First time B1 Experience
A: Male, 200lbs. 200mg orally.
Takes daily prescription
Klonopin, Adderall, and Gabapentin. Did not take Adderall today, but did
take
regular doses of Klonopin and Gabapentin just before dosing. In
hindsight this
may have prevented him from feeling the drug but that is unknown.
R: Female, 123lbs. 150mg orally.
We each took one 5-HTP capsule 5 hours prior to dosing.
Taken in our home. Started at 8:30pm after a long day.
[Note: This ended up being very long! It was so enjoyable to
type out my feeling that I just kept going.. If you would like to skip
the bulk
of the text, there is a summary at the end from each of our
perspectives.]
T 0.00 Mixed powder with pink lemonade. We agree it tastes
very much like vodka. Not terrible, easy to swallow. A insufflates about
2mg to
experiment and feels unpleasant burning in his throat, does not take any
more.
T 20min: R feels speedy equivalent to 20mg instant Adderall.
Very minor chest pressure.
T 30min: A feels speedy, jerky, %u201Coff%u201D and physically hot. R
gets him a glass of cold water and a cold compress.
T 40min: R is rapidly starting to feel uplifted mood. She
was anxious but is now feeling very optimistic. She notes increased
sensory
sensations especially on the palms of the hands similar to limited
experience
with MDMA. R is enjoying this.
T 45min: R is feeling rushes of energy, feeling great but
not euphoric, touch is extremely pleasurable, feel tightness in throat
and
abdomen strange but not painful in the least. Hands feel very cold,
feels very
good to rub them. A feels hungry and nauseas. R feels bad for A and
wishes he
felt like she did.
T 50min: R feels wonderful! Hands are extremely cold
however. Pupils very dilated. A eats some applesauce.
T 55min: A eats a banana also. A feels neutral and still
%u201Coff%u201D. R gets a hot compress and warms her hands. R feels very good but
could
feel even better!! Both feel jaw tension similar to MDMA. Some
difficulty
typing. Washes hands with soap and it feels TERRIBLE. R cannot stop
touching
hands. Feels rushes of terrificness. Smiling widely. Also feels
stupidifed.
Doesn%u2019t care, only notices. Increased abdominal tightness. Yawning very
much.
T 60min: R feels extremely good. Put on a heart rate
monitor. It says 130. R is not worried, R merely feels like a scientist.
R
feels euphoric. R feels incredible. A put the heart rate monitor around
her
waist and it felt extremely good and sexual, she loved it. She however
does not
love everything like on MDMA. R wants to yell and also go into the
bright
sunlight and feel the heat of the outside but it is 10pm at night so she
will
save that for a different experience. R is impatient, enjoying typing
this. Greatly
enjoying rubbing hands. Euphoria.
7 70min: R has jaw tension eats a lifesaver candy flavor too
intense yuck. Computer difficult to operate FUNNY. Smiling. A reports
feeling buzzed
and hungry body buzz. R is breathing sporatically and deeply no worries.
Have
not stopped rubbing extending feeling
hands in 30 minutes. Legs tingling good. Water tastes bad like minerals.
Drinking
not pleasurable!
T 90 min: A goes to the bathroom. R rubbing hands. Jaw
tense. Plays Talking Heads enjoys it feels like dancing. Feels this song
is
PERFECT wants to BLAST IT cannot. It is Electricity by Talking Heads. R
feels
hot temperature sweaty. Three minute song felt like 13 seconds long will
play
it again LOUDER. Put ear on speaker! Wonderful can feel the vibrations.
Dry
mouth but drinking unpleasurable. Wants to dance%u2014never ever get this
feeling in
the DAY to DAY. Took pants shoes socks off feet feel great. HR140. Want
to be
close to A.
A feels better but not where she is! Unfortunate! A eats
cereal, is mostly not talkative, has diarrhea. Impossible to not move
hands.
Want something to do with them. Rubbing and extending fingers at a
constant
when not typing because it feels right. Energy pulsing. More music! Head
right
against speaker feels like live music. HR140. Feels good to tighten
muscles.
Keep thinking coming down but it COMES BACK which she is THANKFUL
of/for.
Music!
