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Sexual Compulsion And Porn Addiction - Can Anyone Relate?
#10399177 - 05/25/09 10:52 PM (14 years, 9 months ago) |
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Do any of you find that your need for sex is so bad it prevents you from going about your normal life? I have several compulsive activities (all of them online, thank god) that are related to my sex drive and take up significant amounts of my time. On my days off I used to spend the entire day downloading porn and trying to arrange online hookups with other guys, but I have stopped doing that and have managed to compartmentalize it. But I remember back then I would always say "this weekend, it's going to be different, I'm going to get out and do things unrelated to sex" but then I would start and couldn't stop, and my weekend would fly right by, and I would be depressed because I spent literally every waking moment of the weekend watching porn and trying to arrange online hookups.
I escaped that depressive cycle and now live a much more normal life, but I still spend far more time on this than I would like. I am now pretty compulsive about checking the craigslist ads, and I can see how that can become an addiction. I haven't done the math, but I figure it might be better for me to purchase a hooker once every couple of weeks. It would be expensive, but if I knew I was getting sex every two weeks I wouldn't spend all this time online looking for it, and maybe I could use my time being more productive, so the money for hookers might be wisely spent.
Other things I spend countless hours of my time on are gay chat programs for online hookups, Xtube and other porn video sites, and various forums for erotic stories. I don't think it's sex that is the problem, but rather the constant hunger for it. And I haven't ever had a serious relationship, so it is just one hookup after another. Sometimes I will post cragislist ads just to hear my phone buzz when I get responses. It makes me feel less lonely.
I'm not sure if I'm compensating for being undersexed in high school and college or what. Or maybe if I had had relationships my urge for intimacy and closeness would be more satiated. So I don't know if this is just me or if it is something every guy goes through. Regardless of sexual orientation, the male sex drive is a slavemaster so surely someone here can relate to my experiences?
I feel like I need more and closer straight male friends. Guys I can hang out with and pass the time with but who I don't have sex with. It is impossible for me to have gay "friends" because we always end up in bed together and it just becomes a hookup thing. I think if I got the close companionship and support I need from straight guys, I wouldn't feel so lonely and wouldn't be so sexually compulsive. But I don't know, maybe I would just lust after them too. Women aren't an option as I don't really enjoy their company. I always feel like they are looking down on me like a mother or big sister would, and I can't relax and open up to them the way I can with guys. But it's hard to find straight friends who are cool and I don't really know where to look.
I'm kind of opening myself up here so please don't be too judgmental. I don't know if there is a cure for constant horniness any more than there is a cure for being male. I just wonder if my porn habits are a symptom indicating my life's emptiness, and if there are any other ways I can fill that void. But I would love to hear from others who have had the same problems and found some kind of solution. Or even if you are still wallowing in it, it would make me feel better to know I'm not alone.
So can anyone relate to this? Does anyone else have stories of depressive porn cycles, compulsive craigslist watching, and a constant hunger for sexual gratification? Even when I have sex, the aura of satisfaction is fantastic but it only lasts about two days, and then I am hungry again. I feel like I am a sexual vampire.
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Re: Sexual Compulsion And Porn Addiction - Can Anyone Relate? [Re: Klondike]
#10399249 - 05/25/09 11:06 PM (14 years, 9 months ago) |
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Take a break from the internet for a while. Shut your computer off and try to develop some healthy habits.
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Re: Sexual Compulsion And Porn Addiction - Can Anyone Relate? [Re: Klondike]
#10399272 - 05/25/09 11:10 PM (14 years, 9 months ago) |
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How old are you? You'll mellow if you really want to. Hormones are a tough one.
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Re: Sexual Compulsion And Porn Addiction - Can Anyone Relate? [Re: whattheheck]
#10399306 - 05/25/09 11:16 PM (14 years, 9 months ago) |
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go exercise
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Re: Sexual Compulsion And Porn Addiction - Can Anyone Relate? [Re: Klondike]
#10399323 - 05/25/09 11:20 PM (14 years, 9 months ago) |
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I'm pretty much in your exact situation, hahah...
Only I have plenty of straight guy friends and no hook-ups.
