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Pain and Gain
All the hallucinations were beautiful. But, as they increased in intensity, so did the pain. All I could do was lay there, in pain, hallucinating through some unceasing, overwhelming, mad show. Then, another change began to take place. I noticed that my psychology had been opened up. I could see myself as never before, my mistakes, the errors of my ways, and the cause of my errors or wrong ways of thinking. I could see how I my psychology and behavior developed from impacting events of my life. It was also painful to confront my psyche because of recent challenges with my marriage. I was trapped. All that I could do was just stay where I was and endure my ordeal, until I fell asleep several hours later.
The next day, I was changed. I could remember all of the psychology lessons or therapy sessions the mushrooms had led me through. I found in the following days, that I saw my wife and children, and myself, in a new light. I had, over such a short period, come to understand more about everyone and myself, and hence, treat those around me better.
Overall, the experience was very difficult, due to the physical pain and psychological challenges that arose during the experience. With all that I was suffering through, the hallucinations were a painful nuisance. But, the persistent benefit of the experience outweighed the temporary agony. I was, and still am, thankful for this experience. I was already planning to dose the next weekend.