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Re: What's your special ability on shrooms (or LSD)? [Re: plurfekt]
#11896065 - 01/25/10 01:34 AM (14 years, 5 days ago) |
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I know you posted this like a month ago but perhaps if you return to this thread, i know EXACTLY what you're talking about. Although i feel its on a totally different level from an orgasm... though i suppose its the best way to explain it as simply as possible. On a similar note. When you feel that flutter in your chest..try and "catch" it. Hold onto it. when i do that i can control my heartbeat. Used to slow it right down an get quite ill to get out of school when i was about 16+. If you can "catch" the weird flows at any point, you can play with them... cant explain any better than that!
These are my abilities while sober :P and the thing about being able to see from the point of view of other people, knowing them and their reactions.
As im growing my first batch of shrooms, i suppose ill tell you what my abilities are while on them once ive actually had the chance to try them =D
Hehe, were a rare breed aren't we?
I have never met anyone else who could do it, but by the talk of controlling your heart, and catching the "flutters" kind of a cool way to put it btw - I know were on the same level.
Yes, it's way more intense then an orgasm, the description doesn't really do it justice, but yes, it is the best way to describe it to the general public.
on a side note; doesn't it PISS you off when you try to do it, you catch the flutter for a few seconds.. and then you lose it? hahaha :P
Such a frustration only we could understand.
Practice makes perfect..
or in this case..
Practice makes pleasure.
Soulgasm 
I'm right there with you two. I find it frustrating when you can't hold it for very long either but practice has mainly improved how easily I am able to slip in to this state. Good shit.
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Re: What's your special ability on shrooms (or LSD)? [Re: NlightNme]
#11951189 - 02/02/10 09:45 PM (13 years, 11 months ago) |
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Soulgasm 
I'm right there with you two. I find it frustrating when you can't hold it for very long either but practice has mainly improved how easily I am able to slip in to this state. Good shit.
Soulgasm, lmao. Yeah. I'm working on formulating my own "religion" or pagan sect - which I guess, in practice already exists, but being the way I am, I of course want to further it and myself. This is kind of my idea of.. Nirvana? Becoming completely lost in everything; a spiritual happy-place.. heaven on earth.
I've always tried to focus in on it during sex, I've always wanted to, well... burst when I bust, if you know what I mean. I find this nearly impossible, without laying there saying nothing or moving at all on bottom, lmao - which can't be fun for the top. A guy can dream can't he?
This is one of those use it or almost lose it things. I try not to remain abstinent from "practice" or it becomes increasingly difficult to obtain that... perfection state. I cannot think of a more pleasurable physical state. I imagine it's more intense then a heroine injection, after my 'experimentation' with opiates and alike. Any drug with a body buzz is great for bringing this feeling about, alcohol even does a pretty good job. IMO the best thing for it is the combination of Mushrooms, weed, painkillers and xanax. I quit the latter two. Lol. 11 days no nicotine today also, and it is my first time quitting, I feel it will be the last. Will power.
Do you think everyone is capable of this, like.. physically/mentally?
I'm a 20 year old white male, ADHD, history of mental illness and an INTJ personality. I just wonder if we are a type of people... in some context. Like, is there a link?
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Re: What's your special ability on shrooms (or LSD)? [Re: plurfekt]
#11951323 - 02/02/10 10:11 PM (13 years, 11 months ago) |
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Soulgasm 
I'm right there with you two. I find it frustrating when you can't hold it for very long either but practice has mainly improved how easily I am able to slip in to this state. Good shit.
Soulgasm, lmao. Yeah. I'm working on formulating my own "religion" or pagan sect - which I guess, in practice already exists, but being the way I am, I of course want to further it and myself. This is kind of my idea of.. Nirvana? Becoming completely lost in everything; a spiritual happy-place.. heaven on earth.
I've always tried to focus in on it during sex, I've always wanted to, well... burst when I bust, if you know what I mean. I find this nearly impossible, without laying there saying nothing or moving at all on bottom, lmao - which can't be fun for the top. A guy can dream can't he?