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Re: Sexual Compulsion And Porn Addiction - Can Anyone Relate? [Re: Klondike]
#10399404 - 05/25/09 11:35 PM (14 years, 9 months ago) |
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The you have the more you want.
I have a low sex drive. Sex is like taking a crap to me its just something you have to do every now and again. My drive for life is centered around being creative and sex takes all that energy away which is why I avoid it.
From what you wrote you seem to be addicted or at least acting compulsively. I think its time to change the cycle but its down to you to get a hold of yourself.
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Re: Sexual Compulsion And Porn Addiction - Can Anyone Relate? [Re: Brugman]
#10399427 - 05/25/09 11:40 PM (14 years, 9 months ago) |
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just wonder if my porn habits are a symptom indicating my life's emptiness, and if there are any other ways I can fill that void.
i think that it is an indicator of that. I base this on what you've said, and from observing my friends who are sexually compulsive.
I can relate to an extent. Im quite unsexual - my only motivation towards seeking sex is to a find a life partner who i can have a family with... i do not seek sex for gratification or distraction, and actually haven't sought sex for quite some time..
However, i do view pornography even though i think it is *bad and unhealthy.* everytime i view a provocative sig or avatar my mind gets aroused and distracted. :S
It is my opinion that people often seek sexual gratification outside of the *normal* context and outside of the *supportive parameters* of a relationship, for unhealthy reasons.
In my life, a majority of people who are oversexualized are lacking substance/meaning/clarity/understanding in their lives. Id suggest that a majority of people are like this.
The whole queer thing is weird - it was real interesting hearing your perspectives on not being able to be friends with gay guys without hooking up. Sheds light on a friend of mine...
Gays and lesbians i've known throughout my life, have always been MORE sexually active than my straight friends (usually.) - Any thoughts on why this is?
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Re: Sexual Compulsion And Porn Addiction - Can Anyone Relate? [Re: PDU]
#10399463 - 05/25/09 11:47 PM (14 years, 9 months ago) |
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maybe all the stress and depression with just being gay.
hrm sorry i didnt read the op post but to really get my view I'm saying its harder for gays with out a doubt in our society. So I'm not trying to knock gays or anything.
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Re: Sexual Compulsion And Porn Addiction - Can Anyone Relate? [Re: foodsgoodtoo]
#10399513 - 05/25/09 11:54 PM (14 years, 9 months ago) |
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I haven't really associated being gay with depression before? Its only denile of ones sexuality that would lead to depression...
At a base level, I think its more on relating to others based on their sexual status, rather than on interests like the rest of us.
Being in a world of straight people and then finding someone whose gay, you'd just be like "finally."
And then this is perpetuated/exploited by the queer communities/gay clubs/gay parades, etc...
I think it is also an expression of rebellion towards the oppression they've probably felt most of their life in regards to their sexuality.
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I met a guy who stayed at a gay themed camp at burning man, and said something like:
"it was cool and all, i mean, you could suck random dick and stuff..." - this attitude seems pretty common.
Im tolerent and all, but i was taken-a-back. Maybe cause im prude, or maybe cause im straight - but i've never wanted to hook up with strangers.
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Re: Sexual Compulsion And Porn Addiction - Can Anyone Relate? [Re: PDU]
#10399534 - 05/25/09 11:56 PM (14 years, 9 months ago) |
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I'd recommend getting IRL pussy
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Re: Sexual Compulsion And Porn Addiction - Can Anyone Relate? [Re: PDU]
#10399535 - 05/25/09 11:56 PM (14 years, 9 months ago) |
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My ex killed my sex drive by being a terrible lay.
After five months of no poon, it's finally coming back...with a vengeance.
But I suck at the game
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Re: Sexual Compulsion And Porn Addiction - Can Anyone Relate? [Re: Klondike]
#10399684 - 05/26/09 12:26 AM (14 years, 9 months ago) |
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You should give opiates a try, the addiction is a lot nicer.
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Re: Sexual Compulsion And Porn Addiction - Can Anyone Relate? [Re: PDU]
#10399826 - 05/26/09 12:50 AM (14 years, 9 months ago) |
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PDU said:
Gays and lesbians i've known throughout my life, have always been MORE sexually active than my straight friends (usually.) - Any thoughts on why this is?
