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 Freedom
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#16468427 - 07/02/12 01:57 AM (10 months, 11 days ago) |
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I met this girl I don't even want to have sex with her
knocked me off my center, if she were to tell me she dislikes me I would become depressed if she told me she really liked me I'd be elated blissed out
I don't know what it is I always have a wall or shield to protect me from what people think about me but one out of a thousand girls for some reason (probably less threatening) and then if they have time for me well then...
this also opens the door for heightened emotions in everything, life kind of comes alive. I guess this is one of the things people call love. I would not say love but emotionally open almost in the same way walls come down with acid. I wouldn't call this love I would just call it being open, another layer of denumbing myself with the aid of someone I can trust
Just a field report
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Edited by Freedom (07/02/12 01:58 AM)
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Jwlst
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Why not cut out the middle girl and go straight to the source?
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Freedom
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Re: Girls [Re: Jwlst]
#16468464 - 07/02/12 02:09 AM (10 months, 11 days ago) |
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I don't think it goes past the blood brain barrier
I bet it would be my drug of choice otherwise
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Rail_Gun
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I wish I could feel that way about a woman. I'm permanently emotionally damaged from my first serious relationship. I have a lot of trouble forming emotional attachments with women now. As a result I meet a really nice girl and we date for a while maybe a few months and I find myself pretending to love even though I really don't. This leads me to self sabotaging behavior as well as feelings of guilt that I'm leading her on. I honestly don't think I can ever truly trust again.
Be grateful for those selfless and loving feelings. That is pure of heart and a treasure to covet.
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HungryHipp07
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fuck it, just learn from each other and move on.
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Freedom said:
I met this girl I don't even want to have sex with her
knocked me off my center, if she were to tell me she dislikes me I would become depressed if she told me she really liked me I'd be elated blissed out
I don't know what it is I always have a wall or shield to protect me from what people think about me but one out of a thousand girls for some reason (probably less threatening) and then if they have time for me well then...
this also opens the door for heightened emotions in everything, life kind of comes alive. I guess this is one of the things people call love. I would not say love but emotionally open almost in the same way walls come down with acid. I wouldn't call this love I would just call it being open, another layer of denumbing myself with the aid of someone I can trust
Just a field report
Gee, brings to mind a conversation we had when you were visiting. If you don't remember I'm not going to remind you.
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LunarEclipse
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fuck it, just move on.
of course i am jealous that sounds really great freedom. she will find reasons to burst your bubble but in a nice way of course. women are classic passive aggressive and will only turn the knife while pulling it out of your own immolation. by then the pain will be a relief and you will thank them in the morning.
or something like that.
A Girl I Knew
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Freedom
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as I was writing it, it made me think of the martial arts version of knocking someone off their center but I have a feeling thats not what you're talking about
So I probably can't remember. Thats ok, I don't care that I care you won't tell me, it was probably just about death anxiety anyway 
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We talked about martial arts?
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Freedom
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you were saying if you get someone off their center they become defenseless
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and that's what girls do to you? 
And I didn't exactly say that. I was speaking of the centerline principle in non classical wing chun. Breaking your opponents centerline puts them at a distinct disadvantage. But I guess generally you are correct. 
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“under the present brutal and primitive conditions on this planet, every person you meet should be regarded as one of the walking wounded. we have never seen a man or woman not slightly deranged by either anxiety or grief. we have never seen a totally sane human being.”
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Kupo
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Is this woman physically attractive to you?
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 crkhd
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Re: Girls [Re: Jwlst]
#16473445 - 07/03/12 04:21 AM (10 months, 10 days ago) |
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Jwlst said:
Why not cut out the middle girl and go straight to the source?
Yeah! Fuck life! I had fun once, it was awful! Why not cut out the middle everything and just get straight to the point?
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"THE Human, you, is a miniscule but essential part of that pattern. In it lies complete fulfillment. It will never become something it is not, but it will never need to be anything else." - Wiccan_Seeker
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cez
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Freedom said:
I met this girl I don't even want to have sex with her
knocked me off my center, if she were to tell me she dislikes me I would become depressed if she told me she really liked me I'd be elated blissed out
I don't know what it is I always have a wall or shield to protect me from what people think about me but one out of a thousand girls for some reason (probably less threatening) and then if they have time for me well then...
this also opens the door for heightened emotions in everything, life kind of comes alive. I guess this is one of the things people call love. I would not say love but emotionally open almost in the same way walls come down with acid. I wouldn't call this love I would just call it being open, another layer of denumbing myself with the aid of someone I can trust
Just a field report
I'm finding your rhetoric and viewpoints to be quite interesting and very relateable
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Jwlst
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Re: Girls [Re: crkhd]
#16473609 - 07/03/12 05:30 AM (10 months, 10 days ago) |
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crkhd said:
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Jwlst said:
Why not cut out the middle girl and go straight to the source?
Yeah! Fuck life! I had fun once, it was awful! Why not cut out the middle everything and just get straight to the point?
Good point, from what I hear coffin salesmen excel at tricking people into buying things they don't need.
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dustinthewind13
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Quote:
Freedom said:
I met this girl I don't even want to have sex with her
knocked me off my center, if she were to tell me she dislikes me I would become depressed if she told me she really liked me I'd be elated blissed out
I don't know what it is I always have a wall or shield to protect me from what people think about me but one out of a thousand girls for some reason (probably less threatening) and then if they have time for me well then...
this also opens the door for heightened emotions in everything, life kind of comes alive. I guess this is one of the things people call love. I would not say love but emotionally open almost in the same way walls come down with acid. I wouldn't call this love I would just call it being open, another layer of denumbing myself with the aid of someone I can trust
Just a field report
Funny. I met someone like that once, although opposite from you I actually wanted to have sex with her, which is a very rare thing for me with women. What I do have in common with you was that I was also desperate for her approval. I'm still not sure if it was because she was so damn hot or if it was because she was so fun to be around. Really straight forward. I love it when people contradict me or make obvious my folly, as far as learning goes (my ego thinks differently). Like you said once before, you retreat to the shroomery to have conversations you otherwise wouldn't in real life. Well, she was like the shroomery to me.
Jwlst pointed out it must have been oxytocin, but in a alchemy with other chemicals that cause a similar feeling (phenylethylamine, parachlorophenylanine, vasopressin, DHEA etc.), since it wasn't the typical "love" feeling I get. It was a very strange experience, since I usually never go out of my way to impress women. I'm no Don Juan (you know that ladies man), but I would consider myself a Don Juan aspirant (the other Carlos Castaneda one). She's actually one of the few (very few) women that make me believe I'm bisexual. 
Well, it didn't work out well due to attachment. Less attachment, the better such relationships turn out IMO. She was a chill person and all that, but our life styles just weren't compatible enough. I decided it wasn't going where I wanted it to, so I backed off. It was for the best. I still talk to her every now and then, but always end up dumbing down a few levels. Damn chemicals in my brain make me even more retarded than usual.
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Edited by dustinthewind13 (07/04/12 09:57 PM)
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