This is one of those use it or almost lose it things. I try not to remain abstinent from "practice" or it becomes increasingly difficult to obtain that... perfection state. I cannot think of a more pleasurable physical state. I imagine it's more intense then a heroine injection, after my 'experimentation' with opiates and alike. Any drug with a body buzz is great for bringing this feeling about, alcohol even does a pretty good job. IMO the best thing for it is the combination of Mushrooms, weed, painkillers and xanax. I quit the latter two. Lol. 11 days no nicotine today also, and it is my first time quitting, I feel it will be the last. Will power.
Do you think everyone is capable of this, like.. physically/mentally?
I'm a 20 year old white male, ADHD, history of mental illness and an INTJ personality. I just wonder if we are a type of people... in some context. Like, is there a link?
yes mushrooms have brought me alot closer to mother earth than acid DID . i was a acid eater big time in the eighties and the nineties! i am a new pagan in a sense, but that said mescaline is such a new awakeing its like starting all over again, if you should be so lucky to understand me and live my life now,,,,, i dont have the need to trip as much as i use to, feel as connected to whats really going on in this thing called life!
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Re: What's your special ability on shrooms (or LSD)? [Re: plurfekt]
#11951567 - 02/02/10 10:48 PM (13 years, 11 months ago) |
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thunderfox said: Hi guys,
Some people can see, feel or do special things when they are on shrooms (or LSD). These new abilities often seem to exceed the capability of our brain as we know it.
So here is the question: Do you have "special abilities" when you are on shrooms? Which?
This is mine: We all have a different world view, a different way of perception, and a different way of thinking. When I eat 2g of shrooms, I can completely put myself in the position of other people. I know what they think, and I can predict what they will say and feel, and how they will react to my actions. Even with strangers. If I wanted to, I could easily manipulate people. I can even see their fears/wishes, I can look "into them". If someone would try to lie to me, I would not only know that the person is lying, but also I would see the persons intention.
In my case I don't think that it's super-natural. It's just that I percieve people unfiltered when I eat shrooms.
I never ate more than 2g, so I don't know what happens with a higher dosis on me.
So, what happens with you? Is there something that you can easily do when you are on shrooms, or do you percieve somthing that you dont percieve normally?
Thunderfox
I'm an experienced psychonaut. I can do things I've never even heard of being done by others.
My crown jewel: I have done this sober many many times, but the first time was on mushrooms, they showed me the door.
When I was a little kid I used to lay in my bed, and my one goal was to think of absolutely nothing, a clear mind, nothing but soul. Of course, my reasoning for this back then was very different then today, I was just a hyper kid with a very active imagination. I thought the greatest challenge of all was to -Not think-.
It worked, but all I did was find the door, I never walked through it.
The second time I ate mushrooms was in a forest. I was laying on a fallen log listening to pink floyd, it was the end of spring, the greenest time of year - and it was kinda windy. I remember watching the canopy sway and breathe, and admiring the true power and beauty of nature. I was an indoors kid, raised in a broken home, abused, etc. This was one of my defining moments.
I closed my eyes, and tried to do what I did as a kid, to be completely lost. I relaxed my breathing very gently, I had a wonderful body buzz from mushrooms and some weed.
I focused on my breathing, and my pulse, and nothing but empty space.
Soon I felt this flutter in my chest, it reminds me a lot of the feeling you get right before an orgasm. What follows reminds me even more of an orgasm.
It picked up, it was so intense I could not move or I knew it would be over, I was enlightened for the first time in my natural life. It was an exploding feeling much like an orgasm, started in my chest and quickly spread all over, even in my toes and fingers. It only lasted a few seconds, and I came out of it as anyone would; amazed and inspired.
Over the years I practiced this. Now I can do it at will, I even did it laying on a shitty pad in county jail.
I've never been able to teach anyone how to do this, but I wish I could.. I've never even been able to find an explanation or description of what it is that I did. The closest thing, was, "working" my chakras (not sure about the grammar).
