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i understand completely.

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Kickle said:
And the whole time I was thinking to myself...

Fucking peasants.

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Here's the skinny:

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I'm wealthy to the point (see, I'm positive to the point of even considering myself "wealthy") that the basic struggles of day-to-day finances and work loads are minimal. Further, all of my basic needs and many of my advanced or emotional needs, are taken care of and continue to be nourished by my various experiences in the world which I co-create. Additionally, I am (consider myself to be) relatively successful in terms of higher education, physical appearance, etc.

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uh, ok..

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ence a lot of my free time has been spent cultivating a spiritual practice and existence of reading, meditation, music practice, communion with nature, etc. I've eagerly devoured esoteric and mystic traditions and not only fully "believe" them, but have actually become them - they are operant in my everyday life.

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Here's the problem(s):
People close to me have picked up on my empathetic and compassionate qualities and usually only communicate their problems to me, but to an incessant degree.

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*rolls eyes*

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I carry the emotional weight of everyone who is close to me and it's draining.

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that's fat actually mate

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ut more so, which is partly my own fault, I am developing a compulsion that compels me to see most of everyone else as needy, suffering individuals - akin to the true intentions of interpersonal communication that manifest when groups of people take LSD.

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wtf was that last part? *blank stare*

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I realize this mindset is marked by ego inflation.

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Do you realize this post is ego inflation, mate?

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No one stays on their high horse for long.

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How very true. *snickers*

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This blissful beauty that I have developed,

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oh brother

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both internally as a spiritual creature

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*gags*

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and externally as a member of society, is likely to collapse or undergo some radical change just due to the fact that as a dynamic individual,

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omfg is this dude for real

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I'm likely to attract this very change in order to induce a new variety of personal growth.

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He's good huh?

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No one makes it out without a little mud on their boots; suffering to some extent is inevitable.

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Yet, I have suffered in my past... a lot. Part of the identity I enjoy embracing - especially the one I've embodied for the past couple of years - is one that has been born out of difficult life lessons.

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It's good to know that difficult life lessons are used by you so skillfully.

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To return to the depressed and hopeless mindset from which the current "me" has arisen would be a nightmare.

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why do you say "me" ? there two of you something bro?

Thus, my fear is that sooner or later I will be unable to continue this path of progress and will become pessimistic and negative as many of those around me, who are currently as unable as I am to see the beautiful magic in the world
if you see the world how they see it you're in the same boat as them. that's ALL there is.

- the profundity in the simplicity. And this horrifies me. In short, despite a part of me that acknowledges the illusion and dichotomy of the "Self," I am scared of becoming the "other."
You never become anything.

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Seems like you identify a lot with what you think you are

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