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#14559967 - 06/04/11 02:54 PM (2 years, 15 days ago) |
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I'm at a lose of what to do with myself. I've completely isolated myelf from the rest of society, my daily routine is to wake up eat go to the barnes and noble and read about random shit come back to my apartment read more random shit on the internet. Get stoned and lay in bed. and stare at the wall and listen to myself breathe. This is what my whole existance has come to.
Every day is the same forever. I have adhd and I never really grew up with good social skills which are very crucial in life.
On top of all this I think something in my dick is leaking. About 5 months ago I heard about a penis enlargment teqnique called jelging. Which is basically consists of slowly stretching the penis every day over a period of a couple of months. Its supposed to lenthen the penis sort of like how aborigonal cultures stretch out various body parts. I'm average down there but just decided to experiment out of boredom.
It actually worked and slowly over time i noticed a half an inch in size. Then one day I got overzealus and pulled just a little to hard the next day I woke up and my penis was cold and numb and retracted as if I was in a cold pool.
Its been three months now and my penis seems to be permanetly damaged. I can still get erections but I have a severe loss of sensetivity. and slight discoloration.
I've been to a couple urologists about this and they are pretty clueless and basically are like wow that sucks I don't know what to tell you.
So now my life just feels like a cosmic joke.
This has psychologically really fucked me up in the head. I think I've come to a point where I have just shut down and stopped living.
I used to get really sad about this but now I think I've just shut down and I don't feel anything anymore. I went to the bar last night and drank a
I don't know what to do and I can't see myself doing this much longer. But at the same time I don't think I could ever kill myself. Because even if my dick is broken. I guess living in this crippled state is better than not exsisting at all. I've pretty much accepted that there is no god or higher power and all meditation has done is make me feel detached from my mind. Enlightenment is bullshit. And drugs just provide a good time with interesting thoughts mixed with a bunch of wacked out deluded ideas mixed in with a few good ones.
Holy shit I never would have guessed my life would have come to this. I don't see myself going anywhere. I just keep telling myself to take on more breathe just keep going on more breathe. If that isnt depression I don't know what is. Life feels so fake now. Like everything is just a chemical reaction. I feel like I carry a black hole in me and every where I go I spread depression.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#14559985 - 06/04/11 02:57 PM (2 years, 15 days ago) |
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I'm sorry to hear this.
This topic should be moved to where this guy can get some proper advice. Do we have a personal problems section?
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#14559990 - 06/04/11 02:59 PM (2 years, 15 days ago) |
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Physical & Mental Well-Being.
but sorry to hear about your situation  especially teh dick thing. sounded like a bad idea
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: limestoneman] 7
#14559995 - 06/04/11 03:00 PM (2 years, 15 days ago) |
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You sound emo. Get a fucking hobby and yeah, trying to stretch your dick was a dumb idea.
Unless your dick is a centimeter stub, who gives a shit what your dick size is. Live and learn.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Devlish2] 1
#14560056 - 06/04/11 03:17 PM (2 years, 15 days ago) |
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yeah dude you're your own worst enemy. maybe you wouldnt feel so shitty if you did something with your life.
realize YOU are the one who's creating this misery. If you're sick of doing the same thing every day, then why not do something else??
btw that sucks about your cock...shouldda left it alone man!
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: meams] 5
#14560058 - 06/04/11 03:19 PM (2 years, 15 days ago) |
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Life is arbitrary and meaningless, so why bother suffering? You've got a short span of years with no purpose to achieve and your death guaranteed at the end. Just find your small pleasures, no matter how small they are, and comprehend what it is about them that you enjoy. Change your circumstances, even if only slightly, to make those enjoyments more pronounced. If you can get in that habit, then you can love life, even though no matter what you'll never understand it and it's all probably meaningless in the end.
How you feel is always just a product of momentary circumstances, always susceptible to change. If you've meditated, you know this. Nothing traps you in your mindstate other than maintenance of routine. My question to you is: why maintain a routine which yields suffering? I am not assuming you have superhuman willpower to lift yourself up by your bootstraps. I am telling you that in this finite and arbitrary existence, you have the chance to feel happy or the chance to feel sad. Either way, you're only gonna feel it for a little while before lights out. So why not at least finagle your circumstances a little bit to bring out more pleasure where you can?
People seem to get the idea that they deserve to be sad because they've wasted their life being so sad. They punish themselves for punishing themselves. But guess what? Nobody deserves anything. Shit's random.
There are some things you enjoy. That's a fact. Identify them and move towards them. If that seems like amoral, pointless sense gratification, who cares? You live then you die. Stop withholding permission from yourself to be happy.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart] 3
#14560063 - 06/04/11 03:20 PM (2 years, 15 days ago) |
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Yeah, you learned the hard way that stretching your cock is a bad idea.
Seriously though, I have sympathy for your situation and wish you the best of luck.
I have two small pieces of advice:
Do some exercise and go into nature. I guarantee you'll feel better.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#14560066 - 06/04/11 03:21 PM (2 years, 15 days ago) |
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wow dude that sucks
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Devlish2]
#14560070 - 06/04/11 03:22 PM (2 years, 15 days ago) |
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I wish I had as much spare time as you do. Learn to play an instrument. If you get that down learn more until you can produce albums yourself or something. Learn a new language. Take some fighting classes. Instead of just reading random shit try War and Peace or something that will make you feel like you accomplished something. Sounds like you just need to make life more interesting.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Devlish2]
#14560072 - 06/04/11 03:23 PM (2 years, 15 days ago) |
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sounds like you're the only person holding you back.
Get out of your room and meet some people, and stop trying to stretch your dick.
It's not just some solid mass that can expand without consequences, there are veins and shit in there yo. 
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: The Ecstatic]
#14560079 - 06/04/11 03:25 PM (2 years, 15 days ago) |
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sounds like you're the only person holding you back.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Mad_Larkin]
#14560089 - 06/04/11 03:28 PM (2 years, 15 days ago) |
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Your dick ain't going to stretch like this bro.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#14560097 - 06/04/11 03:31 PM (2 years, 15 days ago) |
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Your life is depressing because your making it that way, and that is the real cosmic joke right there.
There is so much you could be doing its ridiculous your just going to barns n noble every day. you need to expand your life, and i know it sounds scary but you will be so much happier when you do.
I'd recommend you quit smoking weed for a while. develop as many interests as you can in things. Go to social gatherings and make friends. Just do whatever you can to break free of your everyday mundane life.
the whole penis thing sucks a little though.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Everything]
#14560113 - 06/04/11 03:34 PM (2 years, 15 days ago) |
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1. do a little self-exploration and develop some interests/hobbies
2. find like-minded individuals to develop your infantile social skills
3. ???
4. profit prosper
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Everything]
#14560118 - 06/04/11 03:35 PM (2 years, 15 days ago) |
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Quote:
Everything said:
Your life is depressing because your making it that way, and that is the real cosmic joke right there.
There is so much you could be doing its ridiculous your just going to barns n noble every day. you need to expand your life, and i know it sounds scary but you will be so much happier when you do.
I'd recommend you quit smoking weed for a while. develop as many interests as you can in things. Go to social gatherings and make friends. Just do whatever you can to break free of your everyday mundane life.
the whole penis thing sucks a little though.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: ROFL_my_ WAFFLE]
#14560165 - 06/04/11 03:47 PM (2 years, 15 days ago) |
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Stop feeling sorry for yourself, shit 
As everyone else said, only YOU can fix yourself. Only you.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: daz01] 1
#14560433 - 06/04/11 04:52 PM (2 years, 15 days ago) |
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I feel like I'm on autopilot though. and I cant change anything.
Like my will was drained from adderall.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: The Ecstatic]
#14560468 - 06/04/11 04:59 PM (2 years, 15 days ago) |
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Quote:
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sounds like you're the only person holding you back.
Get out of your room and meet some people, and stop trying to stretch your dick.
It's not just some solid mass that can expand without consequences, there are veins and shit in there yo.
I realized that stretching my dick was bad several months ago.
But it's not getting any better. And its starting to smell.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#14560472 - 06/04/11 05:00 PM (2 years, 15 days ago) |
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Fucks sake man. Get to a doctor.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Mad_Larkin]
#14560492 - 06/04/11 05:04 PM (2 years, 15 days ago) |
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Fucks sake man. Get to a doctor.
I already explained I've been to 2 urologists. a urologist is a doctor specialized in that area.
I'm pretty intuitive and I got the feeling that the doctor honestly didn't know what to do and he basically just had to tell me some bullshit story to get out of his office. Because he was to scared to admit he's never dealt with anything like it before. He basically just said I'll refer you to someone else. But I could tell from the look in his eyes he knew my life was fucked.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: laserpig]
#14560525 - 06/04/11 05:10 PM (2 years, 15 days ago) |
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Life is arbitrary and meaningless, so why bother suffering? You've got a short span of years with no purpose to achieve and your death guaranteed at the end. Just find your small pleasures, no matter how small they are, and comprehend what it is about them that you enjoy. Change your circumstances, even if only slightly, to make those enjoyments more pronounced. If you can get in that habit, then you can love life, even though no matter what you'll never understand it and it's all probably meaningless in the end.
How you feel is always just a product of momentary circumstances, always susceptible to change. If you've meditated, you know this. Nothing traps you in your mindstate other than maintenance of routine. My question to you is: why maintain a routine which yields suffering? I am not assuming you have superhuman willpower to lift yourself up by your bootstraps. I am telling you that in this finite and arbitrary existence, you have the chance to feel happy or the chance to feel sad. Either way, you're only gonna feel it for a little while before lights out. So why not at least finagle your circumstances a little bit to bring out more pleasure where you can?
People seem to get the idea that they deserve to be sad because they've wasted their life being so sad. They punish themselves for punishing themselves. But guess what? Nobody deserves anything. Shit's random.
There are some things you enjoy. That's a fact. Identify them and move towards them. If that seems like amoral, pointless sense gratification, who cares? You live then you die. Stop withholding permission from yourself to be happy.
haven't seen laserpig since the rap thread. great post.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#14560548 - 06/04/11 05:15 PM (2 years, 15 days ago) |
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I very much doubt that. If he's a doctor specialising in DICKS do you really think he's never seen a damaged dick before?
If he referred you to another specialist why didn't you go?
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But I could tell from the look in his eyes he knew my life was fucked.
You're conferring your own opinions onto this doctors actions.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart] 5
#14560563 - 06/04/11 05:17 PM (2 years, 15 days ago) |
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I used to get really sad about this but now I think I've just shut down and I don't feel anything anymore. I went to the bar last night and drank a
Drank a what? That's your problem dude, you don't finish your
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: mongo lloyd]
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Mad_Larkin]
#14560583 - 06/04/11 05:21 PM (2 years, 15 days ago) |
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I very much doubt that. If he's a doctor specialising in DICKS do you really think he's never seen a damaged dick before?
If he referred you to another specialist why didn't you go?
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But I could tell from the look in his eyes he knew my life was fucked.
You're conferring your own opinions onto this doctors actions.
no. I can read people pretty well and I could tell he had a genuine wtf moment. He had the look of shit I don't know what to do and I don't think anyone can fix this. and he didn't want to be the one to tell me my life was fucked so he said he would refer me to another doctor. Probably one who has the balls to tell me that nothing can be done.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#14560593 - 06/04/11 05:24 PM (2 years, 15 days ago) |
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I can't even exercise because It aggravates it.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#14560595 - 06/04/11 05:24 PM (2 years, 14 days ago) |
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Okay, if you want to continue believeing that, it's cool but it isn't going to do you any good.
Stop feeling sorry for yourself and sort your shit out.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Mad_Larkin]
#14560604 - 06/04/11 05:25 PM (2 years, 14 days ago) |
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Like I said it's like a cosmic joke. That's why I'm such a drug addict. It's the only time I can disassociate from the situation and laugh at it from a different perspective.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#14560634 - 06/04/11 05:32 PM (2 years, 14 days ago) |
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Do you actually want to be in a better situation? You seem to quite enjoy feeling victimised.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#14560644 - 06/04/11 05:34 PM (2 years, 14 days ago) |
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I can't even exercise because It aggravates it.
stop yourself of negativity
hold your head up high but not too high. never low
also dont think youre intuitive bc most the times your brain will tell you are, everyone is intuitive with body language anyways. be positive and life has a lot to offer other than intuitive powers/gifts.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Mad_Larkin]
#14560660 - 06/04/11 05:38 PM (2 years, 14 days ago) |
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Okay, if you want to continue believeing that, it's cool but it isn't going to do you any good.
Stop feeling sorry for yourself and sort your shit out.
I'm not feeling sorry for myself. I just have nobody to talk to about this. It's to weird to bring it up in real life. And it's not like being crippled where other people can tell. I have to suffer in silence unless I yell out HEY everyone my dick is broken there is no god!
My life goal is to be a comedian or something and joke about how shitty my life is in a positive way. I'll cope with laughter or something. Or do lots of drugs and write down thoughts and make lots of art.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#14560666 - 06/04/11 05:39 PM (2 years, 14 days ago) |
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what is making you antisocial?
if you have problems talking i can help you in this thread.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: the human abstract]
#14560679 - 06/04/11 05:43 PM (2 years, 14 days ago) |
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what is making you antisocial?
if you have problems talking i can help you in this thread.
Well Adhd doesent make me antisocial but having it as a child kind of alienated me from everyone so i never grew up with good social skills. Almost like being autistic except I'm more socially aware.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#14560693 - 06/04/11 05:48 PM (2 years, 14 days ago) |
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soooo youre saying youre gifted in being social?
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#14560702 - 06/04/11 05:50 PM (2 years, 14 days ago) |
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You need to break the monotony.
Here's what I would do if I were in your situation:
--Find a counselor or psychologist to see. It can be TREMENDOUSLY helpful to sit down and talk with someone who is trained to help people deal with life troubles like you are.
--If you're not doing it already, start exercising. Free weights and some form of cardio will do.
--To help you make some friends and develop your social skills, I'd suggest joining a club or a city sports league. You might also consider picking up a part-time job that would force you to interact a lot with others.
--And for now, I'd suggest not smoking the herb.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: the human abstract]
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soooo youre saying youre gifted in being social?
no lol. I just see thinks from a different perspective. its hard to explain.
And now that my dick is broken all the psychological bullshit in my head sprung out of my unconscious.
Humans are just designed to fuck and when that is taken away. It kind of puts a damper on things.
