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#15798206 - 02/12/12 02:10 PM (3 months, 15 days ago) |
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it feels weird. some of you know what happened to me with the 2ci. the past 8 months have been hell. and today i can see reality and i can also see imagination. i dont know what it is going to take to bring me all the way back to reality, but im scared of imagination. this is so hard. i cant stay awake and here in the real reality. i dont know where to go or what to do. action is key but i dont know what to act upon when im stuck in the house. ive been under sea level and submerged in imagination and illusion for a long time now, and right now im feeling a brake through. its so hard to learn right now and hard to see something and have it implanted in my mind. even just typing this its like i get lost and i dont want that anymore, im ready to start my life but its so hard for me
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#15798228 - 02/12/12 02:14 PM (3 months, 15 days ago) |
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i dont want to think anymore. it ruins my path. any good advice on how to drive this contraption
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Re: im coming back to reality a little at a time [Re: trANce]
#15798257 - 02/12/12 02:21 PM (3 months, 15 days ago) |
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Re: im coming back to reality a little at a time [Re: deCypher]
#15798270 - 02/12/12 02:23 PM (3 months, 15 days ago) |
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i can see a little bit. and my crown chakra is pulsing
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Re: im coming back to reality a little at a time [Re: trANce]
#15798285 - 02/12/12 02:26 PM (3 months, 15 days ago) |
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im still infected. there is a virus in my mental network. and action will get rid of it in time
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#15798288 - 02/12/12 02:26 PM (3 months, 15 days ago) |
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A foundational lesson I learned from Advaita Vedanta is to let "you" just happen. That is, don't get to hung up on being you, anxious about thoughts, hanging onto to your personality, etc. I don't know where you are exactly, or where you're coming from. But its the attachment to our ego selves that cause all of our problems. If you're feeling really disconnected from who you think you are this can be either a gift or a hindrance. Conventional reality is thoroughly practical, it keeps us from stepping in front of a bus or starving to death, it allows us to reproduce, and simply just get on with existence. We were never meant to get swallowed up by it.
I know from my trips I need a lot of time to integrate the experience. Perhaps you are having trouble integrating or coming back to the consensus reality everyone else lives in. When I have this problem I try to stay where I'm at, above the bullshit, and just let the person everyone else believes is me do his thing. No one ever seems to notice. Then I either stay in the "beyond this reality state" for a while or get hung back up on this ego trip. Either way I learn from it and grow and move on to new territory for mind expansion.
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#15798293 - 02/12/12 02:26 PM (3 months, 15 days ago) |
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OP you are schizo. This isn't cause of 2ci, it's cause your brain is just fucked.
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#15798310 - 02/12/12 02:29 PM (3 months, 15 days ago) |
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action is key but i dont know what to act upon when im stuck in the house.
action is key
you are making progress.
get a job
exercise daily.
eat healthy
you will feel chipper in no time
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Re: im coming back to reality a little at a time [Re: k00laid]
#15798325 - 02/12/12 02:32 PM (3 months, 15 days ago) |
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Go see a psychologist it will help immensely. We have professionsals trained in this stuff.
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Re: im coming back to reality a little at a time [Re: k00laid]
#15798341 - 02/12/12 02:35 PM (3 months, 15 days ago) |
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thank you, thank you. you guys are wonderful. the only problem at this point is i cant, stop, and i keep slipping and sliding
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Re: im coming back to reality a little at a time [Re: trANce]
#15798404 - 02/12/12 02:45 PM (3 months, 15 days ago) |
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Where in Florida are you, I'm in FLA as well.
Can you direct me to a thread where you've discussed what you're going through? I'd like to understand what's going on with you a bit.
Professional help is a good idea if that's an option, so I second nonduality's recommendation.
