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 TrippyHippie74
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 Re: ouch  [Re: eeso]
#11801048 - 01/10/10 10:34 AM (14 years, 3 months ago) |
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I thought I did have what I wanted, but I don't know anymore. I'm just gonna stick it out and focus on school.
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Ryan07
TurnItUpnMakeTheSpeakersBleed
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Just stay true to yourself, and you own wants/needs
As long as you follow your own intuitions... you wont be unsatisfied..
So an hour from Nelsons huh? Nice...same here. Im from Akron, but getting ready to head back to Colorado. I can't wait..still in time to catch the tail end of Ski season!
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nice1
Not the droid your looking for
Registered: 09/26/09
Posts: 10,449
Loc: earth
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Whatever you do don't go on the shroomery and mention you are a single female,
oh wait.
How many freaky PMs have you had so far?
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TrippyHippie74
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Re: ouch [Re: Ryan07]
#11801104 - 01/10/10 10:42 AM (14 years, 3 months ago) |
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I'm from Canton, so not that far! Lucky I wish I could leave!
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TrippyHippie74
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Re: ouch [Re: nice1]
#11801107 - 01/10/10 10:43 AM (14 years, 3 months ago) |
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Haa none actually, only people trying to help me.
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Ryan07
TurnItUpnMakeTheSpeakersBleed
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Yeah its just that this area is oppressed.. and there isn't anything overly awesome, and again i exclude NLQP from that list.. Because besides the whole drug factor, which is quite insignificant, its a beautiful place.. Full of positivity, if ya look at it right 
So why ya stuck? Thats never a good feeling, i know
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TrippyHippie74
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Re: ouch [Re: Ryan07]
#11801144 - 01/10/10 10:50 AM (14 years, 3 months ago) |
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Just stuck going to school, living with my mom. No money, no other place to go. I'm not even asking for forever just a little get away ya know.
I do love that place, it is beautiful.
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klodeo
yoghurt weaver
Registered: 01/31/09
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Loc: england
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breakups are such a fuck eh? sorry to hear about your loss.
ive just been through a really tough breakup too. went out with this girl for 2 1/2 years, who cheated on me several times while we were going out, and then i ended up getting paranoid over this guy who was blatantly hitting on her, so she dumped me, and then ended up with him a few weeks later. ouch.
its been about 3 months now (i think, something like that anyway), and ive only just started feeling better about stuff. think ive just recently decided to choose to have peace over drama in my life...
what i really noticed going through all this headfuck tho, is that the times when you feel the most vulnerable are also the times when you are the most open to learn about yourself and to really sort out your own head, and grow as a person.
dunno if its your kind of thing or it will be any sort of help, but these links helped me get to grips with stuff quite a bit:
[url=http://www.urbanmonk.net/136/lon]http://www.urbanmonk.net/136/loneliness-the-beginning-of-romance/
http://www.beyond-karma.com/how-to/how-to-mend-a-broken-heart/
both of those websites also have several other nice articles with some good advice. hope its of some use.
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Ryan07
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Yeah... vacations are actually pretty important..
But since your stuck at home...
Enjoy this little journey...
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TrippyHippie74
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Re: ouch [Re: Ryan07]
#11803220 - 01/10/10 04:25 PM (14 years, 3 months ago) |
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Lol thanks
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Ryan07
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Ha..pretty sweet song tho huh?
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TrippyHippie74
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Re: ouch [Re: Ryan07]
#11803272 - 01/10/10 04:33 PM (14 years, 3 months ago) |
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Yea it is I might have to download it.
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mellowparty
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Im sorry to hear it Trippy
I wish I could comfort u in someway (not refering to anything obscene). I went through a tough break half an year ago and I still dream about this girl. I guess im overly emotional 
Unfortunately I cant give u any advice on how to overcome what u had. I suck at break ups and I always have the feeling that im not learning how to take it easier.
But at least u have the shroomery and our countenance.
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TrippyHippie74
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This is the worst break up yet. I feel like I will never ever find anyone to compare to him. There's no one like him. I doubt anyone could understand me like he does. I can not stop thinking about what when wrong. I was really okay yesterday, but now it really hit me that we actually broke up. I spent my whole day in bed. I start a new school tomorrow and I'm so not in a good mind set.
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Envix
Avoidant Disorder
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hmm, tell me about yourself. let's compare ideals 
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continue my ascension
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rip. todcasil, acid sloth, st1llnox, zappaisgod, big worm (sketch), tim b
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TrippyHippie74
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Re: ouch [Re: Envix]
#11803479 - 01/10/10 05:07 PM (14 years, 3 months ago) |
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I'm probably like a lot of people on here from what I have read. I think that i am unique. I have a fun loving outgoing personality. I don't believe in religion or a divine power. I hate our society, but I'm going to try to make it in it because I got stuck in this time. I do love the technologies of our time though. I like to read a lot. Learning is the best thing for me. I obsess over the counter culture. I want to be more creative, but maybe I just haven't found my nitch yet.