Every morning I have to wake up to the reality that I may have to live alone the rest of my life and bleed to death in the corner. It puts things into perspective.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
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building airplanes and computers had nothing to do with sex though
different perspective doesnt need to be thought of though. talking is just talking
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
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You need to get away from the computer by any means necessary.
You can post here as long as you want about how it isn't your fault or how doomed you are, and you're totally right when you say it won't change anything.
And for someone with no social skills, you seem oddly certain you can read the minds of that doctor.
Even if your dick IS broken beyond the help of medical science (which I doubt), there's no excuse for self-pity and inaction.
Get some air and some exercise, find something productive to do. Listening to more hatebreed is optional, but I recommend it.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: the human abstract] 1
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building airplanes and computers had nothing to do with sex though
different perspective doesnt need to be thought of though. talking is just talking
True.
Its just sex is always the carrot tied in front of us that everyone unconsciously chases all the time.
And when it's not there the desire to do is no more. I don't have a carrot to chase. I don't have sex to look forward too.
At the core we are all shallow animals hiding behind clothes and technology and all this bullshit. All humans want to do unconsciously is just fuck the most attractive well of person.
Were just made to fuck. Freud was right. At the root sex just drives everything. Love is just a chemical reaction.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Kid_Orgo]
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Kid_Orgo]
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Lol you broke your dick trying to stretch it to make it bigger? LOL
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
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Poptart said:
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building airplanes and computers had nothing to do with sex though
different perspective doesnt need to be thought of though. talking is just talking
True.
Its just sex is always the carrot tied in front of us that everyone unconsciously chases all the time.
And when it's not there the desire to do is no more. I don't have a carrot to chase. I don't have sex to look forward too.
At the core we are all shallow animals hiding behind clothes and technology and all this bullshit. All humans want to do unconsciously is just fuck the most attractive well of person.
Were just made to fuck. Freud was right. At the root sex just drives everything. Love is just a chemical reaction.
lol i would give up all my sexual fantasies to achieve some of my dreams x 1000
sex is kind of small aspect in life. its huge bc everyone feels the same about it but its actually really small once you get over it.
and think about this, the man fucks the woman and the woman gets fucked. the women is the object in this culture so i dont chase it bc of that.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Enjoywho] 1
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Lol you broke your dick trying to stretch it to make it bigger? LOL
Stare at this statement until it's funny, Poptart.
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As much as it pains me to say it, Kid_Orgo is dropping wisdom bombs up in this motherfucker.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Kid_Orgo]
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RP, what kind of living conditions do you have? Do you live at home? Do you live alone? Do you have a job? My recommendation would be to get a job: having a job would break up your routine and give you a sense of accomplishment.
Then, if you earn enough money, you can do something bitchin' with the money like go traveling!
Also: whoever recommended it, I think Kid Orgo, I also think you need to get as far away from a computer as possible. It's too easy to pine hours (days) away while staring at this damned screen.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: ShroomScape]
#14560810 - 06/04/11 06:20 PM (2 years, 14 days ago) |
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
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Poptart said:
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building airplanes and computers had nothing to do with sex though
different perspective doesnt need to be thought of though. talking is just talking
True.
Its just sex is always the carrot tied in front of us that everyone unconsciously chases all the time.
And when it's not there the desire to do is no more. I don't have a carrot to chase. I don't have sex to look forward too.
At the core we are all shallow animals hiding behind clothes and technology and all this bullshit. All humans want to do unconsciously is just fuck the most attractive well of person.
Were just made to fuck. Freud was right. At the root sex just drives everything. Love is just a chemical reaction.
This is talk from limited experience and education.
It is a gift to be human. To be able to transform the energy that the rest of the animal kingdom uses for finding food, reproducing and raising kids (libido) into a myriad forms and means to observe, discribe and rejoice in LIFE; the only lonely and bestest gift to ever be given.
I spent some time in my adolescence and early adult hood thinking like you seem to be. Isolated, pessimistic, untrusting of other people and entirely TOO SENSITIVE AND WEIRD ABOUT OTHER PEOPLES BODY LANGUAGE AND SOCIAL EXPECTATIONS.
Really dude. You are the only one who is paying THAT much attention to what you do, so you can move socially without fear because everyone is thinking the same thing "Is that person watching/judging me??" NOT "ewe, WTF is wrong with that person?" and if the latter is all they voice it is a defense mechanism designed to distract themselves and other people from the fact that they are weak and scared.
also go to a doctor and then another doctor and insist that they help you get this sorted out. Care about yourself, Take care of yourself.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: collinZzZz]
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: collinZzZz]
#14560866 - 06/04/11 06:37 PM (2 years, 14 days ago) |
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A very good point from Colinzzzz. Every single person thinks that every other person is judging them. Everyone is doing the exact same thing, avoiding eye contact, thinking "oh shit they're judging me."
Tell me, when you're walking around feeling sketch about people because you think they're going to judge you ... are you judging them? Are you taking the time to analyze their motivations and sensitivities and looking for weaknesses and comparing them to each other? Or are you just avoiding eye contact, trying not to be judged yourself?
Everyone is playing the same game. Everyone thinks they're being judged. Guess what? That is pure arrogance. Nobody cares about you. You are not the center of the world. Nobody has the time or energy to come up with any kind of a real opinion about you.
Now, is that something to be sad about?
First off, which is worse? Being judged constantly, or not being judged at all?
And what if I put it to you this way: how much would you pay for an invisibility cloak? How much would you pay to be able to do whatever you want in broad daylight and have nobody even remember it the next day?
Guess what? You don't need a cloak! People already don't give a shit! You're already free, because everyone else is making the EXACT SAME MISTAKE AS YOU and they're walking around PRETENDING that they're being judged, instead of paying one whit of attention to anyone they interact with.
We have a lot more freedom than we think. Our thoughts are the number one restriction.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: laserpig]
#14560914 - 06/04/11 06:53 PM (2 years, 14 days ago) |
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RP do you wear glasses? If so take them off, all your problems will be solved instantly, well besides your dick that could always be broke or maybe it will heal over time who knows
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#14560965 - 06/04/11 07:12 PM (2 years, 14 days ago) |
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Troll?
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: laserpig]
#14561032 - 06/04/11 07:27 PM (2 years, 14 days ago) |
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Life is arbitrary and meaningless, so why bother suffering? You've got a short span of years with no purpose to achieve and your death guaranteed at the end. Just find your small pleasures, no matter how small they are, and comprehend what it is about them that you enjoy. Change your circumstances, even if only slightly, to make those enjoyments more pronounced. If you can get in that habit, then you can love life, even though no matter what you'll never understand it and it's all probably meaningless in the end.
How you feel is always just a product of momentary circumstances, always susceptible to change. If you've meditated, you know this. Nothing traps you in your mindstate other than maintenance of routine. My question to you is: why maintain a routine which yields suffering? I am not assuming you have superhuman willpower to lift yourself up by your bootstraps. I am telling you that in this finite and arbitrary existence, you have the chance to feel happy or the chance to feel sad. Either way, you're only gonna feel it for a little while before lights out. So why not at least finagle your circumstances a little bit to bring out more pleasure where you can?
People seem to get the idea that they deserve to be sad because they've wasted their life being so sad. They punish themselves for punishing themselves. But guess what? Nobody deserves anything. Shit's random.
There are some things you enjoy. That's a fact. Identify them and move towards them. If that seems like amoral, pointless sense gratification, who cares? You live then you die. Stop withholding permission from yourself to be happy.
^^^ Some good advice right there
Also yeah, most people aren't judging you. everyone's worried about that but tbh they don't give a fuck. Most of your worries of being judged are your own judgements you put on yourself. Even if they do udge you, who cares? you're the main person limiting yourself, and only you can change that.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: A Day InThe Life] 3
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Look OP, you want negetivity? I have balls to give it to you.
You are a fucking bitch. A huge ass motherfucking BITCH. CAPITALS.
Shut the hell up, go the fuck out side and go for a walk. When you think your done walking, keep walking. Let all your thoughts come as they please and soon enough you will forget you are walking (exercise) and you will just be with your thoughts, killing two birds with one stone.
TO ME it really sounds like your a pussy. You hate yourself for what ever reason. Your also probably overweight and gross. Also, you have a small dick, but hey guess what... GET THE FUCK OVER IT. Everyone has problems. Your fat? Get the fuck out of your chair and fix it. Your gross? Get the fuck out side and get self esteem, beauty is in the eye of the beholder. To look good to others you need to look and feel good TO AND FOR yourself.
As for your small dick problem, you tried to "fix" that one and you made it worse. Now you have to deal with it until it gets better. But, WHO CARES what size your dick is? NO ONE. You only think people do, in reality no one gives a shit. Women maybe, but who cares... their women... but no really who cares. Peni come in different shapes and sizes and women know this... if a girl is concerned about your size you should not be concerned about her existence.
I would also say judging by the way you whine about everything you have NO self esteem. Notice, I didn't say little. Its because I meant none. You have an excuse for EVERYTHING. Whenever someone tries to offer you assistance / advice / whatever (it seems like) you shut it down because of X reason or Y bullshit. DON'T BE SO HARD ON YOUR SELF. Everyone has potential to do anything, and be anything they want. Unlock this in yourself.
The only way your life will improve is if you man the fuck up. Seriously. You might not want to do anything at first but ignore that bullshit fear and DO IT. GO THE FUCK OUTSIDE!!! It won't be as awkward the second time, and by the tenth time you'll enjoy it by the 20th time you'll love it, maybe by the 25th time you'll find a girlfriend.
I bet you won't even read this post because it seems intimidating and you probably have some underlying issue when intimidation makes you cry. So in that case here is a simple outline of my post.
1) Grow up. Stop being a fucking bitch.
2) Go outside before I have to come to your house and forcibly throw you out the door and lock you out.
3) Forget about your small penis. It matters () that much to the universe.
4) Stop giving yourself excuses.
5) TAKE THE EFFORT TO MAKE THE CHANGE. It will be awkward at first. At first. Not forever.
6) PUSH yourself in EVERYTHING you do.
7) Just DO things and you will find happiness 
One thing that I really noticed that helps me out in basically every field I can think of is I push myself, and make things hard. For instance, I decided now is time to quit smoking. So I stopped the other day, I have half a pack of cigarettes on me at all times. When I get a craving, its hard not to do it. But I'm not a bitch.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Kid_Orgo]
#14561144 - 06/04/11 08:01 PM (2 years, 14 days ago) |
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Enjoywho said:
Lol you broke your dick trying to stretch it to make it bigger? LOL
Stare at this statement until it's funny, Poptart.
Step one is owning your own errors.
I know i've lived in step one for several months now.
What about step two? There is no step two.
I pretty much have the rest of my life/existence to reflect on my lack of judgment/touch with reality.
So now what?
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Funguspants]
#14561361 - 06/04/11 08:58 PM (2 years, 14 days ago) |
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Funguspants said:
Look OP, you want negetivity? I have balls to give it to you.
You are a fucking bitch. A huge ass motherfucking BITCH. CAPITALS.
Shut the hell up, go the fuck out side and go for a walk. When you think your done walking, keep walking. Let all your thoughts come as they please and soon enough you will forget you are walking (exercise) and you will just be with your thoughts, killing two birds with one stone.
TO ME it really sounds like your a pussy. You hate yourself for what ever reason. Your also probably overweight and gross. Also, you have a small dick, but hey guess what... GET THE FUCK OVER IT. Everyone has problems. Your fat? Get the fuck out of your chair and fix it. Your gross? Get the fuck out side and get self esteem, beauty is in the eye of the beholder. To look good to others you need to look and feel good TO AND FOR yourself.
As for your small dick problem, you tried to "fix" that one and you made it worse. Now you have to deal with it until it gets better. But, WHO CARES what size your dick is? NO ONE. You only think people do, in reality no one gives a shit. Women maybe, but who cares... their women... but no really who cares. Peni come in different shapes and sizes and women know this... if a girl is concerned about your size you should not be concerned about her existence.
I would also say judging by the way you whine about everything you have NO self esteem. Notice, I didn't say little. Its because I meant none. You have an excuse for EVERYTHING. Whenever someone tries to offer you assistance / advice / whatever (it seems like) you shut it down because of X reason or Y bullshit. DON'T BE SO HARD ON YOUR SELF. Everyone has potential to do anything, and be anything they want. Unlock this in yourself.
The only way your life will improve is if you man the fuck up. Seriously. You might not want to do anything at first but ignore that bullshit fear and DO IT. GO THE FUCK OUTSIDE!!! It won't be as awkward the second time, and by the tenth time you'll enjoy it by the 20th time you'll love it, maybe by the 25th time you'll find a girlfriend.
I bet you won't even read this post because it seems intimidating and you probably have some underlying issue when intimidation makes you cry. So in that case here is a simple outline of my post.
1) Grow up. Stop being a fucking bitch.
2) Go outside before I have to come to your house and forcibly throw you out the door and lock you out.
3) Forget about your small penis. It matters () that much to the universe.
4) Stop giving yourself excuses.
5) TAKE THE EFFORT TO MAKE THE CHANGE. It will be awkward at first. At first. Not forever.
6) PUSH yourself in EVERYTHING you do.
7) Just DO things and you will find happiness
One thing that I really noticed that helps me out in basically every field I can think of is I push myself, and make things hard. For instance, I decided now is time to quit smoking. So I stopped the other day, I have half a pack of cigarettes on me at all times. When I get a craving, its hard not to do it. But I'm not a bitch.
NOTE: ALL HARSHNESS IS MEANT TO BE INTERPRETED AS TOUGH LOVE.
I actually have gone on a walk. Went to the bar drank a quart of alchohol to myself then walked several miles to my house thinking about life. just yesterday, funny you mention that in your post. Synchronicity?
I'm not offended by your post and I appreciate your advice/ tough love.
But I've been there done that with everything you said.
Your right I do have self esteem issues but it had nothing to do with having a small penis. I'm pretty average down there and was just bored and decided to "experiment". I don't think you understand the situation though. It's not that its small its that it is not functioning anymore.
So yes i do have self esteem issues but at the same time I have an inflated distorted ego if that makes any sense. I'm not bragging I'm just being straight forward when I say I'm actually quite attractive and believe it or not that makes the situation that much worse. I don't really expect you to believe me as my life situation is very much like a movie in how strange it is.
I literally could have walked into a bar and picked up any women I wanted based on looks alone. But instead of going to a bar and coming home with random women every night. I chose to wait it out for something more real. But now I see all my waiting was in vain.