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#15798451 - 02/12/12 02:53 PM (3 months, 15 days ago) |
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#15798471 - 02/12/12 02:56 PM (3 months, 15 days ago) |
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there is like a density in my reality that i cant break. which is causing me not to be able to change as a person
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Re: im coming back to reality a little at a time [Re: trANce]
#15798491 - 02/12/12 02:59 PM (3 months, 15 days ago) |
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you know what it is? its that my third eye is completely calcified
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#15798521 - 02/12/12 03:04 PM (3 months, 14 days ago) |
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Re: im coming back to reality a little at a time [Re: CrossingTheStar]
#15798531 - 02/12/12 03:06 PM (3 months, 14 days ago) |
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I made you a thread.
 now I know what you guys mean by he uses this place as his personal blog. You even used his real name too!  fucking priceless
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time to the local church soup kitchen, helping to feed the homeless and
hungry? How many of us, having had the experience, under the influence
of the visionary drugs, of seeing all human beings as incarnations of God,
have gone down to the local hospital to give affection and a listening ear to
lonely patients who need somebody to talk to? How many of us regularly
visit a jail, to provide spiritual and emotional support to confused, damaged
people who have grown up unloved, uneducated and unguided by their
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#15798563 - 02/12/12 03:11 PM (3 months, 14 days ago) |
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Can you still function, are you a zombie now?
Maybe you can work some basic job and take care of yourself one day, and no more drugs ever for you.
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Re: im coming back to reality a little at a time [Re: qman]
#15798628 - 02/12/12 03:22 PM (3 months, 14 days ago) |
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Can you still function, are you a zombie now?
Maybe you can work some basic job and take care of yourself one day, and no more drugs ever for you.
im not exactly a zombie. but i am nothing all the fucking time, you know. and i only notice this and get a good view of the track every so often. im just trully damaged, like foreal foreal. 8 months ago my imagination merged with reality, and since then i have been existing in my imagination, instead of above it. im a sleeper, and i have got to wake the fuck up. its hard and i cant make a solid foundation, partly cause my third eye is calcified
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trANce said:
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qman said:
Can you still function, are you a zombie now?
Maybe you can work some basic job and take care of yourself one day, and no more drugs ever for you.
im not exactly a zombie. but i am nothing all the fucking time, you know. and i only notice this and get a good view of the track every so often. im just trully damaged, like foreal foreal. 8 months ago my imagination merged with reality, and since then i have been existing in my imagination, instead of above it. im a sleeper, and i have got to wake the fuck up. its hard and i cant make a solid foundation, partly cause my third eye is calcified
You sure your not just schitzophrenic?
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time to the local church soup kitchen, helping to feed the homeless and
hungry? How many of us, having had the experience, under the influence
of the visionary drugs, of seeing all human beings as incarnations of God,
have gone down to the local hospital to give affection and a listening ear to
lonely patients who need somebody to talk to? How many of us regularly
visit a jail, to provide spiritual and emotional support to confused, damaged
people who have grown up unloved, uneducated and unguided by their
confused, damaged parents -Alexander Shulgin
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Re: im coming back to reality a little at a time [Re: Real CA Milk]
#15798650 - 02/12/12 03:27 PM (3 months, 14 days ago) |
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Re: im coming back to reality a little at a time [Re: trANce]
#15798704 - 02/12/12 03:36 PM (3 months, 14 days ago) |
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#15798742 - 02/12/12 03:42 PM (3 months, 14 days ago) |
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I read all your threads and can only emphasize what most everyone else said.
Sounds like psychosis my friend. Temporary that is, the point is you are aware that you are in this state. This either means you're full of shit or your not really out of your mind...your just pushing to many chemicals into your 20 year old cranium. If you were really fucked in the head you'd be doing things you had no control over and you wouldn't probably remember you done them or that they were wacked out.
1. Sobriety
2. Spirituality
3. Job
4. Responsibility
5. Therapy
6. Vitamins
7. Well balanced diet
Try these seven things and see what happens. Some people can do the things you did and come out smiling, some just can't it's all body chemistry. If you're getting that far out doing more isn't going to make it better ya know.
All the best to you my friend. Your in my thoughts.
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Re: im coming back to reality a little at a time [Re: bait_]
#15798754 - 02/12/12 03:44 PM (3 months, 14 days ago) |
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very interesting. what is the book about? the end of the world is definitly a big factor in my life, and i have a couple theorys about how i control whether the world ends or not also.
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Re: im coming back to reality a little at a time [Re: Psikotrope]
#15798759 - 02/12/12 03:45 PM (3 months, 14 days ago) |
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Psikotrope said:
I read all your threads and can only emphasize what most everyone else said.
Sounds like psychosis my friend. Temporary that is, the point is you are aware that you are in this state. This either means you're full of shit or your not really out of your mind...your just pushing to many chemicals into your 20 year old cranium. If you were really fucked in the head you'd be doing things you had no control over and you wouldn't probably remember you done them or that they were wacked out.
