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 Sliggy
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 4.5 tabs, 6 pot brownies, and a message from a star. 
#15386831 - 11/17/11 10:55 PM (6 months, 8 days ago) |
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I had been thinking about it all day at work.
The plan, was to eat some pot brownies that I'd made the previous day, eat 2 tabs of acid, and then meditate while listening to a playlist that I'd created on my iPod. I'd meditated before, and I'd listened to music on acid before, and I was really looking forward to seeing what would happen if I combined the experiences. My expectations were for some out of body sensations, distorted physical sensations, some decent visuals, and perhaps a couple of hours of introspective exploration.
Little did I know that "the plan" would be abandoned to make way for the most intense and personal trip of my life.
I got home and did some housework. I like to trip with "good karma." I don't like to wander around the house and think about the things that I should be doing rather than tripping, I like to walk around and say to myself that "I deserve to trip." Just basic things like laundry, dishes, and so forth really make me feel good about myself while I'm tripping for some reason. At the very least, tripping with a completed "to do" list gets rid of some of the nagging realities that can distract from the experience.
I then set up what I thought was going to be my Zen palace in my room. I lit a couple of candles, lit a stick of incense, set up my monitor with a crazy visualization, set up a mirror, set up pillows to sit on while I meditated, and placed a plate of snacks and an additional 2 pot brownies on my bed, along with a glass of apple juice and a cup of tea. I had become somewhat skilled at not resisting the acid and letting it wash over me, thanks to Timothy Leary's "The Psychedelic Experience," so I had intended to set up a spot that I wouldn't have to leave.
I ate a pot brownie, dropped my first two tabs, and began my journey.
- 0:00 - 2:00 -
A rather unproductive period. I wrote down some notes about my basic feelings during this time, and just basically chilled out and watched South Park while I waited for it to kick. I wanted to walk into my room during the peak so that the shift in setting would add to the whole experience. I wrote down some notes about the excitement of a good LSD come up:
- Too much energy! Literally had so much energy flowing through my body that I couldn't sit still.
- Mood lift.
- Decent OEV.
- Vulnerability. I was home alone for the whole trip except for a brief hour (before the peak) where my house mate got home to change and then head out to the city. I remember feeling quite vulnerable and alone and almost dreading her coming home and seeing that I was tripping, but that idea quickly faded.
- Waves of euphoria.
I basically acted like a goon this whole period and was just overcome by childlike excitement. Being home alone was cool because I didn't have to worry about how I looked to others. I was free to walk around the house, talk to myself, talk to the cat, and basically act like I was 8 years old again about to visit a killer petting zoo or something. I even wrote down on my notepad that I couldn't resist the urge to mess around like a child, and that I was finding it hard to take anything seriously (at least at this point).
- 2:00 - 3:00 -
It had been 2 hours since ingestion, and the trip was nice and enjoyable (would have been a perfect level if I was out with friends hiking or at a house party or something) but it wasn't really at the level that I wanted it. At least not for this particular experience. I noted down that I was getting some dimensional distortion (floors seeming closer than couches when they're actually further and so forth) and a decent level of disconnection from reality, like I was playing some sort of futuristic video game that controls all of your senses. I decided that I was soon to peak and that I should begin meditation. I walked into my room and attempted to do so, but it wasn't as profound as I was hoping it'd be.
It was at this moment that I realized that I had another 2 and a half tabs sitting on my desk. There were 3 crucial moments of this trip that I will never ever forget, and this was the first. I realized that I was sitting on a gold mine of psychedelic exploration, and that with just a bit more I could truly experience LSD, so I had to choose between "taking the plunge" and going all the way, or just having a pleasant, comfortable trip.
I took the plunge.
- 2:35 - ??? -
It was at this point that transitioning between rooms began to get really trippy. There's a point during an acid trip where changing settings becomes really weird, like an instantaneous re-evaluation of your entire mood and thought process just by changing where you're standing or where you're looking. Swiftly turning 180 degrees produces an interesting result. What lies before you has changed, but you feel as if you're still facing the same way, almost as if it's not you that changed direction, but your surroundings around you.