Gays and lesbians are completely different animals. It is not uncommon to find lesbians who were virgins when they met and have lived happily together in a monogamous 27-year relationship. A gay guy would never even consider a relationship until he had fucked at least 30 guys, and even then the trend now is to incorporate outside sex into the relationship.
I think the reason is that men and women are different, and they compliment each other. Men want to fuck, women want to get married (or at least have a relationship). So they make a deal and each gets their wish.
Among gay guys, there is no bargain that needs to take place. You don't need dating or anything of the kind. You know how women insist on being taken out to dinner and getting to know you first? And you know how guys see dating as a necessary formality that allows them to fuck? Well, for gay guys we don't need those formalities.
I have had online hookups with guys where we agreed to a date, and the conversation literally went like this:
Me: I can't wait for our date. After it's over we can go back to my place.
Him: Sounds like fun, what do you want to do when we get to your place?
Me: Whatever you want.
Him: I want to [insert statement of specific sexual interests].
Me: Great, we will do that.
Him: Why don't we just skip the date and go right to your place?
Me: Sounds good to me.
I have also had many dates that I would characterize as "reverse dates". This is where both parties realize that we desperately need to have sex with each other, but we also want to get to know each other. So rather than go out for a meal, knowing that we are just going to be agonizing the whole time to get it over with and start the sex, we instead get right to the sex. And when the sex is over and we have relieved that carnal need, only then do we go out for a meal and actually talk to each other. It's literally the exact opposite of a straight date of 'dinner then sex'. It is more like 'sex then dinner'. Or 'sex then coffee'. Another variation would be 'sex then sleep then breakfast'.
Women are the Yin and men are the Yang. But with gay guys, it is all Yang and no Yin. It is probably on some level rather unhealthy. It is like too much of a good thing. Also gay people don't get each other pregnant, so there is nothing to make us go "hey, I'd better settle down now. I've got a kid on the way!".
I also think the places that function as gathering spots to foster a sense of community tend to be clubs, which are for hooking up. So everything in "gay life" centers on hooking up. Though I always avoid those places.
Imagine, as a straight guy, if you could go to a choice of two clubs to meet women - the Blue Club and the Red Club. At the Blue Club, the women are as you know them. They want to know what you do for a living, they want to be wined and dined and taken out for romantic dates, and only when you commit to them will they maybe fuck you.
But at the Red Club, the women all have the minds of men. They demand nothing from you other than a good fuck, they don't care how much money you make or if you ever want to call them again, they just want to fuck your brains out, and they are all gorgeous.
At first you might try both clubs. When you felt like you needed to fuck, you would go to the Red Club. But you would tell yourself you still wanted to meet a good woman, and you would continue to go to the Blue Club too. But the women at the Blue Club are so damn demanding, so particular. They demand so much and it takes forever to get them into bed. You begin to wonder why you are wasting your time on them when there are gorgeous women at the Red Club who are just waiting for you to fuck them tonight.
Eventually you spend less and less time at the Blue Club, and more and more time at the Red Club, until eventually you would only go to the Red Club. It satisfies all your cravings with the least amount of hassle, and every night you go you see new women you hadn't seen before who are gorgeous and want to fuck you.
Well, if you are straight then unfortunately the Red Club doesn't exist. To be gay is to live in a world where Red Clubs really exist, in fact it is nothing but Red Clubs everywhere you go. And there are no Blue Clubs.
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Re: Sexual Compulsion And Porn Addiction - Can Anyone Relate? [Re: Klondike]
#10399855 - 05/26/09 12:55 AM (14 years, 9 months ago) |
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Great post, very interesting.
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Re: Sexual Compulsion And Porn Addiction - Can Anyone Relate? [Re: DimensionX]
#10400151 - 05/26/09 02:26 AM (14 years, 9 months ago) |
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You mentioned the yin/yang male/female duality thing. It sounds like you understand that both of those sides might both be a part of you as a whole and that this addiction may be a symptom of imbalance. You also mentioned that you don't get along with women (think they condescend to you.) You could possibly change your diet to include more strong yin foods and also try working on your relationships with women, try to notice where you have hangups with the opposite sex (I promise they don't all "look down their noses" at you) and try to move yourself into balance. You may discover a deeper more complex sexuality that includes the Yin to balance the Yang.