1. Sobriety
2. Spirituality
3. Job
4. Responsibility
5. Therapy
6. Vitamins
7. Well balanced diet
Try these seven things and see what happens. Some people can do the things you did and come out smiling, some just can't it's all body chemistry. If you're getting that far out doing more isn't going to make it better ya know.
All the best to you my friend. Your in my thoughts.
i just need to take over control and its so fucking hard. thank you for your support. im not crazy but im mad crazy at the same time its very weird
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Re: im coming back to reality a little at a time [Re: trANce]
#15798770 - 02/12/12 03:48 PM (3 months, 14 days ago) |
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trANce said:
very interesting. what is the book about? the end of the world is definitly a big factor in my life, and i have a couple theorys about how i control whether the world ends or not also.
You have to click the link...
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Re: im coming back to reality a little at a time [Re: trANce]
#15798773 - 02/12/12 03:48 PM (3 months, 14 days ago) |
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read the summary on wiki...
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The narrator eventually learns that he only has a day and a half to exist before he leaves the world he knows and delves forever into the world that has been created in his subconscious mind.
trANce you sound like the Estimated Prophet
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Re: im coming back to reality a little at a time [Re: trANce]
#15798898 - 02/12/12 04:10 PM (3 months, 14 days ago) |
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you need to seek professional help
everyone here knows what it feels like to go over the deep end, but when it lasts as long as you say, you need help that can't be had here
and when i say professional, i don't mean 'Dr. Dick know it all and why did you do drugs in the first place!', but someone who can actually be part of your daily life in a positive way without the ocassional yahoo on this site dropping by to tell you to fuck yourself or whatever.
i would venture to say that you are biologically pre-disposed to not handle drugs very well and would recommend that you don't take any more and become a model health nut, if you are interested in living a quality life that is.
sincere good luck with it
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Re: im coming back to reality a little at a time [Re: masspan]
#15799163 - 02/12/12 04:56 PM (3 months, 14 days ago) |
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ive noticed that my reality is like water and if im am seated about to meditate like i was just now, it like instead of still quiet water its like my pool has been extremly disterbed and i can not seem to settle my waters, and i can actually see in front of me just how unstill it looks. its very hard to describe, its looks like my being keeps doing something without me trying, and i cant seem to come to a stop at all, and when i do become still with the nothingness its like im just non existent
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#15799218 - 02/12/12 05:11 PM (3 months, 14 days ago) |
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#15799311 - 02/12/12 05:27 PM (3 months, 14 days ago) |
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Man, for trance not being able to function in reality at all he sure can explain his symptoms fluently.
Stop doing drugs, go to a doctor. I've heard mental disorders develop and show their face in the early 20's for males. This sounds like you.
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Re: im coming back to reality a little at a time [Re: holemoleh]
#15799319 - 02/12/12 05:28 PM (3 months, 14 days ago) |
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i just had a good 10 minute session, and it feels really good. i found a sweet spot and just let go...i was literally able to feel my whole reality shift. this is not actually my first meditation session. i started to practice when i was 15, at a facility for juviniles. i have actually done 3 pretty long bids as a kid. but yea...i have learned a few meditation exercises over the years. and right now after that first true session i feel like there is much hope to me becoming the person i want to be. hopefully with much hours put in to this i will be able to have a normal conversation with my dad.
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Re: im coming back to reality a little at a time [Re: Everlong]
#15799324 - 02/12/12 05:31 PM (3 months, 14 days ago) |
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Stop doing drugs
The kid won't listen to any advice that recommends sobriety. If you've been paying attention he'll most likely just post another identical thread to this one tomorrow. 
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Re: im coming back to reality a little at a time [Re: Everlong]
#15799330 - 02/12/12 05:32 PM (3 months, 14 days ago) |
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Everlong said:
Man, for trance not being able to function in reality at all he sure can explain his symptoms fluently.