Sure random sex would have been great and would probably have kept me entertained for a couple of years. But having a loving girlfriend/wife by my side to share life with was something I longed after. So ya I'm still a virgin and now I might never have the chance to start a family. And will probably have to live alone for the rest of my life. That's what really bothers me. It's like I had everything going for me and then I just had it all swept under my feet.
I also have done lots of research about this and have found a forum of people with similar symptoms and none of them have found doctors helpful.
I haven't completely lost hope that I might one day recover though. But the chances are very slim.
I'm just kind of having a mid life crisis and wanted advice.
And it's not like all I think about is my penis situation. I do lots of things to distract myself/keep myself entertained. And sometimes I completely forget about the whole thing all together.
But then I have to wake up every morning on my stomach just to keep it warm because blood isn't circulating properly. So it's something i have to wake up to and be painfully reminded of every morning when I start my day. It's kind of hard to forget about it.
just telling the reality of my situation.
Edited by Poptart (06/04/11 09:15 PM)
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: laserpig]
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laserpig said:
A very good point from Colinzzzz. Every single person thinks that every other person is judging them. Everyone is doing the exact same thing, avoiding eye contact, thinking "oh shit they're judging me."
Tell me, when you're walking around feeling sketch about people because you think they're going to judge you ... are you judging them? Are you taking the time to analyze their motivations and sensitivities and looking for weaknesses and comparing them to each other? Or are you just avoiding eye contact, trying not to be judged yourself?
Everyone is playing the same game. Everyone thinks they're being judged. Guess what? That is pure arrogance. Nobody cares about you. You are not the center of the world. Nobody has the time or energy to come up with any kind of a real opinion about you.
Now, is that something to be sad about?
First off, which is worse? Being judged constantly, or not being judged at all?
And what if I put it to you this way: how much would you pay for an invisibility cloak? How much would you pay to be able to do whatever you want in broad daylight and have nobody even remember it the next day?
Guess what? You don't need a cloak! People already don't give a shit! You're already free, because everyone else is making the EXACT SAME MISTAKE AS YOU and they're walking around PRETENDING that they're being judged, instead of paying one whit of attention to anyone they interact with.
We have a lot more freedom than we think. Our thoughts are the number one restriction.
That's one benefit of this. I can basically just walk around now and feel like I can say anything I want because now there is no point in putting up a false show for the ladies. It's easier to be straight forward and down to earth when your bleeding from the dick.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
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checking in.
your life sweet yet?
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: The Ecstatic]
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wow dude that sucks
Lol thanks. sometimes its nice just to hear that.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: The Ecstatic]
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I literally could have walked into a bar and picked up any women I wanted based on looks alone. But instead of going to a bar and coming home with random women every night. I chose to wait it out for something more real. But now I see all my waiting was in vain.
Total bullshit. This is you deluding yourself again. You wouldn't be a virgin if you 100% knew you could, because it would be a lot better to fuck some hoes instead of pretending you're above it all, just waiting for an idealistic wife to fall from the sky.
To be on your side totally: the dick thing, man that sucks fucking ass dude. I hope it gets better. Keep looking into it.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Delicious Apes]
#14561507 - 06/04/11 09:19 PM (2 years, 14 days ago) |
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Addendum to the above: nobody starts out as your soulmate. Every spouse began as a total stranger. Human relationships take time.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: laserpig]
#14561530 - 06/04/11 09:25 PM (2 years, 14 days ago) |
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: the human abstract]
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Thread title: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding
I think it deserves an award of some sort.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Patlal]
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Thread title: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding
I think it deserves an award of some sort.
Seconded.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: the human abstract]
#14561580 - 06/04/11 09:40 PM (2 years, 14 days ago) |
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so you "broke your penis"
was having a working penis really all that you lived for? it it was, than I really don't have any sympathy for you.
stop feeling sorry for yourself, and turn this into a positive situation.
some people believe that everything happens for a reason. i don't really think that is true, but I like to have that outlook on life, because it is a positive one. if you believe things happen for a reason, you tend to look for what that reason is and try to turn it into something positive.
get over the fact that your dick is "broken". there is so much more to live for.
look at it this way: with a broken dick, you aren't going to get stuck in the lame cycle of mediocrity that most the people in the world get stuck in of spending most their lives trying to find a mate.
focus on something else. something productive. the world is already overpopulated anyways.
that is what i am doing. sex is nice, but most women are a waste of time. i don't have any interest in finding a life partner, and i don't really want to have sex with people that i wouldn't be okay with spending the rest of my life with.
its nice. it frees me up to do postive, productive things like making art and enjoying all the other wonderful things that life has to offer, such as the freedom to do whatever the fuck you want.
anyways, good luck with changing your attitude. thats the first step.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: laserpig]
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I literally could have walked into a bar and picked up any women I wanted based on looks alone. But instead of going to a bar and coming home with random women every night. I chose to wait it out for something more real. But now I see all my waiting was in vain.
Total bullshit. This is you deluding yourself again. You wouldn't be a virgin if you 100% knew you could, because it would be a lot better to fuck some hoes instead of pretending you're above it all, just waiting for an idealistic wife to fall from the sky.
To be on your side totally: the dick thing, man that sucks fucking ass dude. I hope it gets better. Keep looking into it.
Well that's the story I kept telling myself to feel better about myself. I'm not bullshitting though about being able to pick up any women based on looks alone. But that's the story i had in my head that prevented me from losing it to some random hoe. I guess i unconsciously felt like i was better because I had great self control. Having the whole be a virgin until your married thing pounded into my head since i was a kid from religious parents was also psychologically blocking me. So ya I had/have a fucked up deluded ego. That prevented me from losing it to anyone.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#14561613 - 06/04/11 09:47 PM (2 years, 14 days ago) |
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Suck about your dick though.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: laserpig]
#14561629 - 06/04/11 09:51 PM (2 years, 14 days ago) |
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Addendum to the above: nobody starts out as your soulmate. Every spouse began as a total stranger. Human relationships take time.
Right but now I'm scared to even attempt to get to know a women because say I do fall in love. and it never does heal It would just make it that much worse. knowing I cant be with someone because of this.
I also can't imagine dragging someone else into my situation.
So having a relationship would be selfish. And I would just be a black hole of depression leeching off of someone's happiness.
I know it sounds shallow but I couldn't see my self trying to get into a relationship with a crippled women. So how could I expect someone to want to be with me? I know that sounds really shallow but it's the cold hard truth. Its survival of the fittest and now I'm fucking crippled.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart] 2
#14561639 - 06/04/11 09:53 PM (2 years, 14 days ago) |
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You've been rationalizing a way to stay alone for years now. It's always going to be something. You're keeping yourself lonely.
I've read your other threads. You're doing this to yourself.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: BothHands]
#14561655 - 06/04/11 09:57 PM (2 years, 14 days ago) |
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You've been rationalizing a way to stay alone for years now. It's always going to be something. You're keeping yourself lonely.
I've read your other threads. You're doing this to yourself.
i agree. believe it or not, there ARE women out there who would be happy to be with a man who has a broken penis. you are going to have to change your attitude though, because they probably won't be able to deal with a broken penis and a man who constantly feels sorry for himself.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#14561686 - 06/04/11 10:03 PM (2 years, 14 days ago) |
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The number one issue is the penis. Penis, my friend.
I believe there's hope for your penis out there. Don't give up, the human body can do hella crazy shit to repair itself with a little help.
Did you end up following through with the urologist's referral?
Believe in yourself, believe in your penis... This is your obstacle.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: TheDukeofLizards]
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You've been rationalizing a way to stay alone for years now. It's always going to be something. You're keeping yourself lonely.
I've read your other threads. You're doing this to yourself.
i agree. believe it or not, there ARE women out there who would be happy to be with a man who has a broken penis. you are going to have to change your attitude though, because they probably won't be able to deal with a broken penis and a man who constantly feels sorry for himself.
That's bullshit and you know it. The world is a more shallow and cruel place then anyone would like to admit. Through meditation I've come to some pretty nasty and ugly shit buried in the unconscious that most people wouldn't care to look at.
No sane women would knowingly go into a relationship with a crippled person. And you may not want to admit it but you know its true.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart] 3
#14561718 - 06/04/11 10:12 PM (2 years, 14 days ago) |
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Really? You know Stephen Hawking had an affair with a nurse behind his wifes back?
Even the most fucked up people get bitches. Stop being such a whimp.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#14561722 - 06/04/11 10:13 PM (2 years, 14 days ago) |
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#14561731 - 06/04/11 10:14 PM (2 years, 14 days ago) |
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oh give me a break. did you seriously just post a tool song? you are soo misunderstood man
stop wallowing in it by listening to that crap (just for the record i think tool is a great band)
and it is pretty obvious from your post that YOU are the shallow one.
because you are wrong.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Devlish2]
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The world is a more beautiful, exquisite and intricate place than you would like to admit.
This.
Your state of pessimism is more befitting of a 15 year old emo kid.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Devlish2]
#14561750 - 06/04/11 10:17 PM (2 years, 14 days ago) |
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Poptart said: The world is a more shallow and cruel place then anyone would like to admit.
The world is a more beautiful, exquisite and intricate place than you would like to admit.
quoted for truth. if you really want help, you are going to have to help yourself. take some of the advice in this thread and be proactive about you situation.
you are never going to feel better if you just sit around listening to tool, feeling sorry for yourself.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#14561762 - 06/04/11 10:20 PM (2 years, 14 days ago) |
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Poptart, to me, it REALLY sounds like you just need that DRIVING force. It seems like you're not having much luck or fortune in life... at this point in the road... doesn't mean it won't change. It will.
But also, I really think this dick thing is one of your core problems. I mean, you might not think so, but look at it from this perspective... YOU'RE A MAN AND YOUR DICK IS BROKEN. Thats a pretty big stab to your manhood, would definitely and obviously hurt your self esteem / bring up issues, and also probably worries you medically wise. Especially if you have to sleep on your stomach to keep it warm.
This really sounds like a problem and you NEED to go to a hospital.
I do, however, think it will heal eventually. Are you familiar with ear stretching? I have large gauges. If you stretch too fast, you run the risk of tearing or blowing out your ear. Which is nasty, I did it once, it sucked for a long while but it got better and I've been able to stretch my ears since, if anything it made them better suited for stretching. Not comparing your dick to my ears ofc... that would be gay... but just relating the stretching concepts. Maybe you blew out your dick.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: TheDukeofLizards]
#14561772 - 06/04/11 10:23 PM (2 years, 14 days ago) |
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oh give me a break. did you seriously just post a tool song? you are soo misunderstood man
stop wallowing in it by listening to that crap (just for the record i think tool is a great band)
and it is pretty obvious from your post that YOU are the shallow one.
because you are wrong.
I know I'm shallow and I will admit it.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#14561804 - 06/04/11 10:30 PM (2 years, 14 days ago) |
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What is it, you just don't like to party or what?
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#14561809 - 06/04/11 10:31 PM (2 years, 14 days ago) |
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OP I really want to help you.
Do you have any friends? Just asking. Like friends that you would hang out with?
Also, feel free to PM me if theres anything you don't want to include in this thread.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Funguspants]
#14561824 - 06/04/11 10:34 PM (2 years, 14 days ago) |
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Poptart, to me, it REALLY sounds like you just need that DRIVING force. It seems like you're not having much luck or fortune in life... at this point in the road... doesn't mean it won't change. It will.
But also, I really think this dick thing is one of your core problems. I mean, you might not think so, but look at it from this perspective... YOU'RE A MAN AND YOUR DICK IS BROKEN. Thats a pretty big stab to your manhood, would definitely and obviously hurt your self esteem / bring up issues, and also probably worries you medically wise. Especially if you have to sleep on your stomach to keep it warm.
This really sounds like a problem and you NEED to go to a hospital.
I do, however, think it will heal eventually. Are you familiar with ear stretching? I have large gauges. If you stretch too fast, you run the risk of tearing or blowing out your ear. Which is nasty, I did it once, it sucked for a long while but it got better and I've been able to stretch my ears since, if anything it made them better suited for stretching. Not comparing your dick to my ears ofc... that would be gay... but just relating the stretching concepts. Maybe you blew out your dick.
Thank you for your post. nice to hear someone being honest and straight to the point. I don't really think the doctors can do anything about this. I think I basically am going to have to just wait it out and see if it heals on its own.
HAha the ear thing made me laugh. and kind of gave me hope. So you seriously tore your ear and it completely healed itself? wow.
I'm currently taking a bunch of vitamins to speed up healing and promote blood circulation. I've heard ginko biloba can also help nerves heal so I'm taking those as well.
I'm trying to find a way to speed up my metabolism so my body recycles itself faster. Maybe speeding up the healing process. But at the same time I can't do any serious running because moving around easily re injures and irritates it. SO lately i've been swimming alot. I'm trying to eat healthy to but I'm pretty ignorant of how to eat a balanced diet.
I have to believe I can heal cause its the only thing keeping me going.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Funguspants]
#14561845 - 06/04/11 10:38 PM (2 years, 14 days ago) |
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OP I really want to help you.
Do you have any friends? Just asking. Like friends that you would hang out with?
Also, feel free to PM me if theres anything you don't want to include in this thread.
Ya I have a couple of good friends. But they live far away.
I moved into a random apartment to meet new people and kind of got to know my roommates. We smoke weed sometimes. So I guess I could call them drug buddies.
So i would be lying if I was saying I was completely alone. But I haven't really brought this up with anyone in real life besides my parents.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#14561852 - 06/04/11 10:39 PM (2 years, 14 days ago) |
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Poptart, to me, it REALLY sounds like you just need that DRIVING force. It seems like you're not having much luck or fortune in life... at this point in the road... doesn't mean it won't change. It will.
But also, I really think this dick thing is one of your core problems. I mean, you might not think so, but look at it from this perspective... YOU'RE A MAN AND YOUR DICK IS BROKEN. Thats a pretty big stab to your manhood, would definitely and obviously hurt your self esteem / bring up issues, and also probably worries you medically wise. Especially if you have to sleep on your stomach to keep it warm.
This really sounds like a problem and you NEED to go to a hospital.
I do, however, think it will heal eventually. Are you familiar with ear stretching? I have large gauges. If you stretch too fast, you run the risk of tearing or blowing out your ear. Which is nasty, I did it once, it sucked for a long while but it got better and I've been able to stretch my ears since, if anything it made them better suited for stretching. Not comparing your dick to my ears ofc... that would be gay... but just relating the stretching concepts. Maybe you blew out your dick.
