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ive been reading this page for the past 2 years and always wanted to write a trip report but never knew which one to write about....ill give a quick backround...i have been interested in psychedelics since i was very young (i didnt try them until i was out of highschool and sort of understood who i was)...im very into music and spirituallity and think they are closely related...the trip im goin to describe is probably the single most life changing event that has occured to me to this point...i was in my second semeser of college when i moved back to my home state of jersey with a few of my friends...in high school i shyed away from drugs because i saw what effect they had on some people and had a very happy life with out them...but one of my philosophies is that life is experiance....so with the encouragement and help from a few friends i opened up my mind to the world of magic mushrooms...so lets get to the trip...
i had eaten many mushrooms (over 30 times)ranging in doses of half and 1/8 to a 1/4....a few times loosing myself with a total lose of ego, sense of time, space and reality...so i thought i could surly eat the 5 grams without TOO much craziness....i found it easy to put my mushrooms in a blender with a special type of nantucket nectur...it was more of a thicker drink and really covered up the taste well...it was about 5 o'clock pm when me and my friends decided to eat our stash...i blended up my potion and thought about drinkin half and saving the other half for later...my friends talked me into drinkin it all because one friend would be eating an 1/8 while another would eat half with a pill of extacy...we ate/drank our sacraments and decided to make a trip to the river to watch the sun set...it really looks beautiful as the sun sets into the skyline of Philly...we had a few friends who were sober drive us down there because i dont recomend driving on mushrooms or any other psychedelic...its for the safty of not only yourself but others...enough preaching from me....
10 minutes went by and i already started to get a body trip...this usually takes me 30-40 minutes but it happened so quickly because of way i digested it...this got me a little nervous but i was able to calm myslef...next i noticed that my palms were very sweaty and i was the grass by the river was intertwining all within 15 minutes of dosing...this caught me off guard...i started to get the loop of thoughts and confused and crossed senses...my friends who came up in the other car were all speaking pretty much jibberish...i couldnt belive it had only been 20 minutes...they didnt even start to get the light/stoney feeling yet...so i knew i was over my head so i took a short walk by myself down the river...the sunset was INCREDIBLE...the pinks were neon...the sky looked like a magnificiant neon painting with a huge 3D effect...my brain would go in and out of being able to understand what was goin on...i finally felt good enough to talk to my friends so i started to walk back to them...
i noticed my pants were loose so i had to retie them..i had on drawstring pants and i had my back turned...one of my friends decided it was funny to yell "hey look everyone, hes playing with himself"...i thought that they all really believed him so i stumbled through some sentences trying to explain i was just tying my pants...they were starting to feel the effects so they were laughing really, really hard and not paying much attention to me...i felt like my friends had turned on my so i went back and sat in my car...
for some reason i believe i could sleep it off...i closed my eyes to only get the most intense visuals...i would look at a house with all the trees and they would be moving and morphing all around...then i would close my eyes and they would take new colors and form totally new shapes...i knew i couldnt sit in this car by myself so i gave one of my friends (a sober one) my keys and my wallet...i asked him to drive me around and if he needed gas or food to just use my money...the one rule was to not go anywhere where i may see someone i would know or have to talk to...i lived in a small town and my grandparents lived in the same town...it was also almost certin you would see a friends parent or a parents friend stopping at a 7-11 or Wawa...while he was driving me around his speech was impossible to follow...
everything was cartoon and technicolor (you know the crazy movies that were once black and white but redone in color)...i was in my own world...a sentence from my friend would seem like this "hey man, brown cheese melt for desk mom dog"...so i would just say "huh" and take a deep breath...my friend asked if i knew where we were and i said no...thats when i really lost it...he pointed out that we were write near my house...some where i spent 10 years....at that point i stopped trying to calm the trip and i just let the mushrooms take over...
for me mushrooms go in sort of a roller coaster fasion with a peak and a down time and another peak and a down time...well the down time felt like a peak and the peak was an experiance that i cant explain...i felt like my soul had left my body and i was a "mind" floating in space...my body was just some vehichle to get me around...it was easily disguarded and didnt really mean much in "reality" but i had no clue of what "reality" was at that point...but i may have been the closest i have ever been?...i finally felt good enough to go back home...home was a place where me and 2 friends lived and that meant it had a constant flow of people, most of who i liked...i thought i could pretend to be a sleep and my friend would just leave me there...thats how out of it i was...my friend told me we were home...fate had it that my other tripping partners showed up at the same time...those sort of things only seem to happen when your trippin =)
well my friend asked if i was alright and i could only mumble "i think i ate too much"...he asked if he could help in any way but i told him i needed to do some "soul searching" i made it upstairs...very clumsily i might add...i took off my shoes and pressed play and repeat on my stereo cause i knew i was in for some more craziness....it was my favorite cd at that time...Keller Williams "Spun" (an appropiat title)...if you havnt check him out PLEASE do yourself a favor and give him a listen...he plays a 10 string acousic with amazin results....
well i could even follow my favorite cd...as i laid in my bed i felt my mind expand to infinite...thats the best way to explain it...i saw many things from my past...this is the part it get crazy (thanks for readin this far =)
i felt like i had died...i seriously believed it...i first felt sorrow for my family and what would my family think...then i felt complete bliss as i relalized i didnt have to put up with the fakeness of the mortal world..every time i eat mushroom i seem to be able to see everyones fakeness...well i spent alot of time thinking about my mom and sister who i havnt seen in a while...i also spent alot of time thinking about my future and noticed how i wasnt goin anywhere with what i was doin...i was slowly drifting back to realtiy when i knew what i had to do...i had to go back home to my family and help them out (the house was sort of in financial stress) and do good in school...it has been one of the best decisions i have made in my time so far and i have to thank the magical powers of those mushrooms...i have to thank you soooo much for taking the time and i hope it was worth it...my main tip is just "surrender to the flow"....it will make the trip much easier...
Peace and Smiles,
Granola