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 shelkov181
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 [5g Solo Trip] I Am Space-Creature
#15757163 - 02/03/12 05:16 PM (3 months, 23 days ago) |
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Last night I decided to take my first solo trip. This was my third time on mushrooms, and seventh overall psychedelic experience (excluding DXM and Salvia). This was also my first 'heroic dose'. I tried 5g before but they were poorly dried and gave me a level 3 trip that was more like I had taken an 1/8th. I spent the journey in the comfort of my room.
I ate most of what was here, leaving a gram or two of scraps: http://img192.imageshack.us/img192/4884/photojzk.jpg
Within 5 minutes of finishing them I felt a gentle tingling sensation in my brain. It was by no means "coming up" yet, but I definitely noticed something. At this point I was chatting with a friend on facebook about this. He wanted to Skype me to watch it come on, so I went with it and used the support while I was still sober.
25 minutes had passed since I gobbled up the fungus, and the mushroom was beginning to make itself known. I hadn't eaten for 6 hours so I knew it was going to come on quick. I had that familiar light feeling in my chest, which expanded as I inhaled. This grew more and more pronounced by the minute. My curtains seemed to wobble as the sensation continued to rise. A quick examination of my hand confirmed my feelings. I was beginning to trip, and knew that anything left to be taken care of had to be done now.
The plan was to hook up my TV to the computer and watch the MilkDrop 2 Visualizer. I knew much of the trip was to be spent in the dark, but I still wanted something interesting on hand to occupy myself. At least that's what I thought, since I've never tripped alone before. So I managed to get the whole thing operational, and retreated to the sanctity of my bed. I turned on some tunes and watched the dancing colors on screen as my surroundings become less and less familiar.
I was still on Skype with my friend on the phone, but at this point it was apparent that handling a camera and talking to him was going to be too much to deal with. The visualizer wasn't quite as entertaining as I had hoped, and the flashing lights were somewhat irritating. I decided to shut both of these devices off as I began to drift into a trance.
Up until then the atmosphere was tinged with traces of your typical come-up anxiety. Laying quietly under my covers with nothing else going on in the room (besides the breathing walls and all) helped calm the waters a bit. The beginning of my iPod playlist was designed to be on the soothing side specifically for this reason, and I kept telling myself "this is good, this is good" and let my mind ride the musical wave. Paraphrasing from Terence McKenna I asked the mushroom, "please don't burn me... I've done everything in my power to prepare for this, so just show me what you have to offer."
While I was beginning to acclimate mentally to the experience, my body was lagging behind. I was still tense and could feel my muscles twitching with anxiety. To resolve this I attempted to find a more comfortable position, but I couldn't quite get it right. The end of my song was eerie and felt mildly threatening, but I knew scrambling to change the song would have made it worse. However, this would be the last of my difficulties.
Now curled up in the fetal position, I decided to just lay completely still. I rested on my arm and couldn't quite make heads or tails of how that felt. It seemed upside down or backwards and I couldn't really tell how many arms I had or which way they were facing. My hand was now cupping my scalp, and my fingers seemed to merge with my head into some sort of brain-tree. I couldn't really tell you what a brain-tree is, just that it felt very connected and cyclical.
A new song came on and this is where things really started to take off. I decided sit up and enjoy the pure ecstasy of the mix, and did just that. Let me give a shout out to trANce, psilocybinjunkie, and luisfer420 for some elite electro/dubstep/dance recommendations because they really made the night. The music was 10 miles wide and seem to take over my world, like it was the theme to my soul. Every little subtlety was perfection. I rode the builds to trance heaven, and came back in explosive climax (haha) with each massive drop. I just couldn't believe the fireworks that were taking place between my headphones. There wasn't a trace of inhibition and I spent most of my time jamming in pure audible paradise, arms dancing to the beat.
