Posted by rupertboy (11/22/11 10:45 AM)
Did a trip on my own somewhere between the lower end of  level 3 and 4. Was not very "spiritually rewarding". The initial idea was to lie still throughout the experience and observe my mind. Go with the trip and just observe fears and what not, and thereby not "loosing it".
I guess I did loose it. I was quite confused, would at some point not know if  I was on a drug or not and was too restless to lie still. In the end I think  it would be a good idea to have another person nearby as a reference point of what every day reality is. Having them in the house to be able to call them and pat you on the back, telling you that those are your legs and not part of the sofa, could help you concentrate on more important things.
Posted by blackstatis (05/15/09 03:09 PM)
i had an experience where i made mushroom tea out of about 1/8th of mushroom dust.  tripped by myself and found it to be an intense personal journey.  i have tripped many times before and know my body and mind quite well by this point in my life.  this was the first time i had tripped through the entire process alone however.  i have always liked giving myself a little alone time when i would trip with friends, just to get the personal mind journey for a moment.  this time, start to finish alone, was intense.  i was in a pleasant mood the whole time, but note that you are your biggest critique, when it comes to personal judgement.  you alone know EVERYTHING about you.  having an understanding of that, i ended up putting myself through a moral and spiritual "ringer".  i would not suggest a beginner or intermediate tripper to try this.  i would also not advise this for anyone with any deep regrets or "sins" you may not have come to terms with.  as a side note, i once had a friend ask me to kill him during a trip.  he felt bad for something he did a while back and his judgement was now surfacing and he felt that was his rightful punishment... i didn't do as he asked, instead i left.  but it goes to show you that this experience is not to be taken for granted.  respect this ceremony, because it is a gateway for enlightenment and personal progress.