You know many people argue psychedelics help us recognize facts that we choose not to deal with or postpone to deal with. It makes you to talk to yourself brutally honest. What is you and what is not you is defined by you. We don't realize but we do create reality we are living in. You can choose to be many things a race a sex a human an animal an earthling, earth, space, time, everything / nothing. We create meaning and by doing so we become meaningful. I am happy for you to realize a better path to be.  Take Care and enjoy the ride my friend.

I really want to have an experience like this and explore myself but I can never bring myself to take a dose big enough.
Happy for you man.

You Should Read The Tibetan Book of Living and Dying

Good for you bro!

its the realization of the fact that i was going through the motions, like a drone and doing stuff that everyone else does just because. People worry too much about what is right for the future or the long term and forget about the present and why they are doing what they are doing now. Like i said, i play basketball overseas, i didn't worry about the future because i was finally doing something that i cared about in basketball. You either listen to the experience, or shrug it off as some something you just got fucked up on, i made a move.

Shit man. To me that sounds like a bit of a rash decision, handing in a full scholarship and all because of something you realized on shrooms (10gs of shrooms at that lol). Just sayin', i've made a few decisions that seemed like the right thing to do after a trip but later realized that in the long term they weren't the best.