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 ellenallien
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 E*llen M*ilk's C*ow's 
#14230010 - 04/03/11 08:22 AM (2 years, 1 month ago) |
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i couldnt find the e m c so i made one. 
its 8:21 making coffee. supposed to be nice out. hopefully it is.
how is everybody? my life has drastically changed in the past week.
i havent had much time for myself.
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mornin' Ellen. how are you feeling?
woke up a little while ago. drankin the coffee. meeting up with a friend i see about once a year (if that). we always have the best conversation. stoked 
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"We are all intoxicated. We were born into an insane asylum, a world crazy-making. We believe what we see and hear. The real myth is the myth of sanity, of rationality: it's a disease that is eating away at the earth. All the poisons flow from our denial. We deny madness, we forget our crimes, we dismember the corpse, we imprison our children. We need poison to poison the poison, to remember the sacred nature of intoxication, the green body of the young god." ~ Dale Pendell
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ellenallien
lumpy space princess
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my BF recently had seizure's behind the wheel & crashed his car.
they found weed in his system, thats it. so they locked him up for 24 hrs in jail under DUI.
he was not driving under the influence, he does not do drugs. that is ME
after he got out, we have a lawyer now. after lots of doctors & neurologists his E_E_G came back
"abnormalities" concentrated to one section of his brain. they revoked his liscense and he is going
out on disability.
its really hard for me to get comfortable to be on the computer. since "my accident" its hard to sit or stand
cuz what i did to my left leg.. so i been laying in beds on my freetime which is unfort away from the PC.
i have been staying sober which is really hard. rarely smoking weed here & there. i get bad anxiety when i drive, but now i am forced to drive everywhere.
and i have major migraines from taking so many benzo's for months.
i have to step up and get my sh_t together. so far it seems like im doing ok, on the outside..
my BF now yesterday gave me some shocking news. we have never talked about this before on a real level.
he told me yesterday, he wants me to have his daughter. ME!? of all people!? not right this second but,
we have talked about 'marriage' but we have agreed on no children. i feel honored! but shocked, but frightened.
everything is changing so fast. we are going out to stay with my parents in the suburbs for xtra help.
the last place i would go becus of my mum. but i have to suck it up
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gerryjarcia
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wow, sounds like you've got a lot on your plate. guess it's like that old saying, "when it rains, it pours."
better get an umbrella 
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"We are all intoxicated. We were born into an insane asylum, a world crazy-making. We believe what we see and hear. The real myth is the myth of sanity, of rationality: it's a disease that is eating away at the earth. All the poisons flow from our denial. We deny madness, we forget our crimes, we dismember the corpse, we imprison our children. We need poison to poison the poison, to remember the sacred nature of intoxication, the green body of the young god." ~ Dale Pendell
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ellenallien
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Quote:
gerryjarcia said:
wow, sounds like you've got a lot on your plate. guess it's like that old saying, "when it rains, it pours."
better get an umbrella
very much soo..
everything is still just soo surreal.
hasnt even sunk in yet. i kind of watch myself on autopilot..
i dont know how im doing this.
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vinsue
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 Just try to be strong there, Lil' Lady. Best of luck to both (or 3) of you . . .
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ellenallien
lumpy space princess
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 Re: E*llen M*ilk's C*ow's [Re: vinsue]
#14230052 - 04/03/11 08:51 AM (2 years, 1 month ago) |
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@vinsue 
i have had 1 seizure in my life. but i have never sen anyone have a seizure. have you?
in the event that someone has a seizure in front of you? what are you suppose to do?
just call 9-1-1 ?
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Big changes for you there lady!
I broke my neck and nearly died in an auto accident almost two years ago, and they tried to charge me with like three crimes. Non e of it stuck, but it is just the point. I was laying in a hospital bed hundreds of miles from home and the police were issuing warrants....
Sounds like u will have a busy time next few months!
My son made me the man I am today, nothing compares to a childs truly unconditional love.