Stop doing drugs, go to a doctor. I've heard mental disorders develop and show their face in the early 20's for males. This sounds like you.
thanks for the complement. im going to use the kratom i have coming in the mail in a week and maybe have an occasional drink, but thats about it. im dying to get a nice weed high going but i have labled weed as a no no. i have not smoked in about two months and i have been the biggest pothead sine i was 15
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Re: im coming back to reality a little at a time [Re: deCypher]
#15799335 - 02/12/12 05:33 PM (3 months, 14 days ago) |
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deCypher said:
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Everlong said:
Stop doing drugs
The kid won't listen to any advice that recommends sobriety. If you've been paying attention he'll most likely just post another identical thread to this one tomorrow.
decypher bro, not true at all
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Could you just put all these thoughts in a journal or one thread or something so the pub isn't constantly bombarded by the same thread over and over again?
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Re: im coming back to reality a little at a time [Re: The Vapor]
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Could you just put all these thoughts in a journal or one thread or something so the pub isn't constantly bombarded by the same thread over and over again?
you know...your not actually worried about weather or not i post this stuff or not. why do you want to do me like that? if you dont have any good advice to give me and if you dont want to vibe with me or listen to what i have to say, then stay in your own lane.
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Re: im coming back to reality a little at a time [Re: trANce]
#15799668 - 02/12/12 06:41 PM (3 months, 14 days ago) |
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trANce said:
very interesting. what is the book about? the end of the world is definitly a big factor in my life, and i have a couple theorys about how i control whether the world ends or not also.
lol?
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Re: im coming back to reality a little at a time [Re: trANce]
#15799671 - 02/12/12 06:43 PM (3 months, 14 days ago) |
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You guy's can just ignore him if you don't want to read his shit, the pub is for open minded discussions about anything, if he wants to talk about his life, so be it, there's good natured people who don't mind helping a brother through his shit :P
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trANce said:
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The Vapor said:
Could you just put all these thoughts in a journal or one thread or something so the pub isn't constantly bombarded by the same thread over and over again?
you know...your not actually worried about weather or not i post this stuff or not. why do you want to do me like that? if you dont have any good advice to give me and if you dont want to vibe with me or listen to what i have to say, then stay in your own lane.
get off the road
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trANce said:
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Could you just put all these thoughts in a journal or one thread or something so the pub isn't constantly bombarded by the same thread over and over again?
you know...your not actually worried about weather or not i post this stuff or not. why do you want to do me like that? if you dont have any good advice to give me and if you dont want to vibe with me or listen to what i have to say, then stay in your own lane.
Myself, and many other posters, have given your some great advice but you don't seem to want to hear it. I was just asking that since apparently you demand on constantly complaining but doing nothing about it, you move your complaints to somewhere that don't clutter this place up.
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Re: im coming back to reality a little at a time [Re: The Vapor]
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The Vapor said:
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trANce said:
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The Vapor said:
Could you just put all these thoughts in a journal or one thread or something so the pub isn't constantly bombarded by the same thread over and over again?
you know...your not actually worried about weather or not i post this stuff or not. why do you want to do me like that? if you dont have any good advice to give me and if you dont want to vibe with me or listen to what i have to say, then stay in your own lane.
Myself, and many other posters, have given your some great advice but you don't seem to want to hear it. I was just asking that since apparently you demand on constantly complaining but doing nothing about it, you move your complaints to somewhere that don't clutter this place up.
where do you get the idea that i quote "dont want to hear it" and also how are you going to say that i dont do anything about it. im struggling here and all im doing on the pub is giving an update on how things are going and hopefully get the best advice possible. there is a lot of traffic in the pub and i have a few aquaintinces here that are very supportive so this is where i choose to post. i dont know where you come up with the idea that i dont listen to the advice given, but that is definitly not true
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Re: im coming back to reality a little at a time [Re: trANce]
#15799790 - 02/12/12 07:08 PM (3 months, 14 days ago) |
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i dont know where you come up with the idea that i dont listen to the advice given, but that is definitly not true
Almost every single person who's given you advice has told you to stop doing drugs in order to feel better and become healthy. Have you listened? No, you're doing and buying yet more drugs. 
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Re: im coming back to reality a little at a time [Re: deCypher]
#15799826 - 02/12/12 07:16 PM (3 months, 14 days ago) |
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i just had a good 10 minute session, and it feels really good. i found a sweet spot and just let go...i was literally able to feel my whole reality shift. this is not actually my first meditation session. i started to practice when i was 15, at a facility for juviniles. i have actually done 3 pretty long bids as a kid. but yea...i have learned a few meditation exercises over the years. and right now after that first true session i feel like there is much hope to me becoming the person i want to be. hopefully with much hours put in to this i will be able to have a normal conversation with my dad.
and the only drug im about to use next week is kratom.
