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 ToiletDuk   4
#15897611 - 03/04/12 05:00 AM (1 year, 2 months ago) |
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I know you don’t remember this but damn near 10 years ago I posted a picture of my self-mutilated left arm in OTD. I was just a kid back then, a fucked up kid.. I have no idea what anyone else said in that thread but I remember what you said to me.. You said I was a fucking idiot and “congratulations” because I fucked up my future and I will never get a real job with my arms so fucked up. And when I read your post I realized, “he’s right” and for a moment, I lost hope of becoming anything but a down-and-out drug dealer. I pictured myself working for fucking Circle K at age 30, or worse, dead by 30…
Every time I see you post I think about what you said to me that day. And nearly 10yrs later I still bare those same scars every day, and though I regret what I did terribly, I just want you to know that I pulled myself out of my depression, I stopped cutting myself, I stopped doing drugs, and I started loving myself and my life. It’s taken me awhile to turn that stupid kid’s life around; but slowly im doing it. I went back to high school and got my diploma. Every day I get dressed in a suit, and carry on a professional job. Come May I will have earned a Bachelor’s degree, and this fall I begin a Masters..
I just want you to know that im going to fucking prove you and everyone else wrong. And im glad that I remember every single person that has ever told me I would go nowhere; because it motivates me to continue. And nothing’s going to fucking stop me.
See you in another 10 years.
Edited by Anonymous (03/04/12 05:27 AM)
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Anonymous #2
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i wanna see the picture
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Anonymous #3
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fucken' a dude
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Anonymous #3
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i wanna see the picture
yeah me too
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fucken' a dude
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i wanna see the picture
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Anonymous #6
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Doesn't sound like the duck to me
Were you the firecracker kid?
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Anonymous #7
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I never saw the picture nor post, but I am glad you got better. Congrats. Don't let your self-worth be determined by other people, you can (as you have found out) prove them wrong.
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Anonymous #8
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FOCV
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Anonymous #9
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Good for you, man. Glad you were able to get yourself together and make a positive life for yourself.
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Anonymous #10
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what kind of job do u have what do u do
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Anonymous #11
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Anonymous #12
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This made me smile.
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Anonymous #13
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I want to see the pic of the fucked up arm! 
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Anonymous #14
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Toiletduk would never post something as emo as the OP, if it was realy him he wouldnt post something like this in anon and use his username in the title , realy no point in that.
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Anonymous #15
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Toiletduk would never post something as emo as the OP, if it was realy him he wouldnt post something like this in anon and use his username in the title, realy no point in that.
Your such an idiot, but too stupid to know it. Did you even read the post? Can you comprehend the English language? lol
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Anonymous #16
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I agree with anon 6, that this does not really sound like TD to me. Unless maybe you were bragging about the self-mutilation. I mean, you did say you were a "fucked up" kid. I know what that's like, because I was one. I'm not proud of all the shit I ever did or said. Especially to myself.
But I am glad that you took those words (and the words of others, apparently) and turned them into the motivation to turn things around.
Congratulations on doin it rite. Seriously. That's something you should feel good about. Hell, reading your words, I'm almost a little envious. I know what it takes to make personal change at that level.
Keep on keepin on.
Namaste.
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Anonymous #17
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Mutilation scars are evil, grimm and also frostbitten: 
You can view the whole video here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=---I2YHzyAI
Also, I've been looking for this post of ToiletDuk for over 2 fucking hours now, going through all his posts that were between 7 and 12 years old and shit like that (and not only in OTD), and I can find nothing that backs up your story. I sincerely think you are pulling this one straight out of your arsehole.
Stop accusing people of something they didn't do in the first place and stop using drugs!
"No more drugs... for that man!"
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Anon 17 if you'd been here longer than a couple of weeks you would know that OTD has been effectively "Flushed" several times. Whether purposefully by admins or in server crash/transfers aka *cough the 3Dshroom fiasco.