This is my single most amazing talent.
Now, to the fun stuff
I have only done LSD once.
It changed my life.
I experienced ego-death. It was like going from sociopath to pagan in one single blow. Emotionally it killed me, and gave me a new life. I have a personality disorder, I believe psychedelics are the answer, when used carefully, and responsibly.
I have HPPD, so when I take drugs they are very visual, even weed. I remember tripping balls off of Ambien.
Well, when I took LSD. First two hours, barely any visuals. Then I noticed that LSD is all about imagination. I could MAKE myself see what I wished. I could look at a CFL lightbulb, and make it spin and twist and morph at will. I could focus my breathing and emotions on an object, and depending on the emotions or object it would swell, or shrink, stretch or bend.
One day my friend had came over the day after taking lsd and said he was staring at a cup, and it kept shrinking and shrinking.
I looked at him and said "You were really hungry, weren't you?"
how I knew this is irrelevant. What you sir, are talking about is Intuition.
I believe in a collective unconscious. The closer I get to becoming one with everything else, the more and more I see my knowledge and abilities are not special, they are just developed. I cannot even imagine what I will be capable of in ten years, especially since I have just now begun my real experimenting, and searching.
So, a feeling better then an orgasm.. and the ability to make my imagination a reality in a certain context, what else..
Your not the only one who feels they can read minds, etc. My recommendation to you, TEST IT. Test yourself, find anomalies, refine your abilities, TAKE CHANCES. Nothing is more gratifying then using your spiritual self, combined with a developed intellect to shape your world.
I've only been in love once. I remember laying in bed with her, just a couple of seventeen year old kids.. laughing, playing, smiling, cuddling, and I had always been a little intuitive. We used to play this game where I would guess her thoughts. I remember she said, what am I thinking now? With the most beautiful smile.. and I replied, I love you too.
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that is utterly beautiful ,,,,,,wow Ur amazing,,,,,,,,,,,,,there it is that's why psychedelics are amazing!!!!!!!
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Re: What's your special ability on shrooms (or LSD)? [Re: ant61] 1
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Re: What's your special ability on shrooms (or LSD)? [Re: Jabbawaya]
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Re: What's your special ability on shrooms (or LSD)? [Re: ant61]
#11951829 - 02/02/10 11:42 PM (13 years, 11 months ago) |
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that is utterly beautiful ,,,,,,wow Ur amazing,,,,,,,,,,,,,there it is that's why psychedelics are amazing!!!!!!!
Thank you. I thought I would be ridiculed, but it's nice to know someone can appreciate some of the finer moments of my life, the days I would do anything to relive. I miss her, and it's moments like the one above that completely define me. It's terrible that things in youth go so dramatically wrong. I can't think of a much more detrimental breakup, and when she talks to me now, even looks at me - however rare, it's always that heartbeat skipping anxiety, as if I'd die if she touched me. It'll never be the same, how can I expect to be that lucky twice. I was with a very beautiful girl after her, a girl I could imagine my entire life with on some material grounds.. When I looked down at that beauty at night, it was still that shy, awkward girl I dreamed about. She's all grown up now, and I hate that I won't be in her life, and she won't be in mine. Love sucks, but I greatly value my memories, and our time together, as I'm sure she does too.
Yeah, psychedelics can be a good way to start over. Definitely. Dropping acid was the best decision made after a life of bad decisions. It's lead me to a very good understanding of myself, people, social roles and spiritual development. Pagan is just the sense of the word, I'm sure your just like me, a child of the earth, and the stars - someone who see's beauty in all things, feels the spirit in the living, and tries his/her best to live in honor of those things, while maintaining some kind of balance with harmony to chaos in everything else. Most likely a truth-seeking individual as well. A shining star.
At least, that's how I feel. Mostly, partially, you know.
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yes mushrooms have brought me alot closer to mother earth than acid DID . i was a acid eater big time in the eighties and the nineties! i am a new pagan in a sense, but that said mescaline is such a new awakeing its like starting all over again, if you should be so lucky to understand me and live my life now,,,,, i dont have the need to trip as much as i use to, feel as connected to whats really going on in this thing called life!
