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 should i commit suicide??? 
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I know everyone that thinks about suicide was most likely given a terrible lot in life ie poor,abusive parents, ect and furthermore theyre problems are things that can be changed but i myself am neither. i have been born into a wealthy family and have been handed everything to me in life however i have many things in my life that i cannot change that are bringing me to the brink of suicide and im not sure if suicide is the right answer. i myself am very ugly by traditional standards however have very good looking and succesdful siblings, i have social problems that give me great anxiety unless i am litterally alone or happen to be in a manic state, i was born with bipolar disorder which constantly keeps me in a severe depression with little lipses of manic but as time goes on the depression has been taking over to the point where its 90 percent depression 10 percent manic, i was also born with klinefelters syndrome which made me infertile so i cannnot have kids and have underdeveloped genitalia making sex near impossible and embarrasing, my depression has driven my friends away and my family just ignores me and my problems as they all are for lack of a better term: perfect, i have had very few sexual relationships and due to my disorder have never had anything but one night stands, nothing remotley close to a girlfriend, all this being said i believe i can truthfully and logically say that ive got nothing to live for,i have never shared this information with anyone as i have no one to share it with but perhaps random non biased input is what i need please let me know if suicide is the answer and if so what would be the best way for my families sake eventhough I don’t belive it would effect them for more than a month
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seriously? suicide if never the answer and will start more problems and solve absolutely nothing, you will leave all of the people who care for you with an endless pile of shit (wheater u think the care about you or not). if you seriously think this wont effect your family your as wrong as u possibly can be. wheter or not you think they love you i guarantee you they do and hell i dont even know you at all. but to say the least your parents are YOUR PARENTS man, they brought you into this world and you were and still are their miracle wheter they show it or not all parents do love their children. You may want to try smoking pot to help you get past some of your depression, it works for me and most people.
you only live once guy and if you decide to let all of your problems and this depression beat you with suicide then thats very sad because you everyone only has one chance in life in which you can do anything you want with, the choice is only yours...
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Re: should i commit suicide??? [Re: t0ker]
#11735852 - 12/29/09 06:34 AM (3 years, 4 months ago) |
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(original poster): its not the depression but the fact that i can never lead a normal life my problems have no solutions except for me to cope with them, all i want in life is to have good friends a good wife and a good family, but my god given problems have prevented me from having anything close to a girl friend and i can never father children, is it selfish of me to what i call euthanize myself for the sake that my perfect family can keep their status quo? where can i find a wife that can deal with abstinence
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Lots of women dont want kids or any more kids so thats not really an issue as long as you're upfront about it. The ugly thing is in your head. i know lots of ugly people who are married, have regular sex and stuff. Ugly really is a state of mind. Sure being pretty helps but its not everything.
Sweet fuck all people who claim to be bi-polar actually are. Its an excuse, like ADD. so many half assed doctors use it as a catchall solution. God, I could so easily write off so many of my lifes issues with either ADD or bi-polar.
My guess is you have a large dose of being a middle kid...
Anyways what you need to do is crawl out of your own ass for a while and see the world a bit. Since you're no doubt an american It means you see the world through tiny dumbass blinkers and have probably never left your home state.
Join a back packers website and travel the world for at least a year or do some missionary work or absolutly anything that lets you see how how people with a whole lot less then you have to offer live and prosper.
If, after you hahe travelled you still want to kill yourself then re-visit this thread
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Re: should i commit suicide??? [Re: Fleadh]
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talk to a therapist, family, friend, anyone who will listen; if you still want to after a couple of years; feel free. good luck
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(original poster): its not the depression but the fact that i can never lead a normal life my problems have no solutions except for me to cope with them, all i want in life is to have good friends a good wife and a good family, but my god given problems have prevented me from having anything close to a girl friend and i can never father children, is it selfish of me to what i call euthanize myself for the sake that my perfect family can keep their status quo? where can i find a wife that can deal with abstinence
were you born with no penis or something?
even ugly guys can get pussy and be happy with whatever misshapen, obese woman will have them... just ask dobie.
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Well, from an evolutionary viewpoint, you're a genetic dead end, so suicide would be a viable option if you're a really orthodox evolutionist. But that's about the only reason I can think of to do it that makes sense even remotely.
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eventhough I don’t belive it would effect them for more than a month
Projecting your lack of self esteem on your family members is not only shortsighted, it is also an extremely cruel thing to do to the ones who love you most. Don't underestimate the impact of suicide on your social network. It's going to aid no one, arguably not even yourself.
