bad trip to a whole new level

ok me and my friends have been wanting to try acid for a while now and we finally got a hold of some,from my friends sister she pulled out an eye dropper and put 1 drop on each of 5 sweet tarts...we later got back to my friend ryans house which we stayed at that night...me an my friend michael took 1 sweet tart at first but we were having doubts if it was real or not so we took another 1 which was a bad mistake. So about 30 minutes after taking the acid we start to feel it,everything is going fine for me until we start watching tv and i can almost swear to my life that satan came on the tv i asked myself if i was having a bad trip i soon decided that i was because i wanted to get away from everything i told my friend i was having a ba trip but they didnt understand becuse i was the only one who has tried shrooms before. I was trying my hardest to get out of ryans room but they wouldnt let me go for fear of getting in trouble which made it worse i think i could have talked myself out of the bad trip if they would have let me go outside by myself..but they wouldnt they just kept grabbing at me and telling me to sit down in the corner..im not sure what happened after that but i know that his mom sumhow found out and i had no sense of reality at all i didnt even know how to close my eyes i was trying to sleep i didnt even know how to take acid or smoke weed or sleep. I was scared for my life and everything was goin as bad as possible i was talking to ryans sister and i wanted to throw up but i didnt know how..so she had to walk me through the steps on how to gag myself...and it didnt help at all and i just wanted to be sober i was about to call poison control or the hospital or sumthing because i thought they could help. But i just couldnt get myself to operate a phone correctly. About 3 hours later my trip would have been good if none of that stuff had happened and michael was completely out of it he pissed on ryans living room floor and i cant even explain how out of body i was..............later when i got home i was seriously thinking about commiting suicide because i felt so bad for ryan and his mom and his sister and i couldnt believe i was actually considering sucide..so i am now getting counsiling...AND I WOULD NEVER RECOMEND ACID TO ANYONE i might quit drugs in all even smoking weed just because of acid and you might take your own life because of it..i almost did