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If you bleed out all your problems will be solved.
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Everything I have ever said is total bogus bs I am full of crud therefore everything I say should never be taken literal.
And I am mentally unstable.
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Re: im coming back to reality a little at a time [Re: budmanman]
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If you bleed out all your problems will be solved.
can you please explain?
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Re: im coming back to reality a little at a time [Re: trANce]
#15799868 - 02/12/12 07:25 PM (3 months, 14 days ago) |
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Death is the answer.
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Everything I have ever said is total bogus bs I am full of crud therefore everything I say should never be taken literal.
And I am mentally unstable.
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trANce
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Re: im coming back to reality a little at a time [Re: budmanman]
#15799876 - 02/12/12 07:27 PM (3 months, 14 days ago) |
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budmanman said:
Death is the answer.
you are talking about me dying?? or just death of anxiety persay
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Re: im coming back to reality a little at a time [Re: trANce]
#15799890 - 02/12/12 07:28 PM (3 months, 14 days ago) |
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Just die brah
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And I am mentally unstable.
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Re: im coming back to reality a little at a time [Re: budmanman]
#15799918 - 02/12/12 07:33 PM (3 months, 14 days ago) |
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what the hell are you thinking young boy?
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budmanman
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Re: im coming back to reality a little at a time [Re: trANce]
#15799936 - 02/12/12 07:37 PM (3 months, 14 days ago) |
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Sorry my inner-child can not talk to you because I killed him.
If you wanna talk to him you will have to cross over.
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And I am mentally unstable.
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Re: im coming back to reality a little at a time [Re: trANce]
#15799939 - 02/12/12 07:38 PM (3 months, 14 days ago) |
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occupy your mind on anything else except that...which means any action...as far as which action...choose something that will help...anything...like clean or build something...anything really...depending on how you want your physical future to work out I suppose....which is a whole diff plane of thinking but take it easy theres no rush
also valium and xanax do wonders for me...a couple of "fuck its" every now and again is perfect to get me to stop worrying so much.
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Re: im coming back to reality a little at a time [Re: budmanman]
#15799949 - 02/12/12 07:39 PM (3 months, 14 days ago) |
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budmanman said:
Sorry my inner-child can not talk to you because I killed him.
If you wanna talk to him you will have to cross over.
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Re: im coming back to reality a little at a time [Re: iamu]
#15799955 - 02/12/12 07:40 PM (3 months, 14 days ago) |
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Occupy Seattle
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And I am mentally unstable.
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trANce
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Re: im coming back to reality a little at a time [Re: iamu]
#15799960 - 02/12/12 07:41 PM (3 months, 14 days ago) |
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iamu said:
occupy your mind on anything else except that...which means any action...as far as which action...choose something that will help...anything...like clean or build something...anything really...depending on how you want your physical future to work out I suppose....which is a whole diff plane of thinking but take it easy theres no rush
also valium and xanax do wonders for me...a couple of "fuck its" every now and again is perfect to get me to stop worrying so much.
thank you so much. im just very very confused as to what to do and what to think about my situation. good words of wisdom man thank you
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Re: im coming back to reality a little at a time [Re: trANce]
#15799963 - 02/12/12 07:41 PM (3 months, 14 days ago) |
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trANce said:
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budmanman said:
Sorry my inner-child can not talk to you because I killed him.
If you wanna talk to him you will have to cross over.
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Sorry the answer to life is actually 42.
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And I am mentally unstable.
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Re: im coming back to reality a little at a time [Re: budmanman]
#15799968 - 02/12/12 07:42 PM (3 months, 14 days ago) |
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budmanman said:
Occupy Seattle
 why did you tell me that i shoud just die a second ago?
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Re: im coming back to reality a little at a time [Re: budmanman] 1
#15799973 - 02/12/12 07:43 PM (3 months, 14 days ago) |
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Serious question. When did this site go from a place for people to learn how to grow shrooms. To a place were kids can come and talk about stealing and having their parents give them money for drugs.
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And I am mentally unstable.