The notes on my notepad from here on out are basically useless. I started to abandon the traditional structure of writing down key points about what was going on and just wrote down "funny" quotes that I came up with / random shit. I was wandering around the house aimlessly and enjoying the wild transitioning effect and time loss, and basically rambling to myself like an idiot. I remember seeing my house mate for a brief moment, before retreating to my room to eat my last pot brownie.
- THE PEAK -
And from then on, I don't really know what happened. I put on Tales Of The Inexpressible by Shpongle and laid down with the lights off in my room (but my monitor on for a dim glow), and from here on out the trip intensified to a level that simply blew me away. At this point I was basically reduced to my primal self, I suppose it was ego death, but I had no internal dialogue whatsoever or sense of language. I just sat on my bed with my mouth gaping open and my eyes blankly staring at my surroundings while the music seized complete control of my emotions.
Physical sensations were so distorted that gravity started to lose effect. There were certain points where it was like I was sitting on the ceiling and the room was upside down, there were points where I couldn't feel my bed at all and it was like I was floating in mid air, there were points where I'd try to focus on a limb and discover that I no longer had a body. The visuals were beyond intense, I'd wave my hand in front of my face and see an endless trail of tracers. I'd leave my hand still and see only blackness, then I'd see stars in the blackness, then it would look like I had a hand-shaped hole in my wall that led to outer space. There was a point where I laid face down with my head buried in my pillow with the music off and experienced what I suppose is some form of enlightenment. My body felt like a big pile of flesh, and then it felt like nothing. All I could see was a swirling ring of light, and I had no internal dialogue. I could induce this feeling whenever I chose at this point, but my sense of time was so ridiculously skewered that I didn't want to do it for too long because I thought that I might very well spend my whole trip like that.
If I put my hand in the light and stared, it would age before my eyes and appear 100 years old. The closed eyes were so phenomenal and vibrant that it was hard to tell when I had my eyes open or closed. Usually with closed eyes the primary background colour is black with flashes of light, but these were so intense that the background colours were shades of orange, purple, green, and so on. If I sat still for a while, my body would begin to tingle, then feel like I was made of air and that all the molecules that made up my body had been blasted apart. I remember hearing an ambulance siren and thinking to myself that I'd died and that the ambulance was coming to retrieve my body.
The music was a physical being, and it was dancing through me and within me. It felt as if the room was spinning both clockwise and counter-clockwise simultaneously, at an impossibly fast rate. I'm trying to recall all the bizarre things that were going on at this point, but it's really beyond description.
One of the key moments however, when I realized that I'd totally lost connection with reality, was when I was staring at the corner of my room, and seeing a ceiling and 2 walls. I recognized which was which, and understood where I was in relation to the room, but only for a moment. A couple of seconds in, the dimensions changed themselves, the ceiling became a wall, one of the walls became a floor, and I honestly believed 100% that I was a surveillance camera, in the top corner of a room. I even hallucinated to the point where cupboards and so forth turned into paintings so that this new perspective on my room could make total sense. Words don't really do the sensation justice but it was the trippiest thing that'd ever happened to me, at least for the time being.
- Message From A Star -
I'm almost embarrassed to share this part because it's so hippie and bizarre, but this is exactly how this part of the experience went down, with no exaggerated details.
Basically, I decided that I wanted to go outside. It was a nice warm night, and I wanted to stare at the sky and so forth. I took my iPod with me (playing Boy Is Fiction) and ventured outside. I wasn't out there long at first, because I kept hearing noises and assuming that possums wanted to murder me, so I just looked at the sky quickly and then ventured back inside.
But once I got inside something had changed, as AMAZING as the trip was (and it was incredible, beautiful to the point that I was constantly wiping tears from my face), I just felt COMPELLED to go outside. It felt wasteful tripping so hard and not staring at the night sky, so I ventured back out.
Usually I have a pretty unmanly fear of insects and possums and shit like that when it comes to the outdoors, but I decided at this point that nothing was going to hurt me. I realized that I was in no way too good to be visited by insects and even vermin, and that I was not above nature, that I was in fact part of it, and that I should just embrace it and basically chill the fuck out. It's basically an attitude I've never really had before.