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were you born with no penis or something?
even ugly guys can get pussy and be happy with whatever misshapen, obese woman will have them... just ask dobie.
An inability to procreate will definitely affect the willingness of most women to enter a long-term relationship. Of course, such a concern is irrelevant of you haven't grown up beyond the 'life is all about getting pussy' stage. Every dog has its day. Does that mean every human will get a life?
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RUN AWAY TO MONASTERY IN CHINA
LEARN THE CHI
THEY WILL GIVE YOU HERBS AND QIGONG TO FIX YOUR BODY
ETHRIC, ASTRAL, PHYSICAL
YOU CAN LEARN THE LONGEVITY SECRETS
MONO-ATOMIC GOLD
OR GO TO THE AMAZON AND TRAIN UNDER A SHAMAN
THE EARTH CAN HEAL YOU
YOU JUST HAVE TO REMEMBER HOW YOU'VE DONE IT ALL BEFORE
REMEMBER?
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do you think sex makes people happy?
it doesn't... think of all the 80 year old men who can't get a boner anymore. they go thru the same thng, theres ALOT more to Life than sex
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Re: should i commit suicide??? [Re: sleepy]
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If you wanna make him feel better, at least don't try to bullshit him. 
Sex IS very pleasant and it does make people happy, but so are so many other things in life.
OP, if the only reasons for which you want to kill yourself is your infertility, your lack of good looks by commonly accepted standards, and the fact that you can't have kids, maybe you need to reconsider it. I am not going to be full of crap and say that suicide is never the answer, because for some people in some cases it really is, and IMO, this happens when one simply can't find a way to stop feeling continuously depressed, can't feel motivated, and feels utterly alienated and alone all the time, but you don't really seem to be in this case since you don't seem to totally want to die.
Also, your family is not what's important here. The only thing that's important is how you feel, and what you want.
Before really considering suicide, at least try to know as much as possible from this life and human experience, it's not like you have anything to lose anyways, especially if you compare it with taking your own life which would imply giving up on everything, without remorse. You can use this feeling as a motivator, and realize that, no matter if you keep living or if you die, you still have nothing to lose. Try traveling for example; this planet is so beautiful and diverse that it is something worth seeing and knowing, and far more complex than having a successful job or good looks.
Who knows, maybe after traveling everywhere you'll decide to live in Japan and then you will never even have to worry about the size of your genitals, since it will be something so common over there.
Not to mention that you'll get all those hot Japanese chicks. 
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And never known your face
All this time I've missed you
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Here is true peace
Here my heart knows calm
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RUN AWAY TO MONASTERY IN CHINA
LEARN THE CHI
THEY WILL GIVE YOU HERBS AND QIGONG TO FIX YOUR BODY
ETHRIC, ASTRAL, PHYSICAL
YOU CAN LEARN THE LONGEVITY SECRETS
MONO-ATOMIC GOLD
OR GO TO THE AMAZON AND TRAIN UNDER A SHAMAN
THE EARTH CAN HEAL YOU
YOU JUST HAVE TO REMEMBER HOW YOU'VE DONE IT ALL BEFORE
REMEMBER?
I second this motion!
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Re: should i commit suicide??? [Re: Ginseng1]
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In China? 
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All this time I've loved you
And never known your face
All this time I've missed you
And searched this human race
Here is true peace
Here my heart knows calm
Safe in your soul
Bathed in your sighs
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Re: should i commit suicide??? *DELETED* [Re: Anonymous #1]
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i live in one of the richest towns in the state. actually the richest town. it SUCKS. mo money mo problems, i'm gonna move onto a farm and live in the woods. for all you people working your ass off to make more money, it's not worth it.
can't buy me love
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Re: should i commit suicide??? [Re: sleepy]
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No you shouldnt commit suicide. Just relax and get a grip. ENjoy yourself. Use money to get a massage, I have heard good things about those. ALso try going to the gym, working out feels good. If you want to talk feel free to message me. There are many ways of enjoying your life.
