There is a bigger picture. No doubt about it.

                    About 30 minutes in, we decide to go inside and go to our bedrooms and do this hypnosis thing we heard was pretty bad ass thing to do while on shrooms. So I laid on my bed, turned on my laptop and started playing a hypnosis video . I laid down and closed my eyes, and was listening to this guy talking on the hypnosis video. Close eyed visuals were extremely intense at this point. I was seeing multiple colors coming down a waterfall. The way I felt was is as if I was a baby in a womb, and there was a nurturing voice guiding me and protecting me. About 10 minutes into the video, someone sends me a message on facebook and it jolts me back into reality. It was my brother checking seeing if I was alright. So I decide to forget the hypnosis, and actually just lay down and think. As I lay down on my stomach, I can't feel my body at all. It felt as if all my limbs were attached to my body. It almost felt like I didn't have a body. It was just my brain on my bed. It was a eerie but extremely comfortable feeling. I felt so happy. Like there was so much happiness everywhere. I felt as if I didn't have a single thing to worry about. There were tears coming out of my eyes because of all the happiness. If someone gave me a million dollars, I don't think I would be nearly as that happy. I decide to get out of the position I was in and I look at my hands and it look surreal. As if I was a cartoon and it was hilarious. My hands did not look real. The trip was amazing at this point.

                     I keep looking at my hands, and I toss and turn and look around my room and everything looks like a cartoon that is being stretched and distorted. Then I decide to go check my facebook real quick. And all I see is sadness. I keep on seeing the terrible loss of life that just happened recently with those elementary kids that were killed. It hit me hard because I have a seven year old brother who was at school when that happened. Then all I felt was sadness, like I felt as if I was those kids parents, siblings, family members, or someone close to them. Not some random guy that lives hundreds of miles away. There were tears coming out of my eyes. Then I started feeling connected with everyone on this planet. I felt one with everyone. One with everything. One with the earth. One with the universe. Something kept on bugging me and all I could think about is every single living thing on this planet has the same energy. I used to think sometimes and ask myself "What if I am the only one alive and everyone else was just put here for a test or something for me?" But this day, I realized, everyone else is alive just like me. 7 billion other people could think just like I can. I felt like I was a part of everyone and everyone was a part of me. It was such a weird feeling, such a unreal feeling. But I was so happy when I felt this. "How could a fucking mushroom make me feel like this?" I kept asking myself. Another thing I realized was this world is so small, yet so big. There has to be a bigger picture. Then my little brother walks into my room, and I sober up pretty quick (not really possible) but I felt so much happiness when he came in. I realized he was growing up and it was making me happy.  He came into my room and sat down on my bed and started playing with a laser that I recently bought him, and it made me realize, that there is so much sadness in this world, but at the same time there is so much happiness. And we shouldn't take that happiness for granted. I talked to my little brother and I actually enjoyed it a lot. Then I called my younger brother who is in the Army and is stationed in Alaska and we talk for an hour about everything.  

                  Overall it was an amazing trip. I feel horrible for the people who haven't tried mushroom. It's life changing stuff. This was the strongest trip that ive been on so far. I don't plan on doing another trip for a while but I'm definitely going to try it again in a couple of months. What I've learned from this trip is there is a bigger picture for sure. I have absolutely no doubt about it.