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Re: im coming back to reality a little at a time [Re: budmanman]
#15800040 - 02/12/12 07:58 PM (3 months, 14 days ago) |
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budmanman said:
Serious question. When did this site go from a place for people to learn how to grow shrooms. To a place were kids can come and talk about stealing and having their parents give them money for drugs.
when you left mush cult.
go back.
its better there
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Re: im coming back to reality a little at a time [Re: k00laid] 1
#15800264 - 02/12/12 08:44 PM (3 months, 14 days ago) |
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Go to the track and run one mile.
Don't think about it; don't ponder it. Put on some exercise clothes, go to the track and run one mile.
See, you're thinking about it.
Get off your lazy fucking ass and go run a mile.
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Re: im coming back to reality a little at a time [Re: ch1ck3n.s0up]
#15800293 - 02/12/12 08:49 PM (3 months, 14 days ago) |
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ch1ck3n.s0up said:
Go to the track and run one mile.
Don't think about it; don't ponder it. Put on some exercise clothes, go to the track and run one mile.
See, you're thinking about it.
Get off your lazy fucking ass and go run a mile.
What is with you people who think Exercise somehow cures everything. My father is the same way and its like WTF.......
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How many psychedelic users — in any country — actually give
time to the local church soup kitchen, helping to feed the homeless and
hungry? How many of us, having had the experience, under the influence
of the visionary drugs, of seeing all human beings as incarnations of God,
have gone down to the local hospital to give affection and a listening ear to
lonely patients who need somebody to talk to? How many of us regularly
visit a jail, to provide spiritual and emotional support to confused, damaged
people who have grown up unloved, uneducated and unguided by their
confused, damaged parents -Alexander Shulgin
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trANce
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Re: im coming back to reality a little at a time [Re: ch1ck3n.s0up]
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ch1ck3n.s0up said:
Go to the track and run one mile.
Don't think about it; don't ponder it. Put on some exercise clothes, go to the track and run one mile.
See, you're thinking about it.
Get off your lazy fucking ass and go run a mile.
i just hopped out of the shower lol. i really do need to do some type of exercise tho. im going to do it tomorrow. i worked out and ran for about 4 months straight in 09 and got pretty fit. ill definitly do it tomorrow thanks for the boost.
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legit27
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Re: im coming back to reality a little at a time [Re: Real CA Milk]
#15800379 - 02/12/12 09:06 PM (3 months, 14 days ago) |
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OP you are going to have to just trust me on this, you'll be fine.
As long as you stay sober, and stop focusing on these feelings.
Breathe, let go, stop worrying. I was in a similar boat, and i would try to pay close attention to my perception, from the moment i woke up i would ask myself. am i normal today? is everything back? or am i still in this fucked up dream state? It gets better, as time goes by. Just try not to hold onto it, just live. go with the flow of life.
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Re: im coming back to reality a little at a time [Re: legit27]
#15800516 - 02/12/12 09:23 PM (3 months, 14 days ago) |
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thats good stuff. thank you, you literally make me feel alot better
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ch1ck3n.s0up
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Re: im coming back to reality a little at a time [Re: trANce]
#15800529 - 02/12/12 09:25 PM (3 months, 14 days ago) |
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trANce said:
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ch1ck3n.s0up said:
Go to the track and run one mile.
Don't think about it; don't ponder it. Put on some exercise clothes, go to the track and run one mile.
See, you're thinking about it.
Get off your lazy fucking ass and go run a mile.
i just hopped out of the shower lol. i really do need to do some type of exercise tho. im going to do it tomorrow. i worked out and ran for about 4 months straight in 09 and got pretty fit. ill definitly do it tomorrow thanks for the boost.
Dude trust me on this one: nothing like feeling your lungs burn, reminding you of everything you've smoked in the past X years; your heart thumping after the first quarter mile, reminding you of every bag of chips that you scarfed down in a fit of munchies, to bring you back to reality.
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legit27
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Re: im coming back to reality a little at a time [Re: trANce]
#15800591 - 02/12/12 09:34 PM (3 months, 14 days ago) |
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ch1ck3n.s0up said:
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trANce said:
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ch1ck3n.s0up said:
Go to the track and run one mile.
Don't think about it; don't ponder it. Put on some exercise clothes, go to the track and run one mile.
See, you're thinking about it.
Get off your lazy fucking ass and go run a mile.
i just hopped out of the shower lol. i really do need to do some type of exercise tho. im going to do it tomorrow. i worked out and ran for about 4 months straight in 09 and got pretty fit. ill definitly do it tomorrow thanks for the boost.
