I spent the 1st year seeing the world through "black & white" eyes: Gods work, and not Gods work. Life, movies, books, friends of quality, friends of convenience only... it was a continuation of the fateful "bad trip".
In addition to the weight that I felt physically lifted off me after some sincere repentance & the absolutely free removal of so many years of blind self-centered pleasure, I was born-again through Christ. The timing & experience was so strong that I immediately dedicated 27 months to serve & spread what I knew to be the truth: there is a God, a higher power, and more than meets the eye going on arounds us in our daily life's.
So here I am 17 years later: time & life now obscure many potent understandings. Family, self development, faith, love, progress, future, and truth are all again too paramount as mid-life approaches. Maybe I long for another rebirth, a surge, or just change. It's been an amazing 17 years living with an opened mind. Professional progress: off the chart. Family: so amazing & beautiful! Self growth: never ending progress to be a servant leader, kind, grateful, & gaining patience.... but I want more! I am built to think, understand, challenge the status quo!
So I am back! A new light, a new "set" of mind. A new "setting" that I have built (not my parents), that daily has me grateful for talents & others in my life that i jsut feel lucky to be around: blessings beyond belief! What better time than now than to push forward with exploration & understand? None.
What ever providence that has given us access to Amanita Muscaria (as a symbol of course), has left me at its feet over all other options (peyote, LSD, DMT) as I move toward added understanding. It's been an amazing beginning thanks to all the support & advice on this site.
Arrival day was like Christmas: beautiful, spotted, dried, whole caps. My golden plates waiting to be translated... placed respectfully on the shelf for the moment, the right moment & setting.
I've read, researched, listened to pod casts. Studied American Native understanding, studied likely entheogen induced visions & raptures. The rest is "now". The rest is new, and my posts are as much a self produced psycotherapy as much as they are to share the right way we can all enjoy what God has given us from the very Earth as a sacrament & amazing joy! Amanita Muscaria
A week ago: careful 180' degree ramen noodles! Delicious! I'm not kidding. I've stocked dried Shitake all these years! I always add mushrooms to my ramen. After solemn grateful prayer, I always thank the Lord before every meal = to the "get to know you" entry dosage, I spent the next 4 hours with a pure happy heart! Zero nausea. None. Washington A+ Just peace & happiness. 1/2 hr, warm. 1 hour, like a head rush that wont go away. Relaxed, listended to some great christian music, read some uplifting scripture. Hr 2, my family came home, my beautiful family: I felt time, peace, no rush to get back to "me" but rather, give them time, focus, and love. An Amazing Evening.