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Envix
Avoidant Disorder
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yeah you're exactly like me. okay you're my girlfriend now. 
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continue my ascension
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rip. todcasil, acid sloth, st1llnox, zappaisgod, big worm (sketch), tim b
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nice1
Not the droid your looking for
Registered: 09/26/09
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You are a person prone to bouts of real self-examination. This is in sharp contrast to a striking ability you have developed to appear socially very engaged, even the life and soul of the party; but in a way that only convinces others. You are all too aware of it being a facade.
You will often be at a gathering and find yourself playing a part. While on the one hand you'll be talkative and funny, you'll be detaching yourself to the point where you will find yourself watching everything going on around you and feeling utterly unable to engage. You'll play conversations back to yourself in your head and wonder what that person really meant when he said such-and-such - conversations that other people wouldn't give a second thought to.
How have you learned to deal with this conflict? Though exercising control. You like to show a calm, self-assured, fluid kind of stability (but because this is self-consciously created, it will create bouts of frustrated silliness and a delight in extremes, or at least a delight in being seen to be extreme). You most easily recognize this control in how you are with people around you. You have learned to protect yourself by keeping people at bay. Because in the past you have learned to be disappointed by people (and because there were issues with you adjusting to your sexuality), you instinctively keep people at arms' length, until you decide they are to be allowed over that magic line into your group of close friends. However, once across that line, the problem is that an emotional dependency kicks in which leaves you feeling very hurt or rejected if it appears that they have betrayed that status.
Because you are prone to self-examination, you will be aware of these traits. However, you are unusually able to examine even that self-examination, which means that you have become concerned about what the real you is. You have become all too aware of facades, of sides of yourself which you present to the world, and you wonder if you have lost touch with the real and spontaneous you.
You are very creative, and have tried different avenues to utilize that ability. It may not be that you specifically, say, paint; it may be that your creativity shows itself in more subtle ways, but you will certainly find yourself having vivid and well-formed ideas which others will find hard to grasp. You set high standards for yourself, though, and in many ways are a bit of a perfectionist. The problem is, though, that it means you often don't get stuff done, because you are frustrated by the idea of mediocrity and are wearied by the idea of starting something afresh. However, once your brain is engaged you'll find yourself sailing. Very likely this will lead to you having considered writing a novel or some such, but a fear that you won't be able to achieve quite what you want stops you from getting on with it. But you have a real vision for things, which others fall short of. Particularly in your work situation, you are currently fighting against restraints upon your desire to express yourself freely.
Partly this is because there are ways in which you have been made to feel isolated from certain groups in the past - something of an outsider. Now what is happening is that you are taking that outsider role and defending it to the point of consciously avoiding creative and work pursuits. You have an enormous cynicism towards those who prefer to be part of a group or who exhibit any cliquey behavior, and you always feel a pang of disappointment when you see your 'close' friends seeming to follow that route. Deep down it feels like rejection.
For all that introspection, you have developed a sensational, dry sense of humour that makes connections quickly and wittily and will leave you making jokes that go right over the heads of others. You delight in it so much that you'll often rehearse jokes or amusing voices to understand yourself in order to 'spontaneously' impress others with them. But this is a healthy desire to impress, and although you hate catching yourself at it, it's nothing to be so worried about.
You're naturally a little disorganized. A look around your living space would likely show a box of photos, unorganized into albums, out-of-date medicines, broken items not thrown out, and notes to yourself significantly out of date. Something related to this is that you tend to lack motivation. Because you're resourceful and talented enough to be pretty successful when you put your mind to things, this encourages you to procrastinate and put them off. Equally, you've given up dreams a little easily when your mind flitted elsewhere. There are signs of an excursion into playing a musical instrument, which you have since abandoned, or are finding yourself less interested in. You have a real capacity for deciding that such-and-such a thing (or so-and-so a person) will be the be all and end all of everything and be with you for ever. But you'd rather try and fail, and swing from one extreme to the other, than settle for the little that you see others content with.
Conclusion: You present something of a conundrum, which won't surprise you. You are certainly bright, but unusually open to life's possibilities - something not normally found among achieving people. You would do well to be less self-absorbed, as it tends to distance you a little, and to relinquish some of the control you exercise when you present that stylized version of yourself to others. You could let people in a little more.
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TrippyHippie74
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Re: ouch [Re: nice1]
#11803972 - 01/10/10 06:31 PM (14 years, 3 months ago) |
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Are you a psychologist? It sounds like you are.
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Envix
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I can copy/pasta too 
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continue my ascension
-bhad bhabie
rip. todcasil, acid sloth, st1llnox, zappaisgod, big worm (sketch), tim b
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