5-19-2013 %u2013 First trip %u2013 Cubensis Mushrooms
%u2013 Small dose of 2 grams %u2013 Level 2.
No hallucinations (or extremely mild)
Very mind expanding, extremely mind opening.
Increase of awareness and consciousness, very
No nauseas at all, not even during the %u201Ccome on.%u201D
couple hours after a non-heavy meal I consumed the mushrooms with orange juice.
Call me weird, but I liked the taste. Well, it did not bother me, they tasted
okay (I like wheatgrass, so maybe is thanks to that.) The cap actually tasted
similar to dry unsweetened walnuts. The stems just tasted like nothing, lol.
playing Atlantica Online and talking with my wife when I started to feel
ungrounded and my legs and arms very relaxed.
I started to
have a bit of blurry vision, hard to focus on the PC so I decided to go to my
reclining chair and lay down with some nice tunes. Call me weird, but I
listened to Monroe%u2019s Hemi-Sync lol. It is amazing music that allows me to %u201Ctrip%u201D
even without shrooms, so I decided to listen to it.
Lots of yawning
felt very relaxed. I felt like if I was expanding, my legs were like growing
and my aura/energy started to spread around the entire room. I was alone; wife
was in the living room. My door was closed. I could not feel my hands nor my
I felt jolts
of energy. This is hard to explain. Those who can Astral Project might understand
this a little better. I felt like a wave of energy going through my body for a
split second. During this spit second my eyes buzzed very intensely. The first
one jolted me a little bit because I did not expected it, but the following
ones did not disturb me as I am familiar to those happening sometimes in meditation.
started to feel more intense. I stop listening to the music; I felt I just
wanted to be alone in the semi-dark in silence, listening to my own thoughts.
It was hard for me to take notes, but I reminded myself that it would be a
waste if I did not take notes as I would forget stuff. A few times that I spoke
with my wife, a lot of laughter on my end came up, I just felt a bliss and laughter
just came up all the time.
I started going within, like in deep meditation
but the mushrooms took me fast and with intensity. It was like I could travel
deep within, always being able to go deeper and deeper to infinite. Hard to
explain, but I was reaching a mental level beyond thoughts.
Everything felt very dreamy. The colors were
brighter and more vivid, but at the same time, I felt like I was out there, in
a higher state of awareness, still very much aware of the state I was in.
I started to reach a point where everything felt
insignificant, meaningless, like all the material and physical stuff was not
important, was not real and even like if it was not needed. Television,
computers, videogames, etc felt insignificant. When I came to a realization
that our human egos connects us so deeply with these distractions to steer as
away from our true spirituality, I realized we all are influenced by some many
distractions that sometimes we forgot everything that really matters . These
thoughts wandered through my mind and I had to repeat myself a few times to
write down at least key words to not forget.
Time did not matter anymore, I was in the here
and now, I was going even deeper in my thoughts. Taking these notes brought me
back a little bit into reality and I felt like not even taking notes, but I
stayed focused enough to keep doing so. It was very easy to go back to my deep
thoughts after taking notes; my mind would just flow away from reality. I could
feel I was losing contact with reality as I was going very deep, however, I was
always aware of what I was doing and aware that I was %u201Cthere but not there.%u201D
I felt that my thoughts were in a voice of
nothingness, but it was perfection. Every single through that came to my mind
would just vanish living nothingness behind. The universe itself vanished into
a profound nothingness, and I felt eternal.
Since I had no music on, I could hear the TV
from the distance. The voices from the TV sounded very metallic and distant.
This was an amazing experience because it brought me back to my childhood. As a
child, I could go into trance with just closing my eyes. I recalled when I
going into trance as I child the sound would get distorted the same way it did
while on the mushrooms. This felt amazing (and I am glad I took notes, as I
forgot about this.) I heard from my Spirit Guide, %u201CJust recall this memory to
go deep again.%u201D
My mind kept expanding and I felt connected to
the very center of the Universe, like if I was online to an unlimited source of
divine information. I really felt I was in the true Here and Now and connected
with the very Spirit of God Source. My mind kept growing and expanding, I felt
bliss, I felt complete, I did feel the Oneness. As I was experiencing this, a
Spiritual Elder came forward. I did not ask him if he was one of my Spirit
Guides, as I felt asking questions was not necessary. He looked like a Shaman
with long white beard and shared with me that human ego was so worthless and
meaningless, definitely not necessary.
I went into automatic writing through telepathic
dictation, I felt like I needed to write down something that came from a Higher
Source. I wrote, %u201CIt is easy to allow the
mind to flow and the information to come through, just empty your mind of
thoughts and leave your ego behind, it is as easy as that. Just have a true
humble desire from your heart, welcome those thoughts and write%u2026%u201D
I then saw a Japanese Zen house. Such house was
made out of wood entirely and it felt it was in a forest. There were small
trees inside this house and in the middle of this house; I could see the trunk
of a tree going all the way up to the roof and out of the house. All the
furniture was made out of wood and it was very minimalist. There were almost no
electronics, I might have seen just a computer, but that%u2019s it, no TV and only a
couple lamps. I felt like for some reason this home was very connected with
I felt pulled in, like if I was connected with
the very center of the Earth, with Gaia herself. I felt like Gaia was
whispering a sound, and upon focusing on such sound I heard, %u201CI welcome my
Child and those of you who come from the Distance.%u201D
bliss. I felt this was a perfect first trip, not a heavy ride but an amazing
mind expanding and further eye opening.
reason I wrote at the end, %u201CSpark of Energy = Creation.%u201D
started to wear down. I was still a bit ungrounded and I was able to see the
colors very vividly. I was pretty much back in my body so I took a short walk
around home and realized the beautify of what surrounds us. I saw the flowers
that were blooming and very colorful, something that I never focused on before,
and probably something most human beings are missing every day. I felt very in
peace and awakened, even to a deeper level.
I was still
ungrounded and relaxed, vision almost back to normal.
I was pretty
much back to normal and very glad of the experience I went through. Trip ended.
* Aiming for 3.5 grams for next time and experience a full trip.