to go.
So of course, while I'm just sitting here at home(which I now pay rent...200 a month. And I still have all the bullshit rules, etc)...my parents call me down, tell me to get out and get a job. "your such a loser", etc etc
It's really dragging me down. I USED to be alright with computers, and was thinking to go to college for a course...but I honestly think of all the work and stuff...and I feel I can't do it. I feel it'll be to much work. And I'm not normally like this, so I don't know what is going on there.
At one point, I had an application for the army filled out...and almost got accepted...but after doing mushrooms...my views on all that changed. I absoulutely do not want to go into the army. So I pulled out of that.
So right now I'm trying to find a job, any job...and HOPEFULLY hold that till september. I'm thinking of taking my level c welding(starts then). But I THINK i'm only doing that, because I don't have many options left. I know I could do good in the welding course, so that's mainly why I'm taking it. I particularly don't like the idea of that trade, because of all the crap you breathe in
Most of my friends are long gone(left after graduation). And I spend most of my days playing guitar, going on the internet, and smoking a little bit of pot. The whole time my parents are calling me down(saying downright nasty things to me). It really brings a person down. They are the main reason I recently developed an anxiety problem. Which has cut down my drug use dramatically. I haven't used mushrooms or lsd since it started. Which is something I love. So, that's got me down even more.
But I've been reading a lot of peoples advice for others like me...and reading other peoples views on life and such(and all right here in the shroomery )..and it does inspire me. I'm trying to take up meditation and starting to try and live life by the moment.
Either way...life will go on right? I'm sure things will work out good..and I'll look back when I'm older and just laugh at how lost I was. I'll figure out what to do with my life soon.
-------------------- I saw my mind do warp 10, hit the brakes, put it in reverse and back all over me
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