Yeah I only did acid the one time, I'd like to experiment some more with it - just because the power of imagination is unbelievable, and I'm both clever and creative, not to mention intellectually ambitious - I feel that my calling will be found somewhere in spirituality, as if my soul is locked via my mind, and the keys are psychedelics. I am a responsible, well informed user - don't worry about me. I can't find LSD around here anyway - which really, really sucks. But hey, mushrooms!
I believe in magic. To a certain extent of the word.
In the essence of gump: magic is as magic does.
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Re: What's your special ability on shrooms (or LSD)? [Re: plurfekt]
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I usually have really strong telepathy with my friends when I am tripping.
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Re: What's your special ability on shrooms (or LSD)? [Re: HopanDubMan]
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Knowing which song to play next.
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Re: What's your special ability on shrooms (or LSD)? [Re: drainhaven]
#11952238 - 02/03/10 01:22 AM (13 years, 11 months ago) |
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i can get out of a straight jacket,, and you?
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Re: What's your special ability on shrooms (or LSD)? [Re: orison]
#11957630 - 02/03/10 08:46 PM (13 years, 11 months ago) |
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Plurfekt, I too have felt that fluttery feeling in my chest, it usually comes unannounced when I hear a very touching story of human connection, right before orgasm, and I always had experienced whenever I kissed a girl for the first time. I am now able to bring it up mostly at will. When I hold my wife in the greatest love I can hold, as I kiss her, I feel it. Or just thinking deeply about how much I love the beautiful connections that exist between humans, animals and the world around us. Especially in old growth forests. Touch a 500 year old tree....That'll do it.
My belief is that this is our most powerful method of prayer. (I am not religious). When I say prayer I mean, will, or expression of intention. I think that by learning to hold ones intention in this state, we have the greatest power of willing our lives into that which we desire. I see it like an amplifier for our desires. Since I started to listen to this feeling, many great things have begun to enter my life.
Or this is all just a crock, but it is not what I think...
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Fairly certain i can communicate with trees on some sort of emotional level
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Re: What's your special ability on shrooms (or LSD)? [Re: Lokiguy]
#11958698 - 02/03/10 11:16 PM (13 years, 11 months ago) |
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i've had that but its gone a lil further and just been "inanimate objects" haven't had that in a while tho. Animals mostly talk back these days when i trip. Just wish i could understand there language. LoL its pretty out there sometimes i've wonderd if i was picming up on other people's thoughts while tripping. I wish i knew for certin if i was reading people right while tripping, might've gotten me laid a few more times...btw
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Re: What's your special ability on shrooms (or LSD)? [Re: DreaMethodTool]
#11958725 - 02/03/10 11:22 PM (13 years, 11 months ago) |
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DreaMethodTool said: Plurfekt, I too have felt that fluttery feeling in my chest, it usually comes unannounced when I hear a very touching story of human connection, right before orgasm, and I always had experienced whenever I kissed a girl for the first time. I am now able to bring it up mostly at will. When I hold my wife in the greatest love I can hold, as I kiss her, I feel it. Or just thinking deeply about how much I love the beautiful connections that exist between humans, animals and the world around us. Especially in old growth forests. Touch a 500 year old tree....That'll do it.
My belief is that this is our most powerful method of prayer. (I am not religious). When I say prayer I mean, will, or expression of intention. I think that by learning to hold ones intention in this state, we have the greatest power of willing our lives into that which we desire. I see it like an amplifier for our desires. Since I started to listen to this feeling, many great things have begun to enter my life.
Or this is all just a crock, but it is not what I think... 
I tried all religions on for size; buddhism was the most appealing to me, but - faulty regardless. My concept of spirituality is forget religion.. get spirituality, be a child of nature - pagan, loosely defined.
You learned to catch the flutter.. that's good. Has it gone all the way? You'd know for sure if it has. It's far better then an orgasm, extremely intense, to the point where your body will go rigid and you try not to move - to hold on to the feeling as long as you can.
