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OneMoreRobot3021
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It's weird, loving people
#7106611 - 06/29/07 09:45 AM (16 years, 8 months ago) |
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Sometimes you just love the littlest things they do. Things you will never be able to explain to them. I'm at my mom's right now. Her computer got uber-fucked by a virus (I told my sister not to install Limewire...) and so I am setting her up with my old computer. I'm just watching her go about her business. The way she places her fingers in the same grooves on her favorite coffee cup. The way she looks out the window. The way she seems to have a rhythm to when she ashes her cigarette - I swear if I had a stopwatch she'd be on a regular cycle. "I love you, mom" sums up so many damn little things. There's not enough time to say em all, or maybe there's no point in saying them all. Words will just never be enough.
Just a little thought.
-------------------- Acid doesn't give you truths; it builds machines that push the envelope of perception. Whatever revelations came to me then have dissolved like skywriting. All I really know is that those few years saddled me with a faith in the redemptive potential of the imagination which, however flat, stale and unprofitable the world seems to me now, I cannot for the life of me shake. -Erik Davis
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OneMoreRobot3021
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Of course, words are all we have. So don't hold them back.
-------------------- Acid doesn't give you truths; it builds machines that push the envelope of perception. Whatever revelations came to me then have dissolved like skywriting. All I really know is that those few years saddled me with a faith in the redemptive potential of the imagination which, however flat, stale and unprofitable the world seems to me now, I cannot for the life of me shake. -Erik Davis
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It's clearly a Both/And situation! Your're right though, "I Love You, Mom" is perhaps one of the most Rich and Thick and Quality phrases EVER...That reminds me I'll go tell my mom I Love Her!
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That's sexy.
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OneMoreRobot3021
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When I think of all my mom has been through...I'm just amazed by her. I look at her and see her drinking vodka in the woods with her friends back in the USSR. Huddled in her basement with her friends around a radio, illegally listening to BBC broadcasts of the Beatles and dancing around to forget their troubles.
2 months in Italy waiting for a visa to America, eating free food provided by the Hari Krishnas...meeting my father...having 2 daughters...marriage falling apart...then I happen, an accident, and she decides to stay married because she's having a son. She raises me until I'm a young teenager...meanwhile my dad's just being terrible, sleeping with different people all the time, treating her like some sort of slave that needs to stay barefoot and pregnant in the kitchen...
Divorcing him...raising me the rest of the way on her own as my sisters went off to college. Supporting me when he wouldn't...she's just always there, and there are no strings attached. She's awesome. I'm typing all of this and she's just sitting there watching the news. It's weird, loving people.
-------------------- Acid doesn't give you truths; it builds machines that push the envelope of perception. Whatever revelations came to me then have dissolved like skywriting. All I really know is that those few years saddled me with a faith in the redemptive potential of the imagination which, however flat, stale and unprofitable the world seems to me now, I cannot for the life of me shake. -Erik Davis
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RandalFlagg
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Aww. My mom called me yesterday to sing me happy birthday over the phone. My mother is not a singer and I did cringe a little. But, it was sweet anyway.
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Digs
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Quote:
OneMoreRobot3021 said: Of course, words are all we have. So don't hold them back.
you didnt get my vibes?
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OneMoreRobot3021
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Re: It's weird, loving people [Re: RandalFlagg]
#7106643 - 06/29/07 09:55 AM (16 years, 8 months ago) |
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My mom says the same thing every birthday. "Happy Birthday, my dearest. Be happy. Be healthy. And be successful. Most importantly be happy."
-------------------- Acid doesn't give you truths; it builds machines that push the envelope of perception. Whatever revelations came to me then have dissolved like skywriting. All I really know is that those few years saddled me with a faith in the redemptive potential of the imagination which, however flat, stale and unprofitable the world seems to me now, I cannot for the life of me shake. -Erik Davis
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Digs
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Your mom's russian? cool~
dad's from here?
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OneMoreRobot3021
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Re: It's weird, loving people [Re: Digs]
#7106647 - 06/29/07 09:56 AM (16 years, 8 months ago) |
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Digs said:
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OneMoreRobot3021 said: Of course, words are all we have. So don't hold them back.
you didnt get my vibes?
