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 bigmike7104
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mrGerard1277 said:
This thread was just a cry for attention.
i would say more of a cry for help if anything. and when your going through that bad of a depression, being alone really sucks
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Over thinking, over analyzing separates the body from the mind
Withering my intuition, missing opportunities and I must
Feed my will to feel my moment drawing way outside the lines
Edited by bigmike7104 (03/04/12 10:25 PM)
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 drkkenny
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 Re: i'm going to commit suicide (moved)  [Re: bigmike7104]
#15905974 - 03/05/12 10:33 PM (1 year, 2 months ago) |
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Still isolated =/
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drkkenny
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Re: i'm going to commit suicide (moved) [Re: drkkenny]
#15906152 - 03/05/12 11:06 PM (1 year, 2 months ago) |
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wish May was here already...for my mental health.
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“Me and Me now"
― James Joyce
"There is only one rule in life and this is it: once a thought begins it must be followed to the end"
-Me
“That would be a good thing for them to cut on my tombstone: Wherever she went, including here, it was against her better judgment.”
― Dorothy Parker
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Re: i'm going to commit suicide (moved) [Re: drkkenny]
#15906158 - 03/05/12 11:08 PM (1 year, 2 months ago) |
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drkkenny said:
wish May was here already...for my mental health.
Yeah man. I always feel much better when it's sunny and warm.
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Re: i'm going to commit suicide (moved) [Re: drkkenny]
#15906205 - 03/05/12 11:16 PM (1 year, 2 months ago) |
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haha...that made me chuckle, thanks. but I meant for college to arrive so I can burst out of my shell & try to articulate the "message" to people in the best possible way I can.
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One of my favorite songs ever: http://m.youtube.com/#/watch?v=ILo1v6Y7IB4&desktop_uri=%2Fwatch%3Fv%3DILo1v6Y7IB4
“Me and Me now"
― James Joyce
"There is only one rule in life and this is it: once a thought begins it must be followed to the end"
-Me
“That would be a good thing for them to cut on my tombstone: Wherever she went, including here, it was against her better judgment.”
― Dorothy Parker
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Re: i'm going to commit suicide (moved) [Re: drkkenny]
#15906350 - 03/05/12 11:39 PM (1 year, 2 months ago) |
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drkkenny said:
haha...that made me chuckle, thanks. but I meant for college to arrive so I can burst out of my shell & try to articulate the "message" to people in the best possible way I can.
I always put off befriending new people. It's always next semester I'll be doin' thangs. What is your "message" in particular?
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their is still 4 feet of snow here but you can definitely fell the spring frenzy creeping
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Re: i'm going to commit suicide (moved) [Re: drkkenny]
#15906481 - 03/06/12 12:07 AM (1 year, 2 months ago) |
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why concern yourself with other people? it's your own life you're living. live it for yourself.
try focusing less on the world outside of your own personal experience
focusing on the negative aspects of society is only going to cause depression and a sense of hopelessness
when you look at your own life and give it value by seeing the potential you have to fulfill your own personal wishes and desires, then life starts to look a lot brighter
no matter how shitty the world looks on the outside, just remember and know that inside yourself resides the gift of free will. and with free will comes the privilege to alter both your own perception and behavior at any given time you so choose to do so~~~ 
do not devalue yourself! you are a beacon of light is this generally dim world and i'm sure you have the inner strength to maneuver around all the bullshit on this planet. or at the very least adapt to it.
also remember to keep your mind in the present moment as much as possible. when your mind starts to drift off into thinking about theoretical futures or vague pasts or extra-personal scenarios, you get pulled out of real-PRESENT-MOMENT-EXPERIENCE that you're being immersed in constantly, and get stuck in repetitive thought loops that lead nowhere... and make you depressed
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okay there's my serious post. it's been a while since i've made one of those here on the shroomery
Edited by Envix (03/06/12 12:24 AM)
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Re: i'm going to commit suicide (moved) [Re: Envix]
#15906612 - 03/06/12 12:37 AM (1 year, 2 months ago) |
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envix... stick to your original avatar okay ?!?
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drkkenny
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To tell them my thoughts on the ills of society, hallucinogens, philosophy, and the likes.