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I know everyone that thinks about suicide was most likely given a terrible lot in life ie poor,abusive parents, ect and furthermore theyre problems are things that can be changed but i myself am neither. i have been born into a wealthy family and have been handed everything to me in life however i have many things in my life that i cannot change that are bringing me to the brink of suicide and im not sure if suicide is the right answer. i myself am very ugly by traditional standards however have very good looking and succesdful siblings, i have social problems that give me great anxiety unless i am litterally alone or happen to be in a manic state, i was born with bipolar disorder which constantly keeps me in a severe depression with little lipses of manic but as time goes on the depression has been taking over to the point where its 90 percent depression 10 percent manic, i was also born with klinefelters syndrome which made me infertile so i cannnot have kids and have underdeveloped genitalia making sex near impossible and embarrasing, my depression has driven my friends away and my family just ignores me and my problems as they all are for lack of a better term: perfect, i have had very few sexual relationships and due to my disorder have never had anything but one night stands, nothing remotley close to a girlfriend, all this being said i believe i can truthfully and logically say that ive got nothing to live for,i have never shared this information with anyone as i have no one to share it with but perhaps random non biased input is what i need please let me know if suicide is the answer and if so what would be the best way for my families sake eventhough I don’t belive it would effect them for more than a month
Pleasure a woman with what god didn't take away, tongue and hands to name a few.
Kids? Adopt, marry someone with kids, find someone who doesn't want kids, or wait for technology to take over and not need sperm. Options are available.
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Re: should i commit suicide??? [Re: Lennyk]
#11741141 - 12/30/09 03:48 AM (3 years, 4 months ago) |
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i would kill myself if i had a deformed penis. i voted yes.
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yeah ive been there
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try making a list of things you enjoy that you CAn do. like music. maybe you could learn an instrument?
remember the good times. everyone has them. its easier to remember bad experiences because they make deep impressions on your consciousness, but good memories tend to fade easy. thats why its so hard to remember drug time. but you can get better. am i right in guessing that you use drugs to cope? that could be a reason that your depression has gotten worse, because they make u high but then u crash.
i'd say give it some time and see how you feel, maybe something will illuminate the situation for you. 
good luck
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Re: should i commit suicide??? [Re: sleepy]
#11745311 - 12/30/09 11:07 PM (3 years, 4 months ago) |
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I just cannot understand people.
What is wrong with dieing? Isn't it just a path? All the sufferings would end, you would end, so there is absolutely nothing to worry about.
Now its your decision if you want to exist or not. Is there something you want to accomplish first?
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hello..
I have stumbled upon this thread by pure chance and the reason I was lead here is that i too want and struggle with the question constantly this has been so for as long as i remember (perhaps as young as 5-6)I'm currently in my late 20's. I was born into a wealthy family also though over the past 10 odd years my fathers gambling habit hurt us financially but the thing with money is more about class than having actual cash.. Meaning i still possess my mannerism and family ties which binds me to wealth to some degree but as I've grown older it has become less of an issue. I couldn't care less how rich or poor you are.. Do you possess grace? Grace is a dying art in people. It is to stand with your head held high even when life has weighed you down and dealt you some awful cards....
I am considered good looking and have made money based on my looks in the fashion industry and it has never made me feel better about myself.
I know the reasons i want to do it is this overwhelming sense of universal pain that may hit me at times like the arrival of a tornado out of nowhere and the pain is bigger than me. Just because there is pain and violence and poverty in other places doesn't mean you don't get affected by it and that is why it is our duty to take away pain from each other to help and to love.
I know the reason I've stayed this long is the fear of the unknown:
Would i be at a better place? Am i going to be back here to go through the same shit again? etc.. etc..
Fact is we are all a bunch of fallen hero's. We have come here to make this world a better place and I don't mean all of us can be a mother Teresa or what not but to have the strength and resilience to do right amidst this chaos and confusion.
Perhaps you need to look inward and see the beauty.. As far as sex and finding a girlfriend did u ever consider that perhaps having the difficulties you have you will encounter and find a true love that will see beyond all that? i mean there are people who have no legs or arms and burn victims and etc who are deformed and yet they find love. They find a truly special kind of love.
Change your perspective on life and life will change. You thought and feelings are ego based. That is what pains you...
I don't even know you but i love you because in truth we are all a family.
love and light to you and you will be in my prayers. Together we will live and make it all better.
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Quote:
MushroomTrip said:
If you wanna make him feel better, at least don't try to bullshit him.
Sex IS very pleasant and it does make people happy, but so are so many other things in life.