I sat down and began to stare at the night sky with complete comfort. The hallucinations were IMMENSE! Stars would disappear and reappear, the night sky would go from being DENSELY populated to empty, and I felt so out of body and spiritually connected to the universe that at times I forgot that I was sitting on a planet, and thought that I was just floating in the vast emptiness of space.
There was however, one star brighter than the others. Perhaps it was a planet, or a satellite, but it was just a touch brighter. I kept staring it and going back to it.
...And then it moved.
I don't think I hallucinated this, I think it actually moved. I don't know anything about space so I don't know what it might have been, in all likelihood I probably DID hallucinate somehow, but it definitely moved. It moved quickly to the right, and a pretty good distance, and then became brighter and started to shine shades of purple and blue.
I paused my iPod, this was unbelievable and a little freaky. I didn't even think about pausing it, I just did. I looked down and noticed that my headphones were on my stomach, an act I didn't really register doing. I looked back at the star and stared for a little bit, and then some crazy things happened.
First, all the other stars in the sky disappeared. Obviously a hallucinatory effect, but all I could see at this point literally was just black sky and this particular light. I stared into it and began to hear a high pitched noise, blocking out the wind and the rustling trees around me. I held my gaze for roughly 3 minutes, and then everything started coming back. The rustling trees, the other stars, the peripherals of my vision, and so forth. The star turned back to white, and all of a sudden I felt like I had no connection to it. I suddenly lost my desire to be outside and started to return to my room. As I looked back to the chair that I had been sitting in, I began to become overwhelmed by sadness, and even sobbed. It was like I was leaving something behind that I'd never see again. I don't know why I felt this way, but I did, and it was a very real and "unforced" feeling.
- The Comedown -
From this point onwards, I was still tripping balls and hallucinating wildly, but I was coming down. I just listened to some music and drew some things for a while. Nothing in particular, just squiggly lines in time with the music. I visited the visuals thread on Shroomery and tripped balls staring into a couple of images, and basically just had fun with all the crazy things that happen with a head full of acid.
Slowly and for the next few hours, I started to regain control of and connection to reality. This only happened last night so I'm still a little scattered and trying to figure out what it all could mean, but it was an experience I'll never forget. I'm going to wait a few weeks before my next acid experience. I think my tolerance will be built up for some time now, and as incredible as the whole thing was I'd like to rebuild some sort of connection to reality before repeating it. I can't wait to see what this wonderful drug brings next 
Edited by Sliggy (11/18/11 12:03 AM)
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LeBongJames
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Re: 4.5 tabs, 6 pot brownies, and a message from a star. [Re: Sliggy]
#15386900 - 11/17/11 11:32 PM (6 months, 8 days ago) |
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sliggy,
thanks for taking the time to write this down. I dont read many trip reports but im glad I read this one. It was kind of beautiful in both content and execution. I found this line particularly thought provoking:
"I was in no way too good to be visited by insects and even vermin, and that I was not above nature, that I was in fact part of it"
I have had thoughts like this before while exploring my own mind. Aside from this we seem to have other similar thought processes which made it an enjoyable read. It made me want to drop again which is something I never thought I'd say to myself.
Thanks again, and take care.
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Re: 4.5 tabs, 6 pot brownies, and a message from a star. [Re: LeBongJames]
#15386906 - 11/17/11 11:36 PM (6 months, 8 days ago) |
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Glad you enjoyed it man. I wrote it mostly because I felt like I absolutely had to considering how personal and strong the experience was for me, but I'm glad that someone else enjoyed the read :P
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Re: 4.5 tabs, 6 pot brownies, and a message from a star. [Re: Sliggy]
#15400158 - 11/20/11 08:57 PM (6 months, 5 days ago) |
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Whoa! Excellent write up. Like the other poster mentioned i dont read alot of trip reports, but im glad i read this one. Honestly, when i saw the thread title i thought it was going to be some juvenile drivel. Im glad i clicked on it anyway.
Well done.
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convictions.. they crumble beneath the question
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Re: 4.5 tabs, 6 pot brownies, and a message from a star. [Re: bollocks]
#15401779 - 11/21/11 06:56 AM (6 months, 5 days ago) |
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glad you liked it man!
