I took about 5 grams of high potency psilocybes on Friday night. Exact
measurements are unconfirmed but the dose was heroic; far greater than I
had ever had before. In preperation, I fasted and made an isolation
space/altar. Since I live in a dorm, with a roommate, all I could do was
clean out my closet, throw a bean bag in there and tape the seems shut. I
told him what I was going to do, and he reacted quite calmly. Him and our
two next door neighbors took about the same amount as well, but decided to
spend it in the sensory bath that is our university. The setting was
perfect, misty, surreal, quiet (everyone was study for finals. I was
studying for THE final). I ate the mushrooms at 7:22 PM and went for a
walk through the mist. With no particular route in mind, I ended up
passing by a beautiful cobbled driveway. I stopped and felt the stones,
looking for a good one to take back with me, but none of them grabbed me.
I proceeded to stroll, contemplating what was in store, until I found
myself (purely unintentionally, but definately not coincedentally) back on
the cobble street. This time I cast about through the mist and river rocks
in search of a guide for the trip. I found one, or rather it found me, and
I distinctly remember crouching, looking down the corridor made by the two
houses, and feeling out of time (not rushed, simply removed). I noticed
whisps at the periphery of my vision and knew it was time to head back.
Once back in my room, I stripped down into something more comfortable and
sat down in the beanbag in my closet. The sign on the door said "PLEASE DO
NOT DISTURB, experiment in progress". Boy was it ever. Since this was the
first time I'd ever done high dose sensory deprivation, I wasn't sure what
to expect. I sunk into the dark and slowly began to melt. I felt
positively cathedral; ecstatic and holy, yet serene. Opal lattices and
geometries were unfolding before me, but they were the type of vision you
get like the imprint you get after looking at the sun. Nothing definative,
but very present. As I drifted from thought to thought, wave to wave, I
began to experience something I had not since my very first intense acid
experience, in which I overdosed (not pharmacologically, but judgementally
inappropriate for the situation). The feeling I speak of is that inbetween raggedy edge,
where ego desolves and hyperspace is as present as normal space. At this
point, it is no longer clear whether you are alive or dead. I distinctly
remember feeling disassociated, as if floating between lives. At this
point I had an interesting dialogue with myself. Since I wasn't sure if I was
alive or dead, I began trying to consider the implications of both. After
what seemed like an age of deliberation, I realized it didn't matter either
which way. *GRIN* a startling conclusion, no?
At this point, I had made contact with the hyperdimension. I could sense
the presence of some sort of other, but it was vague. As I floated through
this experience, all of a sudden from the periphery of my vision these
wild, wiggly, translucent hyperbeings would pop into view, stick out their
tongue, and put their hands in their ears like kids and make these strange
sounds and laughter. As soon as I saw them, I was snapped out of my
melting sensation and focused all of my attention on them. But no sooner
had my synapses popped with recognition and attention, then they would
dissapear out of my periphery. "Wow, holy shit." I'd say to myself, and
relax back into the pleasant disassociation of existance/nonexistance.
Then, *POP*! Another hyperbeing would jump into my attention and make
itself known to me. The whole thing was quite amusing, and I got the
distinct impression (communication) that they were making contact with me,
just saying hello, confirming their existance, and having a little fun with
me. Nothing serious, aside from the fact that I was in communication with
a non-human, non-corporeal entity!
Then something mindbendingly strange happened. I had forgotten to unhook
my phone, and the phone rang. It tugged at my from the sidelines, begging
for attention, but I knew it was just a phone and my answering machine
would pick it up. Then my message began playing, and it is this
psychedelic Terence McKenna track that, to a jazzy beat, says "But the real
secret of magic is that the world is made of words, and if you know the
words that the world is made of, you can make of it what you wish..."
Hearing this gave me a good deal of amusement, but then the wierdness
began. From the answering machine, this strange siren like pulsing began
to blare, and an automated voice began repeating, "Please hang up and dial
again. If you need assistance, please dial the operator. This is a
recording. If you need assistance, please hang up and dial the operator."
Now this last bit about needing assistance, combined with my somewhat
ambiguous state of existence, and the siren sound, flipped me out. Did I
need assistance? Was I in some kind of hospital? What the hell was going
on?! So I burst out of the closest, peaking, into my empty, moonlit dorm
room. What a shock! Since I had cleaned everything out of my closet, the
room looked like a disaster zone. Everything was exploded everywhere, and
I freaked. It took me a good 10 minutes (I think) to reintegrate into
reality. Talk about a crash landing! The mess was so expansive, and the
parallel between the mess of my room and the mess of human existance so
strong, I was completely paralyzed with amazement. I had no idea where to
start cleaning up, just as I had no idea how to start "normalizing" my
experience with all this new visual input. So after a while, I cleaned
everything up. The night progressed in a fairly remarkable fashion, but
those other stories will have to wait till next time. The point of this
tranmission was to convey the fact that yet another Homo Sapiens has pierced
the veil of hyperreality. If anyone ever asks, I know where I stand on the
issue; with one foot firmly in the fractal cauldron of creation!