Enjoy the day
bc
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ellenallien
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thank u B_C, it is good to see u 
he was not going fast when it happend. just property damage, everyone was lucky..
wow things just get too real at the end of this video
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You seem currently overwhelmed, understandably, but try to stay positive. How you are feeling is determined by how you perceive your situations. Though it might seem hard, try to find the silver linings and it should make coping somewhat easier. It could always be worse, so be thankful and good luck to you.
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What's from the earth is of the greatest worth. 
So before u knock it, try it first and you'll see it's a blessing and it's not a curse.
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I AM SWIM
doin' thangs
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Re: E*llen M*ilk's C*ow's [Re: mrckb]
#14230117 - 04/03/11 09:50 AM (2 years, 1 month ago) |
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Micawber
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Re: E*llen M*ilk's C*ow's [Re: I AM SWIM]
#14230119 - 04/03/11 09:51 AM (2 years, 1 month ago) |
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E*llen M*ilk's C*ow's
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(mik-kaw'-bur) n. one who is poor but lives in optimistic expectation of better fortune
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desant
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Re: E*llen M*ilk's C*ow's [Re: mrckb]
#14230129 - 04/03/11 09:55 AM (2 years, 1 month ago) |
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good morning Ellen
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I AM SWIM
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Re: E*llen M*ilk's C*ow's [Re: Micawber]
#14230131 - 04/03/11 09:56 AM (2 years, 1 month ago) |
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desant
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Re: E*llen M*ilk's C*ow's [Re: I AM SWIM]
#14230139 - 04/03/11 10:03 AM (2 years, 1 month ago) |
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that film is great
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Re: E*llen M*ilk's C*ow's [Re: desant]
#14230160 - 04/03/11 10:20 AM (2 years, 1 month ago) |
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Morning all. I'm hoping when I check the mail this guy will have finally paid me for my gig.. I want to buy some dank and some food! Hope everyone's weekend is going well. I rediscovered my GTA4 disc for my computer so I've been modding the shit out of it. Forza 3 models look awesome in GTA.
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Re: E*llen M*ilk's C*ow's [Re: saxcidjazz]
#14230162 - 04/03/11 10:21 AM (2 years, 1 month ago) |
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Pretty pissed off that my friends went to a party where the music doesn't even interest them and just left me be 
oh well I took some acid, ketamine and smoked some weed.
Payday this friday 
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Je sens que je vais aller voir ailleurs
Là où tout est beau et plein de douceur!
Les femmes.
Je sens mon corps se remplir de bonheur
Et mon sourire noyé par les pleurs
Je danse mais j'hésite encore...
Des larmes.
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Re: E*llen M*ilk's C*ow's [Re: desant]
#14230164 - 04/03/11 10:22 AM (2 years, 1 month ago) |
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A little poem i have wrote for you ellen..
INNOCENCE
Innocence is freedom.
And guilt just ties you down.
Having a clean conscience means,
A face without a frown.
When all the world around you
Is crushing mankind’s time,
Just stick to your principles,
And keep your dreams in mind.
To make mistakes is natural,
It makes us who we are,
Just keep that smile upon your face,
And you will go so far.
A wise man makes his own decisions,
While fools follow the rest,
Don't keep problems to yourself,
Just get them off your chest...
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Re: E*llen M*ilk's C*ow's [Re: microdotty]
#14230206 - 04/03/11 10:37 AM (2 years, 1 month ago) |
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i've never felt up a cow 
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desant
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Re: E*llen M*ilk's C*ow's [Re: Salomon]
#14230251 - 04/03/11 10:50 AM (2 years, 1 month ago) |
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Ellen, does your BF takes good care of u?
By the looks of it he doesnt offer u much support 
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Dosile Kouki
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Quote:
ellenallien said:
@vinsue
i have had 1 seizure in my life. but i have never sen anyone have a seizure. have you?
in the event that someone has a seizure in front of you? what are you suppose to do?
just call 9-1-1 ?
my dad died from a Glioblastoma level 4 of 4 brain tumour...if you google it you'll see its the nastiest brain tumour of them all. Highly aggressive and really not cureable. i can't put into words how much i despise that tumour...
But my dad had many seizures. While they are a scary thing to witness, and everytime you will automatically think the worst, they aren't fatal.