Dude trust me on this one: nothing like feeling your lungs burn, reminding you of everything you've smoked in the past X years; your heart thumping after the first quarter mile, reminding you of every bag of chips that you scarfed down in a fit of munchies, to bring you back to reality.
truth.
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trANce said:
thats good stuff. thank you, you literally make me feel alot better
no problem man, just take care. You'll be fine. You'd probably be surprised of how many people actually go through this. So make sure ya never feel alone in this either. and don't be afraid to PM me, or ask anyone ont his site for help.
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Re: im coming back to reality a little at a time [Re: legit27]
#15800621 - 02/12/12 09:39 PM (3 months, 14 days ago) |
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thanks^^
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Re: im coming back to reality a little at a time [Re: trANce]
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trANce said:
Quote:
ch1ck3n.s0up said:
Go to the track and run one mile.
Don't think about it; don't ponder it. Put on some exercise clothes, go to the track and run one mile.
See, you're thinking about it.
Get off your lazy fucking ass and go run a mile.
i just hopped out of the shower lol. i really do need to do some type of exercise tho. im going to do it tomorrow. i worked out and ran for about 4 months straight in 09 and got pretty fit. ill definitly do it tomorrow thanks for the boost.
The reason why you hopped out of the shower at this time is because you are good for nothing.
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And I am mentally unstable.
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Re: im coming back to reality a little at a time [Re: legit27]
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legit27 said:
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ch1ck3n.s0up said:
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trANce said:
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ch1ck3n.s0up said:
Go to the track and run one mile.
Don't think about it; don't ponder it. Put on some exercise clothes, go to the track and run one mile.
See, you're thinking about it.
Get off your lazy fucking ass and go run a mile.
i just hopped out of the shower lol. i really do need to do some type of exercise tho. im going to do it tomorrow. i worked out and ran for about 4 months straight in 09 and got pretty fit. ill definitly do it tomorrow thanks for the boost.
Dude trust me on this one: nothing like feeling your lungs burn, reminding you of everything you've smoked in the past X years; your heart thumping after the first quarter mile, reminding you of every bag of chips that you scarfed down in a fit of munchies, to bring you back to reality.
truth.
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trANce said:
thats good stuff. thank you, you literally make me feel alot better
no problem man, just take care. You'll be fine. You'd probably be surprised of how many people actually go through this. So make sure ya never feel alone in this either. and don't be afraid to PM me, or ask anyone ont his site for help.
I would fear asking me for help.
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Everything I have ever said is total bogus bs I am full of crud therefore everything I say should never be taken literal.
And I am mentally unstable.
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foolish
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Re: im coming back to reality a little at a time [Re: budmanman]
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budmanman said:
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trANce said:
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ch1ck3n.s0up said:
Go to the track and run one mile.
Don't think about it; don't ponder it. Put on some exercise clothes, go to the track and run one mile.
See, you're thinking about it.
Get off your lazy fucking ass and go run a mile.
i just hopped out of the shower lol. i really do need to do some type of exercise tho. im going to do it tomorrow. i worked out and ran for about 4 months straight in 09 and got pretty fit. ill definitly do it tomorrow thanks for the boost.
The reason why you hopped out of the shower at this time is because you are good for nothing.
your opinion officially means zero to me
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Re: im coming back to reality a little at a time [Re: trANce]
#15801656 - 02/13/12 03:18 AM (3 months, 14 days ago) |
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exercise, diet, and seriously, stop doing drugs
they are not doing you any good, even 'mild' ones
let your body heal itself already, or don't be surprised if your grip on reality escapes you
if you think people's responses are jokes and you don't want to hear, then stop asking, i'd say collectively all the advice anyone can give you is here, the rest is a matter of choice, yours
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Pandorok
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Re: im coming back to reality a little at a time [Re: trANce]
#15801663 - 02/13/12 03:23 AM (3 months, 14 days ago) |
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trANce said:
i can see a little bit. and my crown chakra is pulsing
you ever read up on "dpd"?
i have it. it sucks. a lot...
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akira_akuma
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Re: im coming back to reality a little at a time [Re: Pandorok]
#15801684 - 02/13/12 03:38 AM (3 months, 14 days ago) |
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trANce, is this you?
