I've just had the most amazing experience of my life and I wanted to share it here because I'm not sure it's something I will ever tell another person face to face.
This was my first ever trip. I have not even used cannabis. I took a level 5 dose, alone in an empty house. I thought I knew what I was getting myself in to but I was naive. It went so far beyond what I thought was possible and there is so much more detail I could go on about but I've tried to cut it down as much as I can.
I'll skip to the part where it really became intense. I was sitting on the ground at a coffee table, thinking about my life and just taking it all in. I felt like I was child again, experiencing everything for the first time. I had a sensation that time was no longer moving. I had been writing in a book but it felt like I had been writing forever and I couldn't remember the last time I had turned the page. I saw the digital clock on the microwave change and suddenly I was overwhelmed with a sense that I knew nothing.
I put my arms on the table in front of me and lay my head down on them and closed my eyes. I started seeing a flood of images and seemed to be merging with the floor. I kept telling myself, "just go with it, flow". I was a stream flowing down a valley and then I was a rock. The music was guiding me and I was willingly following. I felt myself slipping away as I followed, like I was merging with the universe. The images became less and less like reality until it was just kaleidoscopic shapes and colours. I was the universe and I was coming to some kind of climax as I condensed into a single point. Surges of energy flowed through me and thought I might explode. Then I would feel cooler, like I was separating and slowing down. This became a cycle that was happening faster and faster and I thought I might loop like this forever.
I was afraid but it did not seem like real fear as I was overwhelmed with a sense that this is how it was meant to be. It felt like everything in my life had been leading to this very moment. Time merged with me into the same single being and the looping stopped. I had unlocked the final mystery of the universe and I was completely free. Time had either completely stopped or had never existed. The music was no longer leading me but had become a part of me. I was certain I would exist in this state for the rest of eternity and it felt good, like it was meant to be.
I don't recall the exact order of what happened next. At one point, I was laying on the floor looking up at the ceiling and time was starting again. I was at the creation of the universe and I was being reborn. At another point, I left the room to go to the bathroom. It felt like I was stepping out of the universe into another dimension. Later, I was looking around the room, seeing everything as it was before but still thinking I would never return to my previous existence. It took a long time before I realised I was actually back.
I'd like to thank this site and all the users that make it an invaluable resource. As soon as I realised it was over I felt an urge to go out and tell the world how wonderful it was. I hope more people get to have an experience like I did.