I felt the urge to take a piss, so I got up and headed to my bathroom. This was the first time in a while that I had the lights on and it hadn't realized how vibrant and playful the colors could be. Standing in my bathroom it was almost too much light. I was being consumed by hyper-aware, radiant hallucination. The walls were glossy and seemed to move towards and away from me simultaneously, and the floor tiles had a kind of mother of pearl overlay.
When I returned to my techno space pod (room) the elation continued. My songs would alternate between fun, ecstatic trance and deep psybient compositions where I could relax and let my consciousness float about. With my eyes closed I drifted into inner-space land, and I had a vision of the mushroom itself. It was a goofy creature, deeply wise and semi-retarded cartoon looking, but he had a good heart and wasn't going to let any of that bring him down! He looked like a cross between  and this: http://us.123rf.com/400wm/400/400/izakowski/izakowski1006/izakowski100600048/7165745-cartoon-illustration-of-funny-mushroom.jpg
I thought a lot about the universe and humanity's place in it. To be honest, I felt like I figured out the whole damn universe. There was no special message or fortune cookie verse, no "new" knowledge to be gained but rather a perspective on what is right in front of us. We are what we are. It's just difficult connect the dots when trapped in this rigorously functional sober mind. All you need to do is take a sufficient dose of psychedelics to escape the conditioned societal framework to see things more objectively. In this state, the separation between the inanimate world and life seemed artificial. It was always one thing, a continuum of ever complexifying organization where matter evolves into greater and greater order.
This made me contemplate the future of our species. What makes humans special is that we're slightly ahead of the curve in this sense. Our brains are a bit more ordered and complex than the rest, and in turn our lifestyles are more nuanced and intricate. I could envision this process continuing into the future, where technology takes us into the next stage of evolution. I dreamt about a world where technology had become self-sustaining, and we could float in chambers that would keep us alive and immortal. In this state we could live in higher states of consciousness indefinitely, like the DMT beings. Perhaps the entities we encountered in the DMT universe had living, breathing descendants had that developed this sort of technology to transcend the material body. That's why aliens don't visit, because at that level of technology they've gone beyond such trivial matters. Maybe they know that inevitably we will join them and all the other beings who have ascended to this next level of awareness.
Sometimes it was too much to just lay there motionless. I rolled around and found myself in peculiar positions that just felt like the way to be. Sometimes I just got plain weird, making alien like gestures and expressions (tongue flicking and the sort). It didn't matter to me, because I had realized I was the alien. No, I wasn't pretending to be anything, I was an alien. The human form was as foreign to me as any sci-fi creature would seem, and this perspective was supplemented by my exceedingly altered proportions. My arms were slender, and flowed into these oddly large grasping tools that were my hands. I put my palms up into the air, and watched my tree-like hands as my fingers merged with the surroundings. It's like I could use them to sense the vibrations in the air.
"I'm in fucking zen land man!", I whispered to myself. My room, zen land; it was like some extraterrestrial pod from which I could explore the universe in comfort. I sought out that comfort once again under my covers, and took a peek outside my window at the neighboring house. It was like size was irrelevant. It didn't seem bigger or smaller than normal, just that it wasn't being put into a frame of reference of being 'large like a house'. There was less of a connection to it, like I was some god-like observer studying these peculiar structures that somehow have sprouted out of the Earth. I was staring at it with the craziest face...
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Right around now Icarus - Madeon came on and I'm right back into hyper-sonic music mode, but it's getting late so I decide to enjoy this one laying down. The eargasm was intense. I was literally going insane with emotion, to the point of tears and hysterical laughter. Once I settled back down a little, I started to feel hunger pangs. Thankfully I had a plate of grapes to indulge in, so I took off my headphones and grabbed them. Each grape seemed to contain a rainbow of flavor, like every fruit mixed into one. I ate these in silence, content and tranquil to enjoy the intermission. The silence wasn't all that silent for long as the auditory hallucinations crept in. Odd sounds seemed to grow and build upon one another, but they were strangely comforting.
