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This experience happened one day after school in grade eleven. My older brother had just returned from college and with him he had brought 20 freshly picked mushrooms. That night i ate 8. At first it wasnt too bad, thigns started moving and i was becoming very contemplative, when suddenly i realized that i had been living my life as a sinner, and that god would find me unworthy. I ran outside of my house with a knife, it was raining so i couldnt see anything and my aers were killing me. I began to think that the rain was a sin, and that by listening to it i was deviating from the path of purity. I began to cut off my ear, and finally did, but i soon passed out. I woke up, 1 week later at the hospital, without any fingers on my left hand and was missing my left ear. I now suffer from mild schizophrenia. My brother having ingested 12 mushrooms had a psychotic attack, and is now currently taking heavy doses of medication and suffers from full out paranoia.