felt like i could understand what you mean specially about self identity loss. its very scary but got me so curious now.

I just creamed my pants listening to that

It really depends on the person. I would recommend an experience like this to many many people. Not really everybody. If you've been contemplating it for a few months, then I would say to make sure you're really ready for it before you do it. Dont force yourself into it. I didnt intend on having this kind of experience on my second trip, but i've always knew that I really wanted it and that it would happen sooner or later. Im very happy with the outcome of the whole "bad" trip that I had. I think 9 times out of 10 a bad trip is beneficial to most people. You will learn a lot. I can promise that.

regardless of how terrifying it will be, or maybe it wont be at all, would yo still recommend a similar experience to anyone? i've been contemplating a level 5 experience for the past few months, because i feel it will heal me in a way, but im just too worried to actually get to it...

That was beautiful man.

Reminds me of my own first trip where I took way too much.  You've put a lot of stuff into perspective for me.   Thank you.

then there follows a lot of life changing events, some will be very life changing - and old emotions you might have repressed you have to real with

it isn't only bliss, but you realize it has a purpose, because it no longer suits you

nothing is without purpose
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the best explanation would be that you die

near death experience, death,  rebirth

the old you is gone, because the old you were likely a virtual you(ego)

everybody that knows you knows you by the virtual you likely, so they will notice you have changed a lot

but doesn't matter if you changed to the real you, the real you that is happy everyday

you are never the same as the one you were before you went in, but you might find an older self that you had forgotten(happiness everyday)..

you only know with yourself if you want to do it, I don't regret, wish I had done it many years earlier

many people have experienced it, albert hofmann, john lennon i.e.
if you don't fear you will come out fine

after egodeath the world is new, yourself is new, nature is new, like the first time you saw everytihng
bliss

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should have done it 10-15 years ago

the way I try to stay with it is to realize that I am the same as everyone else, no better, no worse

see that one is not unique, the same as everybody else

and help others, because helping/giving is better than receiving

treat others like yourself for they are yourself

walking/sitting in nature, houseplants,pets help me stay with it too
infinite happiness from each of those

for me it ment reconnecting with my inner being/true self

not the virtual self I had built through my life, which I was sure I was

then I remembered who I really was, reborn, like a child again

and remembering that reality is divine and one is a divine being too, everything is spiritual in nature

others might interpret it differently... but I remembered my true nature(the small things that give happiness) and have been happy ever since that day

I'm interested what does it mean to lose your ego? Can you explain?

peace :-)

great report!  I love hearing/reading when people eat shrooms and realize there's more to them than just "getting high" or "tripping" :)

You did a great job at describing your experience. I can relate to the 'alien' type feeling after glancing at oneself, as well as the complete loss of identity and purpose. I've noticed similar feelings when consuming a high dose on an empty stomach as well. I must say, I really enjoyed reading this. Thank you for sharing your trip.

Very descriptive. Great report!