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 Im Trying to convince myself that my previous relationship didnt cause psychological damage... 
#16377789 - 06/13/12 10:12 PM (11 months, 4 days ago) |
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But in reality.... It FUCKED me up. Especially in the sex department... Sex is an intimate time where two people share a powerful moment of one-ness... Well that is always my goal. This girl and I REALLY loved each other but she turned out NOT to be the girl I was looking for. In the end, she tried to trap me by getting pregnant with my child. The relationship was SO rocky to begin with.. but I tried to keep it together... But it was WAY WAY too much for me to handle.. This girl was controlling, manipulative and just... EVIL
She could tell I wasn't looking into getting into a relationship with her any longer, and that's when she tried her best to get pregnant.Whenever she didn't get her way, She said SO MANY fucked up and psychologically damaging things to me .. Whats even worse is that I told her about my last girlfriend, who tried doing the same exact thing... She said she would NEVER do something so fucked up... and I began to trust her. Well I was wrong... This girl, despite knowing the YEARS of damage I suffered from the previous situation... STILL went through with it it tried getting herself pregnant.
I am doing my best hold my mental defenses up.. I try and keep remind myself that this girl was a SICK, ill person... I keep telling myself that not all women are like this... But its been causing some serious trust issues with people now(including friendships). Sometimes I even get to the point of feeling almost delusional, like everyone good intentions are to become closer, only for the sake of fucking me over in the end. I cant count how many times people took advantage of my love and kindness.
Thanks for any input
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 Re: Im Trying to convince myself that my previous relationship didnt cause psychological damage... [Re: Anonymous #1]
#16377843 - 06/13/12 10:23 PM (11 months, 4 days ago) |
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I know how that feels.
Not the pregnant part, but being in a relationship that effected me long term after it was over.
Not a good feeling, but it will pass, it always does.
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Re: Im Trying to convince myself that my previous relationship didnt cause psychological damage... [Re: Big Worm]
#16378273 - 06/13/12 11:51 PM (11 months, 4 days ago) |
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similiar boat.
but anyways,
whenever im in contact with a certain female, its like the my self-esteem drops to an all time low, she has a leash on me it seems. she pops up back into my life on yearly intervals, for years. i seem to get depressed, low self-esteem, anxiety, whenever she is in my life, but i care for her so much.
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Anonymous #1
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Re: Im Trying to convince myself that my previous relationship didnt cause psychological damage... [Re: Anonymous #2]
#16415624 - 06/21/12 06:02 PM (10 months, 27 days ago) |
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Im still in the same boat... I had a nervous breakdown last night because i was thinking about wanting a child... and for a moment i thought to myself that I kinda wish we had a baby, despite how psychotic she was and despite ALLLLL the agony i had to suffer
It was a very primal feeling. It made me so upset, like I was a failure
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Re: Im Trying to convince myself that my previous relationship didnt cause psychological damage... [Re: Anonymous #1]
#16415652 - 06/21/12 06:07 PM (10 months, 27 days ago) |
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Lol, I used to feel like that, till I realized how much more beautiful other girls are and more suited for me.
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Re: Im Trying to convince myself that my previous relationship didnt cause psychological damage... [Re: Anonymous #1]
#16417626 - 06/22/12 12:39 AM (10 months, 27 days ago) |
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Anonymous said:
But in reality.... It FUCKED me up. Especially in the sex department... Sex is an intimate time where two people share a powerful moment of one-ness... Well that is always my goal. This girl and I REALLY loved each other but she turned out NOT to be the girl I was looking for. In the end, she tried to trap me by getting pregnant with my child. The relationship was SO rocky to begin with.. but I tried to keep it together... But it was WAY WAY too much for me to handle.. This girl was controlling, manipulative and just... EVIL:(
She could tell I wasn't looking into getting into a relationship with her any longer, and that's when she tried her best to get pregnant.Whenever she didn't get her way, She said SO MANY fucked up and psychologically damaging things to me .. Whats even worse is that I told her about my last girlfriend, who tried doing the same exact thing... She said she would NEVER do something so fucked up... and I began to trust her. Well I was wrong... This girl, despite knowing the YEARS of damage I suffered from the previous situation... STILL went through with it it tried getting herself pregnant.