This is not the greatest of news but, theres really nothing you can do to prevent it. you just need to make sure the person is in a safe position, and be there for them, trying to comfort them. I just used to grab my dad by the shoulders and just tell him its alright, just breathe, just breathe, it will be over soon. And he said he could always hear what i was saying during his seizures, so just try to put him at ease and speak peacefully when it happens.
Another thing we had was this medication called Rivotril, in liquid form. basically if he had a seizure we were to squirt two mills of it into his mouth and the stuff pretty much just knocks them out and cancels the seizure. It is very strong stuff that will just put you out like a light though, but if the seizures are severe this is the best option.
The important thing to remember about seizures is that they are a temporary and NON FATAL thing. As i said before, you will think the worst and freak out, and call the ambulance, but its only a minor set back, even after the most severe of seizures they will be back to normal in a week, usually a day or two.
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You know if you take suboxone while you're pregnant, your baby will be addicted to opiates as soon as it enters this world. And if you're doing benzos, your baby will be addicted to them too. But coming off benzos isn't like coming off opiates, it can be fatal.
I really hope that maybe this is what it takes to get you clean. But if you can't get clean, I really hope you can be responsible enough to wait to have kids.
I don't want to be a buzzkill, I just want you to realize how serious this could be if you don't get clean first. I really hope you make it. I'm rootin' for ya.
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I AM SWIM
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Re: E*llen M*ilk's C*ow's [Re: BothHands]
#14230344 - 04/03/11 11:24 AM (2 years, 1 month ago) |
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Quote:
BothHands said:
You know if you take suboxone while you're pregnant, your baby will be addicted to opiates as soon as it enters this world. And if you're doing benzos, your baby will be addicted to them too. But coming off benzos isn't like coming off opiates, it can be fatal.
I really hope that maybe this is what it takes to get you clean. But if you can't get clean, I really hope you can be responsible enough to wait to have kids.
I don't want to be a buzzkill, I just want you to realize how serious this could be if you don't get clean first. I really hope you make it. I'm rootin' for ya.
Definitely this.
Kids are a nuisance. You are definitely not ready to have a baby yet, Ellen.
You must get clean if you want a child in your future.
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But coming off benzos isn't like coming off opiates, it can be fatal.
I'm worried about this, because I've been on benzos for about 4 months daily, and have been abusing them lately, and.. Well. I probably need help, but I just need to be RESPONSIBLE.
It's difficult to be responsible with highly addictive substances unfortunately.
I think I have a plan though.
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Re: E*llen M*ilk's C*ow's [Re: I AM SWIM]
#14230351 - 04/03/11 11:26 AM (2 years, 1 month ago) |
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Well how much of which benzo are you taking?
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I AM SWIM
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Re: E*llen M*ilk's C*ow's [Re: BothHands]
#14230371 - 04/03/11 11:33 AM (2 years, 1 month ago) |
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I'll 
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Re: E*llen M*ilk's C*ow's [Re: I AM SWIM]
#14230388 - 04/03/11 11:38 AM (2 years, 1 month ago) |
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I'm so hungover today. I get a new brother from Finland today as part of an exchange program. Hopefully he's a chill guy
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ellenallien
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Re: E*llen M*ilk's C*ow's [Re: I AM SWIM]
#14230407 - 04/03/11 11:43 AM (2 years, 1 month ago) |
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thank u for the support & good vibes.
special thanx to dotty for that beautiful poem.
and to dosile for the seizure info.. this brings me some comfort,
and i will remember the advice.
i know im not redy to have a baby, and especially not right now.
its shocking to think about, and talk about.
i just think he is looking at life, priorities and evertying
im sure his brain is firing on all cylinders..
he takes very good care of me.. to much care that i dont take any for myself.
and maybe forgot how to. i have let myself get weak, and have made myself weak.
it is up to me to change, and maybe its time for me to empower myself.
its like the roles have been reversed as of late.
and i have become forced to be the caretaker.
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ellenallien
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they put him on lamictal for now..
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BothHands
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Quote:
ellenallien said:
they put him on lamictal for now..
