1st trip, damn amazing

Well, I finally got my hands on some shrooms (unknown strain), and last night I weighed out a half-eighth (a sixteenth) for my first time, since I have never done any psychedelic, and I was tripping alone.  I ate them around 12 AM and washed them down with orange juice.  The taste and texture were objectionable, but I've had far worse.

I sat on the couch and watched TV.  Forty-five minutes later, I still wasn't feeling much more than a slight buzz.  I figured I hadn't dosed enough and probably should have just taken an eighth.  I was watching the Science channel -- I love watching the educational channels while high -- and there was a program on about Stephen Hawking.  Around the end of the program I started to feel some effects come on.  I become intensely engrossed in the show as it ended.

The next program on was similar, except instead of being about Stephen Hawking it went through four major physicists throughout history -- Galileo, Newton, Einstein, and Hawking.  I peaked throughout the hour long program.  The trip was a lot more dreamy and a lot more emotional than I imagined it would be.  I thought the trip would be more like watching some extremely amusing show, but it was much more profound than that.

Because of the dose I took, I didn't do much in the way of hallucinating.  Some of the patterns and effects on the TV would be exaggerated or morph and ripple slightly, but other than those subtle effects I did not have any visions.  The main effect that seemed especially amazing was a kind of gentle undulating motion, like a field of grain moving in the breeze.  This was not so much a visual effect as an imagined implication, a kind of rhythm of perception.

The program itself was amazing to watch.  Everything, including the room around me, resolved into crystal.  That's the only way I can think of how to describe it.  Everything became holy and amazingly beautiful, and I felt an overwhelming sense of awe and humility.  Throughout this my eyes had been watering quite a bit, not for any particular reason.  At some point, I might have been crying.

I felt as I had a complete emotional investment in the descriptions of the great men profiled in the program.  Their lives as described by the narrator became immensely important and profound, and the implications of their work, needless to say, gelled very well with my mindset.  I became struck by the sacrifices of such great minds for the sake of knowledge and understanding.  The pictures and images on the program were as if frozen in time.  Every so often, I would laugh at my own expense.

I continued to peak as the program "How It's Made" came on.  For some reason, this was the trippiest thing ever.  I guess all the liquids, machines, bubbling, steam, and other things made it fun to watch.

An hour later, Carl Sagan's Cosmos came on.  The familiar opening sequence appeared on the screen, and I felt a strong feeling of "coming home."  During this program, I started to come down.  I tried eating something, but found it unpleasant.  Ripping up the paper wrapping of a candy bar seemed especially amusing, however.  I ended up with a huge pile of ripped up paper, which I put in my empty orange juice glass.  It looked like some kind of sculpture.

By this time it was 4 AM and I was pretty tired.  I went upstairs to go to bed, but found it difficult to fall asleep for what was probably about an hour.  My mind was racing and I found it difficult to keep still.  Patterned or rhythmic movement seems very natural and enjoyable throughout my entire trip.  Eventually I dosed off.  I woke up this morning feeling a bit hung over, though not unpleasantly.

All in all, I was fairly surprised by the nature of the trip.  I expected it to have a kind of ugly/beautiful dichotomy, and expecting having to keep myself from having a bad trip.  Instead, I found it totally pure and pristine.  Though it undoubtedly has a lot to do with dosage, given the nature of this trip, I find it hard to imagine how one could have a bad trip.  I also found it far more emotional than I expected.  Not being an emotional person, this was particularly pronounced.  The spiritual nature of the trip seemed inherent in the experience.

I look forward to tripping in the future with a higher dosage.