Thank you for your post. nice to hear someone being honest and straight to the point. I don't really think the doctors can do anything about this. I think I basically am going to have to just wait it out and see if it heals on its own.
HAha the ear thing made me laugh. and kind of gave me hope. So you seriously tore your ear and it completely healed itself? wow.
I'm currently taking a bunch of vitamins to speed up healing and promote blood circulation. I've heard ginko biloba can also help nerves heal so I'm taking those as well.
I'm trying to find a way to speed up my metabolism so my body recycles itself faster. Maybe speeding up the healing process. But at the same time I can't do any serious running because moving around easily re injures and irritates it. SO lately i've been swimming alot. I'm trying to eat healthy to but I'm pretty ignorant of how to eat a balanced diet.
I have to believe I can heal cause its the only thing keeping me going.
Specif Green/Wulong/Herbal teas have been shown to speed up your metabolism, so that might be a good place to start.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#14561858 - 06/04/11 10:41 PM (2 years, 14 days ago) |
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building airplanes and computers had nothing to do with sex though
different perspective doesnt need to be thought of though. talking is just talking
True.
Its just sex is always the carrot tied in front of us that everyone unconsciously chases all the time.
And when it's not there the desire to do is no more. I don't have a carrot to chase. I don't have sex to look forward too.
At the core we are all shallow animals hiding behind clothes and technology and all this bullshit. All humans want to do unconsciously is just fuck the most attractive well of person.
Were just made to fuck. Freud was right. At the root sex just drives everything. Love is just a chemical reaction.
this is total bullshit.
You are wallowing in self pity and it's kinda pathetic
only you have the power to change your situation
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: The Vapor]
#14561871 - 06/04/11 10:43 PM (2 years, 14 days ago) |
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Found this, which you may find helpful:
http://www.pegym.com/forums/penile-anomalies-injuries/6475-read-before-posting-here.html
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If you are experiencing ED from overdoing or improperly performing PE, the best course of action is to rest, promote proper circulation without aggressive stimulation, and apply heat in intervals. It is also imperative that you do your best to avoid feeding into any anxieties- worrying about ED can sometimes be enough to cause ED on its own.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Mad_Larkin]
#14561911 - 06/04/11 10:50 PM (2 years, 14 days ago) |
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Found this, which you may find helpful:
http://www.pegym.com/forums/penile-anomalies-injuries/6475-read-before-posting-here.html
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If you are experiencing ED from overdoing or improperly performing PE, the best course of action is to rest, promote proper circulation without aggressive stimulation, and apply heat in intervals. It is also imperative that you do your best to avoid feeding into any anxieties- worrying about ED can sometimes be enough to cause ED on its own.
Thanks. But I'm actually already a member of that site and have thoroughly read all they have about healing. They actually have a 124 page thread about this specific problem. http://www.pegym.com/forums/penile-anomalies-injuries/20460-official-hard-flaccid-recovery-thread-124.html
there's a pretty large group of people suffering from the same thing as me.
Basically we've all gone to doctors, and have tried various things but i've read all 124 pages and basically 4 people have reported getting better. Were all actively searching for a cure though.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#14561923 - 06/04/11 10:52 PM (2 years, 14 days ago) |
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We should start a walkathon for broke dick.
Poptart: Walk for the cure.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: BothHands]
#14561927 - 06/04/11 10:53 PM (2 years, 14 days ago) |
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Haha.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#14561929 - 06/04/11 10:53 PM (2 years, 14 days ago) |
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Thank you for your post. nice to hear someone being honest and straight to the point. I don't really think the doctors can do anything about this. I think I basically am going to have to just wait it out and see if it heals on its own.
HAha the ear thing made me laugh. and kind of gave me hope. So you seriously tore your ear and it completely healed itself? wow.
I'm currently taking a bunch of vitamins to speed up healing and promote blood circulation. I've heard ginko biloba can also help nerves heal so I'm taking those as well.
I'm trying to find a way to speed up my metabolism so my body recycles itself faster. Maybe speeding up the healing process. But at the same time I can't do any serious running because moving around easily re injures and irritates it. SO lately i've been swimming alot. I'm trying to eat healthy to but I'm pretty ignorant of how to eat a balanced diet.
I have to believe I can heal cause its the only thing keeping me going.
I think you will heal, yes my ears healed completely, all by themselves no medicine or anything. The only thing I did to aid the process (not really to heal it but to purge it) was soaking them in a mixture of warm water and sea salt for 10 minutes three times a day for a couple days. That brought out all the puss and shit, I really fucked them up. To put it this way... when I took out my taper to see how bad it was it SLID out using my blood as a lubricant.
But to clear it up, I didn't tear it in a sense of having two dangling halves of a lobe, I just ripped apart the hole.
Heres a picture of a blowout WARNING GRAPHIC AND GROSS: http://29.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_leoczd8jxx1qb8j4ko1_500.jpg
Good idea on the vitamins and shit though, definitely won't hurt.
Sorry if you said this earlier, but how long ago did you injure your self? Like when did this become a problem?
Also, that sucks that your friends are far. Maybe you should work on finding potential good friends in your town. If your room mates are chill enough, theres a place to start. You have to take the little steps to be able to take the big ones. Like I said before, something will be awkward at first and you might even hate it, like going out and socializing with strangers, but that's life. Also, give your self some cushioning at first.
For instance, go somewhere you normally don't frequent (to worry about not being judged) and practice your social skills. You say you go to Barnes and Noble, if you have a Borders around you, go there and go by the magazine section and just start talking to someone. If you feel like you came off as a total creep, fuck it, you don't know that person and you probably will never see them again in your life. You have nothing to lose.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
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Found this, which you may find helpful:
http://www.pegym.com/forums/penile-anomalies-injuries/6475-read-before-posting-here.html
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If you are experiencing ED from overdoing or improperly performing PE, the best course of action is to rest, promote proper circulation without aggressive stimulation, and apply heat in intervals. It is also imperative that you do your best to avoid feeding into any anxieties- worrying about ED can sometimes be enough to cause ED on its own.
Thanks. But I'm actually already a member of that site and have thoroughly read all they have about healing. They actually have a 124 page thread about this specific problem. http://www.pegym.com/forums/penile-anomalies-injuries/20460-official-hard-flaccid-recovery-thread-124.html
there's a pretty large group of people suffering from the same thing as me.
Basically we've all gone to doctors, and have tried various things but i've read all 124 pages and basically 4 people have reported getting better. Were all actively searching for a cure though.
Can't go to the site now to look for myself, but are all the people with your problem people who tried that stretching method you were talking about? If so, them im almost 100% its at least a very similar concept to a lobe blowout.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Funguspants]
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Found this, which you may find helpful:
http://www.pegym.com/forums/penile-anomalies-injuries/6475-read-before-posting-here.html
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If you are experiencing ED from overdoing or improperly performing PE, the best course of action is to rest, promote proper circulation without aggressive stimulation, and apply heat in intervals. It is also imperative that you do your best to avoid feeding into any anxieties- worrying about ED can sometimes be enough to cause ED on its own.
Thanks. But I'm actually already a member of that site and have thoroughly read all they have about healing. They actually have a 124 page thread about this specific problem. http://www.pegym.com/forums/penile-anomalies-injuries/20460-official-hard-flaccid-recovery-thread-124.html
there's a pretty large group of people suffering from the same thing as me.
Basically we've all gone to doctors, and have tried various things but i've read all 124 pages and basically 4 people have reported getting better. Were all actively searching for a cure though.
Can't go to the site now to look for myself, but are all the people with your problem people who tried that stretching method you were talking about? If so, them im almost 100% its at least a very similar concept to a lobe blowout.
I'm with you on the lobe blow out.
I also think poptart can heal. I mean, i stretch out my ears and let them heal over and over again all year long. I'm at a 00 going to half inch then i might stop again.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Dionili]
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i would say the same. youre dick will probably heal.
i would normally say it takes balls for someone to post this for everyone in the world to see
but i dont think that would work to well in your case 
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#14562096 - 06/04/11 11:38 PM (2 years, 14 days ago) |
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I hate to be the one who has to say this, but you should ask your doc for some antidepressants.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding (moved) [Re: Poptart]
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Dionili]
#14562105 - 06/04/11 11:39 PM (2 years, 14 days ago) |
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I'm pretty sure that this form of penis enlargement even works the same way as stretching your ears. But man... I said I was gonna stop at 00. NOPE! I'm at 5/8ths right now, but I've lost these plugs so many times and have had to improvise with using other things as plugs, so I'm not quite ready to stretch but I have a set of silicone plugs at the next size waiting to be put in.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#14562113 - 06/04/11 11:41 PM (2 years, 14 days ago) |
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Nobody's going anywhere. Sit down and make an effort to grow a pair, and make future plans to do something about your dick bleeding.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Funguspants]
#14562117 - 06/04/11 11:42 PM (2 years, 14 days ago) |
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I'm pretty sure that this form of penis enlargement even works the same way as stretching your ears. But man... I said I was gonna stop at 00. NOPE! I'm at 5/8ths right now, but I've lost these plugs so many times and have had to improvise with using other things as plugs, so I'm not quite ready to stretch but I have a set of silicone plugs at the next size waiting to be put in.
Ehhhh largest i've had my in 1 inch. then i let them do back to 4's then back up to 1/2 inch then back down to 2g then to 00 ><' I have tons of plugs,claws,random's and what not so i change sizes all the time. though i woulden't use the silicon unless you use a taper first.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Dionili]
#14562139 - 06/04/11 11:48 PM (2 years, 14 days ago) |
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I like the silicone for stretching because you can fold it up and it stretches, but also is a solid piece. I normally don't stretch with silicone unless money is tight.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Funguspants]
#14562166 - 06/04/11 11:53 PM (2 years, 14 days ago) |
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I like the silicone for stretching because you can fold it up and it stretches, but also is a solid piece. I normally don't stretch with silicone unless money is tight.
I bought a taper set online from BME.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Dionili]
#14562217 - 06/05/11 12:06 AM (2 years, 14 days ago) |
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I've wanted to do that for a while, but I'm awful at managing finances and never had the money to do so. IF I was smart I would have just saved up a couple weeks, definitely would have helped in the long run.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Funguspants]
#14562382 - 06/05/11 12:41 AM (2 years, 14 days ago) |
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Thank you for your post. nice to hear someone being honest and straight to the point. I don't really think the doctors can do anything about this. I think I basically am going to have to just wait it out and see if it heals on its own.
HAha the ear thing made me laugh. and kind of gave me hope. So you seriously tore your ear and it completely healed itself? wow.
I'm currently taking a bunch of vitamins to speed up healing and promote blood circulation. I've heard ginko biloba can also help nerves heal so I'm taking those as well.
I'm trying to find a way to speed up my metabolism so my body recycles itself faster. Maybe speeding up the healing process. But at the same time I can't do any serious running because moving around easily re injures and irritates it. SO lately i've been swimming alot. I'm trying to eat healthy to but I'm pretty ignorant of how to eat a balanced diet.
I have to believe I can heal cause its the only thing keeping me going.
I think you will heal, yes my ears healed completely, all by themselves no medicine or anything. The only thing I did to aid the process (not really to heal it but to purge it) was soaking them in a mixture of warm water and sea salt for 10 minutes three times a day for a couple days. That brought out all the puss and shit, I really fucked them up. To put it this way... when I took out my taper to see how bad it was it SLID out using my blood as a lubricant.
But to clear it up, I didn't tear it in a sense of having two dangling halves of a lobe, I just ripped apart the hole.
Heres a picture of a blowout WARNING GRAPHIC AND GROSS: http://29.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_leoczd8jxx1qb8j4ko1_500.jpg
Good idea on the vitamins and shit though, definitely won't hurt.
Sorry if you said this earlier, but how long ago did you injure your self? Like when did this become a problem?
Also, that sucks that your friends are far. Maybe you should work on finding potential good friends in your town. If your room mates are chill enough, theres a place to start. You have to take the little steps to be able to take the big ones. Like I said before, something will be awkward at first and you might even hate it, like going out and socializing with strangers, but that's life. Also, give your self some cushioning at first.
For instance, go somewhere you normally don't frequent (to worry about not being judged) and practice your social skills. You say you go to Barnes and Noble, if you have a Borders around you, go there and go by the magazine section and just start talking to someone. If you feel like you came off as a total creep, fuck it, you don't know that person and you probably will never see them again in your life. You have nothing to lose.
Wow that is a pretty nasty looking lobe blowout. Wow i have to admit that gives me alot of hope if the body can recover from that then maybe healing is possible. I just hope i didn't pop a vein or something.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#14562393 - 06/05/11 12:42 AM (2 years, 14 days ago) |
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with a name here on shroomery this simple you will always be known for this thread
you now have the title of internal bleeding dick kid
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Anonymous #1]
#14562686 - 06/05/11 01:47 AM (2 years, 14 days ago) |
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Listen man. You really need to go to a doctor. I would literally do everything possible to remedy the dick situation. Although I agree with the others that your penis should not consume your life, it's still very important, and if you can get it fixed you should. If you absolutely cannot fix it, well then you have to deal with it. But I would exhaust all options first.
I mean, have you tried seeing who the urologist referred you to? If you just stretched your dick too much and broke some veins or spongy tissue or whatever they should be able to fix that.
Obviously though having a perfectly functioning dick wouldn't solve all of your problems. I think there's been a lot of good advice in this thread and that you should follow it.
Just curious OP, what do you do for a living? How do you make money? Do you find it fulfilling or not? If the answer is no and you feel unfulfilled I would try to find something that you're really passionate about. There has to be at least something you like.
Oh and when it comes to disabilities ruining people's lives. Check this shit out.
I tried to find a better vid but a lot of them were overly religious. Anyway, point being, dude ain't got no arms or legs, and yet he's probably happier and living a more baller life than most of the people on earth. You can do that too. It's all in your head man.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: halo]
#14562926 - 06/05/11 03:15 AM (2 years, 14 days ago) |
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Sounds like you need to quit all drugs for a while and find new hobbies. Start exercising and eating healthy too
If your daily life really sucks that much go join the military. No matter what your views are on war and global conflicts it WILL turn your life around.
As for your dick, that really really sucks man!
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Anonymous #1]
#14562960 - 06/05/11 03:25 AM (2 years, 14 days ago) |
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with a name here on shroomery this simple you will always be known for this thread
you now have the title of internal bleeding dick kid
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#14562967 - 06/05/11 03:29 AM (2 years, 14 days ago) |
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HAHAHA wtf I was silently reading something when My computer pulled up a website without my permission.
