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 Nikki804
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 I'm ready to die 
#16261813 - 05/21/12 10:30 AM (1 year, 28 days ago) |
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Today is the day, that I am deciding to leave this world. I know many will hurt, but the pain I endure day in and day out is greater. Sometimes I feel as though people would be a lot happier if I wasn't here. I've always been taken for granted. Now I want those who did to say, I should have loved her while she was here. All I ever wanted was TO BE LOVED. Nothing more, nothing less. People always deceive me, betray me and turn their back on me. I have been good to everyone. Why am I posting this? Because not only will I leave my laptop open so that my family would see, but I also want the world to see. It doesn't hurt to call and say hello, or give someone a hug. You never know if it's going to be the last time you see them! I will miss you all- Nikki
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vinnymontana21
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Re: I'm ready to die [Re: Nikki804]
#16261828 - 05/21/12 10:40 AM (1 year, 28 days ago) |
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you could find love tomorrow, whos to say? why not wait till it is your time. life is tough but i bet the after life is no breeze. people love you.
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bloodsheen
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How can you miss us all if you never gave us a chance to know you?
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t-tauri
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I think this decision is selfish and based on you feeling sorry for yourself, judging for your last two sentences. And you are probably planning on killing yourself in a terrible way hoping to shock and terrorize whoever finds you?
If this is real, I hope you reconsider. You are here for a reason.
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airwaves
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Re: I'm ready to die [Re: Nikki804]
#16261855 - 05/21/12 10:56 AM (1 year, 28 days ago) |
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There are many problems in life and there are always spots of power, life and well-being. If a situation hurts there are many ways to change it or build something new. Happiness and options are abundant in life and also if one is in a difficult situation, life offers new situations and uncountable ways!
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Sober
Its getting stranger.
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Re: I'm ready to die [Re: airwaves]
#16261869 - 05/21/12 11:01 AM (1 year, 28 days ago) |
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I love you.
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Retrovertigo
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Re: I'm ready to die [Re: Sober]
#16261902 - 05/21/12 11:13 AM (1 year, 28 days ago) |
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Why would someone join the shroomery just to post their suicide note? Seems kind of pointless to me.
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3 things your signature should have
1) A disclaimer about how everything you say is a work of ad-libbed fiction and should not be taken seriously
2) A quote from some famous psycho-naut like Tim Leary, or Alexander Shulgin.
3) A grand statement about the current state of the spirituality of mankind.
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ashfiken
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Re: I'm ready to die [Re: Sober]
#16261925 - 05/21/12 11:19 AM (1 year, 28 days ago) |
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Quote:
Sober said:
I love you.
Seconded and I know there's others out there that would say the same..
Don't believe that everyone you know can account for all humans in their appreciation of everything else human and beautiful which is just what you are in the most amazing unique way...
Find love in life bc there may be NO love in death and who wants to be w/o love!? You obviously dot! Just take the time to find it before making death and sadness a part of your life energy
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"I'm naked and fearless... And my fear is naked."
"life isn't worth living without the threat of death"
"I got my plans in a ziploc bag, let's see how unproductive we can be"
"nobody lives their lives fully except for bull fighters"
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airwaves
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Re: I'm ready to die [Re: ashfiken]
#16261947 - 05/21/12 11:30 AM (1 year, 28 days ago) |
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I love you too!
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daz01
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Re: I'm ready to die [Re: airwaves]
#16261996 - 05/21/12 11:47 AM (1 year, 28 days ago) |
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I love you all.
I would say not too kill yourself now but, that's because I'm high as fuck on Poppy pods, BUT, if you asked me yesterday or the past week, I'd say go ahead, life is shit. I was considering the possibility of what it'd be like to end my life because my selfish drug-worsened psychosis made me think my life was fake and everything I knew wasn't real. I thought I wasn't being watched and monitored 24/7. I thought my family hated me and had no love.
Like I said, I'm high as fuck, so the psychosis has pretty much vanished.
Now, my point is, if you are considering suicide because of medicore social problems, you should really rethink what you are about to do. Are your problems really that life ending?
Noone can tell you what a problem in life really is because it's different for everyone. What some people they have bad, others think it's nothing.
I know you're wanting help with posting this, so, get help.