Wow, that song tripped me the fuck out.
I hope the lamictal works. I was on it for a while as a mood stabalizer when I was much younger. Don't remember why I came off though.
I really wish you the best of luck. I didn't want to be a buzzkill, just wanted to point a few things out to you. I really hope you get clean, and start a wonderful family. I can't wait to have kids myself, but I've got a lot of waiting to do too.
Give him a hug for me. And one for youself too.
Edited by BothHands (04/03/11 01:02 PM)
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Re: E*llen M*ilk's C*ow's [Re: BothHands]
#14230660 - 04/03/11 12:57 PM (2 years, 1 month ago) |
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saxcidjazz
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Quote:
ellenallien said:
thank u for the support & good vibes.
special thanx to dotty for that beautiful poem.
and to dosile for the seizure info.. this brings me some comfort,
and i will remember the advice.
i know im not redy to have a baby, and especially not right now.
its shocking to think about, and talk about.
i just think he is looking at life, priorities and evertying
im sure his brain is firing on all cylinders..
he takes very good care of me.. to much care that i dont take any for myself.
and maybe forgot how to. i have let myself get weak, and have made myself weak.
it is up to me to change, and maybe its time for me to empower myself.
its like the roles have been reversed as of late.
and i have become forced to be the caretaker.
Oi, good luck girl.  Just keep that head up.
I didn't get paid for my gig yet again so looks like no dank today. Luckily I have some of this crap leftover to vape up. I wish all marijuana were dank, the world would be a happier place. 
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ellenallien
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Re: E*llen M*ilk's C*ow's [Re: saxcidjazz]
#14230696 - 04/03/11 01:07 PM (2 years, 1 month ago) |
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aww this graem is soo cutes! never noticed be4 : cuddles :
not a buzzkill, u kno i wuBs u Bothhands  u r just being a smart lady,
thankys for the hugz, i will give him one rite now.
i have heard of lamictal before, they mite have even wanted to put me on it.
when they diagnosed me as manic depressed bipolar.
they gave me Depokote with a side of lamictal.
never tried it though.
i know he doesnt want to, but i hope he takes the medicine and it works..
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Yeah, I was on depakote for about a month too, but I came off it because of the side effects. Same goes for lamictal. I just don't remember what the side effects were.
I hope it works too.
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Prisoner#1
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I'm gonna pull a Kanye right now and interrupt for something unimportant and
pretty much irrelevant, now this could be viewed as advice but was never
meant as such all I can say is that it hasnt been addressed in this thread
yet but really all I wanted to say was Moo.
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there are 923 words in the english language that do not follow the "I before E"
rule, there are 44 words in the english language that follow the rule. this is
the shit our education funding is paying for and these liberals want more money
for education to keep making students stupid
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Re: E*llen M*ilk's C*ow's [Re: Prisoner#1]
#14230938 - 04/03/11 02:13 PM (2 years, 1 month ago) |
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All I want to add is waffles.
My wife is making them right now 
Maple sausage links
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mrckb
Bob Sacamano
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Re: E*llen M*ilk's C*ow's [Re: I AM SWIM]
#14234136 - 04/04/11 01:35 AM (2 years, 1 month ago) |
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But coming off benzos isn't like coming off opiates, it can be fatal.
Sounds like the whole conundrum about coming off the drug in the movie 'Limitless'.
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Scientist - My findings are pointless when taken out of context.
Media - Scientist claims "findings are pointless"
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imachavel
Stranger
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Quote:
ellenallien said:
@vinsue
i have had 1 seizure in my life. but i have never sen anyone have a seizure. have you?
in the event that someone has a seizure in front of you? what are you suppose to do?
just call 9-1-1 ?
hey i seem to have missed this entire thread, i don't know half of what you are taking about the rest of the way down
anyway just wanted to say i'd rather post in your late night crew thread then in the other one, i don't know. everyone ignored my lnc haha. i know you would have replied though. plus i didn't tell anyone you were the real mafioso 
on a serious note though, i'm surprised people didn't pm me to death about who it really was. i'd still be really curious if i had been playing..
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