Also you may want to try a psychedelic session (mushrooms seem perfect) to contemplate the divine feminine.
Oh and just turn off the computer. I have had similar problems with temptation to pornography. It really sounds like your heart is in the right place. Good luck.
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Re: Sexual Compulsion And Porn Addiction - Can Anyone Relate? [Re: collinZzZz]
#10400879 - 05/26/09 08:58 AM (14 years, 9 months ago) |
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well i dont really need to answer this question, ive already proved i wank too much for too long watching too much porn, but i think ill cut down now . past 15 hours been very strange to me.
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Re: Sexual Compulsion And Porn Addiction - Can Anyone Relate? [Re: PDU]
#10401089 - 05/26/09 09:39 AM (14 years, 9 months ago) |
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PDU said: I haven't really associated being gay with depression before? Its only denile of ones sexuality that would lead to depression...
At a base level, I think its more on relating to others based on their sexual status, rather than on interests like the rest of us.
Being in a world of straight people and then finding someone whose gay, you'd just be like "finally."
And then this is perpetuated/exploited by the queer communities/gay clubs/gay parades, etc...
I think it is also an expression of rebellion towards the oppression they've probably felt most of their life in regards to their sexuality.
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I met a guy who stayed at a gay themed camp at burning man, and said something like:
"it was cool and all, i mean, you could suck random dick and stuff..." - this attitude seems pretty common.
Im tolerent and all, but i was taken-a-back. Maybe cause im prude, or maybe cause im straight - but i've never wanted to hook up with strangers.
This is where the depression stems. It takes us much longer in general to develop the normal life that straights begin working on at like 13
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Re: Sexual Compulsion And Porn Addiction - Can Anyone Relate? [Re: PyroBurns]
#10401252 - 05/26/09 10:20 AM (14 years, 9 months ago) |
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PyroBurns said:
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PDU said: I haven't really associated being gay with depression before? Its only denile of ones sexuality that would lead to depression...
At a base level, I think its more on relating to others based on their sexual status, rather than on interests like the rest of us.
Being in a world of straight people and then finding someone whose gay, you'd just be like "finally."
And then this is perpetuated/exploited by the queer communities/gay clubs/gay parades, etc...
I think it is also an expression of rebellion towards the oppression they've probably felt most of their life in regards to their sexuality.
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I met a guy who stayed at a gay themed camp at burning man, and said something like:
"it was cool and all, i mean, you could suck random dick and stuff..." - this attitude seems pretty common.
Im tolerent and all, but i was taken-a-back. Maybe cause im prude, or maybe cause im straight - but i've never wanted to hook up with strangers.
This is where the depression stems. It takes us much longer in general to develop the normal life that straights begin working on at like 13
hm. 'normal' life.
meaning... aiming towards commitment?
there are a lot of assumptions that a committed relationship = happiness.
whereas, divorce rate = 50%. just ask me, been there, done that, whee, it sucked.
i maintain that 'normal' is kind of a meaningless construct. the 'red' and 'blue' club categories were more instructive.
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Re: Sexual Compulsion And Porn Addiction - Can Anyone Relate? [Re: ChairmanMeow]
#10401261 - 05/26/09 10:24 AM (14 years, 9 months ago) |
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I have sympathy for you but your lifestyle seems dangerous to me. Aren't you scared of STD's? You don't really know who you're hooking up with, hell they could even be some psycho killer that wants to fuck you then hang you. You just never know, man. Be careful.
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Re: Sexual Compulsion And Porn Addiction - Can Anyone Relate? [Re: ChairmanMeow]
#10401272 - 05/26/09 10:26 AM (14 years, 9 months ago) |
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I see what you're saying here and already knew that normal was a bad choice of a word but the point is that things are way much more straight forward for straights even if it doesn't necessarily lead to happiness.