If you had *really searched you would have noticed that OTD posts only date back to 06. OTD was around long before that, like me, it has had a troubled history. Additionally, I wassnt slandering Toiletduk, I was practically thanking him.
So let me clear this up for all the newbs around here, the original post no longer exists. And it hasn't for many many years now.
K, now fuck off.
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Anonymous #1 said:Anon 17 if you'd been here longer than a couple of weeks you would know that OTD has been effectively "Flushed" several times. Whether purposefully by admins or in server crash/transfers aka *cough the 3Dshroom fiasco.
I've been registered on this forum on January 2006, but I've been inactive for a while. I didn't used to post much in OTD in the first place, so NO, I was not aware of that. I don't even know what you mean by "the 3Dshroom fiasco".
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Anonymous #1 said:If you had *really searched you would have noticed that OTD posts only date back to 06. OTD was around long before that, like me, it has had a troubled history. Additionally, I wassnt slandering Toiletduk, I was practically thanking him.
What you are saying is wrong. Look here: http://www.shroomery.org/forums/dosearch.php?where=body&tosearch=both&how=all&namebox=ToiletDuk&limit=25&sort=r&way=d&forum=f6&showmain=1&page=801. This is one search in OTD, with dates going back to 2004. I'm pretty sure I've seen older ones as well. Also, you're initial post seems to spread lies about ToiletDuk. Prove us all wrong if your so sure about what you're saying, by any means! I can't imagine ToiletDuk saying those things in the context you tend to draw.
So I would like to see some proof.*
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So let me clear this up for all the newbs around here, the original post no longer exists. And it hasn't for many many years now.
K, now fuck off.
Ok, you could have mentioned that in your initial post. Why didn't you do that? Because you probably deleted it in the meantime. Also, since I'm a member of this board for over six years doesn't make me a noob, I would think.
I won't "fuck off". It's very clear you are still the retarded asshole kid you were back then and you've changed not even a bit. You think your life is under control, but your original post points to the fact that you're seeking confirmation and your offensive language proves this point, in my honest opinion.
I sincerely wish you would've done it the right way (slitting your wrists, that is):
*When asking for proof when proven wrong, most assholes stay away after reading a topic like this. So I hope you're not such a fucking pussy that you run from the conversation, although chances are that you do, since you're obviously still the fucked-up kid in need of attention as you were 10 years ago.
Some people never grow up.  And also:  
Post Scriptum: You have a spelling checker. Please use it. 
EDIT: one letter changed.
Edited by Anonymous (03/15/12 09:12 AM)
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If you have only been here since 06 than your trying to argue over your own head son.
OP is right. Though there may be a few posts here or there that pre date 06 there isn't a full post history dating back any further becouse of some of the reasons he mentioned. I believe at one point OTD posts were even deleted after 90days or something, the whole forum was even deleted for a brief time. So if the original post was made before 06, and it sounds like it was made far before that, than its long gone. OP wouldn't even have the ability to delete it if he wanted to.
Besides, why don't you let Toiletduk speak for himself? He probably would but doesn't give a flying fuck, like the rest of us. So quit bumping this emo ass post and let it die fuckwit.
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If you have only been here since 06 than your trying to argue over your own head son.
OP is right. Though there may be a few posts here or there that pre date 06 there isn't a full post history dating back any further becouse of some of the reasons he mentioned. I believe at one point OTD posts were even deleted after 90days or something, the whole forum was even deleted for a brief time. So if the original post was made before 06, and it sounds like it was made far before that, than its long gone. OP wouldn't even have the ability to delete it if he wanted to.
Besides, why don't you let Toiletduk speak for himself? He probably would but doesn't give a flying fuck, like the rest of us. So quit bumping this emo ass post and let it die fuckwit.
Yes, but I sincerely want to fuck you in the face.
 
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Anonymous #19
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Did I? Well, maybe it was the kick in the pants you needed. GL on the job search.