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Rono
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Re: I'm ready to die [Re: Nikki804]
#16262005 - 05/21/12 11:50 AM (1 year, 28 days ago) |
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From reading your post, I'm assuming that you are still fairly young...most likely in your teens. Having said that...teen years suck..they are absolute hell. Pretty much like an emotional roller coster, thanks to hormones. Your highs are awesome, but your lows are literally painful...But they pass...and things get a shitload better. You need to allow yourself to be sad or angry once in a while.
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Sober
Its getting stranger.
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Re: I'm ready to die [Re: Rono]
#16263101 - 05/21/12 04:31 PM (1 year, 28 days ago) |
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You should wait tell after December 21st  just incase some awesome shit goes down.
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I have no right to call myself one who knows. I was one who seeks, and I still am, but I no longer seek in the stars or in books; I’m beginning to hear the teachings of my blood pulsing within me. My story isn’t pleasant, it’s not sweet and harmonious like the invented stories; it tastes of folly and bewilderment, of madness and dream, like the life of all people who no longer want to lie to themselves.
~Hermann Hesse, Demia
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RonaldFuckingPaul
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Re: I'm ready to die [Re: daz01]
#16264503 - 05/21/12 09:20 PM (1 year, 28 days ago) |
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Quote:
daz01 said:
I love you all.
I would say not too kill yourself now but, that's because I'm high as fuck on Poppy pods, BUT, if you asked me yesterday or the past week, I'd say go ahead, life is shit. I was considering the possibility of what it'd be like to end my life because my selfish drug-worsened psychosis made me think my life was fake and everything I knew wasn't real. I thought I wasn't being watched and monitored 24/7. I thought my family hated me and had no love.
Like I said, I'm high as fuck, so the psychosis has pretty much vanished.
Now, my point is, if you are considering suicide because of medicore social problems, you should really rethink what you are about to do. Are your problems really that life ending?
Noone can tell you what a problem in life really is because it's different for everyone. What some people they have bad, others think it's nothing.
I know you're wanting help with posting this, so, get help.
Yeah. Life can be really shitty for some people. I feel like the cons in my life are vastly outweighed by the pros. But there's still hope that things will improve. The world is changing really fast and assuming we don't kill ourselves off the world will be exponentially better as time goes on. But I still really really wanna kill myself. I probably will eventually but I'm hanging in there for now. Also, OP, your problems seem like they're not worth killing yourself over.  me if yah wanna talk or something I've been there.
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Cynosure
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Re: I'm ready to die [Re: Nikki804]
#16264565 - 05/21/12 09:34 PM (1 year, 28 days ago) |
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It really sucks to know that you've made this decision. I'm hoping that you've come to talk yourself out of it and decided to keep on.  There are many people, I'm sure, who love you. If you need someone to call you occasionally, your number and I would love to check in and see how your life is going.
It's true that many people get caught up in their own woes and come off as selfish and uncaring.. but that doesn't mean that they don't care. They're simply lost within themselves--it happens to all of us, including myself. Each person is doing the best they can at each moment. If you're still with us and reading this, it wouldn't hurt to let those people know (as you have here) you could use some love/hugs/care from them without you having to die in the process. I'm sure they would understand and would be willing to put in the effort.
Take care, either in this realm or the next, love! 
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Re: I'm ready to die [Re: Cynosure]
#16268002 - 05/22/12 03:59 PM (1 year, 27 days ago) |
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I wonder, is Nikki804 lying in a pool of blood, wrists splayed open like a stomped piece of fruit, skin white, shit and piss in the underpants. 
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3 things your signature should have
1) A disclaimer about how everything you say is a work of ad-libbed fiction and should not be taken seriously
2) A quote from some famous psycho-naut like Tim Leary, or Alexander Shulgin.
3) A grand statement about the current state of the spirituality of mankind.
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FishOilTheKid
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I was wondering something similar... Don't like to think about it.
Nikki if you are alive still...
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RonaldFuckingPaul
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Quote:
FishOilTheKid said:
I was wondering something similar... Don't like to think about it.
Nikki if you are alive still...
I wish she would talk with us. I'm sure many of us can relate.
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FishOilTheKid
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I know. I read her post and didn't know what to say but I just felt care... Like, CARE... I care. Don't.
I was just recently overwhelmed with suicidal thoughts not too long ago and thought I would end it. But I decided that its not an option.
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