I feel a connection with everything in this univerise. My very reality is that of beauty and perception. HPPD/ADHD are gifts in my eyes.
Oh wow, yes -- old forests are surreal. Wisconsin in the summer is beautiful.. I truly envy your true love, such a gift - and to think there are so many assholes out there just trying to get laid - they really do have no clue what they are giving up, gotta be 'cool' and 'selfish' I guess - I have never been one to follow the crowd; unless I was trying to blend in.
It's not a crock. It's important that those of us who do have this ability, that we express it. I'm a natural problem solver - and spirituality works, if done correctly and to that persons best interest. For a long time I didn't understand spirituality at all, I saw all the people talking about god and jesus at NA/AA groups back in forced treatment, and all I thought was wow, these people are misled - and I remembered thinking well, in a world this fucked up - maybe convincing people of a god isn't the worst idea.. but when I found spirituality, and I consider myself a very spiritual person now - I saw they are being robbed. Everyone without spirituality is being robbed. I always understood faith; I just never understood why people are so gullible, closed-minded or hateful in a religion.. and that's all I've ever experienced from religious folk. The rare few with faith (i believe) pray to the same thing I consider everything, but they call it god.. they only screwed up in one major area: following the flock. This robs people of their individuality, and chance to fully develop their spiritual selves. I don't want this to seem like a flame towards religion; it completely regards to the said topic above. My point, is that.. us few, with this connection - we hide mostly because of social opinion, slander even. Don't. The churches act like spreading spirituality is spreading satanism, and in their minds, pagans are evil. This is wrong. I am not evil; and to have someone tell me I am evil, wicked or wrong for my honestly pure, good system of life.. They used to kill pagans. Remember the salem witch hunts?
Find your own way.. it's there, I swear on everything I love.. you just have to find the door. Proper use of psychedelics are the best tool for this, next to true love.
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I don't care if I've been made an outcast for who I am. And maybe I don't blend in - but that's only because I choose to be myself.
I want to start a book. My experiences with spirituality and psychedelics would be a major role.
DreaMethodTool - you know how it is man. Just hold her and love her to the best of your ability; to which I am sure you are more then able. Good luck to you :x
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Re: What's your special ability on shrooms (or LSD)? [Re: plurfekt]
#11959172 - 02/04/10 12:55 AM (13 years, 11 months ago) |
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i turn into a ninja when i take LSD...
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Re: What's your special ability on shrooms (or LSD)? [Re: plurfekt]
#11962138 - 02/04/10 02:20 PM (13 years, 11 months ago) |
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I miss her, and it's moments like the one above that completely define me. It's terrible that things in youth go so dramatically wrong. I can't think of a much more detrimental breakup, and when she talks to me now, even looks at me - however rare, it's always that heartbeat skipping anxiety, as if I'd die if she touched me. It'll never be the same, how can I expect to be that lucky twice. I was with a very beautiful girl after her, a girl I could imagine my entire life with on some material grounds.. When I looked down at that beauty at night, it was still that shy, awkward girl I dreamed about. She's all grown up now, and I hate that I won't be in her life, and she won't be in mine. Love sucks, but I greatly value my memories, and our time together, as I'm sure she does too.
I feel ya on this one.
The love of my life just moved away (she had to) and it's been eating my insides the past couple of weeks. Imagine beginning your spiritual journey as a loner and all the while imagining what your perfect girl would be like (awake, beautiful, intelligent etc). Then imagine you meet someone that completely surpasses this imagined "perfect" girl and within one month you already love her more than your 4 year long relationship in highschool. I had this. Unquantifyable happiness. Especially when discussing how we were both godsends to each other and how awake and amazing our kids were going to be blah blah... Its like a small partition of your soul goes with that person and leaves you when they leave you. Funny how things work out. I know people say this all the time but I'll never find someone like her again... Its just depressing knowing that ill either go with the .00001% chance of getting with her down the road or settle for someone who's not her
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Its happened to me both times I've done shrooms, for some reason I think I'm a game show host.... I dont know how weird that is but my friends have told me multiple times I asked them to come up to the stage and ask them random ass questions. I apparently even asked my friends dad, who is completely oblivious, if he knew what number came after infinity. Yeah its some strange shit
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Re: What's your special ability on shrooms (or LSD)? [Re: NlightNme]
#11963400 - 02/04/10 05:38 PM (13 years, 11 months ago) |
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Re: What's your special ability on shrooms (or LSD)? [Re: NlightNme]
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I feel ya on this one.