HOw does my computer know i have adhd??? wtf
http://mental.healthguru.com/video/what-is-adhd?Zango&landing=23&keyword=/add
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#14563057 - 06/05/11 04:12 AM (2 years, 14 days ago) |
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Didn't read whole thread by my advice: stop being arrogant and selfish. Don't worry about fucking chicks, your dick size and sexual prowess. Try and use your life to do something useful, like help others. Think about it, please.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#14563071 - 06/05/11 04:26 AM (2 years, 14 days ago) |
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It could always be worse. You could be me. or muppet.
Kimbo was telling me last night that some of us are just destined to be  and we should accept that and be happy in spite of it all.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: MisterMuscaria]
#14563573 - 06/05/11 10:11 AM (2 years, 14 days ago) |
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OP,
There is so much good advice in this thread that you need to go back and LISTEN TO!
Your dick situation is a good excuse to use right now, but you've had these problems all your life. You beat yourself up at every turn and you've sabotaged any opportunities you may have even before they present themselves.
This is no way to live.
I too have been down that road. I was[and still am]clinically depressed, and anxious beyond belief. It's hard for me to leave my house and just go to the store for a bag of chips for christ sakes. I thought I was broken and I lacked the social skills to ever have friends or a girlfriend, but you know what? I didn't! It turned out I was just too scared to try!
This year I have come so far, simply by forcing myself out there and wanting to be happy. The past 2 weekends, I've talked to and macked on more girls than I have in my whole life! NO JOKE. And the best part? I realized it's fucking easy and there's nothing to be scared of! The only thing holding you back is you man, you just have to go for it.
I see myself in you and this is why I'm trying to help you. I really hope you take this to heart because it's really coming from mine. PLEASE stop sabotaging yourself, please accept that you deserve to be happy, please stop making excuses for everything. You have some catching up to do, but it's amazing how fast you will learn. Just take an interest in other people and don't think about yourself and your own problems so much and you will be a much happier person, I guarantee it.
Now if you don't listen to this, I'm not going to try again. When I was as lost as you, I wouldn't listen to this kind of thing either. I made threads just like this one and argued with 15 other people that were trying to help me that they just didn't get it because they had never been there. Well they have, everyone has, they just got over it. You will too.
Your dick will heal, in the meantime just practice talking to people. Don't think about getting pussy, just think about working on your social skills, making friends, learning new things.
Best of luck.
P.S. Weed really emphasizes anxiety. I've cut down a lot, and it's helped more than you might think. Other drugs are even worse, except maybe mushrooms but that's a 50/50 to either fix you or break you for good, so just lay off everything for a while brother.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Anonymous #2]
#14564107 - 06/05/11 12:50 PM (2 years, 14 days ago) |
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you guys really think healing is possible?
I mean that thread is 124 pages long. And nobody is really getting any better. We've all been to various doctors. Tried trigger point therapy. Ect.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#14564120 - 06/05/11 12:52 PM (2 years, 14 days ago) |
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Tried trigger point therapy. Ect.
Oh you have to tell us what that is. 
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: BothHands]
#14564135 - 06/05/11 12:57 PM (2 years, 14 days ago) |
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Tried trigger point therapy. Ect.
Oh you have to tell us what that is.
Basically sticking your finger up your ass to release muscle tension.
Basically since the area is numb its hard to tell when your unconsciously flexing the pc muscles. So sometimes it goes into auto lock mode. So you have to massage certain muscle groups to release tension and promote blood flow.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#14564168 - 06/05/11 01:04 PM (2 years, 14 days ago) |
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I knew this was gonna be gold.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: BothHands]
#14564235 - 06/05/11 01:20 PM (2 years, 14 days ago) |
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Nigga be diddling his butt.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: ROFL_my_ WAFFLE]
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Mad_Larkin]
#14564788 - 06/05/11 04:03 PM (2 years, 14 days ago) |
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OP why did you stretch your dick out so badly? How long did it take from the time you started the stretching to the point of uselessness?
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart] 1
#14565067 - 06/05/11 05:11 PM (2 years, 14 days ago) |
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At least tell me youve lost your virginity by now or are trolling.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: MisterMuscaria]
#14565149 - 06/05/11 05:35 PM (2 years, 13 days ago) |
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At least tell me youve lost your virginity by now or are trolling.
I wish I was trolling but this is my actual life.
I'm not just words on a screen somewhere in this world some person is typing this.
I'm basically just recording my life events down.
Does having a bleeding dick count as a shamanic initiation?
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#14565178 - 06/05/11 05:39 PM (2 years, 13 days ago) |
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Im 25, schizophrenic, unemployed(and unemployable), live with my mom(whose also schizophrenic) and my lungs are filing up with fluid so I cant even smoke herb anymore. Not to mention most women find me awkward and repulsive. Ive got back hair for christ's sake!
at least you arent that?
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#14565191 - 06/05/11 05:43 PM (2 years, 13 days ago) |
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Poptart said:
Does having a bleeding dick count as a shamanic initiation?
No, to become a shaman you must learn to heal yourself fully before you can start healing others. Sounds like you have a long way to go.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: MisterMuscaria]
#14565194 - 06/05/11 05:43 PM (2 years, 13 days ago) |
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Im 25, schizophrenic, unemployed(and unemployable), live with my mom(whose also schizophrenic) and my lungs are filing up with fluid so I cant even smoke herb anymore. Not to mention most women find me awkward and repulsive. Ive got back hair for christ's sake!
at least you arent that?
You should do art then. That's what I'm doing
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: MisterMuscaria]
#14565219 - 06/05/11 05:49 PM (2 years, 13 days ago) |
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Favorite. That is fucking sick. I had no idea you were such an artist MM.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: muistrue]
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FractalDust said:
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Poptart said:
Does having a bleeding dick count as a shamanic initiation?
No, to become a shaman you must learn to heal yourself fully before you can start healing others. Sounds like you have a long way to go.
Gential mutilation was a pre-Jewish semitic ritual which was intended to simulate the female period (they were fertility worshippers) and that's why Jews mutilate their penors to this day.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: MisterMuscaria]
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Does having a bleeding dick count as a shamanic initiation?
No, to become a shaman you must learn to heal yourself fully before you can start healing others. Sounds like you have a long way to go.
You guys might not believe me but I know people who have the power to influence alot of people in the entertainment industry. If I spread the news of iboga I could heal alot of heroin addicts. Quote:
MisterMuscaria said:
here's some of my art; 
I think your art reflects a brilliant mind. But highly misunderstood. Is schizophrenia kind of like being on a permanent trip? or am I way off?
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#14584673 - 06/09/11 12:23 PM (2 years, 10 days ago) |
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I haven't tripped for about 2 years. Do you think it would be a good idea to trip and reevaluate my life. Or would it just make things worse?
I feel like my life is on hold unless this heals.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#14584862 - 06/09/11 01:00 PM (2 years, 10 days ago) |
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My motto is: when in doubt, ingest huge amounts of psychedelic substances.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: TheDukeofLizards]
#14584901 - 06/09/11 01:08 PM (2 years, 10 days ago) |
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poptart, i mean worst case scenario you freak out about your messed up dick and your extremely dull life.
on the other hand you could realize that most of your problems stem from self-inflicted causes, and you are keeping yourself down.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#14585160 - 06/09/11 01:54 PM (2 years, 10 days ago) |
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I haven't tripped for about 2 years. Do you think it would be a good idea to trip and reevaluate my life. Or would it just make things worse?
I feel like my life is on hold unless this heals.
If you're WILLING to re-evaluate your life, then do it. But it's not a magic bullet. If you don't bring the intensity, the honesty, and the focus, the drug is not gonna do any work for you.
A psychedelic experience in the right setting at the right time can turn a person's life around on a dime, but not by magic. It works because the person works with the drug.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: laserpig]
#14586496 - 06/09/11 06:38 PM (2 years, 9 days ago) |
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Pretty much
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Anthony917]
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poptart, i mean worst case scenario you freak out about your messed up dick and your extremely dull life.
on the other hand you could realize that most of your problems stem from self-inflicted causes, and you are keeping yourself down.
That's exactly what I'm afraid of.
I don't want to come to the conclusion that my life is completely hopeless during the peak and end up killing myself in a moment of horrific clarity.
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poptart, i mean worst case scenario you freak out about your messed up dick and your extremely dull life.
on the other hand you could realize that most of your problems stem from self-inflicted causes, and you are keeping yourself down.
That's exactly what I'm afraid of.
I don't want to come to the conclusion that my life is completely hopeless during the peak and end up killing myself in a moment of horrific clarity.
If you really think your life is hopeless just because you can't get a hard on anymore than you should probably just go ahead and do it now. If that is all you have to live for that is a truly pathetic life.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: TheDukeofLizards]
#14601357 - 06/12/11 04:46 PM (2 years, 7 days ago) |
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poptart, i mean worst case scenario you freak out about your messed up dick and your extremely dull life.
on the other hand you could realize that most of your problems stem from self-inflicted causes, and you are keeping yourself down.
That's exactly what I'm afraid of.
I don't want to come to the conclusion that my life is completely hopeless during the peak and end up killing myself in a moment of horrific clarity.
If you really think your life is hopeless just because you can't get a hard on anymore than you should probably just go ahead and do it now. If that is all you have to live for that is a truly pathetic life.
No but now I can't have a relationship and living alone for the rest of my life just wouldn't work for me. I can barely even take care of myself and my parents are getting sick of supporting me.
Freud was right sex drives almost everything we do. And when that is taken away the drive and will to live is gone. It's painfully obvious to me now. Everything else in life is just a filler to pass the time.
But like i said earlier I could never kill myself. I'm just saying I'm not really enjoying life anymore and everything i do is going through the motions.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#14601394 - 06/12/11 04:51 PM (2 years, 7 days ago) |
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Really? If you think life is only about sex then...all I can say is
I haven't had sex in the last 2 years and my life has been fucking awesome
it's getting kind of old to hear you keep spitting out the same nonsense over and over and over again, after people have told you hundreds of times to quit feeling so sorry for yourself.
Look man, you're either going to say "my life is over" in which case you should kill yourself, or "i'm gonna quit bitching about my problems and enjoy my life". There are a lot of infertile chicks out there, are their lives over cause they can't have babies?
I mean damn dude you could always hook up with a chick who can't get pregnant, marry her & adopt a child...
you seem to think that just because you destroyed your cock that your life is over...
I mean for fucks sake be happy you aren't this guy
see? He's wearing a nice shirt, I bet you he thought his life was over too...but it's not, and I also bet you he doesn't bitch and moan about it all day seeking attention either
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#14601402 - 06/12/11 04:52 PM (2 years, 7 days ago) |
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I tripped the other day and faced a slew of internal demons. After coming out on the other side I realized that though this body may not be enduring the best of fates I am also part of the greater whole and some of the other parts are enduring much greater fates. I should draw happiness from the happiness of the whole rather than one unit that is not enduring the best of fates.
I may not be sexy, but I can be happy for those who are.
I may not be getting laid right now but I can be happy for those who are.
I may not be in love but I can be happy for those who are.
Emotional anguish stems from jealousy. If we can overcome that jealousy we can be content with whatever cruel hand we are dealt and move on.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: MisterMuscaria]
#14601614 - 06/12/11 05:29 PM (2 years, 6 days ago) |
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Really? If you think life is only about sex then...all I can say is
I haven't had sex in the last 2 years and my life has been fucking awesome
it's getting kind of old to hear you keep spitting out the same nonsense over and over and over again, after people have told you hundreds of times to quit feeling so sorry for yourself.
Look man, you're either going to say "my life is over" in which case you should kill yourself, or "i'm gonna quit bitching about my problems and enjoy my life". There are a lot of infertile chicks out there, are their lives over cause they can't have babies?
I mean damn dude you could always hook up with a chick who can't get pregnant, marry her & adopt a child...
you seem to think that just because you destroyed your cock that your life is over...
I mean for fucks sake be happy you aren't this guy
see? He's wearing a nice shirt, I bet you he thought his life was over too...but it's not, and I also bet you he doesn't bitch and moan about it all day seeking attention either
its easy to say all that when it isn't happening to you. And pointing out other peoples shitty life situations doesn't make me feel better either. Diminishing my situation isn't really helping.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#14601630 - 06/12/11 05:36 PM (2 years, 6 days ago) |
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To be quite honest, it's pretty damn funny that your dick's bleeding internally because you kept pulling on it.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#14601657 - 06/12/11 05:42 PM (2 years, 6 days ago) |
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well it seems like you're pretty set on living a horrible miserable life, so why are you even here posting? 7 pages later and you're still saying the exact same thing as you were in your first post.
You've convinced yourself that your life is over, so it is.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Anthony917]
#14601789 - 06/12/11 06:08 PM (2 years, 6 days ago) |
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To be quite honest, it's pretty damn funny that your dick's bleeding internally because you kept pulling on it.
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well it seems like you're pretty set on living a horrible miserable life, so why are you even here posting? 7 pages later and you're still saying the exact same thing as you were in your first post.
You've convinced yourself that your life is over, so it is.
Well I already was depressed as fuck growing up and kept holding on to the idea that everything will be better once I get in a relationship and I don't have to be alone. then this happened and now that idea is fucked over.
now what? go to school, get a career, and then do the same repetitive action over and over again. I just can't live alone.
That's why I would rather live in denial. I can't mentally cope with this. I don't think you understand how traumatizing it is to not have a working dick. sure it could be worse. I could be that guy. But I'm not.
I don't really know why I'm posting. Maybe a part of me loves bitching cuz i feel that life dealt me a shitty hand and I have a lot of anger bottled up inside and I just need to vent.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Anthony917]
#14601800 - 06/12/11 06:10 PM (2 years, 6 days ago) |
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The miserable secretly desire their misery.
OP; have you tried direct prostate stimulation? you could always get a girl to fuck you with a strap on.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: mongo lloyd]
#14601814 - 06/12/11 06:12 PM (2 years, 6 days ago) |
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Hello there. I am a girl so maybe i can give you a bit of girly advice.
Most girls don't care about size and some don't even care if it works and there are many other ways to be with a girl besides penetration.If your sole purpose in life is to get laid then go to a massage parlor, the girls there don't care what your dick looks like.
I don't want to come off as a complete bitch but it sounds to me like you have some sexuality issues, perhaps your gay? Maybe you were molested as a kid?
The fact that you messed around with your dick like that and cant seem to find a partner suggests to me that you have some underlying issues.