OP, if the only reasons for which you want to kill yourself is your infertility, your lack of good looks by commonly accepted standards, and the fact that you can't have kids, maybe you need to reconsider it. I am not going to be full of crap and say that suicide is never the answer, because for some people in some cases it really is, and IMO, this happens when one simply can't find a way to stop feeling continuously depressed, can't feel motivated, and feels utterly alienated and alone all the time, but you don't really seem to be in this case since you don't seem to totally want to die.
Also, your family is not what's important here. The only thing that's important is how you feel, and what you want.
Before really considering suicide, at least try to know as much as possible from this life and human experience, it's not like you have anything to lose anyways, especially if you compare it with taking your own life which would imply giving up on everything, without remorse. You can use this feeling as a motivator, and realize that, no matter if you keep living or if you die, you still have nothing to lose. Try traveling for example; this planet is so beautiful and diverse that it is something worth seeing and knowing, and far more complex than having a successful job or good looks.
Who knows, maybe after traveling everywhere you'll decide to live in Japan and then you will never even have to worry about the size of your genitals, since it will be something so common over there.
Not to mention that you'll get all those hot Japanese chicks.
Nice balance
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Re: should i commit suicide??? [Re: Icelander]
#11963943 - 02/04/10 09:00 PM (3 years, 3 months ago) |
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If you're going to kill yourself you just have the wrong idea altogether about what life is.
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Re: should i commit suicide??? [Re: circastes]
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might as well stick around till 2012 just to see if the world is gonna end anyway. 
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Re: should i commit suicide??? [Re: circastes]
#11964772 - 02/04/10 10:59 PM (3 years, 3 months ago) |
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If you're going to kill yourself you just have the wrong idea altogether about what life is.
That kind of blanket statement shows great ignorance imo. As if you know what the meaning of life is anyway.
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“under the present brutal and primitive conditions on this planet, every person you meet should be regarded as one of the walking wounded. we have never seen a man or woman not slightly deranged by either anxiety or grief. we have never seen a totally sane human being.”
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Re: should i commit suicide??? [Re: HuHEN]
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might as well stick around till 2012 just to see if the world is gonna end anyway.
This.
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Re: should i commit suicide??? [Re: 2bornot2b]
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great first post.
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2bornot2b said:
hello..
I have stumbled upon this thread by pure chance and the reason I was lead here is that i too want and struggle with the question constantly this has been so for as long as i remember (perhaps as young as 5-6)I'm currently in my late 20's. I was born into a wealthy family also though over the past 10 odd years my fathers gambling habit hurt us financially but the thing with money is more about class than having actual cash.. Meaning i still possess my mannerism and family ties which binds me to wealth to some degree but as I've grown older it has become less of an issue. I couldn't care less how rich or poor you are.. Do you possess grace? Grace is a dying art in people. It is to stand with your head held high even when life has weighed you down and dealt you some awful cards....
I am considered good looking and have made money based on my looks in the fashion industry and it has never made me feel better about myself.
I know the reasons i want to do it is this overwhelming sense of universal pain that may hit me at times like the arrival of a tornado out of nowhere and the pain is bigger than me. Just because there is pain and violence and poverty in other places doesn't mean you don't get affected by it and that is why it is our duty to take away pain from each other to help and to love.
I know the reason I've stayed this long is the fear of the unknown:
Would i be at a better place? Am i going to be back here to go through the same shit again? etc.. etc..
Fact is we are all a bunch of fallen hero's. We have come here to make this world a better place and I don't mean all of us can be a mother Teresa or what not but to have the strength and resilience to do right amidst this chaos and confusion.
Perhaps you need to look inward and see the beauty.. As far as sex and finding a girlfriend did u ever consider that perhaps having the difficulties you have you will encounter and find a true love that will see beyond all that? i mean there are people who have no legs or arms and burn victims and etc who are deformed and yet they find love. They find a truly special kind of love.
Change your perspective on life and life will change. You thought and feelings are ego based. That is what pains you...
I don't even know you but i love you because in truth we are all a family.
love and light to you and you will be in my prayers. Together we will live and make it all better.
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I think about it all the time. Everyday is miserable and I wonder if it'll ever get better yet I know life is temporary. Temporary! Does it matter if you do it today, tomorrow, next week? When I get a teminal disease, that'll be it...otherwise, I'm just going to suck it up and see what happens. My family doesn't give a flying fuck about me either, but fuck them. Why should I give a rat's ass about how they feel about me? Dying is unavoidable anyway so why make it happen sooner unless you have a terminal disease? Everyone is lonesome at certain points in their lives. There are people who are in horrible situations right now who don't have the option to die. Prison camps, foreign countries without hope, orphans with no where to go...the list is endless. It may not make you feel better knowing these things yet one day, may-be you'll be able to look back and say, "I'm not where want to be, but at least I'm not where I used to be."
