Scared insane

It was mty first time tripping and my boyfriend and I
chilled out all day just appreciating the awesome trip
we were having, we couldnt imagine having a bad trip.
About an hour after we started to come down some
other friends came over and brought a quarter of pot. I
took a few bong rips not thinking twice about it. A few
minutes later I realized I couldn't tell if I was breathing
or not. I would stop breathing for a minute but feel like I
still was emmitting oxygen into my lungs. I started to
freak out a little bit because I felt ny trip coming back,
but it was more than I could handle. I thought I forgot
how to breathe, so I sat down and tried to get myself
together. A few seconds later my head felt like an anvil
was dropped on it and everything was fading to black. I
told my boyfriend I thought I was dying and then I
couldnt recognize him any more, I felt like I knew he ws
okay but I couldnt tell what was real anymore, for a
minute I thought he was my brother,and then I didnt
know him. i felt like my brain wouldnt function at all, I
couldnt think. Everything was black and I ws getting
very sharp pains in my head. Another friend came over
and kept asking if I ws okay,I remember not being able
to trnslate what he was saying. I went to lie in another
room, and remember just saying I KNOW that if
someone was to die THIS is what it would feel like. I
paniced. I then got into this funk where I felt like I was
trapped inside my head, I didnt know what reality was
and I was on the brink of conciousness. I felt like I
forgot how to percieve things. I would look at my
boyfriends face and one side would be bigger than the
other, like some fucked Picasso, I could hear him
talking but his deranged face would stay in the same
expression. I was very scared and thought that if I didnt
keep moving I would slip permanantly into the state of
insanity. i put my hands up to my face and I felt like I
could see them through the skin on my face, they
looked miles away. My head was like a huge
ampi-theater, and my perception was fucked. i curled
into a little ball and started shaking violently, I didnt
know if I should go to the hospital or not, because my
boyfriend kept asking. After about an hour I started to
come down. I felt like I needed to describe what I
hadjust experienced, but nobody really got it. My
original trip was amazing and mind opening, but my
second episode was a little too much for my first trip.