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trANce
foolish
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Re: im coming back to reality a little at a time [Re: akira_akuma]
#15802284 - 02/13/12 09:15 AM (3 months, 14 days ago) |
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Pandorok said:
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trANce said:
i can see a little bit. and my crown chakra is pulsing
you ever read up on "dpd"?
i have it. it sucks. a lot...
what is "dpd"?Quote:
akira_akuma said:
trANce, is this you?
no
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love2shpongleIRL
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Re: im coming back to reality a little at a time [Re: trANce]
#15802316 - 02/13/12 09:27 AM (3 months, 14 days ago) |
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What's your deal man? I can't figure you out.
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Only those who will risk going too far can possibly find out how far one can go.
T. S. Eliot
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trANce
foolish
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Re: im coming back to reality a little at a time [Re: love2shpongleIRL]
#15802329 - 02/13/12 09:31 AM (3 months, 14 days ago) |
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love2shpongleIRL said:
What's your deal man? I can't figure you out.
thats the way i like to keep it. your premise should be based upon every word of mine you have read and thats it
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love2shpongleIRL
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Re: im coming back to reality a little at a time [Re: trANce]
#15802344 - 02/13/12 09:35 AM (3 months, 14 days ago) |
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You know what, sorry for being an asshole in your ratings. Keep doing your thing.
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Only those who will risk going too far can possibly find out how far one can go.
T. S. Eliot
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Re: im coming back to reality a little at a time [Re: trANce]
#15802356 - 02/13/12 09:39 AM (3 months, 14 days ago) |
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trANce said:
im still infected. there is a virus in my mental network. and action will get rid of it in time
pretty much this.
Just get out and do thangs. GEt out of your head and experience life. its all one big experiment so enjoy your stay and dont give any dillusional thoughts the time of day.
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k00laid
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Re: im coming back to reality a little at a time [Re: Real CA Milk]
#15802541 - 02/13/12 10:43 AM (3 months, 14 days ago) |
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Ethnobotanical said:
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ch1ck3n.s0up said:
Go to the track and run one mile.
Don't think about it; don't ponder it. Put on some exercise clothes, go to the track and run one mile.
See, you're thinking about it.
Get off your lazy fucking ass and go run a mile.
What is with you people who think Exercise somehow cures everything. My father is the same way and its like WTF.......
IT JUST DOES!!
lol, well what it just is just flush large amount of chems through your brain, effectively cleaning it out and getting it back in balance.
exercising daily and getting more sun are just things that make depression go away.
GOOGLE THAT SHIT NIGGA 
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Re: im coming back to reality a little at a time [Re: k00laid]
#15802696 - 02/13/12 11:23 AM (3 months, 14 days ago) |
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Its true, people are just lazy and want thier problems to be solved by a pill or some quick fix.
Not that theres anything wrong with that....
Seriously tho lifes so much better when you just work out regularly.
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trANce
foolish
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Re: im coming back to reality a little at a time [Re: Hologram]
#15802733 - 02/13/12 11:32 AM (3 months, 14 days ago) |
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i will start today!!!
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Catfish0807
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Re: im coming back to reality a little at a time [Re: Hologram]
#15802736 - 02/13/12 11:32 AM (3 months, 14 days ago) |
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Don't worry man I had the same problems for a while. I was totally disconnected from reality and at the same time felt as if my spirituality was dead as well, therefor I had no purpose. Just constantly keep your mind occupied with some type of work or exercise or some shit, and you'll find you just stop thinking about it all the time. I'm finally happier than I've ever been because this shit will make you stronger when you come out of it.
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trANce
foolish
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Re: im coming back to reality a little at a time [Re: Catfish0807]
#15802781 - 02/13/12 11:44 AM (3 months, 14 days ago) |
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thanks. even tho what happened to me was more severe than i could have described in any of my posts...i still think i will be alot stronger if i actually make the effort to get it straight. the thing is...in 2011 i believe i was one of the smartest people on earth, i really hate to brag, but for anybody that just read what i said just now, just leave it be and dont choose to believe me. but being as smart as a was in 2011...and then getting seriously burned, and loosing mad light and layers of reality that i owned is very very traumatic, especially when it happens over night pretty much. thanks for the boost guys. im slowly making the transition to a higher level of awareness and thinking. everyone who has gave me words of wisdom i want to say thank you again.
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