So to start things off I should let it be known that I've tripped only 3
times prior to this. First two times I ingested cubensis and the third
time it was some wild Ps. cyanescens. These trips were low level going
no further than a mild to strong level 1 trip. After my first trip I
fell in love and knew I had to grow my own. About 4-5 months ago I
purchased 2 syringes. One containing Lipa Yai and the other Brazil. My
first attempt I knocked up 2 PF tek jars with each of the "strains". The
Brazilians colonized about 75% of the jar before contaminating and the
Lipa Yai jar never grew a speck of mycelium. So this trial and error
continued for the next 4 months until finally, after losing my Brazil
syringe and countless jars to contamination, success. 3 Lipa Yai jars
colonized completely and after a nice dunk and roll, were placed in the
Date of trip: 3/14/11
10:15 p.m. (All times are approximated, not exact)
With lemon juice in a cup and 8 to 9 dry grams of mushrooms (I thought I had WAYYYYY less than that) I contemplate to myself, "How much should I lemon tek?". Deciding that half of the lot of mushrooms would be sufficient to get to where I wanted (I really had no idea what I wanted. I just wanted to trip I guess because it had been so long) I went ahead and broke them up into smaller pieces and soaked them in the lemon juice.
At this time I decided that the my mushrooms had soaked long enough (mostly because I was too eager to wait any longer) so down the hatch they went. With a good mindset and setting I proceeded to put on a movie, Megamind, and sat eagerly in my bed awaiting the long awaited trip.
With all the anticipation I had worked up it hadn't occurred to me that I had began to get clamy hands and feet. However, no visuals or anything at this point so I start to doubt my mushrooms as I've read before that Lipa Yai is notorious for growing bunk mushrooms especially on BRF cakes.
This is basically the beginning of the actual "tripping" itself. I felt a small body high at this time which was similar to taking 2 vicodin. (If you've never taken vicodin or any other form of opiate the feeling is just a really good, relaxed, body euphoric high)
11:35 - 11:45 p.m.
This is when the trip really begins. I could tell my eyes had finally dialed and my journey was really beginning because everything that was light up started to get those light streaks coming off of them. I continued to watch Megamind until I lost interest in it. At this point I was gazing upon my room just looking at the OEVs which were fairly subtle. They were, in fact, much more subtle then the previous mushrooms trips which further led me to believe I had grown bunk mushrooms.
11:50 - 12:00 p.m
At this time my movie had ended and was playing through the credits. I turned off the tv and started to play some music on my iHome. The music was good, but I realized that I gradually kept turning the volume up and up which wasn't good seeing as it was nearly 12 at night and I don't think my parents would have enjoyed being woken up to the tune of Today Was A Good Day by Ice Cube. So, I stood up and walked over to my iHome, grabbed my iPod and amazing over the ear headphones, and returned to my bed.
12:10 - 12:30 p.m.
Laying in my bed listening to music with my eyes shut I began to see some patterns. I realized that I was experiencing CEVs. This is something I had never experienced before so it greatly intrigued me. However, I didn't really enjoy the fact that my eyes had to be closed to see them so I opened my eyes and BAM. My vision was getting much more impaired with visuals than I had experienced before. However, like the CEVs, these more intense OEVs, simply amazed me. Then a thought occurred to me, why not turn off the lights! I proceeded to do so with much elation as I was getting the best of both worlds. In conjunction with the visuals getting ever more apparent and stronger, the body high was also getting continually more intense.
12:35 - 1:30 a.m.
This is when things started getting pushed further. My visuals during this time grew ever stronger until the point where my walls, that are semi-textured began to turn in to flat smooth surfaces, the corners of my room became infused with one another as if it was just one big flat and smooth wall, and the visual patterns that were being emitted were making it ever harder to see. Accompanying these visuals was the ever increasing body euphoria. This body high, along with the amazing dubstep I was listening to (Magical World feat. Nelly Furtado by Bassnectar), made for the most intense and incredibly euphoric bodily ecstasy I have ever experienced.
1:30 - 2:00 a.m.
At this point my sight is completely filled with visuals. However, these visuals are no longer presenting themselves as patterns of colorful lines, they had evolved into insane geometric patterns that continually split themselves forming new shapes constantly. With these visuals came the pinnacle
of my body high. I could literally feel my body become one with the universe and I could feel the surging synergy and power of it all. At which point I began to cry because I was in a state of pure happiness, euphoria, and bliss. I then began to put my hands together, as if praying, and continued to thank the universe, the gods of the world, and the mushrooms themselves over and over again for showing me this perfect state of mind. However, to every Yin, there is a Yang and I would be shown this first hand.