The love of my life just moved away (she had to) and it's been eating my insides the past couple of weeks. Imagine beginning your spiritual journey as a loner and all the while imagining what your perfect girl would be like (awake, beautiful, intelligent etc). Then imagine you meet someone that completely surpasses this imagined "perfect" girl and within one month you already love her more than your 4 year long relationship in highschool. I had this. Unquantifyable happiness. Especially when discussing how we were both godsends to each other and how awake and amazing our kids were going to be blah blah... Its like a small partition of your soul goes with that person and leaves you when they leave you. Funny how things work out. I know people say this all the time but I'll never find someone like her again... Its just depressing knowing that ill either go with the .00001% chance of getting with her down the road or settle for someone who's not her 
I'm sorry man. Losing her was the hardest thing I ever went through, so I understand how you must be feeling.
My best advice; don't waste any time. I wasted so much time.. dressing I thought she'd like, making art I thought she would like, dating girls I thought would make her jealous (this kinda worked but I don't recommend it).
I just wish.. it had been her chasing me. For who I am, and how much I cared.. I don't understand how she hasn't come back to me. I probably never will.
My love for her was the only thing that ever made me question if there was a god. Now, getting to be a 'grown up', I'm very much my own person.. I just wish I could have met her now, instead of then.. But that just can't be. As for the 0.00001 chance (or less for me) of ending up with her again. I think about it, her.. all the time. It's been over two years. Still, every single day.
Sometimes I think about cleaning myself up the best I can, finding her wherever she is.. spill my feelings to her and try to impress her or something. I dream of it often, but that will never happen. I have too much self respect, and for all I know she is not a respectable girl anymore - rumor tells. It hurts. Don't waste any time.. and if that 0.0000001 chance is meant to be, don't waste any time thinking about it, dreaming for it.. just try to be the best version of you and if she crosses your path, it will likely happen on it's own. Really.
I have the hardest time, even now - coping with, or even believing that she's gone forever. I guess I don't feel like we are finished in, not yet. She's in love with someone else, and the guy is no good (I don't judge..he's a felon and a bum, mooches off her, etc). If she only knew how much I've changed, how much I've grown up. It hurts.
Don't waste any time.
In reply to the game show host thing:
I tripped once and me and a bunch of buddies were playing pool at a diner - for some odd reason I wanted to be like, the referee for the games. Like "oooooooohhhhhp SCRATCH ON THE 8BALLL WHEEEEWWWW" hahaha.
I wish I had a pool table. I wish I had her.
WOW. and our song starts playing, on the movie I'm watching.
the fray - look after you
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mantis90
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Re: What's your special ability on shrooms (or LSD)? [Re: plurfekt]
#11965487 - 02/04/10 10:42 PM (13 years, 11 months ago) |
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I feel when im tripping, I can literally sense how the person that I am talking to or paying attention to feels. Just one of many examples, I was tripping with my buddies and my brother last week.
We were watching an Allman Brothers DVD on the HDTV(was awesome btw), and my brother kept starting conversations with me and I knew he was having a bad trip. I figured it was best not to bring it up as I figured it might sketch him out even more. I talked to him the next morning and I was exactly right, even know what caused it.
I eventually realized that Ive been doing this way even before I knew about psychedelic drugs. I just never really started paying attention to it until... well you know
 I try to be skeptical about it, but im almost always right. This happens even more so with animals, especially dogs. Who knows!
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