I am doing my best hold my mental defenses up.. I try and keep remind myself that this girl was a SICK, ill person... I keep telling myself that not all women are like this... But its been causing some serious trust issues with people now(including friendships). Sometimes I even get to the point of feeling almost delusional, like everyone good intentions are to become closer, only for the sake of fucking me over in the end. I cant count how many times people took advantage of my love and kindness.
Thanks for any input
I know what it feels like having a girl just constantly manipulate you emotionally. The fucked up thing is that I keep catching her in her lies. Even though its over between us it still pisses me off that all the lies she told me Im still finding out the truth.
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Re: Im Trying to convince myself that my previous relationship didnt cause psychological damage... [Re: Anonymous #1]
#16418184 - 06/22/12 02:22 AM (10 months, 27 days ago) |
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Girls are all crazy like that. Dont be a school girl.
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Re: Im Trying to convince myself that my previous relationship didnt cause psychological damage... [Re: Anonymous #1]
#16418444 - 06/22/12 03:39 AM (10 months, 27 days ago) |
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You're in denial. I'm fucked up from my ex too. I think anyone who's been in a serious relationship probably is.
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Re: Im Trying to convince myself that my previous relationship didnt cause psychological damage... [Re: Rail_Gun]
#16418477 - 06/22/12 03:48 AM (10 months, 27 days ago) |
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You're in denial. I'm fucked up from my ex too. I think anyone who's been in a serious relationship probably is.
Thats what im saying, you guys expect too much from girls. Sorry but some sexism is required to be a male in a heterosexual relationship. Dont expect women to think, act, and respond logically. It doesnt work like that. Push that expectation out of your mind, and you wont die alone 
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Women who seek to be equal with men lack ambition -Timothy Leary
Everyone has their own unique brand of toxic psychosis -Alexander Shulgin
living forever would be a terrible curse if there were not also quality of life to match it. -Unknown
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Re: Im Trying to convince myself that my previous relationship didnt cause psychological damage... [Re: Almond Flour]
#16418516 - 06/22/12 03:58 AM (10 months, 27 days ago) |
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whats wrong with dying alone?
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Re: Im Trying to convince myself that my previous relationship didnt cause psychological damage... [Re: XxJason LivesxX]
#16418733 - 06/22/12 05:06 AM (10 months, 27 days ago) |
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Your past relationships didn't fuck up your head(not that your head is really fucked anyways). Don't blame that. You made yourself believe that your head is fucked up by believing that the girls actions did something to you. Move on, man. Get some help if you have to, but when it comes down to it, you're still you, and you're still fine.
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Re: Im Trying to convince myself that my previous relationship didnt cause psychological damage... [Re: Anonymous #4]
#16418751 - 06/22/12 05:15 AM (10 months, 27 days ago) |
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Your past relationships didn't fuck up your head(not that your head is really fucked anyways). Don't blame that. You made yourself believe that your head is fucked up by believing that the girls actions did something to you. Move on, man. Get some help if you have to, but when it comes down to it, you're still you, and you're still fine.
Horseshit. Relationships fuck up the heads of most men if they'll admit it. People blow out their brains right after getting dumped would have just done the same thing anyways, right? After your first serious relationship fails you feel difficulty forming new relationships and other negative effects like becoming more jaded and less trusting. I'm speaking for myself and most other people if they're willing to tell the truth about their feelings.
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Re: Im Trying to convince myself that my previous relationship didnt cause psychological damage... [Re: Rail_Gun]
#16419588 - 06/22/12 11:29 AM (10 months, 27 days ago) |
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The only fuck you up if you let them fuck you up by deciding to become jaded or less trusting. If you make a serious effort to analyze your mistakes and triumphs you made in your relationship and your partner's behaviors you can come out better from even the most unhealthy relationship.
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Lynnch
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Re: Im Trying to convince myself that my previous relationship didnt cause psychological damage... [Re: Anonymous #5]
#16419820 - 06/22/12 12:26 PM (10 months, 27 days ago) |
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Sure a relationship can fuck with your mind, but it follows that you can recognize those feelings and fix the problems.
I used to give my love away far too freely. You might call me more paranoid or untrusting, but really I'm just a bit guarded and more reasonable. I'll share my love with anyone, but my *Love is special.