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all i want in life is to have good friends a good wife and a good family, but my god given problems have prevented me from having anything close to a girl friend and i can never father children, is it selfish of me to what i call euthanize myself for the sake that my perfect family can keep their status quo? where can i find a wife that can deal with abstinence
There are a few women that can deal and prefer abstinence.
If you cant give birth to children then you can always adopt, there are many kids without a loving home, instead of complaining about your inabilities, realize that theres still a way around that not only lets you have what you want but will also help others.
As for the underdeveloped genitalia, sex is generally over rated by the media, so stop judging what your life should be like by comparing your life to what you see on TV. Keep in mind that people can be very understanding, especially if they care about you. Once you find a woman that you want to be with dont be so afraid that you shoot yourself in the foot, chances are she will be cool with it as long as you use your other tools (hands, tongue, toys, etc). Look at married handicapped people.
The only real thing holding you back is your depression, and hopefully with some therapy, insight, self exploring, and the will to better yourself, you will be able to enjoy your life.
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"MolokoMilkPlus said:
I'll respect you if you let me give you a blow job"
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respect the can."
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Is life worth living for its own sake, regardless of the circumstances that constrain us? That seems to be the implied argument of people who always protest against suicide, but I disagree. There are many scenarios I can imagine which would lead me to spring the mortal coil without much emotional bush-beating or thought to the implications it would have for others. Life isn't a priceless treat that should be preserved regardless IMO. Life is something that happens to you, and the prerequisite circumstances from which life arises certainly don't mean it will be favorable to personal satisfaction.
If I was in OP's shoes, it would just be a matter of weighing out various factors and then making a decision:
Is my present life satisfying?
If yes, don't commit suicide.
If no, continue to B.
B. What is the likelihood of my circumstances changing* to become something fulfilling?
1. >80% - don't kill myself
2. >60% - wait awhile and reevaluate
3. <40% - start browsing shroomery posts on how to commit suicide
4. <20% - question of suicide is not if, but when
5. <10% - RIP
Of course these values are arbitrary, and you could also factor in how long you're willing to put up with a shit life in the hopes of a better one, and various other factors of personal preference. But I think some systematic method of deciding is probably ideal. It reduces the likelihood of a poorly decided, impulsive suicide, and if you stick to your guidelines you won't endure a shit life forever in the erroneous hope that it will improve.
*There are many proactive steps that can be taken to find satisfaction within present circumstances, without those circumstances themselves changing. Indeed much of the progress you can make will come through this, rather than hoping something magically happens for you rather than because of you.
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Re: should i commit suicide??? [Re: Grok]
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I liked MTrips post.
OP I usually think about how I would feel about living if something shitty happened, like if i got in a bike wreck and lost the use of the lower half of my body.
It would be pretty shitty, especially since i dont really have a mountain of cash to fall back on, even a place of my own. Id probably be living with my parents forever, and would never have kids, wife, etc...
But at least there would be football. And gambling.
Those two things are enough to keep me around. Just find your thing.
If I were you, id go to school (if you havent already) and pick a career that youd be interested in. Ask your parents to pay for your school thats out of state, somewhere where you can move away, hopefully theyll pay for your place too. Id also start reading some self help books on self-confidence, and living for the joy of life, that kind of shit. It helps, a lot. Barnes and Noble: self help is your oasis.
join a band, i dunno, do something that will get you focused on the cool shit in life. there is so much more than women. if you can masturbate, fuckit man, thats good enough. i can live a happy life with football and masturbation.
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Re: should i commit suicide??? [Re: HuHEN]
#12577456 - 05/17/10 07:12 AM (3 years, 5 days ago) |
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might as well stick around till 2012 just to see if the world is gonna end anyway.
That was my original plan.
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Re: should i commit suicide??? [Re: mick]
#12577479 - 05/17/10 07:25 AM (3 years, 5 days ago) |
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I liked MTrips post.
OP I usually think about how I would feel about living if something shitty happened, like if i got in a bike wreck and lost the use of the lower half of my body.