I decided to put the headphones back on, and as I reflected on the trip that was now beginning to pass I was greeted by my cat. He jumped on my bed, but for some reason he was tense and alert. His fur was standing on end a little and he seemed scared, trying to find the source of what was bothering him through the window. I quickly realized it was my music that was bothering, and had to hold him down so he wouldn't leave as I turned the music off. After that it was easy to calm him down, and he cuddled with me like he always does. I felt especially in tune with he needs, and just chilled with him until sunrise.
This was the most intense experience of my life in so many ways, and found myself to be incredibly lucid once the come-up anxiety passed. I got more out of it than I had expected, and am looking forward to a chance to do it again in the future. Glad to be sober right now though, because shit was cray! Thanks for sticking with me if you read the whole thing, I know it was kind of long. Peace. 
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“Ego is a structure that is erected by a neurotic individual who is a member of a neurotic culture against the facts of the matter. And culture, which we put on like an overcoat, is the collectivized consensus about what sort of neurotic behaviors are acceptable.”
― Terence McKenna
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kiss_the_sky03
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 Re: [5g Solo Trip] I Am Space-Creature [Re: shelkov181]
#15757189 - 02/03/12 05:20 PM (3 months, 23 days ago) |
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haha. awesome 
This makes me want to take a nice trip 
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dodgem
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Sounds like a great time. Can't wait for my 5g dose, most likely tomorrow night. I will try and write up a report too.
Were these home grown booms?
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shelkov181
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Re: [5g Solo Trip] I Am Space-Creature [Re: dodgem]
#15757353 - 02/03/12 06:01 PM (3 months, 23 days ago) |
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Quote:
dodgem said:
Were these home grown booms?
I wish. Looking forward to growing for myself once I have my own place though. Then I won't get ripped off but greedy dealers. =D
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“Ego is a structure that is erected by a neurotic individual who is a member of a neurotic culture against the facts of the matter. And culture, which we put on like an overcoat, is the collectivized consensus about what sort of neurotic behaviors are acceptable.”
― Terence McKenna
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 trANce
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Re: [5g Solo Trip] I Am Space-Creature [Re: shelkov181]
#15757436 - 02/03/12 06:17 PM (3 months, 23 days ago) |
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you should of had this in your room on the trip
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shelkov181
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Re: [5g Solo Trip] I Am Space-Creature [Re: trANce]
#15757612 - 02/03/12 06:44 PM (3 months, 23 days ago) |
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“Ego is a structure that is erected by a neurotic individual who is a member of a neurotic culture against the facts of the matter. And culture, which we put on like an overcoat, is the collectivized consensus about what sort of neurotic behaviors are acceptable.”
― Terence McKenna
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stayhigh89
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Re: [5g Solo Trip] I Am Space-Creature [Re: shelkov181]
#15758129 - 02/03/12 09:01 PM (3 months, 23 days ago) |
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I got 5 grams cracker dry of potent shrooms, I'm going to consume in 2 weeks. I've had multiple 1/8 trips. But I was also tripping every 2 weeks on treasure coast. Now it's been 2 months so I'm ready for a good trip. The shrooms I got now are from a buddy and are very visual. I've consumed 2.5 grams and tripped balls so 5 will be very intense!
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shelkov181
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Re: [5g Solo Trip] I Am Space-Creature [Re: stayhigh89]
#15758249 - 02/03/12 09:32 PM (3 months, 23 days ago) |
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Yeah I was tripping every couple weeks at first too, and had a 2 month break since the last trip. xD
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“Ego is a structure that is erected by a neurotic individual who is a member of a neurotic culture against the facts of the matter. And culture, which we put on like an overcoat, is the collectivized consensus about what sort of neurotic behaviors are acceptable.”
― Terence McKenna
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Clyde187
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Re: [5g Solo Trip] I Am Space-Creature [Re: shelkov181]
#15761741 - 02/04/12 06:22 PM (3 months, 22 days ago) |
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Awesome report, glad you had such an amazing experience. You're a great writer, this is very intricate documentation... welcome back!!! 
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