There are far better, non psychotic, chicks out there to have a child with. Focus on finding them rather than getting stuck on the crazy.
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Re: Im Trying to convince myself that my previous relationship didnt cause psychological damage... [Re: Lynnch]
#16419957 - 06/22/12 01:03 PM (10 months, 26 days ago) |
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Sure a relationship can fuck with your mind, but it follows that you can recognize those feelings and fix the problems.
I used to give my love away far too freely. You might call me more paranoid or untrusting, but really I'm just a bit guarded and more reasonable. I'll share my love with anyone, but my *Love is special.
There are far better, non psychotic, chicks out there to have a child with. Focus on finding them rather than getting stuck on the crazy.
You live in a fantasy good sir
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Women who seek to be equal with men lack ambition -Timothy Leary
Everyone has their own unique brand of toxic psychosis -Alexander Shulgin
living forever would be a terrible curse if there were not also quality of life to match it. -Unknown
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#16419979 - 06/22/12 01:09 PM (10 months, 26 days ago) |
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Real CA Milk said:
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Lynnch said:
Sure a relationship can fuck with your mind, but it follows that you can recognize those feelings and fix the problems.
I used to give my love away far too freely. You might call me more paranoid or untrusting, but really I'm just a bit guarded and more reasonable. I'll share my love with anyone, but my *Love is special.
There are far better, non psychotic, chicks out there to have a child with. Focus on finding them rather than getting stuck on the crazy.
You live in a fantasy good sir
anyone who rises above the shit show lives in a fantasy.
no one can possibly be more happy than i am.
the world sucks and everyone besides me is delusional.
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Re: Im Trying to convince myself that my previous relationship didnt cause psychological damage... [Re: k00laid]
#16420533 - 06/22/12 03:32 PM (10 months, 26 days ago) |
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I hate my ex because I love her. She knows how strong my love therefore she used me and in the end she chose the bad guy. It doesn't pay to be the good guy.
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Re: Im Trying to convince myself that my previous relationship didnt cause psychological damage... [Re: Almond Flour]
#16420852 - 06/22/12 04:36 PM (10 months, 26 days ago) |
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How do ya mean dude? That once you experience a heart crushing relationship you're ruined forever? Bladerdash.
Or that there are no sane women? Welll...There's crazy and there's CuhRAYzee, you just gotta sort the two out re: guarded.
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Re: Im Trying to convince myself that my previous relationship didnt cause psychological damage... [Re: Lynnch]
#16434245 - 06/25/12 05:31 AM (10 months, 24 days ago) |
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She told me that I killed our baby She said I caused her so much anxiety and stress that I was the reason she had the miscarriage. I did EVERYTHING for her. I obeyed EVERY command. She kept telling me I wasnt there for her when i was %110. Then she would try to hurt me by "making friends" with new guys. I feel like im about to vomit just because im getting so worked up overt this. I am a weak and insecure person and she used that to get her way every time.
Im startng to think that maybe it would have been a good idea if we had a kid. Maybe I wouldnt feel like a failure like i do now. She would be 3 months pregnant by now. Maybe thngs would have gotten beter. My head is in such a state of dissarrry that im worried about doing something stupid. Im having a major meltdown right now. I dont know what the point of writing this. I dont know what anyone else could say that would just fix my head. I deserve this pain. I cant think of ay other reason why this would happen although I NEVER did anything to hurt anyone. I dont know how much longer I can live with this constant pain. Im beyond insane. Taking a hammer and bashing my own head in sounds like a plausible solution for this. I know im not thinking right but I cant stop it. I deserve this, there is no other reason to feel this much pain. Im starting to think that hurting myself physically and feeling a serious amount of physical pain at once in order to ger rid of this CONSTANT HELL. constant pain. constant pain. But I am a pussy. Its not that im afraid of dying. I dont want anyone else to be hurt from me. Im scared. This is new thinking to me because hurting oneself wasn't an option. I'm really scared, all I want is this nightmare to be over. People have told me all my life this pain will eventually go away and that things will eventually get better. That couldnt be ay further from the truth. Im afraid to speak my mind because this is the only community i have and I would never risk losing the only thing i have. I just keep telling myself that i deserve this. That is the only logical reason I can think of. Im fucked. Im fucked
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