T 120min: A says he feels like he feels with stimulants
that he doesn%u2019t particularly enjoy, a%u201D blunting zombification of
emotion%u201D. His
words verbatim. A feels positive
bodybuzz and is %u201Cnot interested in
communicating with the outside world.%u201D He considers this neutral.
Recognizes
heightened perceptions in a neutral way. R notes how differently we feel
all
sorts of drugs! How strange! A is very still. R is jumpy. A says he may
feel
this way because he worked out too hard with weight lifting earlier. R
wants to
lift something heavy! A is nowhere as high as R but R took less GO
FIGURE.
Brightness of the monitor is harsh. R knows this feeling will be OVER
and does
NOT WANT THAT TO HAPPEN knows it will happen soon regardless. Hah, such
is
life!! Can I take more? Short attention span. Warm. Does not like
feeling wet
after touching water HATES IT yuck. More music! R notes there is ZERO
psychedelic nature to this drug at least in this experience. Not down
yet.
Writing a lot, should probably write less so as not to bore the reader.
T 130min. A is feeling introspective thoughts. He feels
placid and %u201Cunaffected by behaviors and feelings characterized and
associated
with the dopamine system due Adderall-induced
to tolerance.%u201D Boy what a mouthful! A clearly has his full mind. He
starts a conversation about living with
more general awareness and focused intention.
T 150min: R is coming down emotionally, still very speedy.
Talkative, dancing. This drug would be fun to do at a party she thinks
but
everyone would surely know she was on drugs. Still enjoying music,
dancing,
touch, and rubbing. Keep going back to speaker to put ears on it. Feel
UNDERwhelmed by visual scope compared to touch, smell, sound to the
point that
I want to keep my eyes closed. It is boring compared to everything else.
Coming
down pretty quickly. What a ride! R found the last 2.5 hours to be very
enjoyable and really wished she didn%u2019t have to come down.
T 160min. Beginning to feel only speedy. HR130. Dancing in
place to New Order. Feel hot.
T 170min. Crashing. Nausea. HR120. Pupils normal. A is
crashing too. He feels %u201Cwiped out, sweaty, and yucky.%u201D R feels down but
not too
bad, almost mad about not still being up.
T 180min: Definitely crashed. R notes that tactile
sensations are almost back to normal. Back to that feeling of 20mg
Adderall
felt initially. Thoughts no longer rushing. A feels stressed, anxious,
and
paranoid. Our jaws are still tense.
T 200min: The need to keep R%u2019s hands moving is subsiding but
still present. Have no desire to move. A continues to feel anxious and
starts up
a hookah.
T 225min: A says he feels dysphoric. R feels almost
completely sober. We smoke the hookah. R finds it to be relaxing, A does
not. R
has no appetite despite not eating much today. R also finds that if she
is
paying attention to something else, she will start rubbing her hands
completely
without realizing it at all.
T 235min: A feels more dysphoric. R feels very normal except
for a slight speediness and a lack of clearheaded thinking and general
%u201Cdumb%u201D
feeling. Very surprised to find her heartrate to still be elevated to
130bpm at
this point. For the record it is the normal pattern for A to have a
difficult
crash from stimulants and R to have little or no crash.
In conclusion:
R: I had a lot of fun. The high gently marched towards an electric
euphoria, staying there for a good while, then somewhat quickly passed
through a short crash back to baseline. The physical sensations of
simply touching and being touched were outstanding, almost
overwhelmingly pleasurable, and very sensual. All senses were
significantly heightened except for vision. I wish it could have lasted
longer and will try this drug again most likely with a dose of 200mg. I
personally did not find the high to be insightful or thought provoking,
which is why I am referring to it as a high rather than a trip. Rather
it just felt very, very good to be high both physically and emotionally.
A: This was not a good experience. My sum is comparable to a
really dirty stimulant such as ephedrine or a large dose of caffeine
combined
with the pleasant body buzz of alcohol. Throughout the come-up I felt
very
tense and only after a while did the positive body buzz come through,
which
only lasted about 45 minutes. Emotionally I felt flat, uncreative, and
cognitively impaired. I also would say I felt socially withdrawn. Music
did
sound better. I would only repeat the experience mixed with another drug
that
modulates the reuptake of dopamine as the come-down and jitteriness
outweighed
any positive feelings during this high.