2:05 - 2:45 a.m.
After my thanking to the gods, universe, and mushrooms I began to feel as if I was losing the euphoric bodily feeling. I blamed this on the music I was listening to because it was playing awfully loud, so I turned it off and just decided to lay there in complete darkness. This turned out to be the beginning of the end of my ego. After laying for awhile with no music I began to realize that my feet and hands were drenched in a cold sweat that would not stop.This got me thinking if I was okay because up until this point, I hadn't thought of what kind of dangers I could have possibly put myself up against ingesting that much psilocybin. After this thought, I began to feel strange (as if things weren't strange enough with everything else that was happening simultaneously). This strange feeling turned into not feeling very good and I quickly, and foolishly, jumped to conclusions and blamed my mushrooms for my ailment. This in turn was a stupid decision as the mushrooms would soon show me.
2:50 - 4:00 a.m.
The strange feeling continued to grow to a sickening, suicide-thought-inducing fear that was both mentally and physically the single most frightening thing I have EVER, experienced. This fear was unlike any other fear, however. This fear was so incredibly scary that I was contemplating ending it all and killing myself. However, the mushrooms had other plans that involved death. Ego death that is. During this time I was frozen in place and in time. I could not move from the position I was in, (which was laying down) but only roll from side to side. Time, I had realized, had come to an extreme crawl and no matter how hard I wanted it to speed up, it wouldn't. My mind began to race and was processing, what felt like, too much information at once. I almost had no control over my mind or thoughts either. The only thing I had the mental capability to process and control was the will to try to make it end. Sleep was the only answer to making it end. However, this in fact was not the answer to making it all end, but the key to unlocking Pandora's box. As I tried with all my might to shut out the ever growing scariness of the situation with sleep, it refused to stop it's reality shattering torment on my mind. continued to grow and it finally manifested itself as thoughts and Hell. Thoughts so humbling and so unimaginably unfathomable, that my mind could no longer take it and destroyed my ego. Not once, but millions upon millions of times. It felt as if I was being dragged through hell and being killed over and over again. But, with the added slowing of time it felt as if I was stuck in a some kind of hellish paradox. A sort of limbo. As I tried to sleep and make it all go away I would feel as if I just woke up, but as I turned and looked at the time I realized that not even one minute had passed. At one point it got so bad and scary that I rolled out of bed, got on my knees, and started crying, begging for forgiveness and for it to please stop. As all this is happening, being dragged through a paradoxed hell millions of times while simultaneously having my ego destroyed each time, time stagnation, no longer being in control of anything, and thoughts racing at hyper speed, the mushrooms had yet another test. They finally released there secret and showed a startling revelation. That you and I, people, or as the mushrooms referred to as a "variable", is nothing in the grand scheme of things. As a molecule is nothing to us. They showed me that you and I are one variable in a sea of infinite variables or other humans. That this universe, or "variable", is one of an infinite other variable universe, and that, that multiverse of universes is yet another "variable" in another sea of endless other multiverses and so on and so forth. But even more startling than knowing that these variables are variables within more variables is that these variables exist on planes. We exist on 1 plane that expands forever in only 2 directions (like this <---------------->) and on this plane are the variables within the variables. These variables are points on the plane. (Think about it like a graph with a bunch of dots) Shifting ever so slightly one way or the other you will find yourself in an entirely new dimension with an entirely new set of variables within variables. But, move to a different point on this plane, other than the one you were at when the plane shifted and shift that plane ever so slightly and you will find yourself in an entirely new plane with its own variables within variables..... After the mushrooms decided I had enough and that I now understand who I really am they released me from there terrifying hold and let me leave with a gift. The same incredible, unexplainable, synergy with the universe that I experienced before.
4:05 - 5:00 a.m.
The synergy with the universe that I felt and euphoric body high that the mushrooms left me with died off at about 4:30. From then on I proceeded to thank the gods, mushrooms, and the "variables", for showing me the way. I finished my trip with by listening to some dubstep for the remainder of the time and by 5:00 a.m. I was finally capable of resting my mind and falling asleep.