As It All Starts To Melt...

It was a saturday night and I had just got off work. It was 12:30am when I got home and started perparing for my trip. Had a bottle of pinnapple orange juice, A huge bottle of water and 18 grams of mix strains (Sa, PES Haw,EQ,Malabar). I was excited as this would be my largest dose ever taken. I ground the mushrooms little by little with my coffee grinder and put it in the jar. Added the oj, shook it and downed it. I sat in my favorite chair and played on my laptop talking to my Girlfriend and a couple friends. By that time it was around 1am. Starting geting shakey by 1:15 with little or no sickness at that point. Then by 1:30 By stomach was acting up and I needed to use the wash room. As I walked in the bathroom it hit me. I sat on the toilet with my head on the wall, Laughing. No more sickness, No more anything. I got up and looked in the mirror. first thing I thought to myself was, "This is gonna be a great trip, Im already getting great visuals!". I went back down stairs and sparked a square. I remembered I made a trade for a bad ass light up pen and went to get it. It was getting very intense. The Colors were so amazing it was astounding. Everything was getting overly crazy. Time had no place at this time. I couldnt tell you if my life depended on it. I needed to go outside. I was getting very nervouse but i've always remained came in past trips. When i got outside I was fine. Just watching the colors Building a decaying and growing and shrinking. the colors were outrageous. I started walking around in my back yard feeling great, It had to be like 3~4ish when i crashed. I cant tell u what happened but the trip was going great then BAM it was ripped from my eye sockets. I started crying for some reason and went inside immediatly. I needed to call my
friend. We talked For a little while, We think it was the OJ. But theres no telling. When i hung up the phone my mind went nuts. All i rememeber is flashes in my mind. of blood and of demons and of pure evil. It was like a spiritual attack against me. Like there was something very bad inside me and wanted out. I remember laying on my tile infront of the fireplace battling this think inside me. In the process i destroyed my 240.00 dollar pair of glass's. I was losing the battle and i new it. In my frezy I destroyed my Fruiting chamber. Crumbled and crushed the casings and cakes with my hands. The cakes and casings that i cared so much about. Detroying everything. And laughing about it while it was happening. At that point i thought i was insane and i would remain that way the rest of my life. More flashes of blood and evil. I believe at some point i pissed on my floor in my room. but i couldnt tell u where. I was scared. I Just laid there until i had some sence about me. I ran upstairs and jumped in the bath. I just sat there letting the water run down me. Morse flashes but they were lessening. It was around 6 when i got out and didnt even dry myself. I was still really out of it. Couldnt see a dame thing. I decided to get back on my computer. I logged on to recieve a e-mail from my g/f which read exactly "you really hurt/upset me last night.... and then I couldnt get a hold of you" I IMed her to ask what the hell i said to her and she told me we had been talking on the phone and i was rambling non-sence. then she told me all the sudden I said something like "This is all stupid.... No one likes the way u act... We all hate you." I couldnt rememeber saying anything like that. nor would i ever want to say that to the mother of my unborn child. I was not myself. It was the scaryest experience I have ever had with mushrooms or acid. My goal was to work up to a full 28 gram trip but now I dont think i want to do such a thing. I dont suggest anyone with a weak mind/soul do such a harsh dose like I have. It's a devistation to the world you live in...

~LiL KuSsH~

So much happened that night but I cant seem to rememeber most of it... Which might be a good thing...