Also i have ADHD and yes it can be difficult but I don't blame my fucked up life on it. At the very least you should talk to a counselor and try some antidepressants.
Edited by klopi123 (06/12/11 06:15 PM)
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: klopi123]
#14601997 - 06/12/11 06:57 PM (2 years, 6 days ago) |
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Hello there. I am a girl so maybe i can give you a bit of girly advice.
Most girls don't care about size and some don't even care if it works and there are many other ways to be with a girl besides penetration.If your sole purpose in life is to get laid then go to a massage parlor, the girls there don't care what your dick looks like.
I don't want to come off as a complete bitch but it sounds to me like you have some sexuality issues, perhaps your gay? Maybe you were molested as a kid?
The fact that you messed around with your dick like that and cant seem to find a partner suggests to me that you have some underlying issues.
Also i have ADHD and yes it can be difficult but I don't blame my fucked up life on it. At the very least you should talk to a counselor and try some antidepressants.
How would I know if I was molested? aren't both of those things heavily repressed in the psyche? I seriously doubt both but I've wondered that myself as I do seem to have a hard time talking to girls.
I've already tried antidepressants, I've been on zoloft, straterra, concerta, adderall, ritilin, ect. they mostly just fucked me up and made me act robotic.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#14602087 - 06/12/11 07:18 PM (2 years, 6 days ago) |
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If you have the funds I would go to a message parlor. Sometimes they even have lunch specials.
You dont need to go all they way. Just see how it feels to be touched by the opposite sex. If you have some chick rubbing her tits on your back and you think it feels icky well then theres your answer.
I would try Cipralex for your depression and social anxiety. I tried all kinds of pills for over 20 years and they all made me fat, more depressed or just out of it. Cipralex was the only thing that made me just feel like me. No side effects and it started working in less then a week. I also stopped smoking weed and treating my body like garbage.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: MisterMuscaria] 2
#14603877 - 06/13/11 02:38 AM (2 years, 6 days ago) |
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The miserable secretly desire their misery.
OP; have you tried direct prostate stimulation? you could always get a girl to fuck you with a strap on.
There is no graemlin to express my feelings about this post.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Mad_Larkin]
#14604597 - 06/13/11 06:28 AM (2 years, 6 days ago) |
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The miserable secretly desire their misery.
OP; have you tried direct prostate stimulation? you could always get a girl to fuck you with a strap on.
There is no graemlin to express my feelings about this post.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: klopi123]
#14605013 - 06/13/11 10:39 AM (2 years, 6 days ago) |
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Most gay guys ive met do not have a hard time talking to girls though....in fact they find it easier than most of us straight guys because they arent worried about getting laid.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: MisterMuscaria] 1
#14605397 - 06/13/11 12:29 PM (2 years, 6 days ago) |
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Most sexually healthy men are not virgins who mutilate their dicks.
He may not be gay but somethings up.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: klopi123]
#14605586 - 06/13/11 01:08 PM (2 years, 6 days ago) |
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Fuuck 
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: MisterMuscaria]
#14608961 - 06/13/11 11:23 PM (2 years, 5 days ago) |
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fuuuuuuuuuuuck is right
Edited by Poptart (06/13/11 11:27 PM)
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#14609909 - 06/14/11 02:37 AM (2 years, 5 days ago) |
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It's been 9 days, any improvement in the condition of your John Thomas?
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Mad_Larkin]
#14627031 - 06/17/11 10:14 AM (2 years, 2 days ago) |
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I'm pretty sure it's the result of scar tissue. I probably injured it from stretching just a little to hard one day and tore some tissue. It then healed incorrectly forming a scar tissue. I'm pretty sure that's where all my problems are stemming from. Because I have all these symptoms.
Scar Traits
While the degree of scar formation varies from person to person, there are some distinguishing characteristics:
· Becomes hard and non-pliable
· Bands of fibers on or below the surface
· Skin tightens or shortens. When crossing a joint, this contracture may limit range of motion, comprise function or cause deformity.
· Becomes dry and reopens to form a wound if not managed properly. This is especially true for skin grafts, which do not produce oil or sweat.
Long-Term Effects
While the body’s formation of scar tissue is an awesome demonstration of self-preservation, the resulting fibrous mass can set the stage for problems down the road. Composed primarily of collagen, scar tissue’s fibrosity prohibits adequate circulation. In addition to the physical limitations of collagenous tissue, the lack of blood flow and lymph drainage occurring in scar tissue makes it vulnerable to dysfunction. The resulting abnormal stress on a scar’s surrounding structures may include:
· Nerve impingement
· Pain
· Numbness
· Limited range of motion and flexibility
· Postural misalignment
· Muscle atrophy
· Tissue hypoxia
· An increase in potential for future injury
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#14629029 - 06/17/11 06:23 PM (2 years, 1 day ago) |
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 C'mon man, I know this seems like the worst thing ever, but it will be so much worse if you allow the mental side to get you. You can still have as full a life as any of us, there are much better things than sex, despite what people say. Try to get out and enjoy some summer activities to take your mind off things.
I would schedule regular appointments with some sort of specialist, and keep going until things get better, or you are absolutely sure that there is nothing that can be done. Not sure if you've done this already but I would also highly recommend that you see some sort of mental health counseler, that is what you probably should have been doing in the first place. Also, perhaps some sort of light yoga, or something similar can help improve circulation to that part of the body. I would also try and focus on eating as healthily as you possibly can, and maybe even find someone who can sort out some herbal remedies to help with bloodflow, and repairing damaged cells.
Like everyone else who faces such a problem in their life, you have the choice to confront it, mentally and physically, or let it destroy you. Everyone who acts like there is something wrong with you is ignoring the fact that they are also human. We all have body issues, some of us have just learned to accept them. Sure you made a mistake, we all do that too.
Really, I hope you will see that there is more to this than the physical side, I'm not trying to imply that you are gay or anything, that doesn't have anything to do with this IMO. You just sound like this has got you really down when, even if your dick fell off, you would still have so much to live for. Try to be doing things like exercise and spending time with people, they will help you break out of depression unlike sitting in at the computer studying penis anatomy 
 & my friend, I really hope you will get some kind of help.
Also, I admire that you posted this here, not just because it shows you have at least accepted the problem, but you also may help others who might make the same mistakes.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: MisterMuscaria]
#14631655 - 06/18/11 03:47 AM (2 years, 1 day ago) |
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MisterMuscaria said:
I tripped the other day and faced a slew of internal demons. After coming out on the other side I realized that though this body may not be enduring the best of fates I am also part of the greater whole and some of the other parts are enduring much greater fates. I should draw happiness from the happiness of the whole rather than one unit that is not enduring the best of fates.
I may not be sexy, but I can be happy for those who are.
I may not be getting laid right now but I can be happy for those who are.
I may not be in love but I can be happy for those who are.
Emotional anguish stems from jealousy. If we can overcome that jealousy we can be content with whatever cruel hand we are dealt and move on.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: meams]
#15271533 - 10/24/11 04:47 PM (1 year, 7 months ago) |
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update....
still hasn't healed. nobody gives a shit. And i'm pretty sure the dea are after me for using plants to self medicate. 
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#15271667 - 10/24/11 05:14 PM (1 year, 7 months ago) |
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Poptart said:
update....
still hasn't healed. nobody gives a shit. And i'm pretty sure the dea are after me for using plants to self medicate.
I had the same thing more than a year ago from jacking off for 12-30 hours on speed, which I did frequently at the time. It took a long time for it to get back to normal but it finally did. When it was damaged I could still get a stiffy but it wouldn't last long enough for sex and it would hurt.
Can you pop a boner still? If not I assume you get wet dreams to empty your bollocks.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Anonymous #3]
#15271972 - 10/24/11 06:15 PM (1 year, 7 months ago) |
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I had the same thing more than a year ago from jacking off for 12-30 hours on speed, which I did frequently at the time.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#15272733 - 10/24/11 09:10 PM (1 year, 7 months ago) |
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update....
still hasn't healed. nobody gives a shit. And i'm pretty sure the dea are after me for using plants to self medicate.
Man you know it's been a long time since i've posted. but shit dude with that kind of attitude you might as well kill your self.
If all you that's you think, then that's what your mind will manifest before you. Look it up ^^^
You'd be surprised what and attitude change can do for you man.
and as for the DEA:
Move dumbass don't just sit around and wait to get fucked. break down your shit and smoke what you got. worse case you get charged with some personal and they look at you real funny for all the equipment...
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart] 1
#15272797 - 10/24/11 09:18 PM (1 year, 7 months ago) |
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Did you lose your virginity yet?
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#15274232 - 10/25/11 01:35 AM (1 year, 7 months ago) |
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since the doctors aren't able to really help at this time, why not look into alternative medicine?
there are herbs you can take that are very effective at improving & healing vasculature.
My doctor told me gingko is awesome for improving circulation. maybe check it out. Do some digging.
go find yourself a good naturopath or herbalist. acupuncture and Chinese herbs might be able to really help too if you find a skilled acupuncturist.
make healing your #1 priority. focus on getting well physically and mentally every day from the moment you wake up until you close your eyes at night. Research. Read self improvement books if you're going to waste your hours at the bookstore. Seek out help. Get some counseling.
You're the only one that can change your mind.
Change your mind, change your life. Stop your bitching. Heal your dick. Good stuff.
edit- oops, missed page 2 of that thread.
still... leaving the words up there anyway.
get well poptart.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: schmoopy]
#15274838 - 10/25/11 07:28 AM (1 year, 7 months ago) |
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as many have said, you're placing way too much importance on sex first of all. You just need to realize the ego is an illusion and get over feeling sorry for yourself. It's really as simple as that but getting caught up in the mind won't allow you to transcend it, so I'd recommend getting your life more in harmony and allowing meditation to flower.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: sirdonut]
#15275472 - 10/25/11 11:55 AM (1 year, 7 months ago) |
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as many have said, you're placing way too much importance on sex first of all. You just need to realize the ego is an illusion and get over feeling sorry for yourself. It's really as simple as that but getting caught up in the mind won't allow you to transcend it, so I'd recommend getting your life more in harmony and allowing meditation to flower.
no I never put that much emphasis on sex. Sure sex is a big part of life ( I techinically woulden't even know cuz i'm still a virgin)
I'm just saying it sucks cuz I wont ever even be able to even experience it or have a relationship or kids unless this shit heals. So I pretty much just want to
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: sirdonut]
#15275479 - 10/25/11 11:57 AM (1 year, 7 months ago) |
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sirdonut said:
as many have said, you're placing way too much importance on sex first of all. You just need to realize the ego is an illusion and get over feeling sorry for yourself. It's really as simple as that but getting caught up in the mind won't allow you to transcend it, so I'd recommend getting your life more in harmony and allowing meditation to flower.
I meditate alot. It's the only thing thats getting me through this shit. Because the source of suffering is all mental. But just cause I can stop negative thoughts from springing up doesn't mean I'm happy.
Still have no future to look forward to.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#15275667 - 10/25/11 12:45 PM (1 year, 7 months ago) |
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Do you think stressing about it healing will help the process at all? If anything it'll probably make it worse. Also, meditation isn't just quieting the mind or thought suppression, so I'd be willing to bet you've never done that either. It flowers naturally when you're in harmony with the universe, which you're clearly not at the moment. It isn't something you do for a few minutes/hours and then back to poor little me (ego/mind).
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: sirdonut]
#15275684 - 10/25/11 12:49 PM (1 year, 7 months ago) |
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Do you think stressing about it healing will help the process at all? If anything it'll probably make it worse. Also, meditation isn't just quieting the mind or thought suppression, so I'd be willing to bet you've never done that either. It flowers naturally when you're in harmony with the universe, which you're clearly not at the moment. It isn't something you do for a few minutes/hours and then back to poor little me (ego/mind).
right but you can only judge me based on the words i write you don't know me personally in real life so its not really fair for you to make any of those observations about me. even if some of them are true.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart] 1
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#15275731 - 10/25/11 12:58 PM (1 year, 7 months ago) |
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Poptart said:
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sirdonut said:
Do you think stressing about it healing will help the process at all? If anything it'll probably make it worse. Also, meditation isn't just quieting the mind or thought suppression, so I'd be willing to bet you've never done that either. It flowers naturally when you're in harmony with the universe, which you're clearly not at the moment. It isn't something you do for a few minutes/hours and then back to poor little me (ego/mind).
right but you can only judge me based on the words i write you don't know me personally in real life so its not really fair for you to make any of those observations about me. even if some of them are true.
I would never claim to know anyone, even people I'm close to. No worries, I'm not judging, just trying to help.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#15277140 - 10/25/11 06:32 PM (1 year, 7 months ago) |
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Can you pop a boner still?
You missed this.
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Poptart
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Anonymous #3]
#15277422 - 10/25/11 07:28 PM (1 year, 7 months ago) |
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sirdonut said:
Do you think stressing about it healing will help the process at all? If anything it'll probably make it worse. Also, meditation isn't just quieting the mind or thought suppression, so I'd be willing to bet you've never done that either. It flowers naturally when you're in harmony with the universe, which you're clearly not at the moment. It isn't something you do for a few minutes/hours and then back to poor little me (ego/mind).
well at this point all everyone is telling me to do is to suck it up and learn coping skills.
Even my parents pretty much gave up on me and want me to see a councelor for depression. Wtf is that supposed to do. you can't talk me out of depression.
I just want to get better. The only thing keeping me going is believing that this is temporary and it will pass. It's hard to believe in love or god or a higher purpose or being in harmony with the universe when your dick is leaking. I was living in my own blissful delusional bubble until this happened. Leaking from the dick kinda snaps you out of all of that. And shows you the cold hard truth. Love is just a chemical reaction and life is just a bitch and then you die.
There is no higher purpose or divine order to the universe. It's just random chaotic shit.
If this doesn't heal all i have left to look forward to is living alone at some repetative factory job for the rest of my life and never getting to experience what its like to be in love. 
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Dionili
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#15277600 - 10/25/11 07:58 PM (1 year, 7 months ago) |
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Poptart said:
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sirdonut said:
Do you think stressing about it healing will help the process at all? If anything it'll probably make it worse. Also, meditation isn't just quieting the mind or thought suppression, so I'd be willing to bet you've never done that either. It flowers naturally when you're in harmony with the universe, which you're clearly not at the moment. It isn't something you do for a few minutes/hours and then back to poor little me (ego/mind).
well at this point all everyone is telling me to do is to suck it up and learn coping skills.
