Abandoning My Life

I consumed a half an eigth (about 1.75 grams or .125 ounces) of "Golden Teachers" in the form of tea. I'm about 140 lbs., male, and 18 years old. What was amazing that I thought and experienced this far after my real "trip." this was maybe 8 hours or so after eating. I wrote this for an english class project paper and turned it in. Hard to capture exactly what I thought, but this is as close as I can get.

"Solo"
If ever in my life I have had a “mind expanding” experience it was while under the influence of mushrooms. I had never before then and still have not had thoughts and ideas like I did then. Not only that, but the philosophies that I created have stuck with me, and I have thought about taking it to a much higher level. What I experienced was this: I realized that I am only one person, one single being among billions on the face of this planet. For some reason though, I find myself tied down to one place. Tied down by money, people, relationships, and my job, everything that is my life. But in reality, am I physically tied down by anything? Do I really need my checking account? Or my cell phone? These are all things that we all think are so necessary in this life. But the less things in the world that you attach yourself to, be it material possessions or emotional bonds, the more freedom you have. If I chose to I could leave right now. I could abandon everything that I have built for myself so far, and everything that everyone has created for me. I am grateful for everything that people, especially my parents, have done, but why do we always assume that everybody needs the same thing? I wish that I could walk the face of this planet with complete freedom. Experience everything there is in this world, regardless of where it takes me and where I end up.
I realized that I don’t want to spend my life like most people do. I already am on the path to a family and a mini-van, and that thought scares me. I want to disappear completely. Just take off and I’m not sure whether or not I want to come back. For the mental well being of my parents I would send them a postcard. I don’t know that they could really understand me, but I would try to let them know what I’m doing and why. I would explain to them that I am trying to escape from a boring life of mediocrity and a middle class job. In the words of Janis Joplin, “freedom’s just another word for nothing left to lose.”