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Re: 4.5 tabs, 6 pot brownies, and a message from a star. [Re: Sliggy]
#15421462 - 11/25/11 09:48 AM (6 months, 21 hours ago) |
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really good report. one of the better ones ive read lately. you explained it well.
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Re: 4.5 tabs, 6 pot brownies, and a message from a star. [Re: D-sack]
#15431181 - 11/27/11 02:01 PM (5 months, 29 days ago) |
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Quote:
Usually I have a pretty unmanly fear of insects and possums and shit like that when it comes to the outdoors, but I decided at this point that nothing was going to hurt me. I realized that I was in no way too good to be visited by insects and even vermin, and that I was not above nature, that I was in fact part of it, and that I should just embrace it and basically chill the fuck out. It's basically an attitude I've never really had before.
I've felt a similar connection with my sister's dog. Prior, I would be even weirded out and anxious if he would try to lick me. But during I basically put my fingers in his mouth (a bit rude now that I come to think of it..) and petted him all over. Definitely less barriers between me and life all around me.
Your connection with this particular star strikes me as that tragedy we all feel connected to someone or something for a brief moment then severed perhaps for life. Friends we no longer see, that girl you wish you had more than a one-night stand with, relatives now deceased. It's always sad to part, but I try to take comfort in that these are all lesser forms of our True Nature - that we are all one in spirit.
I'm glad you had a good trip thank you for documenting it.
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Re: 4.5 tabs, 6 pot brownies, and a message from a star. [Re: Sliggy]
#15458782 - 12/03/11 11:05 AM (5 months, 23 days ago) |
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That sounds fucking incredible.
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So hear this please
And watch as your heart speeds up endlessly
And look for the stars as the sun goes down
Each breath that you take has a thunderous sound
Everything, everything's magic
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Re: 4.5 tabs, 6 pot brownies, and a message from a star. [Re: Force Ten]
#15462561 - 12/04/11 02:02 AM (5 months, 23 days ago) |
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It was :P I'm about due for another trip soon. Thanks for the feedback guys!
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Re: 4.5 tabs, 6 pot brownies, and a message from a star. [Re: Sliggy]
#15467842 - 12/05/11 01:52 AM (5 months, 22 days ago) |
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Nice write up, excellent read
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 Re: 4.5 tabs, 6 pot brownies, and a message from a star. [Re: Sliggy]
#15474350 - 12/06/11 10:48 AM (5 months, 20 days ago) |
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great report, would you say the brownies brought the experience to levels you couldnt have reached without?
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Sliggy
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Re: 4.5 tabs, 6 pot brownies, and a message from a star. [Re: cruisinalltheway]
#15476876 - 12/06/11 07:03 PM (5 months, 20 days ago) |
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Hard to say. To be honest I don't really think the brownies did anything, but then again, I was so outside of reality that it was near impossible to tell. They might have helped me to "ease" into the strange world I eventually entered, but many other factors could have contributed to that.
I think the visuals were a lot more out there than usual. I've felt similar on high doses of LSD before but the visuals this time were just mental. Usually I can tell I'm hallucinating, but this time the visuals were absolutely convincing. The brownies might have propelled that :P
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Re: 4.5 tabs, 6 pot brownies, and a message from a star. [Re: Sliggy]
#15484997 - 12/08/11 09:04 AM (5 months, 18 days ago) |
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Re: 4.5 tabs, 6 pot brownies, and a message from a star. [Re: Cynosure]
#15493212 - 12/09/11 09:07 PM (5 months, 17 days ago) |
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I remember reading this a while back. Sounds epic 
Also, did you have the 6 brownies or the 2? I'm confused. 
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Re: 4.5 tabs, 6 pot brownies, and a message from a star. [Re: CrossingTheStar]
#15493883 - 12/09/11 11:37 PM (5 months, 17 days ago) |
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I ended up eating 6 total. It's hard to pinpoint when but during the course of the night they were all consumed :P
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 Re: 4.5 tabs, 6 pot brownies, and a message from a star. [Re: Sliggy]
#15764299 - 02/05/12 11:58 AM (3 months, 21 days ago) |
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Enjoyable read.
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