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Anonymous #20
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all little kids experiment its fuckin normal dude
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Anonymous #19
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If you read the thread you'd see that he was forceful with his baby brother, and when he says he was prob around 9-13, he was probably really 13.
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Anonymous #20
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ahhhhh.
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Anonymous #19
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I've never seen that smiley before! HAHAHA!
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Anonymous #21
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This is insane I read this thread expecting to see it all flame but I'm really surprised how many people actually had this sort of experience.
When I was younger I had some brief sexual stuff with my brother in the bathtub, and later on when i was about 12-13 I had a cousin who we had recurring sexual experiences with.
He was about 8 or 9 and we would always go into the bathroom and play 'scary faces' where we would turn the lights out to see what kinds of faces would appear. We had alot of oral stuff but never any kissing or that shit.
He would do it alot, honestly it happened probably about 6 or 7 times but I know I wasn't forcing it on him or taking advantage because he was as interested/enthusiastic as me.
We have never talked about it and I always fear he will grow up gay and sue the shit out of me and my whole thing will be exposed. I've never told anyone about this and this thread is some serious reassurance that its not as fucked as I thought.
I'm not gay, and I think incest is fucked up, it was just really bizarre curiosity
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Anonymous #20
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yea man, most kids do stuff like that "pretending to have sex" or someshit like that. i think most everyone had gone though it
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Anonymous #22
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Kids do some fucked up shit when there young and fucked up things happen sometime... i think you were a child and you probly didn't know what the f you were doin..... but if that same situation happened to me i might seek some professional help.... good luck man....remember you were a child and im sure the instance is more dramatic in your head than what really took place.
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Anonymous #19
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I think a lot of this shit is normal.
Kids don't think sex is 'bad' until their parents tell them so.
They approach it with an air of innocence.
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Anonymous #21
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this is pretty embarrassing: I had my first ever ejaculation when I was with him.
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Anonymous #23
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It's ok man. You were just kids. That kind of stuff actually happens a lot.
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Anonymous #19
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Quote:
Anonymous #21 said: this is pretty embarrassing: I had my first ever ejaculation when I was with him.
I read a study somewhere, saying that most young males first ever orgasm is through male-male contact.
Doesn't need to be embarrassing, it doesn't make you gay.
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Anonymous #24
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Did you have full-out intercourse? buttsecks? I touched my dog's pussy once by accident. I liked it.
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Anonymous #20
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Quote:
Anonymous #24 said: Did you have full-out intercourse? buttsecks? I touched my dog's pussy once by accident. I liked it.
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Anonymous #25
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Well. I guess I'm going to come out and say it, because OP is willing to confess and it's not like anyone is gonna know who I am. When I was around the same age (hell, probably little older, it's fuzzy...it's honestly a fucked up memory I try not to think about alot)I molested my two younger sisters.
Honestly, I can't even think about it without feeling overwhelming guilt. One sister I have a great relationship with but I'm honestly afraid the other one keeps me at arms length because of it (I don't blame her.)
I've never brought it up with them. Never figured out how. Know I probably should, just to unload the guilt, but that's sorta the fucked up part. I don't think I should unload myself to make myself feel better when I could very well un-repress a memory and cause further trauma.
I feel like shit because of it. Always have. Always will. But the important thing to remember, OP, is that you are not as bad as the worst thing you have done, but you are never as good as the best. In other words, sometimes you fuck up, and that's life.
I'll probably carry it with me forever. God, I'm so fucked up.
Also, when I was a child, I began looking for pictures of naked girls my own age (I'd say at 12 or so). It ended up becoming an addiction to underage porn (I wouldn't really say CP, though, most girls were too old for that) that took me most of high school to stop. Even now and again I have lapses, pull up the bad stuff. Always feel guilty afterwards and promise never to do it again.
I think you live with your burdens, or your burdens destroy you, it's as simple as that. It's all about learning to forgive yourself, yet never forgetting the guilt.
Sorry for the tl;dr. It's just a messed up subject, lol.
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Anonymous #20
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i guess all you can do is everyday try to be a better person
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Anonymous #26
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Wow.
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Anonymous #20
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i really dont mean that in a disrespectful way either. i know that I try to be a better person every new day then i was in the last.
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Anonymous #27
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It's pretty normal to have that type of experience when young. I've had a similar experience when I was around 8 years old but no actual sex, just touching and pretending we were adults. It's funny that it freaks so many people out and that they feel so guilty about it....
We share a room and bed brother dear, come and be so kind brother dear, come touch me slide closely to me
In front of the bed, a black hole and every sheep falls inside I am already too old, yet still count them because I cannot sleep
Under the navel, in the branches a white dream is already waiting brother dear, come hold tightly and shake the leaves from the tree for me
Play a game with me give me your hand and play with me a game play with me a game play with me because we are alone play with me a game house *
Dear brother's hand hurts he turns to the wall again brother helps me now and then so that I can sleep
Play a game with me give me your hand and play with me a game play with me a game play with me because we are alone play with me a game house
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Anonymous #28
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holy shit that is gonna be in someones nightmare lol
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Anonymous #1
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Again, to clarify a bit more.
About trying to be a better person @ i've been doing that for two years, your past doesn't have to inflict everything 
Yesterday I went to a family gathering and pulled my brother aside, and well, it surprised me how cool he was with it, truly not faking it. I think me saying that I was "pushy" or "forcefull", was more me thinking I was that way. We were both curious, although I am the one who kinda got the train going.
And yes, we did indeed have full intercourse, and as you might've guessed it's nothing I'm proud of, but I simply realized you can't go around letting it drag you down when done is done and we both feel so much better about and really simply love eachother a lot <3
and @ #25, please don't think of yourself as fucked up, I did that and simply threw me into bad spirals. You regret it now and can not change the past, try to do what you can about it now to feel better about it and that they are clarified about the matter.
There are no evil people, only people with lack of love.
I deeply believe that.
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