Posted by
Minhoca
(05/11/22 08:45 AM)
Hey!
Thank you for posting this. I also, after many amazing trips, had a trip like this, and then again one more. These last two trips have left me very confused and ungrounded. It made me go in circles in my head for months after the trips. And I honestly still sometimes have problems with it (almost a year later).
So sadly I can't help you too much.
But I can tell you what I've learned so far on how to deal with it. This is of course all coming from my own experience and what I discovered helps me, but it might be very different for you, so take it with a grain of salt.
First of all: don't engage on meaningless loops in your mind. Mine I was convinced of certain things (the death-reincarnation thing you mentioned) during my trip, and even afterwards I had my doubts. So I just kept tracing what would be the "truth" or whether everything in life is actually just a conviction of yourself. Just the basic questioning reality and existence kind of things. Which I have done before in my life, and at those times it gave me great insights, but now it just made me depressed and anxious.
So don't engage those thoughts, because they won't bring you anywhere in my experience. It's like trying to figure out the secret of life on your own. You probably can't.
Secondly comes the part where you have to trust. Meditate, talk to your higher self and feel the truth. In moments of anxiety I can get carried away with "what if" things about life. But when I truly ask my higher self for help, I get calm and realize I just have to let go, I have to trust. Of course you can choose to not-trust, but you'll only make it hard for yourself. Focus on things you want your life filled with.
Thirdly I would say to do grounding exercises. To get out of your head and into this life again. Because whether it's all an illusion or not, you are still here in this moment.
And last but not least, don't trip again until you have overcome this. For me this was a mistake I made after my first confusing/uncomfortable trip. I thought "ah, a second trip will fix this", it didn't. It made the convictions stronger and I was less here than I already was before. I also became way more anxious since then (although anxiety has been my companion for my entire life so don't worry about this because it might not be the case for you). I'm not saying to not trip ever again, but if you're still with your mind on the things you experienced during this trip, you will probably get that same experience next time if you haven't overcome it.
Let me know how you're doing :) All the best of luck on this strange but exciting journey!
Posted by
PGwojowski
(05/31/21 04:23 AM)
Hey! I%u2019ve had similar experiences, as have many others. My mom passed away from cancer about 7 years ago. About 2 years ago I ate about 3.5G of some very very potent Amazonian cubensis. Completely shattered my reality, died, rose up into diamond light, came back down not knowing who I was, and then came to as my mom. It was as if I had completely felt the longevity of both our lives connected, from the 1950s all of the way to 2019. From there my own self started to come to being, and I had a lot of gratitude and awe by the entire experience, both of the trip and the wonder and mystery of life, death, and resurrection in general. Thanks for sharing your story, I loved reading it!