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fireworks_god
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I Am Very Happy
#6295310 - 11/17/06 09:00 PM (17 years, 4 months ago) |
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I honestly do not think that I have felt this good in a very long time. When I was coming down from my 'cid trip last week, I found myself in a comfortable state of being, right after the merged sub/conscious experience of my DNA's casting my existance aside, when it realized that I had not passed along my genetic material to another human being and that I was now going to meet my end in a final moment of oblivion catastrophe abyss suffocation. I could hear airplanes in the distance, presumably bombing the last edges of the planet. This one craft, which had both the vibe of being a military/government craft and an alien one was hovering over, and I had a flash of the greys, and the weird thing was that, even then, I was able to accept it. In the end, I had accepted my own death, not because of feelings of being uncomfortable or in pain, or of trying to avoid fear.
This week has been a very good week for me. I've been finding a renewed sense of being within me, and I feel great with the opportunities I find present, even as I find myself afraid of failure. Tonight has really helped me consciously work with my understanding and these realizations - much integration. I am presently enjoying my two days off from work before a nosedive into the Christmas season, which emotionally offers me nothing, but proposes an opportunity for myself to better myself and to become more aware of the nature of reality by actively participating in the accompanying phenomenon.
I am an individual who was, at one point, "brought up as" a Lutheran, although I found no real meaning in it and thus held no interest in it. The concept of Christ consciousness is one that makes sense to me, however, and perhaps it is a consciousness that the Christian religion attempts to encapsulate, quite like all religions or spiritual organizations (by which I mean an affliation of associated texts, information, practices, individuals, states of being, whatever meme's you want to throw in there that seem to cohere, to mesh together, of course).
Clearly, Christmas is the time when Christ consciousness sneaks in the back door - we become aware of feeling a bit more, perhaps? The way it is an effect of what we call family relating to each other, when there are no other preoccupations to interfere?
Of course, many do get caught up in the preoccupations, but the intent and the experience are still there.
What just happened there, I think, is that I was reflecting on the advantages that my career bestows upon myself, for development of myself and my ability to navigate reality, and then the beam of awareness naturally led to how others benefit.
A symbiotic relationship seems intriguing to me, as the thought occurs that a state occurs through the relationship of one thing to the other, that one's existance relies upon the other. What benefits one benefits all.
I think now that the identity that I became associated with by the fact that I am living and thus carry with me an insatiable drive of life wanting to continue living (hey, its one hell of an experience) has been crucified by the greys, alien beings being the thing I could be most afraid of, I am finding that the universe's natural state of being is benevolent, which seems to be a word that is full of intelligence.
I appreciate the notion that I am witnessing other forms of life and their lively systems they create become more conscious of other aspects of reality. One moment from which now a clarity of vision has sprung forth from I shared with you last night (I wanted to stir up some discussion to get the thought processes flowing, since that is how we become aware). For instance, my company is becoming more aware of the crucial element in the company, those human beings who manage and contribute to the interface by which my company survives. I sense that it is an awareness that was once inherent within the system and was almost lost when the biological element of the equation passed on, leaving only the structure of its influence, which could've easily dissolved without more awareness to sustain it. More interaction is starting to occur, more communication, dialogue, feedback, a consensual sense of how aspects of the company are perceiving reality in order to gain an understanding of reality, so that we can act accordingly for our own success. As is the nature of symbiotic relationships, what is good for oneself is good for everyone, as oneself invariably associates with others.
The retail industry is certainly an intriguing vantage point from which to observe this species and its nature.
Projections for the future based upon the relationship of the past with what is occuring now to provide for what is occuring right now. Its a model of reality that just might work, and reality is good for business.
One note that I was contemplating earlier and that almost didn't get expresed is that, when I was coming down and was just sitting in my mushroom chair with no sense of what I should be doing, I interacted with my roommate while she was talking with a friend online, and the experience brought forth recollections of the experience of interacting with my grandmother, who I sense spent a lot of time engaging me with interaction. The state of being which results from immersing myself in those feelings feels like fertile soil. I also sensed a lack of that experience in my soulmate and had genuine feelings of wanting to share that feeling with her, to provide that experience. This week and the weekend which preceded it have been most welcome.