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Anonymous #20
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Wow OP, 10 years? That's a long time to dwell about some loser on this forum haha
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What's "weird", is that I was listening to this album ("Dawn Of The Black Hearts" by Mayhem) when I read your post yesterday. I thought it was stupid to mention this at first, but now I've changed my mind. I have shit like this happen to me a lot lately (at least more often than before).
I mean that this happens a few times a month, like talking about an old friend that we haven't seen in over 5 years while bumping into him a minute later in a large crowd (and it actually was the guy, since me and my friend talked to him for a while - it wasn't someone who looked like him), or texting my girlfriend and getting a text from her while I was just sending mine (and we really don't text a lot), or talking about something and then simultaneously saying a word that had nothing to do with the conversation in the first place, or talking about some person and hearing a song with either the same first or last name as the artist or hearing the name of that person in the lyrics.
This doesn't really creep me out, since both me and my girlfriend are experiencing this since we were kids (when we didn't know each other at all) and the fact that I (and some other people on some occasions as well, together with me) have seen shit that couldn't be possibly true by the laws of physics or science, but I think this is very odd to say the least. I probably wouldn't even post this here if this forum wasn't anonymous, since people call you crazy when you say stuff like this - until they see it with their own eyes...
Just saying: there's more than science can explain. Certain things are better left unexplained as well, as they can be considered extremely disturbing.
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Wow OP, 10 years? That's a long time to dwell about some loser on this forum haha
Haha, indeed. I'm wondering how much medication he went through in the last decade "because of ToiletDuk"... But he's all fixed and dandy now. 
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What's "weird", is that I was listening to this album ("Dawn Of The Black Hearts" by Mayhem) when I read your post yesterday. I thought it was stupid to mention this at first, but now I've changed my mind. I have shit like this happen to me a lot lately (at least more often than before).
I mean that this happens a few times a month, like talking about an old friend that we haven't seen in over 5 years while bumping into him a minute later in a large crowd (and it actually was the guy, since me and my friend talked to him for a while - it wasn't someone who looked like him), or texting my girlfriend and getting a text from her while I was just sending mine (and we really don't text a lot), or talking about something and then simultaneously saying a word that had nothing to do with the conversation in the first place, or talking about some person and hearing a song with either the same first or last name as the artist or hearing the name of that person in the lyrics.
This doesn't really creep me out, since both me and my girlfriend are experiencing this since we were kids (when we didn't know each other at all) and the fact that I (and some other people on some occasions as well, together with me) have seen shit that couldn't be possibly true by the laws of physics or science, but I think this is very odd to say the least. I probably wouldn't even post this here if this forum wasn't anonymous, since people call you crazy when you say stuff like this - until they see it with their own eyes...
Just saying: there's more than science can explain. Certain things are better left unexplained as well, as they can be considered extremely disturbing.
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Wow OP, 10 years? That's a long time to dwell about some loser on this forum haha
Haha, indeed. I'm wondering how much medication he went through in the last decade "because of ToiletDuk"... But he's all fixed and dandy now.
I think the difference between the OP and you is that OP actually takes his medication.
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Anon 17 if you'd been here longer than a couple of weeks you would know that OTD has been effectively "Flushed" several times. Whether purposefully by admins or in server crash/transfers aka *cough the 3Dshroom fiasco.
If you had *really searched you would have noticed that OTD posts only date back to 06. OTD was around long before that, like me, it has had a troubled history. Additionally, I wassnt slandering Toiletduk, I was practically thanking him.
So let me clear this up for all the newbs around here, the original post no longer exists. And it hasn't for many many years now.
K, now fuck off.
This has to be ToiletDuck, Qwack Qwack, if he knows about the 3DShroom fiasco!!!
I was here and for someone just to bring that up tells me the age of this shroomerite.
Btw
<====== Its Pat
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What is the 3D mushroom fiasco?!?!
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What is the 3D mushroom fiasco?!?!
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You guys'll never know 
suckers
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Also, you're initial post seems to spread lies about ToiletDuk.
opposite of this - 
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What is the 3D mushroom fiasco?!?!
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What is the 3D mushroom fiasco?!?!
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