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Arden
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Re: Thinking about killing mysel [Re: Anonymous #2]
#10923322 - 08/23/09 10:02 PM (14 years, 7 months ago) |
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Some older things must vanish in order to make room for the new things.
You have to move debris to accommodate the novelty.
It may seem negative and unfortunate at first, just give it a bit of time.
Patience is a virtue.
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shroommachine
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Re: Thinking about killing mysel [Re: Arden]
#10924325 - 08/24/09 01:17 AM (14 years, 7 months ago) |
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Everything in my life was coming together really well, I had been doing good in drug court, had a girl(friend w/ benefits), my mother just gave me her car. Then I went to get mushrooms for a friend, as a favor.
Now I'm probably gonna get kicked out of drug court, lost the car, lost the job I was about to get, lost my family's trust and respect, and am faced with the option of taking the new felony, plus the 2 from drug court, or being an informant, and still having nothing good in my life.
-------------------- And I said, I don't care if they lay me off either, because I told, I told Bill that if they move my desk one more time, then, then I'm, I'm quitting, I'm going to quit. And, and I told Don too, because they've moved my desk ...four times already this year and I used to be over by the window and I could see the squirrels, and they were merry, but then, they switched from the Swingline to the Boston stapler, but I kept my Swingline stapler because it didn't bind up as much and I kept the staples for the Swingline stapler and its not okay because if they take my stapler then I'll set the building on fire.
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Triptonic
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Dont become an informant, thats just stupid. But dude I really wouldnt worry about your life that much. Things happen for a reason. You are never to much of a criminal to open your own business.
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paulie_walnuts1
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I think you should become a narc. I hear/hears they get paid!
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acrosstheuniverse
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I say don't do it...
you are your own person so you may do as you will
but just remember you probably will leave people behind you and it will greatly impact them...
try to better yourself first... get life going good for you..
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ManianFH
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acrosstheuniverse said: get life going good for you..
with time and effort pretty much anything reasonable is possible, and this is definitely 100% within the realm of reasonable considering your situation
-------------------- notapillow said: "you are going about this endeavor all wrong. clear your mind of useless fear and concern. buy the ticket, take the ride, and all that.... " ChrisWho said: "It's all about the journey, not the destination."
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Epigallo
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Tell people you are suicidal, and when all of the crap blows over, just start your own business/livelihood. Small business owners and independent contractors are way happier than regular full time employees. Your history won't matter.
Don't become an informant. You can't expect LEOs to be fair or honest, but they can't take your integrity if you don't sell it to them.
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Huehuecoyotl
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You could play the suicide angle to manipulate the system as has been suggested. You can avoid the negative shit facing you, and come off clean. Or you could stand up to it 100% and not repent for one minute. Fuck other people's opinions....even your parents opinion. Either way will work. Your just in trouble for not agreeing with society...don't sweat it. You may do a little time, but once you are "rehabilitated" society will forgive you. I hope I never face a similar situation, but if I do I intend to have fun with it. Life should be fun, and playing the game with full consciousness of my actions is fun.
-------------------- "A warrior is a hunter. He calculates everything. That's control. Once his calculations are over, he acts. He lets go. That's abandon. A warrior is not a leaf at the mercy of the wind. No one can push him; no one can make him do things against himself or against his better judgment. A warrior is tuned to survive, and he survives in the best of all possible fashions." ― Carlos Castaneda
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Almond Flour
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Re: Thinking about killing mysel [Re: krypto2000]
#10960190 - 08/29/09 08:21 AM (14 years, 7 months ago) |
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Every religious practice preaches against suicide. Its not supposed to be fun after you die if you believe in that propaganda like me
-------------------- Hippies and Liberals love Pope Francis, so why dont I quote him for you guys. "There is NO SALVATION outside the Catholic Church"
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SuperD
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First off, don't kill yourself. Secondly, I was in the same situation 7 years ago that you are currently in. I still have quite a few years to go on my probation sentence but things are looking up day after day.
I know you wanted that teaching career, but believe me there's more ways than one to get what you want in life. I know the feeling of hopelessness after getting busted. Felony record, you can't vote, you can't find a decent job, you can't even apply for certain jobs now, your family looks at you differently, etc.