-------------------- If I should die this very moment I wouldn't fear For I've never known completeness Like being here Wrapped in the warmth of you Loving every breath of you
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Icelander
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Is this some kind of a ruse to get us to buy all our Xmas shit at Wal-Mart.
-------------------- "Don't believe everything you think". -Anom. " All that lives was born to die"-Anom. With much wisdom comes much sorrow, The more knowledge, the more grief. Ecclesiastes circa 350 BC
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Re: I Am Very Happy [Re: Icelander]
#6295387 - 11/17/06 09:27 PM (17 years, 4 months ago) |
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Will you be assimilated?
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Re: I Am Very Happy [Re: Icelander]
#6295397 - 11/17/06 09:31 PM (17 years, 4 months ago) |
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I think it's a ruse to get people to fill out employment applications at Walmart.
Come work for us and you'll be HAAAAAAPPY! Always Low Prices!
Psssst, I wonder how much he got paid by them for making this post
Seriously, that was an enjoyable read FG. Glad things are bright in your world!
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fireworks_god
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A striking photograph, yet I have the feeling that Christ is within Christmas, and it is no effort of ours that will keep Christ within Christmas.
On a side note, I am now painfully aware of the fact that no one imports Julebrus into America, and I need to contact those who may willing to trade. I remember a time when Gomp was contacting companies about it for me - any developments on the Julebrus piece, Gomp?
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slaphappy
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hahahaha, I'm drinking julebrus as we speak! ;D
Good on you, Fireworks! Enjoy yourself. Pass it on!
Peace
Edit: BTW its ANTI-CHRIST-MAS. (If your norwegian you'll get the "MAS" part as well, if not: look it up.)
-------------------- The argent messenger of truth beyond truth, the antithesis of life, cruel and bleak as interstellar space, pulseless and frozen as absolute zero, dazzling with the frost of irrefragable logic and unforgettable fact.
Edited by slaphappy (11/18/06 06:00 AM)
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LunarEclipse
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Re: I Am Very Happy *DELETED* [Re: slaphappy]
#6296351 - 11/18/06 08:36 AM (17 years, 4 months ago) |
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Post deleted by LunarEclipseReason for deletion: walmartsux
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Gomp
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lol
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Gomp
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I could go again this year!
They got this insane good one, that is more brown than read...
PM me for details.
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fireworks_god
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Quote:
LunarEclipse said: You can bet the Chinese do a little celebrating as well...
The Chinese live it up over there.
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fireworks_god
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I'm too broke right now to arrange Julebrus transfers.
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Post deleted by LunarEclipseReason for deletion: walmartsux
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fireworks_god
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Stupid Mongolians!
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Quote:
fireworks_god said:
What happened to your old sig?
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Re: I Am Very Happy [Re: Basilides]
#6299092 - 11/19/06 10:27 AM (17 years, 4 months ago) |
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Aggressive competition.
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slaphappy
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I'm not buying shit for anyone during christmas.
On pure attitude I'll start buying shit to people all year round and be a complete asshole during christmas, stealing shit from people and telling them to fuck off until the holidays are over.
"Fuck christmas, and a shabby new gregorian work-year, you brainwashed little rat." During christmas.
"Happy Universary, and a greeting from me to you!" the rest of the year.
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Re: I Am Very Happy [Re: slaphappy]
#6303716 - 11/20/06 06:35 PM (17 years, 4 months ago) |
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Ja, men jul egentlig har betydning i Norge.
Julebrus!
And, yeah, my Norwegian fucking sucks. I had to look up two of those words, and I have no sense of proper grammar or sentence construction.
-------------------- If I should die this very moment I wouldn't fear For I've never known completeness Like being here Wrapped in the warmth of you Loving every breath of you
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