Even my parents pretty much gave up on me and want me to see a councelor for depression. Wtf is that supposed to do. you can't talk me out of depression.
I just want to get better. The only thing keeping me going is believing that this is temporary and it will pass. It's hard to believe in love or god or a higher purpose or being in harmony with the universe when your dick is leaking. I was living in my own blissful delusional bubble until this happened. Leaking from the dick kinda snaps you out of all of that. And shows you the cold hard truth. Love is just a chemical reaction and life is just a bitch and then you die.
There is no higher purpose or divine order to the universe. It's just random chaotic shit.
If this doesn't heal all i have left to look forward to is living alone at some repetative factory job for the rest of my life and never getting to experience what its like to be in love.
You have manifested this life for your self.
you want it to change, then fucking change dont just sit around and mope.
You have no drive, no fucking will to live. No reason to fight.
Go find it. You don't need a dick to love, or make a chick cum.
And i'll tell you this, if they can give a girl a working cock then you can fix yours. nuff' said.
You need a life changing experience
You need to come close to death before you'll learn to experience life.
If i was near you I'd smack you into next fucking Tuesday then drown you in some fucking acid.
Plus, i'm pretty sure one of the bitches i know would fuck ya.
Go out and do something fun man you by the beach?
Ladies: i don't mean disrespect but this is guy talk. Exit the thread.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Dionili]
#15279345 - 10/26/11 02:35 AM (1 year, 7 months ago) |
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sirdonut gave you some of the best advice of everything I've read in this thread.
It really is obvious that you are attached to your suffering and enjoying it, why else would you keep doing and saying the same thing over and over?
Check this out.
Karma is our greatest teacher and is quite the merciful cosmic gift.
cause and effect. you do something, a result happens.
you pulled on your weiner, it broke. If you hadn't messed with it you wouldn't be experiencing this result.
You have a pretty big lesson to learn in this lifetime... the whole dick decay is a very heavy karma indeed.
Here's a cool thing about paying karma... if you dedicate your energy to helping other people, it starts to balance out rapidly.
Get out of victim mode, "woe is me" is a fucking lie.
You're breathing. You have a body and your brain works. You can use your hands to make and do things. You have the ability to pay attention to your attention with your attention.
Do it and be honest with yourself. Your mind is stuck in a thought loop.
"my dick doesn't work. I'll never experience love."
There are a lot of women in this world that would love and accept you despite the fact that your penis is broken, but you aren't going to be able to open yourself to a relationship with another person as long as you hate yourself.
Learn to accept and love yourself, broken cock and all, and you will undoubtedly, absolutely find a loving relationship.
That's something you have to consciously work towards. It won't happen mechanically, you have to do the work yourself every day.
You're not meditating. You're thinking low level thoughts and hurting yourself. If you meditated a lot as you said you do, you wouldn't be stuck in the "broken cock, no love" loop.
You believe that love = sex. It doesn't. Change that belief and your life will blossom. You might even have enough physical energy for your body to heal that injury if you stop putting all of your mental and emotional energy into this false belief.
but you're probably going to just breeze right through these words and not take them in. You already have the answer in your mind right?
"my life sucks forever and ever"
How many times did your mind reject the words before you finished reading this post?
karma. it will teach you a lot and help you become a better person, but you have to work with it, balance it.. or else keep accumulating it and digging that hole right into your 40's in your parents basement.
Your choice
In the grand scheme, your suffering is nothing.
Check this out:
There's a lot happening in the world.
Figure out what you're passionate about. Help others. Start living.
I'm done with this thread.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: schmoopy]
#15280184 - 10/26/11 10:30 AM (1 year, 7 months ago) |
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schmoopy said:
sirdonut gave you some of the best advice of everything I've read in this thread.
It really is obvious that you are attached to your suffering and enjoying it, why else would you keep doing and saying the same thing over and over?
Check this out.
Karma is our greatest teacher and is quite the merciful cosmic gift.
cause and effect. you do something, a result happens.
you pulled on your weiner, it broke. If you hadn't messed with it you wouldn't be experiencing this result.
You have a pretty big lesson to learn in this lifetime... the whole dick decay is a very heavy karma indeed.
Here's a cool thing about paying karma... if you dedicate your energy to helping other people, it starts to balance out rapidly.
Get out of victim mode, "woe is me" is a fucking lie.
You're breathing. You have a body and your brain works. You can use your hands to make and do things. You have the ability to pay attention to your attention with your attention.
Do it and be honest with yourself. Your mind is stuck in a thought loop.
"my dick doesn't work. I'll never experience love."
There are a lot of women in this world that would love and accept you despite the fact that your penis is broken, but you aren't going to be able to open yourself to a relationship with another person as long as you hate yourself.
Learn to accept and love yourself, broken cock and all, and you will undoubtedly, absolutely find a loving relationship.
That's something you have to consciously work towards. It won't happen mechanically, you have to do the work yourself every day.
You're not meditating. You're thinking low level thoughts and hurting yourself. If you meditated a lot as you said you do, you wouldn't be stuck in the "broken cock, no love" loop.
You believe that love = sex. It doesn't. Change that belief and your life will blossom. You might even have enough physical energy for your body to heal that injury if you stop putting all of your mental and emotional energy into this false belief.
but you're probably going to just breeze right through these words and not take them in. You already have the answer in your mind right?
"my life sucks forever and ever"
How many times did your mind reject the words before you finished reading this post?
karma. it will teach you a lot and help you become a better person, but you have to work with it, balance it.. or else keep accumulating it and digging that hole right into your 40's in your parents basement.
Your choice
In the grand scheme, your suffering is nothing.
Check this out:
There's a lot happening in the world.
Figure out what you're passionate about. Help others. Start living.
I'm done with this thread.
It's easy to go out giving advice when it isn't happening to you.
Were you in my position you would be just as pessimistic about life as I am.
Stop trying to cheer me up with a little cheerleader speech it isnt going to work. I don't mean to be mean but you all are making light of this. This is a serious problem and you all are acting like I just stubbed my toe or something.
The possibility of having a loving relationship? Bullshit. Fuck off.
Even if there was a woman who would
Why would I ever drag someone else into my hell? Fuck that. Your full of shit and you know it.
Karma? there is no such thing. Why don't you fly to a foreign country and take a good look around. What did these people ever do to deserve a life of poverty. Having to scrounge around for scraps of food just to live another day. Innocent people are raped everyday. Innocent people are framed and given life sentences for things they didn't do.
Are you saying these people did something to deserve this?
Your just living in your own blissful delusional bubble. you accused me of rejecting your words before I finished reading your post. And your right I did. Because I've heard it all before a million times. But guess what your going to read this post and reject it just the same. Because it's something your mind can't cope with. Your mind will reject anything that doesn't conform to the way you see things. You just want to live in your blissful bubble you call reality.
Wake the fuck up. I'm trying to help you understand this so you all can enjoy life to the fullest without taking it for granted. Stop with the eternal life fantasy. There is no reincarnation, there is no afterlife, there is only now. And when your life is over thats it.
I just happened to get a shitty role of the dice and happened to fuck my life over because I decided to do some experimentation out of bordom. So unless you can direct me to a doctor who actually gives a fuck then fuck off with the cheerleader stories. That's not what I need right now. And it's not helping at all. I just want to bitch about my life a little bit okay? Can you understand that? Sometimes it feels good to bitch about things. I don't really have anyone to talk to in real life about this embarrassing condition. So sorry if I inconvenienced you with my story.
Edited by Poptart (10/26/11 10:55 AM)
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Dionili
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: schmoopy]
#15280192 - 10/26/11 10:32 AM (1 year, 7 months ago) |
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schmoopy said:
sirdonut gave you some of the best advice of everything I've read in this thread.
It really is obvious that you are attached to your suffering and enjoying it, why else would you keep doing and saying the same thing over and over?
Check this out.
Karma is our greatest teacher and is quite the merciful cosmic gift.
cause and effect. you do something, a result happens.
you pulled on your weiner, it broke. If you hadn't messed with it you wouldn't be experiencing this result.
You have a pretty big lesson to learn in this lifetime... the whole dick decay is a very heavy karma indeed.
Here's a cool thing about paying karma... if you dedicate your energy to helping other people, it starts to balance out rapidly.
Get out of victim mode, "woe is me" is a fucking lie.
You're breathing. You have a body and your brain works. You can use your hands to make and do things. You have the ability to pay attention to your attention with your attention.
Do it and be honest with yourself. Your mind is stuck in a thought loop.
"my dick doesn't work. I'll never experience love."
There are a lot of women in this world that would love and accept you despite the fact that your penis is broken, but you aren't going to be able to open yourself to a relationship with another person as long as you hate yourself.
Learn to accept and love yourself, broken cock and all, and you will undoubtedly, absolutely find a loving relationship.
That's something you have to consciously work towards. It won't happen mechanically, you have to do the work yourself every day.
You're not meditating. You're thinking low level thoughts and hurting yourself. If you meditated a lot as you said you do, you wouldn't be stuck in the "broken cock, no love" loop.
You believe that love = sex. It doesn't. Change that belief and your life will blossom. You might even have enough physical energy for your body to heal that injury if you stop putting all of your mental and emotional energy into this false belief.
but you're probably going to just breeze right through these words and not take them in. You already have the answer in your mind right?
"my life sucks forever and ever"
How many times did your mind reject the words before you finished reading this post?
karma. it will teach you a lot and help you become a better person, but you have to work with it, balance it.. or else keep accumulating it and digging that hole right into your 40's in your parents basement.
Your choice
In the grand scheme, your suffering is nothing.
Check this out:
There's a lot happening in the world.
Figure out what you're passionate about. Help others. Start living.
I'm done with this thread.
:wuthesaid:
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#15280263 - 10/26/11 10:59 AM (1 year, 7 months ago) |
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poptart.
it really saddens me to read this thread. especially that this happened to you of all people because at least if it happened to some sex crazed dimwit it might waken them up a bit and make them reasses their life.
i can relate to you and i know this would fuck me up big time too. you are the kind of highly self reflexive introverted type, passive and untrusting of people, who already makes a meal out of very small issues and so a big one (like this) is almost too much.
i cant really give any advice because i myself am pretty much the same. i agree that the whole "There is no higher purpose or divine order to the universe. It's just random chaotic shit." is true and i suspect the 'all is love' mantra is bullshit as well.
that said, a lot of people say they dont believe in god, but actually do hold themselves to some higher standards or do think they are constantly being judged, need to act right or whatever. i think you need to not only say you dont believe in god, but realize that you are actually abandoned by god, that you are completely freed from that comforting ideal and it is truly up to you amd only you to act in this world... dont know how much this applies but i read it the other day and realized it does to me
anyway, have you thought of asking a plastic surgeon? surely with all they can do they could fix you up?
goodluck man, i hope it all turns out for the best.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#15280273 - 10/26/11 11:03 AM (1 year, 7 months ago) |
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Poptart said:
Wake the fuck up. I'm trying to help you understand this so you all can enjoy life to the fullest without taking it for granted. Stop with the eternal life fantasy. There is no reincarnation, there is no afterlife, there is only now. And when your life is over thats it.
the universe is really playing a far out game with you.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: quinn]
#15280340 - 10/26/11 11:30 AM (1 year, 7 months ago) |
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quinn said:
poptart.
it really saddens me to read this thread. especially that this happened to you of all people because at least if it happened to some sex crazed dimwit it might waken them up a bit and make them reasses their life.
i can relate to you and i know this would fuck me up big time too. you are the kind of highly self reflexive introverted type, passive and untrusting of people, who already makes a meal out of very small issues and so a big one (like this) is almost too much.
i cant really give any advice because i myself am pretty much the same. i agree that the whole "There is no higher purpose or divine order to the universe. It's just random chaotic shit." is true and i suspect the 'all is love' mantra is bullshit as well.
that said, a lot of people say they dont believe in god, but actually do hold themselves to some higher standards or do think they are constantly being judged, need to act right or whatever. i think you need to not only say you dont believe in god, but realize that you are actually abandoned by god, that you are completely freed from that comforting ideal and it is truly up to you amd only you to act in this world... dont know how much this applies but i read it the other day and realized it does to me
anyway, have you thought of asking a plastic surgeon? surely with all they can do they could fix you up?
goodluck man, i hope it all turns out for the best.
Nice to hear an honest down to earth response for once. I really appreciate it. I havent really thought of asking a plastic surgeon ...wut are they going to do give me a plastic dick? (joking)
But ya I'm trying to keep my head up. I still think somewhere in this world there has to be some doctor smart enough to fix me. I still really really want to believe this is some kind of test but i don't know anymore.
But ya once agian thanks for actually giving an honest down to earth response. It's refreshing to hear.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#15280360 - 10/26/11 11:39 AM (1 year, 7 months ago) |
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no probs man. we might all be alone but we are alone together
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: quinn]
#15280375 - 10/26/11 11:42 AM (1 year, 7 months ago) |
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quinn said:
no probs man. we might all be alone but we are alone together
True that.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#15280410 - 10/26/11 11:58 AM (1 year, 7 months ago) |
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maybe they can cut the tip of your toe and penor off and switch them, you'll get feeling back in your penis and you won't need feeling in your toe, and you'll gain a penornail for scratching the gspot
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#15280815 - 10/26/11 02:20 PM (1 year, 7 months ago) |
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Poptart said:
It's easy to go out giving advice when it isn't happening to you.
Were you in my position you would be just as pessimistic about life as I am.
Stop trying to cheer me up with a little cheerleader speech it isnt going to work. I don't mean to be mean but you all are making light of this. This is a serious problem and you all are acting like I just stubbed my toe or something.
The possibility of having a loving relationship? Bullshit. Fuck off.
Even if there was a woman who would
Why would I ever drag someone else into my hell? Fuck that. Your full of shit and you know it.
Karma? there is no such thing. Why don't you fly to a foreign country and take a good look around. What did these people ever do to deserve a life of poverty. Having to scrounge around for scraps of food just to live another day. Innocent people are raped everyday. Innocent people are framed and given life sentences for things they didn't do.
Are you saying these people did something to deserve this?
Your just living in your own blissful delusional bubble. you accused me of rejecting your words before I finished reading your post. And your right I did. Because I've heard it all before a million times. But guess what your going to read this post and reject it just the same. Because it's something your mind can't cope with. Your mind will reject anything that doesn't conform to the way you see things. You just want to live in your blissful bubble you call reality.
