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Re: Soul crushing depression [Re: MorphinTime]
#16249849 - 05/18/12 12:09 PM (11 years, 10 months ago) |
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Depression does pass, but when it hits me, it's a week long vacation in hell.
And the steaks were a gift from a friend. Actually it was this.
http://www.omahasteaks.com/servlet/OnlineShopping;jsessionid=7E5959C027EA461B554983DAD4D0018C?Dsp=14&PCR=0&PID=&IID=7847&ITMSUF=XE&shoptype=PROMOTION&shopsrc=PRMHomePage4
With a few other things like filet mignons and some other stuff. Haven't looked in there for a packing list.
He bought them for me after I did the brakes in his car last week.
-------------------- Same thing happened to me when I played Neil Armstrong in Moonshot. They found me in an alley in Burbank trying to re-enter the earth's atmosphere in an old refrigerator box.
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Re: Soul crushing depression [Re: WakeboardrB]
#16249861 - 05/18/12 12:11 PM (11 years, 10 months ago) |
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Looks like I will be able to do that volunteer work tomorrow after all. Whew, so happy.
But it's like a spider slowly waiting in it's web for a bug to fall into the trap. Waiting patiently, silently. And when that perfect storm of emotions come, wham... I'm in for a hell of a week.
-------------------- Same thing happened to me when I played Neil Armstrong in Moonshot. They found me in an alley in Burbank trying to re-enter the earth's atmosphere in an old refrigerator box.
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Re: Soul crushing depression [Re: WakeboardrB]
#16249871 - 05/18/12 12:13 PM (11 years, 10 months ago) |
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Unfortunately it doesn't always pass. Sometimes it ingrains itself into your personality.
Still, those steaks look delicious. You have good neighbors.
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Re: Soul crushing depression [Re: MorphinTime]
#16249935 - 05/18/12 12:30 PM (11 years, 10 months ago) |
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I think Newbie gave some really, really solid advice. Eating well and exercising won't make your life perfect, but they will change a lot of things for you.
I've dealt with similar periods in my life, maybe never quite as bad as what you're describing, but bad nonetheless. After a year of not taking any kind of care of myself and getting deeply into a binging, partying lifestyle (which has always been a part of my life, and which I've always wished I could cut back on or eliminate), and working a stressful job in a polluted, hectic city, I needed some serious changes. I've been making a point to do some intense exercise every other day, and to eat lots of healthy food. It hasn't solved the situational problems of my life, which we all struggle with almost all the time, but it helps my overall feeling of well-being and my ability to invest myself in looking for ways to improve my life. The ability to free up just enough mental energy to invest in one or two things for your future - like Newbie said, a gym membership and a new grocery list, or sending out some resumes online to look for jobs, or reading and learning about something in-depth on the net or at a library. Free up that mental energy to invest yourself in something, whatever it is, other than self-loathing, recrimination, bitterness, regret, and misery.
Get passionate.
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Re: Soul crushing depression [Re: Lion]
#16249999 - 05/18/12 12:51 PM (11 years, 10 months ago) |
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Lion said: I think Newbie gave some really, really solid advice. Eating well and exercising won't make your life perfect, but they will change a lot of things for you.
I do. I eat a hell of a lot better than I used to. I exercise at least 1- 1 1/2 hours a day, have lost 40lbs in the last 6 months and don't drink or use recreational drugs any more.
Didn't help me. I think the only thing that really helps is the Pamelor. Not only are side effects tolerable, unlike all those new pieces of shit SSRI's and SNRI's, but it's reduced my periods of depression greatly.
But it's still there. Although it hits me less than before, it still hits me like a ton of bricks sometimes.
-------------------- Same thing happened to me when I played Neil Armstrong in Moonshot. They found me in an alley in Burbank trying to re-enter the earth's atmosphere in an old refrigerator box.
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Re: Soul crushing depression [Re: MorphinTime]
#16250018 - 05/18/12 12:57 PM (11 years, 10 months ago) |
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MorphinTime said:
Still, those steaks look delicious. You have good neighbors.
New guy in the neighborhood. I told him I'd do it for free all he needed to do was buy the parts which were around $100, but he wanted to pay me back somehow. I was pretty surprised when I got a ring at the doorbell and you could smell the goodness as soon as you opened the box.
I saved him like $200 in labor that a shop would charge and fixed a small leak at his ABS box.
Now when he gets home from work I'm going to invite him over for some steaks and show him how to make dry ice bombs...
-------------------- Same thing happened to me when I played Neil Armstrong in Moonshot. They found me in an alley in Burbank trying to re-enter the earth's atmosphere in an old refrigerator box.
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Re: Soul crushing depression [Re: WakeboardrB]
#16250033 - 05/18/12 01:00 PM (11 years, 10 months ago) |
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Dry ice bombs are the shit...fuck depression!