It would be pretty shitty, especially since i dont really have a mountain of cash to fall back on, even a place of my own. Id probably be living with my parents forever, and would never have kids, wife, etc...
But at least there would be football. And gambling.
Those two things are enough to keep me around. Just find your thing.
If I were you, id go to school (if you havent already) and pick a career that youd be interested in. Ask your parents to pay for your school thats out of state, somewhere where you can move away, hopefully theyll pay for your place too. Id also start reading some self help books on self-confidence, and living for the joy of life, that kind of shit. It helps, a lot. Barnes and Noble: self help is your oasis.
join a band, i dunno, do something that will get you focused on the cool shit in life. there is so much more than women. if you can masturbate, fuckit man, thats good enough. i can live a happy life with football and masturbation.
There is more than sex in a relationship with a woman. A lot of my depressed friends turned into masturbation addicts thinking it could replace the feelings. Constantly driving up your dopamine and having it crash on you doesn't make a person happy.
I like the rest though 
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I really hope you didn't end up committing suicide. Your family will miss you longer than a month. My friend committed suicide, and I still think about him everyday. That was 5 years ago. I'm struggling myself, and I really do feel your pain. I was raped a year ago on new years, after saving myself for 21 years. I was diagnosed last month with HPV. All I have ever wanted is to find someone who loves me. But I have also struggled with the idea that no one will ever have sex with me. But I have faith that we both will find someone. True love sees past sex. It only takes that one person to fall in love. It's normal that it hasn't happened yet. It will. I promise. But there really is more to life. I hope that you can find joy in other things. I have found a lot of joy in music and art. I hope that you can find something you are passionate about. But really the one reason that I have never gone through with suicide, is because of God. I'm not sure if you believe or not. But He gives us a promise that things will get better, and that He loves us. Jer 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." I am praying for you, and I hope that you see light. One of my favourite Mumford and Sons songs has lyrics that sum up what I am trying to say to you- "There will come a time, you'll see, with no more tears. And love will not break your heart, but dismiss your fears. Get over your hill and see what you find there".
Good luck friend.
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Re: should i commit suicide??? [Re: jmorgan_55]
#13645626 - 12/17/10 04:51 AM (2 years, 5 months ago) |
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You might not read my message but if you do understand this, your depression, your struggle can be a good thing. I am on the tail end of a three year suicidal depressive psychotic nightmare. Ive been through everything, thinking about my experience fills me with emotion and often almost brings me to tears. But i can see a bright day, in my darkest moments I pictured some place far off in the future, a bright sunny day, a life to strive for. I woke up today and I felt happy. All of the struggle, all of the inner pain, low self esteem, self hate, for a few hours dissipated. I rode a bus around town listening to music, not worrying, not thinking about what I do or do not have. I just enjoyed life, despite my shortcomings, social anxiety, depression, and all of that. I have been manic, I know what its like, I know what its like to hide all night long in my colleges library due to paranoia, I know pain. When the happiness comes, the pain the struggle it all feels worth it. Trust me. When you make it, and you will, you will understand. Recognize this may take years, start slow, take each day. Be introspective, but not negative. Try and understand why the opinion of society and others can have such an impact on your life. There are more people than you could ever imagine experiencing the same thing...
The inner pain will lead to inner growth if you allow it. Use this time of struggle to reconstruct yourself, study the brain, study society, study whatever it takes to learn about yourself and why you are the way you are. Accepting yourself as stuck as a bipolar individual is giving up. Dont let people tell you that you cannot change. Ive been manic up for days, and im here now no longer experiencing the symptoms of bipolar disorder. I cant tell you how to fix yourself, I can only tell you that you most likely can. Avoid those who give you a negative impression of yourself, and start exercising...it helps alot. Eat healthy. Good luck.
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Re: should i commit suicide??? [Re: jmorgan_55]
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jmorgan_55 said:
I really hope you didn't end up committing suicide. Your family will miss you longer than a month. My friend committed suicide, and I still think about him everyday. That was 5 years ago. I'm struggling myself, and I really do feel your pain. I was raped a year ago on new years, after saving myself for 21 years. I was diagnosed last month with HPV. All I have ever wanted is to find someone who loves me. But I have also struggled with the idea that no one will ever have sex with me. But I have faith that we both will find someone. True love sees past sex. It only takes that one person to fall in love. It's normal that it hasn't happened yet. It will. I promise. But there really is more to life. I hope that you can find joy in other things. I have found a lot of joy in music and art. I hope that you can find something you are passionate about. But really the one reason that I have never gone through with suicide, is because of God. I'm not sure if you believe or not. But He gives us a promise that things will get better, and that He loves us. Jer 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." I am praying for you, and I hope that you see light. One of my favourite Mumford and Sons songs has lyrics that sum up what I am trying to say to you- "There will come a time, you'll see, with no more tears. And love will not break your heart, but dismiss your fears. Get over your hill and see what you find there".
