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Anonymous #1
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Very "personal" question.
#10098872 - 04/03/09 04:19 AM (14 years, 9 months ago) |
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Hello 
I have been a member here for some time now, and yesterday something happened to me I would really like some input on. I will post anon-style, because, well, I don't think I can share it with the entire web society just like that, only two close friends know of it.
Yesterday one of my friends invited over another friend, who has never experimented much with drugs, didn't even like weed that much. He was interested in just trying psychedelics, so we rolled up a small cone of some 10x salvia, just to let him get into the head space.
Now, I most likely really already know the answer somewhat, almost, I would just like some input/reinforcing statements, something, I dunno.
After the cone was gone, we listened to some music, got into a very floaty feeling. As my mate leaves the room, the new guy starts talking about how you can always be forgiven for anything (started out with a short discussion of his tattoo, resembling how his mother can always forgive him) And then he moves onto that even you can be forgiven for "raping" a 5 year old boy or girl. This is where my head clicked, when I was young, I'm not sure how young, but between the age of 9-13 or something? I, (rough childhood, weird shit all around, blabla) had sexual intercourse with my younger brother, I am a male. Now, I've talked with him a couple of times about it but have never gotten into the root of it, it isn't an easy subject, but I've really tried to make him realize that I was the one confused and to blame, if anyone is to blame. This started a long crying session that evening for me, once I was alone (and shortly with my mate).
Incident that he mentions it? Don't believe can't believe so, if anyone could direct me with some good reading material towards this, somehow, I would really appreciate it.
About my brother... It is a case I have to solve along with him, I know it will be a long and maybe tough ride? Not sure..
It's just good to say it, I know I'm not supposed to really feel all bad about it but it isn't easy not to...
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All help really appreciated, spring break coming in. (I'm not really feeling down, it really helped crying a lot, I just want to understand - and help my brother/my subconsciousness- yadayda..
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Anonymous #2
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Yea something like that happened to me too except I was the younger "victim," though I wouldn't really call it that because I was giving into my curiosity about sex. I was about 6 or 7 and I'm not sure how to cope with it. It happened with my cousin and me and him haven't talked about it since, though we've still remained good friends. I wish you the best of luck.
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Anonymous #3
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OMFG. You fucked your little brother? You sick bastard.
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Anonymous #4
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Anonymous #5
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fuck off #3, i bet this sort of shit goes on WAY more than people think.
the same thing happened to me, me being the younger brother. then the same thing happened with me and my younger step brother a few years later.
i read that this is a result of jealousy of your sibling. i also think it's just a part of growing up/learning about sex. i'm not saying that it should happen, but i don't think it is THAT uncommon.
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Anonymous #3
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Anonymous #5 said: fuck off #3, i bet this sort of shit goes on WAY more than people think.
the same thing happened to me, me being the younger brother. then the same thing happened with me and my younger step brother a few years later.
i read that this is a result of jealousy of your sibling. i also think it's just a part of growing up/learning about sex. i'm not saying that it should happen, but i don't think it is THAT uncommon.
Dude. That's gotta be pretty fucking uncommon. Having gay sex with your brother is probably the sickest thing I can even think of.
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Anonymous #4
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because it happens to you and a few other fucks doesnt mean it's common. You fuck 2 of your brothers at 2 different occasions. wtf?
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Anonymous #3
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Anonymous #4 said: because it happens to you and a few other fucks doesnt mean it's common. You fuck 2 of your brothers at 2 different occasions. wtf?
HAHA. I know. So wrong.
I wanna roll a joint and see how this thread unfolds.
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Anonymous #5
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Anonymous #4 said: because it happens to you and a few other fucks doesnt mean it's common. You fuck 2 of your brothers at 2 different occasions. wtf?
just because it didn't happen to you, doesn't mean it never happens.
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Anonymous #1
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I guess now I do not believe it was wrong since I simply didn't know any better, as stated I guess it was somewhat out of sexual curiosity, we can't help or change the past, so it isn't "sick", there are no bad people, only people with lack of love and understanding.
I would never even consider sexual intercourse with a family member at this day, things were as they were, even if I wish to change them, but that doesnt help now. I can't change the past and I know most people follow me on this board, just have to move on and come to a closer understanding with him.
Thread can be continued if people feel like discussing the matter furtherer or have any interesting input on the subject/links I/people might be interested in.
Thanks everything :>
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Anonymous #5
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I'd just like to add, that i turned out to be hetrosexual. Actually, i always considered myself hetrosexual, even when the shit was goin down.
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Anonymous #6
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When I was young I showed a same age guy cousin of mine my dick, and it is a really awkward memory. Is this a normal event? I also think I have acted really weird through out puberty- like flashing my pubes randomly and stuff like that.
does this happen to everyone? being young and not knowing what to do with your developing horniness can suck. at least I am older and wiser now!
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Anonymous #9
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wtf... this is a joke right you're obviously a bunch of inbred hicks
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Anonymous #7
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Anonymous #9 said: wtf... this is a joke right you're obviously a bunch of inbred hicks
Get out of my trailor you whore
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Anonymous #10
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I agree with #5, This same thing happened to me as well. It wasnt full on intercourse or anything, just nakedness on top of eachother. Im pretty sure my dumbass big brother just learned about sex at school or something. We have never talked about it, but its one of those things you dont forget. If you have a good relationship with him now #1 and he knows that you love him. Things can be forgotten. Ya its always going to be a sore spot in your life, but thats what life is, its mistakes
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Anonymous #10
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im a dude btw
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Anonymous #11
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Anonymous #5 said: I'd just like to add, that i turned out to be hetrosexual. Actually, i always considered myself hetrosexual, even when the shit was goin down.
Wait, when you were being fucked by your older brother, or when you fucking your younger brother.
This is clearly abnormal behavior. Whats worse is that you said you were 9-13? You should definitely have known better. You have some serious issues.
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Anonymous #9
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eh? ..maybe where you live this is normal = / or maybe im the weird one for not sleeping with my little brother 
degenerates... 9-13yr old!? its not like you don't have control of yourself by then ¬ ¬
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