I do believe feelings have an effect...but I believe words are magic, and the world we perceive is manifested by our cognizance of language...I believe language is the most magical thing in the world. It is the catalyst of our every feeling into concrete moments resonating through space and time. Never underestimate the power of a word. (But don't overestimate it, either.)
-------------------- Acid doesn't give you truths; it builds machines that push the envelope of perception. Whatever revelations came to me then have dissolved like skywriting. All I really know is that those few years saddled me with a faith in the redemptive potential of the imagination which, however flat, stale and unprofitable the world seems to me now, I cannot for the life of me shake. -Erik Davis
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OneMoreRobot3021
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Re: It's weird, loving people [Re: Digs]
#7106648 - 06/29/07 09:57 AM (16 years, 8 months ago) |
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My dad is from Estonia (but while it was part of the USSR)...but they met here, while waiting on line to get into a movie theater to see Ingmar Bergmann's The Seventh Seal. Heavy.
-------------------- Acid doesn't give you truths; it builds machines that push the envelope of perception. Whatever revelations came to me then have dissolved like skywriting. All I really know is that those few years saddled me with a faith in the redemptive potential of the imagination which, however flat, stale and unprofitable the world seems to me now, I cannot for the life of me shake. -Erik Davis
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RandalFlagg
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Why are dads such assholes sometimes?
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Digs
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lol heavy indeed.
words are so interesting
its funny, i feel they definitely compress our feelings
but maybe that's why they're one of the tools keeping us in the wheel of desire
also the use of them can help bring us out lol, but that's only because they're a vehicle of communication
/stoned ramble is fun~
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OneMoreRobot3021
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Re: It's weird, loving people [Re: RandalFlagg]
#7106658 - 06/29/07 10:00 AM (16 years, 8 months ago) |
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I don't know. But if you ever manage to get onto my dad's pedestal, please ask him. I don't think any of my magic words ever manage to stay together by the time they reach that altitude.
-------------------- Acid doesn't give you truths; it builds machines that push the envelope of perception. Whatever revelations came to me then have dissolved like skywriting. All I really know is that those few years saddled me with a faith in the redemptive potential of the imagination which, however flat, stale and unprofitable the world seems to me now, I cannot for the life of me shake. -Erik Davis
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Booby
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OneMoreRobot3021 said: My dad is from Estonia (but while it was part of the USSR)...but they met here, while waiting on line to get into a movie theater to see Ingmar Bergmann's The Seventh Seal. Heavy.
...And then they had you:
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implicitli
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Re: It's weird, loving people [Re: RandalFlagg]
#7106688 - 06/29/07 10:12 AM (16 years, 8 months ago) |
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RandalFlagg said: Why are dads such assholes sometimes?
Honestly. I recently told me dad that if he wanted to be in my life, he'd have to start treating me like someone he didn't really know. Because he doesn't really know, you know?
It was after he found the shroomery on his computer history.
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OneMoreRobot3021
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Re: It's weird, loving people [Re: implicitli]
#7106692 - 06/29/07 10:14 AM (16 years, 8 months ago) |
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I haven't spoken to my father in a little more than 9 months. I took a step back one day and thought, "If he was not my father, what would I think of this person?" The answer came quick - I'd want absolutely nothing to do with him. I don't believe that blood is thicker than water, just a lot harder to clean up.
-------------------- Acid doesn't give you truths; it builds machines that push the envelope of perception. Whatever revelations came to me then have dissolved like skywriting. All I really know is that those few years saddled me with a faith in the redemptive potential of the imagination which, however flat, stale and unprofitable the world seems to me now, I cannot for the life of me shake. -Erik Davis
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implicitli
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I've been thinking about it for a while, but I'm still so hurt that I would have to do it. Maybe you're stronger than me?
Hey, I know that you're at your mom's house, but do you happen to have a copy of 'This Must Be the Place' that you could upload? I'm making a playlist for work, and mine keeps skipping. Grrr.
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chemiKalz
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Re: It's weird, loving people [Re: implicitli]
#7106722 - 06/29/07 10:25 AM (16 years, 8 months ago) |
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you are thinking about your mom in strange ways
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implicitli
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Re: It's weird, loving people [Re: chemiKalz]
#7106727 - 06/29/07 10:27 AM (16 years, 8 months ago) |
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I love my mom. My dad, though, he can be less than lovely.
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