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Trip to heaven

Ive written a couple other reports on this site, only level three though.



Ive written a couple other reports on this site, only level
three though. ive only been using psychedellics for
about a month now. Ive done acid one time (two days
ago), and mushrooms 4 other times. My last
mushroom trip, last weekend, was a bad trip.

Last night, i was home, realized that nothing was going
to happen with any of my friends, and the thought
crossed my mind that i might want to trip on my own
again. I knew that i had access to nature: behind my
backyard is a bit of a forest. i knew i had access to all
of my music and movies: i was in my room. And i knew
i had access to my computer to communicate if
possible and to turn on the cool music visualizer i just
got. As far as i was concerned, i couldnt have asked
cor anything else in the world to make me more content
and happy.

I took out the 1/8 bag of shrooms that i had, laid down
in my bed with my laptop in my lap, and slowly started
to eat them. I had eaten nothing that day, and i eat my
shrooms plain. I have actually somewhat begun to like
the taste, amazingly enough. I had taken a low doze
xanax earlier to counteract the anxiousness i get when i
trip. I knew that i wanted to sit still, and i needed to not
be anxious to achieve that goal. It worked flawlessly
with one other interesting effect, i couldnt feel the trip
coming on. I began to wonder if anything was going to
happen when things started getting a little weird.

I was talking to two of my friends only, and having just
finished my 1/8 bag of very good, carefully dried P.
cubensis, i proceeded to tell one that i did the
mushrooms, she said ok. To the other i said:

Do you remember the moment when you realized that
the future is fake and that nothing but this very moment
is real?

He replied: No, i dont remember, not sure if i ever had
that realization.

At that point, i start forgetting things. I know that i
signed offline after some period of time. Put tool in the
stereo (apparently im the only person around, that i
know of, that can listen to tool no matter how hard im
tripping, especially on acid), hit repeat, and proceeded
to turn on the music visualizer on my computer. It is an
amazing program, creating the most beautiful colors
and patterns. I became lost in it several times.

I put on the Dark City dvd, put the computer at the foot of
the bed, turned up the tool, and and got into the most
comfortable laying position i think i had ever been in. I
was taking in the movie and listening to the music. It
was fabulous.

Suddenly, the telephone rang. It was my business
partner, and man who is like a brother, D. We had
recently had an argument on the day after my bad trip,
where i was more depressed and hopeless than i had
ever been. I got upset, withdrew, and he called me a
loser. I hadnt talked to him since. I was beginning to
really trip, and i talked to him and made up. We finally
realized that our relationship is like a brother, not a
friend. I felt so much love and was so grateful to have
him in my life at that point.

I then decided to go get a few more shrooms from a
bag of 1/4 ounce that i had in the freezer. I grabbed
about 4 of them, and went back to my room. I ate them
over the next 20 minutes and things quickly faded to
black.


My next impulse was to close my eyes....suddenly,
everything vanished, and the strangeness started.


From this point on, everything i think is just the physical
and symbolic interpretation that i have forced myself to
make to be able to understand what happened. There
are no words that the imagination could even
comprehend that would hold a candle to a lousy
explaination of what happened. Please understand
that everything was on a level of magnitude much
greater than what i can say here.

I dont know how long this took, but suddenly i was in a
different place. I was walking when suddenly i found
myself embraced by a man who said he was my father.
he was weeping with joy. All of his feelings filtered into
me. I felt what it was like to have infinite love and infiite
joy. I was finally home. I began to cry, for love, for joy,
for sadness for being gone.....it was powerful.

He began to teach me, question my assumptions,
expanding my consciousness. At one point, he just
laughed and opened a door which contained, to the
best of my vocabulary skills...enlightenment. Suddenly i
understood everything...it was filled wtih the greatest
level of exstasy possible. As quickly as i knew it, it was
gone...but the impression lingers....and i thank
everything for that.

I suddenly came to normal consciousness. I felt
extremely drunk and disoriented, and didnt feel like i
was really tripping. I was looking for visuals, but wasnt
really seeing any...thingswere just blurry. I somehow
got online and my friend mike was online. Apparently i
conversed with him and said:

i just cried with my father and he loved me

m said, what did your dad say?

i said: what are you talking about?

I dont know what to really make of that.

Something very important happened there.....

I drifted back off and found myself in another place. I
have no way to describe it other than i was just there. I
began to consciously think about things there and
question it.

As quickly as i went there, i left and was thrust into
another reality. I lived there for a while, and eventually
was brought somewhere else. I could have lived for
1000 years as 1000 souls in 1000 worlds, or i could
never have been...its impossible to say. I just had a
sense of knowing. Each time i would change levels it
would be like waking up from sleep. I would be fully
aware, exist, have an environment, but nothing was
quite right.

Eventually, i came back to the real world. Each of these
trips lasted about 2 hours. I never felt fear or
anxiousness.

When i was first going under the spell of the
mushrooms, i actually said: now i understand the
mushroom.

The key to the mushroom experience is realizing that
they put you in total touch with the unconscious and
your feelings. Acid focus more on thought processes.
This is a much more powerful experience overall...

This has changed my life.

I have been spending the past day writing and drawing
for the first time since i was 13. I drew 15 pictures.
Some of them ended up being really good....

Here is a poem type thing that i wrote:

And I came unto him
who welcomed me
with weeping arms
and endless joy.
Eternal love
Devoid of betrayal,
Flooding over my soul.

I feel renewed,
awash in endless love
And acceptance
HE welcomed me home.

Quizzing my mind
and searching
my soul for worthiness.
Level upon level
Puzzles of puzzles.
Finally reaching.

Travelling 1000 years
As 1000 souls
Remembering it all.

Layers of reality forming.
Complete awareness of each
Always real, never quite right.
Finally, after waking up
from level upon level
of consciousness,
ego reinstatement.

Delusional and questioning
Playing games
Fooling the mind
It wasnt a dream
It wasnt my imagination.
It was.

thanks :o)

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