Gods

The last time this happened to me I told my wife about the whole thing. I wanted to know if maybe I was just real messed up and confused her with what was going on . She told me she was pissed I took mushei and tripped "again" and she left the house. We are married , she went to her mother's. And I told her there were two ppl here. One who sat with me at the foot of the bed where I was drowsing so hard and she was giving me this line of are you ready to come home are you done here yet? And gave me the impression that I've answered that question a million times with a "no". 

The second person entered my kitchen door and saw the two of us taking, and the first this she said was " are you fucking kidding?! Again?! "

I don't know who the fuck that was but the two seemed to communicate with each other that, correct - again. He's not coming

The person who just came in has a backpack on, they looked idk kinda Street I guess. Sorta like somebody I would have known. They looked right at me and said something like " what the fuck is wrong with you you promised me!"

I really felt like I did somehow wrong but they said that and didn't wait for any response. I shit you not, thst person said something like" then if he's not ready then I'm not coming here again for nothing " .. literally went by my bed and started stuffing things in the bag she carried. I'm not missing anything as far as I know, but after that she looked like the really sad and was leaving my house angry or disappointed. I've thought about this. A lot. I think maybe that is someone who has been waiting for me to join them again and they got absolutely jealous that I declared no I'm staying here. I won't even know what they put in the backpack but I guarantee you it's somehow something I'm supposed to not be happy about but want to get back bad enough that I'm going to chase her all the way? Not happening but I feel like my entire life needs to be addressed. I was left with an artifact one time in my sink. It was a tiny piece of ceramic coffee cup handle and I am positive that that broken piece of mug was something fucking painfully important to me, my own business kind of stuff and that was mine.  It was in the sink and I know not one of you will ever ever believe this , but I learned what it was. It's a shard of Gods bone. He left it here , during our creation to ensure shit would just keep going forward. I went to the bathroom and I saw it in the empty sink. I was told it's my turn. It's my turn to be responsible for them. Meaning it's my turn to look after the universe because that's what dad told if t to do. 

Who? Our dad? Fucking God man. I had a piece of him in my hand and I was definitely not in time space here. I was really huge, and I was outside of time space, yet I felt bigger than the universe. I had siblings. All of them were talking to me like is he done with this playground yet. I knew what they meant and it hurt so deeply.  I've refused them . All of them and I told them this is what I choose and I don't care if I've chosen it a million times, it's because of the one thing that I will live and die over and over again for. My wife my angel. It's her . This is all real and I rather not ever in my life talk about this again because it fucking scares the life out of me every time. 

I've sinced not explored like I used to, in reality I stopped completely. This is not your stupid dumb advice line. I just can't do it. Something inside me is changed forever. 

This is a true story from just another dude who thought this whole thing would be cool. The entire life, what we do here. It's not for everyone, and you will never see me the same after this. Do not time travel you know who you are I was told to leave that here by a