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One of my favorite songs ever: http://m.youtube.com/#/watch?v=ILo1v6Y7IB4&desktop_uri=%2Fwatch%3Fv%3DILo1v6Y7IB4
“Me and Me now"
― James Joyce
"There is only one rule in life and this is it: once a thought begins it must be followed to the end"
-Me
“That would be a good thing for them to cut on my tombstone: Wherever she went, including here, it was against her better judgment.”
― Dorothy Parker
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Re: i'm going to commit suicide (moved) [Re: Envix]
#15906664 - 03/06/12 12:48 AM (1 year, 2 months ago) |
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well I don't have too many stories to tell from my life. I mean when I was younger I use to rob houses/stores , drink/smoke alot, but back then my life was kind of boring...idk i just like to focus more on the world than myself... if that makes sense..i just live for knowledge it seems. the only time i'm truly happy is when i'm debating or having an intellectual conversation..or at a concert/festival. the rest of the time i'm just expanding my knowledge/creativity. i think i just need to find a girl who's into my interests so i can connect with them.
i could make up stories tho...and rehearse them so i sound like i've had an interesting life haha...like dude i was tripping on 4 hits of acid and gambling and won 600 dollars, like it felt like i could read their minds while i was playing cards! eh, kinda fucked up but i mean when you feel like you're at the end of the road shouldn't you resort to w.e helps?
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One of my favorite songs ever: http://m.youtube.com/#/watch?v=ILo1v6Y7IB4&desktop_uri=%2Fwatch%3Fv%3DILo1v6Y7IB4
“Me and Me now"
― James Joyce
"There is only one rule in life and this is it: once a thought begins it must be followed to the end"
-Me
“That would be a good thing for them to cut on my tombstone: Wherever she went, including here, it was against her better judgment.”
― Dorothy Parker
Edited by drkkenny (03/06/12 12:51 AM)
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Re: i'm going to commit suicide (moved) [Re: drkkenny]
#15909331 - 03/06/12 04:35 PM (1 year, 2 months ago) |
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No, you shouldn't make up stories. You should be content with who you are, and to try to trick people into thinking something different shows that you are probably not. This begs the question, what don't you like about yourself?
It's also good to remember that although it doesn't matter what anybody else thinks, it doesn't necessarily mean they are wrong if they have different views than you. Even if you meet someone with the same views as yourself, that doesn't necessarily make either of you right. Opinions are just that, opinions. Most topics really don't have a correct objective answer, only a subjective one.
Don't get me wrong now, I totally agree with you that the general population is full of retarded sheep who follow the latest fad and vote for people who won't make one single iota of difference, but that shouldn't matter to you. You should do your best to ignore that fact and focus your energy meeting people who have either similar or radically different viewpoints from your own, because these people all have one thing in common. They are interesting!
p.s. The fact that you haven't got to do many crazy things or go many amazing places doesn't make you any less interesting. Telling personal stories is only a small part of discussion. The theoretical, philosophical mind has much more to offer in that respect.
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Re: i'm going to commit suicide (moved) [Re: Anonymous #1]
#15910923 - 03/06/12 09:47 PM (1 year, 2 months ago) |
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Travel.
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Re: i'm going to commit suicide (moved) [Re: drkkenny]
#15970801 - 03/20/12 09:59 AM (1 year, 1 month ago) |
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drkkenny said:
well I don't have too many stories to tell from my life. I mean when I was younger I use to rob houses/stores , drink/smoke alot, but back then my life was kind of boring...idk i just like to focus more on the world than myself... if that makes sense..i just live for knowledge it seems. the only time i'm truly happy is when i'm debating or having an intellectual conversation..or at a concert/festival. the rest of the time i'm just expanding my knowledge/creativity. i think i just need to find a girl who's into my interests so i can connect with them.
i could make up stories tho...and rehearse them so i sound like i've had an interesting life haha...like dude i was tripping on 4 hits of acid and gambling and won 600 dollars, like it felt like i could read their minds while i was playing cards! eh, kinda fucked up but i mean when you feel like you're at the end of the road shouldn't you resort to w.e helps?
Thats enuf of ur bullshit kid. I really hope this thred dies like ur thoughts.