Good luck friend.
I told my current girlfriend who was a virgin that i might have HPV......its not that big a deal, Luckily for us the biological need to reproduce overcomes fear of STD's. People still get aids dont they
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If the OP is still alive and for anyone else thinking of killing themselves. I aint even going to post a story/reason. read everything that has been posted before me. Some GREAT stories and positive wisdom. PLENTY of info of why not to kill yourself. 
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Re: should i commit suicide??? [Re: dshow]
#13649252 - 12/17/10 11:38 PM (2 years, 5 months ago) |
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Start to not give a fuck. Seriously. You only have one life. Do whatever pleases you.
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Start to not give a fuck. Seriously. You only have one life. Do whatever pleases you.
This is the best short advice you can have. When you stop giving a fuck. You get better at life. You do things you would never do. You might travel to some random country cuz who the fuck knows why. You go to a rave. endless...
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I know it's been a while since you've posted it, but if you're still around I don't think you should commit suicide. I myself are contemplating suicide for a number of reasons. I have been an alcoholic for 3 years(Im only 20) and I've been addicted to weed for 4 years(I know most people would laugh at this, but if I stop I dont sleep for days and I have loss of coordination, appetite, and I get very angry at everyone.). The only way i've been able to hold myself back is to say to myself it's going to be painful, in one way or the other.
And to all of those who believe he can just get a girlfriend and start living a normal life it isn't that easy. Kleinfelters syndrome is a very tough condition to live with. I do not have it myself but I have done a fair bit of research on it. Basically you have a penis the size of a 9 year olds. You grow small breasts. You are infertile. If I had kleinfelters syndrome I would probably kill myself.
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Re: should i commit suicide??? [Re: zalsrevenge]
#14041799 - 02/28/11 02:50 PM (2 years, 2 months ago) |
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Since youre anonymous its hard to feel bad. I think you should do it!
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Re: should i commit suicide??? [Re: Hakim0777]
#14043440 - 02/28/11 06:50 PM (2 years, 2 months ago) |
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25 people are blood thirsty cannibals up in here  
Dude, if you have bipolar there is one easy solution: pills. They're the best answer for now, don't do something stupid now, just think of the huge shift in perspective you have between mania and depression? Imagine medication being able to bring balance and shift you more towards manic, without all the bad stuff. Remember the huge boost in confidence you get while manic? That alone makes girls panties fly off no matter how you look or what you have in your pants. Remember, it's just perspective you have what you got and it's up to you to make the best out of it.
Come back and tell us everything is OK! Good luck
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MushroomTrip said:
If you wanna make him feel better, at least don't try to bullshit him.
Sex IS very pleasant and it does make people happy, but so are so many other things in life.
OP, if the only reasons for which you want to kill yourself is your infertility, your lack of good looks by commonly accepted standards, and the fact that you can't have kids, maybe you need to reconsider it. I am not going to be full of crap and say that suicide is never the answer, because for some people in some cases it really is, and IMO, this happens when one simply can't find a way to stop feeling continuously depressed, can't feel motivated, and feels utterly alienated and alone all the time, but you don't really seem to be in this case since you don't seem to totally want to die.
Also, your family is not what's important here. The only thing that's important is how you feel, and what you want.
Before really considering suicide, at least try to know as much as possible from this life and human experience, it's not like you have anything to lose anyways, especially if you compare it with taking your own life which would imply giving up on everything, without remorse. You can use this feeling as a motivator, and realize that, no matter if you keep living or if you die, you still have nothing to lose. Try traveling for example; this planet is so beautiful and diverse that it is something worth seeing and knowing, and far more complex than having a successful job or good looks.
Who knows, maybe after traveling everywhere you'll decide to live in Japan and then you will never even have to worry about the size of your genitals, since it will be something so common over there.
Not to mention that you'll get all those hot Japanese chicks.
you're an idiot 
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