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reeferaddict69 said:
Thanks for the comment wiccan, I do value your judgement.  If I'm being delusional why haven't the anti-psychotics stopped that delusion?  I've been on different ones for about 3 years now and I don't really feel any better.  Also the side effects really negatively affect my quality of life.  Are there any decent anti-psychotics that don't have so many side effects?  I was reading that cannabidiol one of the active cannabinoids in cannabis has anti-psychotic effects based on multiple studies I've seen with basically zero side effects.  Also it seems like my ability to truly enjoy anything has been destroyed.  Anhedonia from the anti-psychotics it seems.  My dopamine producing neurons have been tweaked and messed with and I fear they might permanently be damaged.  Is that possible?  I have zero libido and I don't enjoy doing anything anymore really.

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To stop the delusion, you need to first acknowledge that the belief of "I have mercury poisoning" was a mistake and that the feelings you've had are probably due to something else. If you insist on believing something that is false despite all the evidence to the contrary, then it won't matter too much about what meds you take, the meds will just make you feel different, change the psycho-emotional state, but the delusional belief (made up of language) can remain fairly untouched no matter how you feel; but the belief can also influence how you feel - "what the thinker thinks, the prover proves" as good ol' Robert Anton Wilson used to say.

The whole cannabis and psychosis thing is very much unclear and could be a risk. Heaps of study indicating that cannabis is a risk factor towards increasing psychosis and just a few studies showing CBDs pot-ential for decreasing psychosis. So there's no way to know for certain what its effect might be on you. So if you went down that road, you'd want some way to do it safely and involve people you trust to monitor your progress.

The good thing with the brain is that it adapts - brain plasticity. So even if it has had some changes due to meds, when ya eventually go off them, or go onto something else, it'll eventually change again back (or forward depending on your perspective). For example, I was on an SNRI for about six months that had terrible side effects, one of which was electric shock sensations shooting down my forearms and hands combined with numbness in my left hand. After I stopped, these strange sensations stayed around for about 4 months, but after that the sensations in my arms and hands went back to normal.

Edit: I might add that having delusions is really common and not necessarily needing a diagnosis of schizophrenia. I recall reading a paper that found in their study that approximately 45% of the population would experience delusional thoughts some time in their life.

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danvb329 said:
^wth is this guy talking about

have been smoking pot every day for 7 yrs. it produces no anxiety ever period. i only remember one time being a tiny bit tired from it. end of story

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danvb329 said:
^wth is this guy talking about

have been smoking pot every day for 7 yrs. it produces no anxiety ever period. i only remember one time being a tiny bit tired from it. end of story

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It produces anxiety in me, not all the time, but it isn't uncommon. I've stopped smoking because of it actually.

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it sounds like to me that you just have anixety and you let your irrational fear get the best of you.  I went through this last year thinking I was going insane, I was loosing my grip on reality and thinking I was becoming delusional.  Nope, I'm still here and aware of everything thank god. 

Anixety starts out as looking for signs of certain things that your afraid of.  You find a flaw in yourself and begin telling yourself.. "fuck, this isn't right."  It scares you even more, you begin to think even crazier thoughts.  YOu let it scare you once again because you think its real.  You think even more crazier thoughts n believe it ect. until a full blown panic attack and once you calm down, depression sets in.

its all a vicious cycle, be strong, don't let it get the best of you.  It's just your mind wandering and being over creative.  Take a xanax and chillax if anything. your fine man.

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Yes it makes sense. I think because generally it's true. We have very little conscious control over our bodies. That's probably a good thing for me, there's no way I could co-ordinate it all.. breathing, heart beating, digesting, thinking, feeling, hearing, seeing, smelling, tasting, talking, typing... Overload! no thanks. Control is an illusion anyways...

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I believe I was poisoned by the removal of my mercury dental fillings three years ago.  To this day I believe I am poisoned and that mercury is stuck in my brain.  It constantly affects me.  It feels like there's radioactive material in my brain.  I know mercury isn't radioactive but it's the only way I can describe it.  I feel like commiting suicide and ending this pathetic life of mine.  I have nothing to look forward to.  I'm on disability and I'm leeching off my parents.  I go to school part time.  The anti-psychotics I take obliterated my sexual function and have turned me into a zombie.  What the fuck man..

The psychologists/psychiatrists my parents took me to said I was schizophrenic.  I think it's complete bullshit.  I understand why they think I'm crazy though.  The tests for my mercury levels came out as "normal".  It's driving me crazy because no one believes me.  My brain feels like shit.  This all happened RIGHT after I got my mercury fillings removed.  I distinctly remember the taste of the mercury as I swallowed it because my dumbfuck dentist didn't take the proper precautions to not expose me to high levels of mercury.

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reeferaddict69, if you value my judgement..

You're being delusional. The delusion is not the very bad feeling you have, that part is real. You are however assigning a cause for it (dental mercury poisoning) that has been disproven by an objective lab test, yet despite evidence to the contrary you insist on believing in the mercury story.

Theres no way you can have systemic mercury poisoning and the lab not picking it up. They can analyze an egyptian mummy and prove or disprove mercury poisoning.
There's no way.

Oldtime chemistry teachers have downed half a shotglass of liquid mercury and lived to make their (rather dumb) point. Chinese emperors had pools of liquid mercury and they chilled in those pools.

Forget about mercury. Its disproven.

Something else is causing your shitty feeling and that cause must be found. It might indeed be psychotic symptoms distorting your perception and warping the capacities of your mind.

If you want better acceptance from the people around you, drop the mercury story and instead describe what you feel and let the professionals find out what it is.

And please, no suicide.

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Thanks for the comment wiccan, I do value your judgement.  If I'm being delusional why haven't the anti-psychotics stopped that delusion?  I've been on different ones for about 3 years now and I don't really feel any better.  Also the side effects really negatively affect my quality of life.  Are there any decent anti-psychotics that don't have so many side effects?  I was reading that cannabidiol one of the active cannabinoids in cannabis has anti-psychotic effects based on multiple studies I've seen with basically zero side effects.  Also it seems like my ability to truly enjoy anything has been destroyed.  Anhedonia from the anti-psychotics it seems.  My dopamine producing neurons have been tweaked and messed with and I fear they might permanently be damaged.  Is that possible?  I have zero libido and I don't enjoy doing anything anymore really.

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