egodeaths on each eventually when least suspected it, and didn't know at first
Lived the typical cubicle life, studying and working as only enjoyment in life for many years.
Did LSD 100 times in moderate/high doses alone , and maybe 2-3 times with friends
Learned each time when alone(mostly from high doses, always 3hits+), no learning when tripping with non-tripping people
Learned from nature each time, pets and houseplants etc., walking in nature/sitting in nature
Sometimes I would get messages while taking LSD or Mushrooms felt like a caring spirit that wanted to help me and others
the messages is in my other journal
the
messages came out of nowhere with no previous thoughts for hours, and
usually there would be eyes everywhere in the room when it happened
looking at me (both on LSD and on mushrooms)
the messages helped me a lot each time, and often helped me help others
after 100 doses of LSD something happened I died that night and was reborn a few times, then the next day everything changed
felt love for myself and everything on the planet for the first time in over a decade, and ever since
after that trip on LSD (egodeath), I tried mushrooms, 3g of mushrooms helped me find myself have been happy since that day, everyday, since I know what I appreciate/love now
have since tried sharing with close friends, and their lives have changed as much as me it has brought happiness to everybody(salvia/shrooms/L), and completely turned lives around
my life has been changed too, I live a simpler life now, and don't earn as much money but more happy than before
dosage: always took 3 hits of LSD (sometimes more), or 3.5-5g mushrooms setting: nature, home near nature(houseplants/pets), progressive psytrance (youtube) before: no love for self, very sick, no enjoyment in life after: appreciate everything, love myself and others as much as I ever remember doing
would recommend to anybody, I think LSD could save the world
because it helps people realize their mistakes, so they can fix them and be happy