It gets better and I'm living proof. I got tired of being rejected by employers simply because of my felony. What did I do? I became self employed. Now no one tells me what I can or can't do. I am my boss and I make my own future for better or worse. You can do it, hang in there.
-------------------- D Manoa said: I need to stop spending all my money on plants and take up a cheaper hobby, like heroin. Looking for Rauhocereus riosaniensis seeds or live specimen(s), me if you have any for trade
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Shamanintraining
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Re: Thinking about killing mysel [Re: SuperD]
#10965270 - 08/30/09 09:35 AM (14 years, 7 months ago) |
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I'd just peace the fuck out.
-------------------- "Leave your mind alone and just get high"
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jonnyjonjonjon
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If you have nothing to lose and everything to gain then killing yourself would be even more of a waste of what little time we have left in my opinion. Sometimes we only really start living when drop all the doubt and bullshit and view life as some kinda virtual reality game which it could easily be. What you should keep in mind is that most people do not have the mentality that one gets when one has nothing to lose. Since you were planning on killing yourself anyway you obviously wont give a crap about getting killed. That mentality gives you a serious edge in life.
-------------------- Mother goose said to the swan "Is that PCP your cooking?" and the swan replied "Yes, yes it is.
Edited by jonnyjonjonjon (08/30/09 02:59 PM)
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youngsaint707
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Re: Thinking about killing mysel [Re: Mr.Al]
#10966759 - 08/30/09 02:58 PM (14 years, 7 months ago) |
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Mr.Al said: Tell people you are suicidal.
Avoid jail time.
Be stuck in a loony bin for a little while.
Get out of crazy house and resume your life.
Maintain a low profile.
Sometimes the best family isn't your biological one.
Find people that enjoy your company and lifestyle.
^^^^^ god idea. possibly get out of the country for a while go see some stuff
-------------------- Do mushrooms grow in your head?
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wowwtf
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Re: Thinking about killing mysel [Re: Anonymous #2]
#10966810 - 08/30/09 03:08 PM (14 years, 7 months ago) |
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Those are demons influencing your thoughts trying to get you to go down to hell.
Serotonin dopamine gaba norepinephrine
one of or more are of these chemicals in your brain are low just need to improve them however way you can then ask yourself if you wanna kill yourself.
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jonnyjonjonjon
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Re: Thinking about killing mysel [Re: wowwtf]
#10969115 - 08/30/09 08:30 PM (14 years, 7 months ago) |
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wowwtf said: Those are demons influencing your thoughts trying to get you to go down to hell.
Serotonin dopamine gaba norepinephrine
one of or more are of these chemicals in your brain are low just need to improve them however way you can then ask yourself if you wanna kill yourself.
They're just angry hes not feeding them. The bastards made 5-HTP prescription only in my country but tryptophans the next best thing for replenishing serotonin. Its tyrosine for dopamine. OP if you can get your hands on some GHB I think that even metabolizes into GABA. I dunno about Norepinephrine. I was on atomoxetine once and it was the weirdest drug I'd taken in my life. Not in a good way.
wowwwf's right. A neurotransmitter imbalance can be the difference between feeling like killing yourself and happily building towards your future.
-------------------- Mother goose said to the swan "Is that PCP your cooking?" and the swan replied "Yes, yes it is.
Edited by jonnyjonjonjon (08/30/09 08:37 PM)
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tak
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Shit has been worse for many people man, and some of them end up doing great things. You ever heard the saying "what doesnt kill you makes you stronger" well that is true in all of life. There is always a rebound, that is why they call it the rollercoaster of life. Some people have their ups, while you have your downs. Don't worry though, they will get theirs as does everyone.
It sucks you got caught up man, but don't think you are alone...its our fucked up system. Suicide would let them win, and we need as many on this side as we can get. You are responsible for your own life and death though man, and its not like death is some evil force that makes everything bad or good...its just a part of life...Everyone dies.
Shit might get worse for you dood, but they will eventually get better. Hang in there.
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Re: Thinking about killing mysel [Re: tak]
#11008572 - 09/06/09 10:15 AM (14 years, 7 months ago) |
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Jail isnt bad. I spent time in jail before and all I did was sleep, eat, watch tv, and play chess, and read. Its fun.
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