Wake the fuck up. I'm trying to help you understand this so you all can enjoy life to the fullest without taking it for granted. Stop with the eternal life fantasy. There is no reincarnation, there is no afterlife, there is only now. And when your life is over thats it.
I just happened to get a shitty role of the dice and happened to fuck my life over because I decided to do some experimentation out of bordom. So unless you can direct me to a doctor who actually gives a fuck then fuck off with the cheerleader stories. That's not what I need right now. And it's not helping at all. I just want to bitch about my life a little bit okay? Can you understand that? Sometimes it feels good to bitch about things. I don't really have anyone to talk to in real life about this embarrassing condition. So sorry if I inconvenienced you with my story.
With that attitude, you're not gonna get laid with a working dick.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: BothHands] 2
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you could fly to Thailand and get a sex change for less than 10 grand.
They can do remarkable things surgically. Get yourself a new vagina with sensation and everything and just grow your hair out, get some vocal training, and embrace that whiney bitch persona.
change your shroomery name to "poptartita"
then you wont be there are lots of oddballs that love trannys.
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domite
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart] 1
#15283254 - 10/26/11 11:17 PM (1 year, 7 months ago) |
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Thats sucks bro, but here is what your post looks like to me:
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Poptart said:
I just
It just
It's just
I just
It just
It's just
I just
It just
It's just
It shows the way you are thinking is just cutting everything off.
Also when you pull on your dick, use short, fast gentle strokes.
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domite
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: domite]
#15283703 - 10/27/11 12:41 AM (1 year, 7 months ago) |
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What i meant when i posted this was that your way of thinking is hurting you and Im sure you can find another and you will find a way to treat yourself better and your thoughts are part of that.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Anonymous #3]
#15286164 - 10/27/11 03:32 PM (1 year, 7 months ago) |
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Anonymous said:
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Anonymous said:
Can you pop a boner still?
You missed this.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Anonymous #3]
#15286663 - 10/27/11 05:07 PM (1 year, 7 months ago) |
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Anonymous said:
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Anonymous said:
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Anonymous said:
Can you pop a boner still?
You missed this.
ya... that's the problem
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#15303435 - 10/31/11 01:28 PM (1 year, 7 months ago) |
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Ok so technically I can still get it up. But it's all red and swollen. That's why I think something is leaking.
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Poptart
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#15305426 - 10/31/11 09:30 PM (1 year, 7 months ago) |
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But just because it hasn't turned purple and fallen off yet the local urologist arn't willing to look into it.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#15305589 - 10/31/11 10:06 PM (1 year, 7 months ago) |
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This thread has been very fun. I really enjoy your bitching. These people who think going for walks will change a person from being sad and introverted into happy extroverts are very deluded. I am attached to my misery, not by choice and I have read many self help books and tried all kinds of stuff to change my attitude but that is wrong and it is all ineffective. There are hellish forces that rise up, they always over power me. I have tried to ignore them, fight them, positive affirm them away, cast them out in christs name, align myself with them, there is nothing I can do. It all comes down to my nature, that is I am nothing. Last night I got stoned and laughed allot. That is my joy in life, there is very little else. I have some loyal friends that I hang out with but I hardly talk to them really. Got nothing to say. I think I am more aligned with these demons now. That works best, it is acceptance and surrender to the sadness and hopelessness that brings peace. Not trying obtain a positive mental attitude, that is unreasonable expectation.
As for being alone for the rest of your life, look up bramacharia and sublimation of sexual energy. Listen too Hank Williams and be glad you never have to feel like that. I feel like I'm going to be alone for the rest of my life but I'm ok with that.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding *DELETED* [Re: usulpsychonaut]
#15305800 - 10/31/11 10:51 PM (1 year, 7 months ago) |
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#15307495 - 11/01/11 07:39 AM (1 year, 7 months ago) |
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I'm not watching video due to data limit.
Sex is boring pain is fun, cut my fingers of one by one-Vivien/Young Ones.
I love the dead. Sick things in cars rotate round my stars-Alice Cooper.
A Poem for the eternally suffering dead
I love your brain and your eyeballs
The slime that drips from your exposed skull
Serpents extend from my head
Angles float from the grail
The stardust of Bifrost spiraling into sun wheels
Fade into white ghosts on blue horizon
Swallow all the stars and the night sky
Awaken into dream.
In my reality tunnel the meaning of life is attraction to sublime experience and description, not attraction to sex.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: usulpsychonaut]
#15308530 - 11/01/11 02:06 PM (1 year, 7 months ago) |
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usulpsychonaut said:
I'm not watching video due to data limit.
Sex is boring pain is fun, cut my fingers of one by one-Vivien/Young Ones.
I love the dead. Sick things in cars rotate round my stars-Alice Cooper.
A Poem for the eternally suffering dead
I love your brain and your eyeballs
The slime that drips from your exposed skull
Serpents extend from my head
Angles float from the grail
The stardust of Bifrost spiraling into sun wheels
Fade into white ghosts on blue horizon
Swallow all the stars and the night sky
Awaken into dream.
In my reality tunnel the meaning of life is attraction to sublime experience and description, not attraction to sex.
and this is coming from bleeding dick kid.
Edited by Poptart (11/01/11 02:09 PM)
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: usulpsychonaut]
#15308586 - 11/01/11 02:17 PM (1 year, 7 months ago) |
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usulpsychonaut said:
This thread has been very fun. I really enjoy your bitching. These people who think going for walks will change a person from being sad and introverted into happy extroverts are very deluded. I am attached to my misery, not by choice and I have read many self help books and tried all kinds of stuff to change my attitude but that is wrong and it is all ineffective. There are hellish forces that rise up, they always over power me. I have tried to ignore them, fight them, positive affirm them away, cast them out in christs name, align myself with them, there is nothing I can do. It all comes down to my nature, that is I am nothing. Last night I got stoned and laughed allot. That is my joy in life, there is very little else. I have some loyal friends that I hang out with but I hardly talk to them really. Got nothing to say. I think I am more aligned with these demons now. That works best, it is acceptance and surrender to the sadness and hopelessness that brings peace. Not trying obtain a positive mental attitude, that is unreasonable expectation.
As for being alone for the rest of your life, look up bramacharia and sublimation of sexual energy. Listen too Hank Williams and be glad you never have to feel like that. I feel like I'm going to be alone for the rest of my life but I'm ok with that.
seriously man.... 
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#15309476 - 11/01/11 06:11 PM (1 year, 7 months ago) |
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It's taken 35 years to get this delusion to where it is. I'm no emo kid you prick, I'm a hallucinating poet. I see snakes floating above my head and I'm proud.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: usulpsychonaut]
#15312874 - 11/02/11 12:47 PM (1 year, 7 months ago) |
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usulpsychonaut said:
It's taken 35 years to get this delusion to where it is. I'm no emo kid you prick, I'm a hallucinating poet. I see snakes floating above my head and I'm proud.
wait let me get this straight...
everyone in the world is busy mindlessly fucking eachother like animals. meanwhile my dick is broken and the only person I have to keep me company is some random psychotic schizophrenic, who see's snakes floating above his head and makes drug's look bad for the rest of us...
OK GOD you've had your fun torturing me! You can end your cosmic joke now! I surrender! please wake me up from this nightmare.
Edited by Poptart (11/02/11 09:18 PM)
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart] 1
#15313152 - 11/02/11 02:20 PM (1 year, 7 months ago) |
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Poptart said:
OK GOD you've had your fun torturing me! You can end your cosmic joke now! please wake me up from this nightmare.
Jesus Christ, get the fuck over your self. You are miserable because you want to be.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: CavemanJohnson]
#15313162 - 11/02/11 02:43 PM (1 year, 7 months ago) |
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CavemanJohnson said:
Jesus Christ, get the fuck over your self.
I was going to say something similar
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usulpsychonaut
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#15313405 - 11/02/11 04:39 PM (1 year, 7 months ago) |
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Buddha looks bad.
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Meteloides
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#15313582 - 11/02/11 05:55 PM (1 year, 7 months ago) |
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Poptart said:
Quote:
usulpsychonaut said:
I'm not watching video due to data limit.
Sex is boring pain is fun, cut my fingers of one by one-Vivien/Young Ones.
I love the dead. Sick things in cars rotate round my stars-Alice Cooper.
A Poem for the eternally suffering dead
I love your brain and your eyeballs
The slime that drips from your exposed skull
Serpents extend from my head
Angles float from the grail
The stardust of Bifrost spiraling into sun wheels
Fade into white ghosts on blue horizon
Swallow all the stars and the night sky
Awaken into dream.
In my reality tunnel the meaning of life is attraction to sublime experience and description, not attraction to sex.
and this is coming from bleeding dick kid.
Now, I know that I can't say anything that'll make all this go away.
But I felt obligated to tell you that that post was the funniest fucking thing I've read in months.
Thank you for that. 
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Meteloides]
#15313654 - 11/02/11 06:14 PM (1 year, 7 months ago) |
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Couldn't you use his as an opportunity to conquer your root chakra?
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usulpsychonaut
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Meteloides]
#15314662 - 11/02/11 09:10 PM (1 year, 7 months ago) |
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Yeah its good. Turned my face red and flared my nostrils.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: usulpsychonaut]
#15316804 - 11/03/11 10:26 AM (1 year, 7 months ago) |
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pics or it didn't happen
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: usulpsychonaut]
#15316963 - 11/03/11 11:35 AM (1 year, 7 months ago) |
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usulpsychonaut said:
This thread has been very fun. I really enjoy your bitching. These people who think going for walks will change a person from being sad and introverted into happy extroverts are very deluded. I am attached to my misery, not by choice and I have read many self help books and tried all kinds of stuff to change my attitude but that is wrong and it is all ineffective. There are hellish forces that rise up, they always over power me. I have tried to ignore them, fight them, positive affirm them away, cast them out in christs name, align myself with them, there is nothing I can do. It all comes down to my nature, that is I am nothing. Last night I got stoned and laughed allot. That is my joy in life, there is very little else. I have some loyal friends that I hang out with but I hardly talk to them really. Got nothing to say. I think I am more aligned with these demons now. That works best, it is acceptance and surrender to the sadness and hopelessness that brings peace. Not trying obtain a positive mental attitude, that is unreasonable expectation.
As for being alone for the rest of your life, look up bramacharia and sublimation of sexual energy. Listen too Hank Williams and be glad you never have to feel like that. I feel like I'm going to be alone for the rest of my life but I'm ok with that.
you're just continually buying into and reinforcing the illusion of the ego. It's your choice, though. You are right about one thing and it's that "you" are nothing but it's not a negative poor little me type of nothing. It's the nothingness of space that we all are. You realize you've been putting on a charade for years due to conditioning on multiple levels and the veil is lifted that reveals the infinite nature of existence itself.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#15317255 - 11/03/11 01:18 PM (1 year, 7 months ago) |
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At least you're not living alone anymore?
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#15325169 - 11/05/11 03:50 AM (1 year, 7 months ago) |
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Mad_Larkin said:
Do you actually want to be in a better situation? You seem to quite enjoy feeling victimised.
Seriously, ever since I noticed this guy he's acted this way. Definitely loves feeling a victim. Quote:
Poptart said:
Quote:
usulpsychonaut said:
It's taken 35 years to get this delusion to where it is. I'm no emo kid you prick, I'm a hallucinating poet. I see snakes floating above my head and I'm proud.
wait let me get this straight...
everyone in the world is busy mindlessly fucking eachother like animals. meanwhile my dick is broken and the only person I have to keep me company is some random psychotic schizophrenic, who see's snakes floating above his head and makes drug's look bad for the rest of us...
OK GOD you've had your fun torturing me! You can end your cosmic joke now! I surrender! please wake me up from this nightmare.
Dude, YOU make drugs look bad for the rest of us. Not every heavy pot smoker is so weak like you...
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding *DELETED* [Re: mikeisapro]
#15331989 - 11/06/11 06:17 PM (1 year, 7 months ago) |
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i like cow poo
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#15332021 - 11/06/11 06:24 PM (1 year, 7 months ago) |
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keep workin out man. Atleast you'll feel healthier 
but forreal lookup self-improvement books on amazon
they made me a happier person
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: i like cow poo]
#15334192 - 11/07/11 03:54 AM (1 year, 7 months ago) |
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Poptart... in the end you're just chasing your own tail man... and you know it, doncha?
Watch that video and ask yourself the final question of the video, are you a victim of the world, or are you the world?
If you still choose to play the victim role, then watch this video and tell me the primary difference in attitude between you and this guy.
In the end, you can keep wishing for things you don't currently have, but all you're doing is neglecting the things that you do have in this present moment.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: foliocb]
#15334897 - 11/07/11 10:20 AM (1 year, 7 months ago) |
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foliocb said:
Poptart... in the end you're just chasing your own tail man... and you know it, doncha?
Watch that video and ask yourself the final question of the video, are you a victim of the world, or are you the world?
If you still choose to play the victim role, then watch this video and tell me the primary difference in attitude between you and this guy.
In the end, you can keep wishing for things you don't currently have, but all you're doing is neglecting the things that you do have in this present moment.
 Thank you miss america!!! for your wonderful inspirational speech!
Sorry I don't mean to be a sacrastic dick but it's one of the few joys I have left in life. I'm a dick because mine is broken.
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Poptart]
#15335595 - 11/07/11 01:23 PM (1 year, 7 months ago) |
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Wheres the pictures in this thread? We need to see already. Stop trolling us
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Re: Living alone, no future plans, and my dick is internally bleeding [Re: Almond Flour] 1
#15335937 - 11/07/11 02:28 PM (1 year, 7 months ago) |
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Sorry I don't mean to be a sacrastic dick but it's one of the few joys I have left in life. I'm a dick because mine is broken.
Well hey, atleast youre working with what you got... thats a baby step in the 'right' direction if you ask me
Now look bro, I wish I was banging a new chick every other day and had a super jacked body among other things, but sooner or later you're gonna realize that you're just comparing apples to oranges. The more you focus on things you dont have, the less time you spend enjoying the things you DO actually have, that a lot of people probably don't have.
Imagine right now if you lost all 4 of your limbs(and your internally bleeding dick as well), how would you feel? My guess is even shittier, and you would suddenly realize that things weren't that bad before this happened. And atleast you wouldn't be able to bitch about it on the forums anymore
You're putting all your energy on dwelling on the past, and worrying about the future, is this how life should be lived? I personally don't think thats living at all imo, because you're missing the main point, the point of the present moment, which sad to say, is all you really are guaranteed in the end. And then you die, regardless if you had a functioning dick, or banged 500 girls be |
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