fucking up the first trip

it was half way through this year, and i'd only been smoking pot for a year or so. i was hanging around with an older crowd at school and shit, i was the young kid that could keep up with them. i love smoking pot and unlike most teens, hate drinking. i was only 17 at the time, but all the boys had been talking about tripping and how they were stoked that it was coming up to 'shroom season again. I had never taken any psychedelics and was sort of waiting for the right time. when that time came, me and my close friends congregated at one of our friends houses and all decided to have a trip. they have all taken copious amounts of drugs, and myself? for someone who had never taken them knew a lot about them. i know that what we were taking was for sure LSD and was excited to take it, but thought it best to be safe and only take a half. i fucked up and one and a half, two hours later, everyone was happily tripping except me. because i wasn't, i got another, but from a different friend and ended up taking one and a half. within 20 / 40 minutes i was sitting on the couch with my boyfriend, watching patterns on a chair move. i sat on this same couch for hours. we talked about several different things and actually got exceptionally close. i had my first encounter with the notorious "acid tears", first when i started tripping and they were tears of happiness. utter happiness. i felt so pure and clean and saw everything in a totally different light, second both my boyfriend shared a few tears when we talked about things that had happened over the last few months and how badly he'd taken them, but how he was starting to get better. one of our friends had a lazer light, we all smoke tobacco also so every time someone would puff on their smoke, they'd blow the smoke into the light which looked incredible and highly satisfying for the trippers eye. we're all a reasonably young bunch, ranging from 18 to 22ish, myself being the youngest, but we sat tripping happily to Pink Floyd's pulse DVD (the favorite band of 9/10ths of the people there), we talked about politics and the way we loath our government, and with the help of the LSD all became a lot clearer on our opinions. i'm yet to figure out why people say "avoid it, it's so bad" when i have also smoked meth, taken pharmaceutics, and am addicted to nicotine? i'm far surer that the later are far more dangerous? but yet pharmaceutics and nicotine are legal? and at times crack's easier to get than pot? all i know is although i have only tripped a little, maybe 7 or 8 times in the last 9 months i have fallen in love. i really am lucies number one fan