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Re: i'm going to commit suicide [Re: drkkenny]
#15970888 - 03/20/12 10:50 AM (1 year, 1 month ago) |
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dude i don't know you, and i don't know how serious you are, but i do know how serious the thought of suicide is.
so let me say this.
if you really wanted to die and that is what you believe will make you happy, then a true friend would want you to do whatever you have to so that you will be happy.
now if you have someone in your life who is that good of a friend, who would support you no matter WHAT you decide to do, wouldn't you want to do the same, and stay alive and be there for them?
i hope you were just havin a bad day, and that you really think about it, but honestly, whatever you decide to do, i truly hope you are happier because of it.
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 Re: I'm going to commit suicide [Re: drkkenny]
#16263940 - 05/21/12 07:32 PM (11 months, 22 days ago) |
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"& another thing I can't really relate to people ...like they all just do the same shit, no ones different. I read alot of Carlin, Hicks, Burroughs, Dostoevsky, Mckenna, Bukowski, & noone else can understand what I mean when I tell them my opinions on the human condition, they call me crazy while there the ones who never ask questions & are focused primarily on their lives & not the world around them.."
Drkkenny,
I made an account just to reply to you. I must say I am in the same boat you are. I listen to A LOT of the same material. George Carlin, Bill Hicks, Terrance Mckenna, Alan Watts and Joe Rogan specifically. I understand your view a 100%. People are sheep/zombies. They walk around not knowing a damn thing..... unless they hear it on the news, which is total propaganda Bullshit most of the time. I feel socially awkward also. You cant express your feeling to folk without them discrediting your opinion or making you look like a complete loony. I want to end it all a lot of the time. I dont know how to handle it besides passing the time in my room alone. Caught up thinking about how fucked up this place is but (In the famous words of Carlin)"Nobody seems to notice. No one seems to care ". People are worried about where they go shopping and what Kardasians are up too while were on a gigantic rock floating through space with millions more like it.
Okay I'm getting carried away. But Drkkenny Please take the time to respond. You have like-minded people out there. Best of luck to you!
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People can be sheep and do a lot of mindless stuff but that doesn't mean you should isolate yourself. Just do your thing and express yourself the way you want to.
More power to you if you don't care about celebrity culture and materialism but you cannot force those values on others. Not everyone shares your ideals and desires, nor should they be expected to.
Everyone loves to feel like they have common interests with their peers. Liking what other people like is natural.
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Re: I'm going to commit suicide [Re: Asht0n]
#16306003 - 05/30/12 02:40 PM (11 months, 13 days ago) |
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Hi Dr. Kenny...
"IZANAMI!"
lets see how you like this technique...
Whilst under the effects of the technique, the target stands motionlessly as the loop of events continually replays inside their mind.[4] Each time a loop is repeated, any physical damage incurred is reset as it were before the start of the loop, although the remains of severed appendages do not disappear.[5] Despite being able to become consciously aware of their situation and act differently, the victim is unable to significantly alter or escape from the inevitable progression of these events. However, because this technique was created to reprimand and save the users of Izanagi, the victim is able to escape the infinite loop if they can acknowledge the real results of their actions and in doing so, accept their fate.[6]
(naruto humor)
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bigmike7104
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Caught up thinking about how fucked up this place is but (In the famous words of Carlin)"Nobody seems to notice. No one seems to care ". People are worried about where they go shopping and what Kardasians are up too while were on a gigantic rock floating through space with millions more like it.
just because people go shopping and watch the kardasians, doesn't mean they don't think of the big questions in life, i'm sure everyone does to a degree.
besides, i think it's unhealthy when it gets to a point where your thinking too much about the meaning of life instead of actually living life which is the reason why were here in the first place ( which is also something alan watts would agree with). so in that regard, you can learn something from those people, and this is coming from someone who is is the same boat as you so don't take it as looking down on you.
also i'm not saying to become superficial and watch reality shows, just saying try to change your perspective a little bit. even in all the ugliness and misery that is in life, there's just as much beauty and your letting yourself see the latter.
also realize depression is probably a big factor in you thinking "how fucked up this place is" and questioning why were here so much, so the depression and questioning is probably fueling each other.
Alan Watts - Is Life Serious?
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Over thinking, over analyzing separates the body from the mind
Withering my intuition, missing opportunities and I must
Feed my will to feel my moment drawing way outside the lines
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