Beyond time and life

Ok so me and friend, let's call him P, prepare about 5 grams of dry mushrooms we bought and about 3 or 4 more grams each of fresh homegrown mushrooms. We do this all the night before and the following morning at about 7am we get up. His parents are still up so we grap a pither of juice and go back to his room. We sit there and end up eating about 8 grams each and go back to bed.
I've only tripped like 5 times so this hit me. My eyes were closed but i saw everything as pixels. The pixels began taking shapes and paterns. All of a sudden i felt an deep despair and sadness with reality and life. It was so emotional i began crying to myself. I felt lost in this world and then i saw a picture of my uncle in my mind and held on to it. I rose out of despair feeling cleansed. Me and P wake up and go downstairs after his parents have left for work.
I felt like a child i was so happy and in my pyjamas. We sit down and he pulls out a bong and says"do you know what this is??" he's the biggest pot head and i have to show him what to do. We just hit his bong and then it hits us.
Total loss of ego, total loss of time, of outside influences. All we were was animals..... all we were was highly evolved chemical forms communicating to each other. We just stared at space. Saying words like "everything!" "existence!" " am i here?" "what is here" "am i existing?" ... i felt like i was crawling outside of this fake reality i had created for myself and into truth... I started to panick, what is the boundaries of reality if it is so non-existant? i stared at the bong, and looked at P. I threw it against the wall shattering it, P seemed to agree with me. After that my mind got lost in an unlimited universe of possiblities, I blanked out and went into hyperspace, where we and P were communicating somehow but not with words or sounds, something else, we were everywhere at once yet nowhere. I believe this was a joint out of body experience but to this day i'm not sure what happened. I awoke hours later at about 1pm and felt so confused but so much more elighntened.