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Re: Soul crushing depression [Re: MorphinTime]
#16250635 - 05/18/12 03:51 PM (11 years, 10 months ago) |
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Damn, Gatorade bottles are STRONG. I should have chosen a water bottle for my first bomb. The thing took over 20 minutes to explode.
I was contemplating shooting it with my squirrel rifle because it was all puffed out like a balloon. Didn't want to go anywhere near it. In fact I was getting ready to go get my rifle and it blew up right before I went inside.
Set off all the neighbors car alarms.
-------------------- Same thing happened to me when I played Neil Armstrong in Moonshot. They found me in an alley in Burbank trying to re-enter the earth's atmosphere in an old refrigerator box.
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Re: Soul crushing depression [Re: WakeboardrB]
#16250662 - 05/18/12 03:56 PM (11 years, 10 months ago) |
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2 liters are where it's at
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Re: Soul crushing depression [Re: NWlight]
#16251603 - 05/18/12 07:59 PM (11 years, 10 months ago) |
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Yeah, should have started out with the 2 liter and put more in the 20oz gatorade bottle. That thing had really thick walls and a lot of contours that gave it extra strength.
The 2 liters and water bottles went boom like nobody's business. But they weren't nearly as loud or explosive as the gatorade bottle.
-------------------- Same thing happened to me when I played Neil Armstrong in Moonshot. They found me in an alley in Burbank trying to re-enter the earth's atmosphere in an old refrigerator box.
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Re: Soul crushing depression [Re: WakeboardrB]
#16251633 - 05/18/12 08:05 PM (11 years, 10 months ago) |
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Lol, fuck gatorade bottles! They tend to get dangerous.
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Re: Soul crushing depression [Re: WakeboardrB]
#16252373 - 05/18/12 11:24 PM (11 years, 10 months ago) |
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Filet mignon is the ultimate as-needed medication for depression.
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MorphinTime
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Honestly I prefer a NY strip
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Re: Soul crushing depression [Re: MorphinTime]
#16252531 - 05/19/12 12:10 AM (11 years, 10 months ago) |
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NY strip is my favorite cut of meat.
I know how you feel OP. I am going through the same cycle myself. About once a month for 4-5 days I get REALLY depressed. To the point where I wake up 3 hours later than normal. I drudge around the house and dont' do shit except pity myself. Then when it starts to wear off again I think "WOW was I really being that unhealthy and lazy?" Doesn't stop me from repeating the same shit a month later. It's really fucking hard, but I have to keep telling myself that IT WILL PASS and it always does.
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Quote:
withoutawire said: NY strip is my favorite cut of meat.
I know how you feel OP. I am going through the same cycle myself. About once a month for 4-5 days I get REALLY depressed. To the point where I wake up 3 hours later than normal. I drudge around the house and dont' do shit except pity myself. Then when it starts to wear off again I think "WOW was I really being that unhealthy and lazy?" Doesn't stop me from repeating the same shit a month later. It's really fucking hard, but I have to keep telling myself that IT WILL PASS and it always does.
I agree with everything, except my favorite cut of meat is the porterhourse. MMMM MMM
Yeah, looking back on it I'm thinking wtf, why did I allow myself to feel like that for so long? But when you are in the middle of it, it's not really a choice. You can't allow yourself different feelings, it's just my brain acting all fucked up for a while.
I'm glad that I'm out of it. It's like it never even happened, a distant memory. But what sucks is that I know it will be back. I don't know when, I don't know how bad. All I know is, it will be back.
-------------------- Same thing happened to me when I played Neil Armstrong in Moonshot. They found me in an alley in Burbank trying to re-enter the earth's atmosphere in an old refrigerator box.
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Re: Soul crushing depression [Re: WakeboardrB]
#16253079 - 05/19/12 05:22 AM (11 years, 10 months ago) |
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You mean the world to me, Wake.
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Re: Soul crushing depression [Re: WakeboardrB]
#16253739 - 05/19/12 10:59 AM (11 years, 10 months ago) |
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You can't worry about when the depression comes back. Every single day that it's not there is a fucking gift. Everyday I wake up happy I lay in bed and tell myself. Thank God today I can appreciate life, and I think it's really important to do that. It makes the depression come back in longer periods of time too because my body builds up some natural defense to it
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Depression is For Fags.
Happiness Is Where Its At
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Re: Soul crushing depression [Re: M.91]
#16256685 - 05/20/12 02:02 AM (11 years, 10 months ago) |
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M.91 said: Depression is For Fags.
Happiness Is Where Its At:D
How about forcing yourself to behave as though you're happy when you actually hate the world along with the morons who perennially make it miserable?
This thread makes me seriously reconsider that particular coping strategy of mine, though I certainly have no interest in antidepressants.
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