Tripping By Myself

Now, having just discovered this wonderful website, I'm going to try to write about a trip I had kind of a while ago, at least six months back. I hopefully have a trip planned for the near future, but I wanted to hit the message boards now.

I am an experienced traveler. I have tripped around ten times in my life. My dosages have ranged from 1.5 to 5 grams. I usually like to eat an eighth; more if the circumstances are right. So enough background info, let's get into this one experience I had.

I came home from girlfriends, it was probably about 12 o'clock. I had a bag of mushrooms sitting in my room that I had been hanging onto for a while, just waiting for the right time to eat them. I'm not positive how much I had, probably around 3 grams. It wasn't a good looking bag of mushrooms either. It was chafey and most of the solid stuff was stems with a few small caps. Anyway, my parents were asleep, and my brother was gone for the night, and I decided that I wanted to eat those mushrooms now.

So, I ate the contents of the bag with a big glass of water. It was pretty unpleasant. The ground up bits didn't go down easily, but I managed by guzzling the water. By the time I had finished eating it was probably about 12:45ish. 

So, with me mushrooms take about 30 minutes before I can start to notice the effects. I have a fast metabolism and maybe it's just in my head, but about 30 minutes after consumption is when I start to get some light visuals. This night was no different.

After I ate all of the mushrooms I had just laid back in my bed watching tv, waiting for the effects to kick in. Constantly asking myself, 'Am I tripping yet?'. I was getting that nervous-anxious feeling in my stomach. Not really a stomach ache, but just kind of a tight feeling in my gut. Then I looked down at my hands, and I knew I was starting to trip.

There is something about my hands when I'm tripping, and when I look at them I just realize how weird they are. How pink the skin is and how oddly shaped they are, and I think of myself as an animal, like a pig or something. So sure enough, I looked down at my hands my mind was filled with these thoughts, of how bizarre my hands look...and then I knew I was starting to trip. Now this trip was unique for me, cause I had never eaten mushrooms alone before. So this was a first.

Surprisingly I ended up turning off the tv about a half hour in.I didn't want the distraction. As the trip intensified I was laying in my bed, lights off, just thinking. Tossing and turning under the blankets while my mind raced. I had moments where I was laughing out loud, just thinking of my past. Then minutes later, I would be in deep depression, on the verge crying. Just not knowing what I was doing with my life, while also battling depressing memories that I was thinking about in new ways. My eyes were always open, just staring at parts of my room, my pillow, my bed while lost in thought.

At one point, I noticed the glow from my alarm clock which had cast a shadow in the corner of my room. Scared the hell out of me. It looked like the outline of a shadowy person just hanging out in the corner of my room, watching me. I jumped up from my bed at this point before realizing no one was there. I paced around my room a bit before getting back in bed. And once I laid down again I had what I can only describe as, a "brain orgasm".  

Sounds strange obviously. But, how it felt was just, a loud ringing in my ear that gradually intensified until it was all I could hear. Then it just felt like my brain was vibrating for a second or two and I couldn't help but close my eyes. And it honestly just felt good. It also made me happier. I had I think three of these throughout the trip. The last one came at about 7 o'clock in the morning.

My dad had left for work, and i figured it safe enough to head downstairs. The trip had wound down at this point, but I was still wired. I got a beer from my fridge (miller lite) and took a sip, and instantly got that "brain orgasm". It was the best beer I have ever had.