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Re: Sexual Compulsion And Porn Addiction - Can Anyone Relate? [Re: PyroBurns]
#10401329 - 05/26/09 10:41 AM (14 years, 9 months ago) |
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PyroBurns said: I see what you're saying here and already knew that normal was a bad choice of a word but the point is that things are way much more straight forward for straights even if it doesn't necessarily lead to happiness.
i hear ya. more like 'traditional cultural agreement' (TCA?) but of course, that's long-winded, clumsy, and unclear...
in any case, the idea that the TCA IS straightforward can lead to a lot of misunderstandings too. we all THINK we know what someone else really wants. we end up relating to our ideals and assumptions rather than to the actual person. even that person him/herself may not even know their own heart, may not be able to see past their own preconceptions about what will make them happy.
it ain't easy no matter who you are...
but in any case, knowing yourself helps. and keeping a balance between what you feel compelled to do and opening yourself up to other possibilities is a good thing. so, @OP: sign yourself up for a distraction or something new at least once in a while. broaden your horizons, yada yada. scratch your itch but go exploring here & there.
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Re: Sexual Compulsion And Porn Addiction - Can Anyone Relate? [Re: Klondike]
#10403043 - 05/26/09 04:59 PM (14 years, 9 months ago) |
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Klondike said:
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PDU said:
Gays and lesbians i've known throughout my life, have always been MORE sexually active than my straight friends (usually.) - Any thoughts on why this is?
Gays and lesbians are completely different animals. It is not uncommon to find lesbians who were virgins when they met and have lived happily together in a monogamous 27-year relationship. A gay guy would never even consider a relationship until he had fucked at least 30 guys, and even then the trend now is to incorporate outside sex into the relationship.
I think the reason is that men and women are different, and they compliment each other. Men want to fuck, women want to get married (or at least have a relationship). So they make a deal and each gets their wish.
Among gay guys, there is no bargain that needs to take place. You don't need dating or anything of the kind. You know how women insist on being taken out to dinner and getting to know you first? And you know how guys see dating as a necessary formality that allows them to fuck? Well, for gay guys we don't need those formalities.
I have had online hookups with guys where we agreed to a date, and the conversation literally went like this:
Me: I can't wait for our date. After it's over we can go back to my place.
Him: Sounds like fun, what do you want to do when we get to your place?
Me: Whatever you want.
Him: I want to [insert statement of specific sexual interests].
Me: Great, we will do that.
Him: Why don't we just skip the date and go right to your place?
Me: Sounds good to me.
I have also had many dates that I would characterize as "reverse dates". This is where both parties realize that we desperately need to have sex with each other, but we also want to get to know each other. So rather than go out for a meal, knowing that we are just going to be agonizing the whole time to get it over with and start the sex, we instead get right to the sex. And when the sex is over and we have relieved that carnal need, only then do we go out for a meal and actually talk to each other. It's literally the exact opposite of a straight date of 'dinner then sex'. It is more like 'sex then dinner'. Or 'sex then coffee'. Another variation would be 'sex then sleep then breakfast'.
Women are the Yin and men are the Yang. But with gay guys, it is all Yang and no Yin. It is probably on some level rather unhealthy. It is like too much of a good thing. Also gay people don't get each other pregnant, so there is nothing to make us go "hey, I'd better settle down now. I've got a kid on the way!".
I also think the places that function as gathering spots to foster a sense of community tend to be clubs, which are for hooking up. So everything in "gay life" centers on hooking up. Though I always avoid those places.
Imagine, as a straight guy, if you could go to a choice of two clubs to meet women - the Blue Club and the Red Club. At the Blue Club, the women are as you know them. They want to know what you do for a living, they want to be wined and dined and taken out for romantic dates, and only when you commit to them will they maybe fuck you.
But at the Red Club, the women all have the minds of men. They demand nothing from you other than a good fuck, they don't care how much money you make or if you ever want to call them again, they just want to fuck your brains out, and they are all gorgeous.
At first you might try both clubs. When you felt like you needed to fuck, you would go to the Red Club. But you would tell yourself you still wanted to meet a good woman, and you would continue to go to the Blue Club too. But the women at the Blue Club are so damn demanding, so particular. They demand so much and it takes forever to get them into bed. You begin to wonder why you are wasting your time on them when there are gorgeous women at the Red Club who are just waiting for you to fuck them tonight.
Eventually you spend less and less time at the Blue Club, and more and more time at the Red Club, until eventually you would only go to the Red Club. It satisfies all your cravings with the least amount of hassle, and every night you go you see new women you hadn't seen before who are gorgeous and want to fuck you.
Well, if you are straight then unfortunately the Red Club doesn't exist. To be gay is to live in a world where Red Clubs really exist, in fact it is nothing but Red Clubs everywhere you go. And there are no Blue Clubs.
Great response Klondike, very interesting indeed.
I like how you summed up how "courtship" works for straights and gays - certainly not true in all cases, but the jyst of it is food for thought, for me.
It does sound like your heart is in the right place, but i wonder if you realistically see changing your habits? If so, how are you going to do it? Would you want to be monogamous, or would you want to replace sexual gratification with... "more healthy" habits?
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Re: Sexual Compulsion And Porn Addiction - Can Anyone Relate? [Re: Klondike]
#10407733 - 05/27/09 02:10 PM (14 years, 9 months ago) |
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Klondike said: Do any of you find that your need for sex is so bad it prevents you from going about your normal life?
Yes, but instead of saying that "it prevents [me] from going about [my] normal life", I'd say that it prevents me from achieving real intimacy with myself and, especially, with others. I want sooo badly to open up to someone and be vulnerable, but at the same time, that's also my biggest fear.
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Klondike said: Regardless of sexual orientation, the male sex drive is a slavemaster so surely someone here can relate to my experiences?
I wouldn't blame my "sex drive" either, since mine has waned since turning thirty, but my (practically identical) compulsive behavior hasn't. Instead, I'd call my addiction to sex the "slavemaster".
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Klondike said: So can anyone relate to this? Does anyone else have stories of depressive porn cycles, compulsive craigslist watching, and a constant hunger for sexual gratification? Even when I have sex, the aura of satisfaction is fantastic but it only lasts about two days, and then I am hungry again. I feel like I am a sexual vampire.
I can, perfectly. For the time being though, I've chosen to wallow in my compulsion, and to treat my depression with ecstasy and alcohol. I believe, however, that my redemption is possible if I was to attend AA and "do the steps" to truly recover from my addiction (to that most beautiful and sublime yet wholly addictive feeling of orgasm) and to live a meaningful and free and joyful life.
I like this thread, and I feel you brother, trust me I feel you! But life goes on...
-------------------- "Participate joyfully in the sorrows of life." - Joseph Campbell
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Re: Sexual Compulsion And Porn Addiction - Can Anyone Relate? [Re: collinZzZz]
#10412064 - 05/28/09 05:16 AM (14 years, 9 months ago) |
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Pshyedelics probably would get my mind off sex and onto more noble things. I haven't done them in awhile. There are some women I like, but more the ones who are the tom-boy types. I can't stand girly-girls. Some good female friends who view me as a person rather than as their "gay" friend would probably be good for me.
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Re: Sexual Compulsion And Porn Addiction - Can Anyone Relate? [Re: PDU]
#10412068 - 05/28/09 05:20 AM (14 years, 9 months ago) |
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I don't think I can be monogamous. At least not unless the guy was perfect. I think the solution is to develop other interests and activities to take my mind off sex. I am trying to take up reading books, biking, and independent films this summer. Psychedelics, as a couple of people mentioned, would be nice but I don't know anyone who does that yet.
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Re: Sexual Compulsion And Porn Addiction - Can Anyone Relate? [Re: goliath_91710]
#10412069 - 05/28/09 05:22 AM (14 years, 9 months ago) |
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Thank you for your reply. I think you are right - it isn't necessarily a sex drive thing but becomes compulsive behavior after awhile. It's like you have an itch you need to scratch, but long after the itch is gone you are still scratching that spot and your skin is turning red and getting irritated. That's like what this is.
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Re: Sexual Compulsion And Porn Addiction - Can Anyone Relate? [Re: Klondike]
#10412084 - 05/28/09 05:43 AM (14 years, 9 months ago) |
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here you go man
maybe you should drop the 'independant film' hobby tho
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