first off, now i know why you love lsd so much, the purples and the greens

okay, but seriously now.  that sounds incredible, and you really do such a great job at conveying the experience.  all the hair on my arms and legs started standing up with joy for you towards the middle of the 7th paragraph.  you have been given a glimpse of all that is out there. 

some entities are kind, gentle, and loving as the one you encountered (did you actually "see" or just feel its presence?), while others are not so much.  this is not to scare you, as i know you've read an array of reports, just to keep you on your toes.  many entities will seem to be kind and loving only to trap you and then turn on you.  it's amazing how we, as HUMAN BEINGS, are no different than all of these things we encounter, while still remaining separate

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There was an unspoken conversation between us. She urged me to join her. I watched her dance and I moaned at the beauty of it, of this expression of the godhead showing me what seemed a precious secret,

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what can you recall from the internal/external dialogue (both speech and movement?).  i often fail at this with a close friend of mine who happens to be able to produce some of the most beautiful sounds i've ever heard, but all of us are gods and we are not.  just remember that this entity was nothing more than you are and nothing less.  we are all gods in our own right/way.  don't build this entity up to anything higher than you yourself are.


this was no tiny step, my friend.  you have finally taken the very large step i had been hoping, and somewhat urging you to take.  i'm estatic that it seems like a small step to you.  there is so much more ahead of you, and i can only wait to read about it (and hopefully soon experience some of it with you, summer maybe? lol)

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some entities are kind, gentle, and loving as the one you encountered (did you actually "see" or just feel its presence?), while others are not so much.  this is not to scare you, as i know you've read an array of reports, just to keep you on your toes.  many entities will seem to be kind and loving only to trap you and then turn on you.  it's amazing how we, as HUMAN BEINGS, are no different than all of these things we encounter, while still remaining separate

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what can you recall from the internal/external dialogue (both speech and movement?).  i often fail at this with a close friend of mine who happens to be able to produce some of the most beautiful sounds i've ever heard, but all of us are gods and we are not.  just remember that this entity was nothing more than you are and nothing less.  we are all gods in our own right/way.  don't build this entity up to anything higher than you yourself are.

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this was no tiny step, my friend.  you have finally taken the very large step i had been hoping, and somewhat urging you to take.  i'm estatic that it seems like a small step to you.  there is so much more ahead of you, and i can only wait to read about it (and hopefully soon experience some of it with you, summer maybe? lol)

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EthericOctopuss said:
That was an absolutely terrific write up. Would you say that your experiences have entirely CEMENTED your knowledge of us being much more than a "physical" body, and / or perhaps hightened your sense of us surviving "physical" demise?

I love these types of reports.

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Great Report!


I've been smoking a bit lately and having the impression that Native American priests are performing a healing session with me.  A symbiotic flux of being re-arranged, and interacting with sunlight, eventually becoming more in tune with my emotions than what I generally exerience or allow my self to experience. 

Ever try smoking in the day with windows open?  Sitting next to a stream seems to have a profound affect.

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I could just picture you blissed up and bouncing along

I think 110-150mg swallowed in a gel-cap or tissue about 45 min. after ingesting 3-4 gm finely ground Rue on a day of fasting or just herbal teas is a good place to start.  And you'll definately want to have a comfy chair.

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My eyes still closed, I lifted up my arms. I wanted to be held by the liquid crystalline tapestries pouring over me. To say I "saw" these tapestries with my eyes closed is simply inadequate...they poured over me and into me. As I breathed, I felt these patterns filling my lungs and running through my veins.  I lifted my arms, moving my hands to what I now realized in the distance was the Indian music duet.  It was then that Shiva appeared to me, the Hindu goddess, but not in any familiar form to me from Hindu art that I had seen in my lifetime. It is extremely difficult to explain - she was a monstrous machine, somewhat insectoid in that she seemed to be spawning all the reality around her, but she was beautiful. Purple and green latticed, she danced, her hips swaying most seductively.  There was an unspoken conversation between us. She urged me to join her. I watched her dance and I moaned at the beauty of it, of this expression of the godhead showing me what seemed a precious secret, and I rose up out of my chair opening my eyes.

The smile on my face could have devoured the world - it was epic.  Joy coursed through my veins and I became finely attuned to the music playing. I listened to the twang, the sounds of this foreign holy music, and I moved, moved in a way that was not for fun but for joy. I danced, and it was a celebration. Shiva had shown herself to me and I felt I owed her a tribute. The song was a 37-minute long duet and this was perhaps 7 minutes into it. For the remaining half hour, parched for water but denying it to myself in the spirit of asceticism, I danced across the rug in my room, the scent of incense wafting all around me. I danced with unseen things, women, entities. I danced with myself. I felt aware of myself as Human Being in a way I rarely have experienced. An individual being, a spiritual being, a sexual being, a social being, a Being of infinite expressions.  My every movement, my every moment, is a tiny step on the journey deeper into myself.

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Excellent report and excellent job making this leap.

I'm fascinated by this avatar you encountered. Clearly it had some recognizable characteristics for you to name it shiva. My gut instinct is to inform you that it couldn't be shiva, as shiva the destroyer is distinctively male, with blue skin, and his role in the Hindu trinity is that of the destroyer, whereas your visitor was female and in the process of creation. But this would be dogmatic and silly of me. First of all it would try and detract from the beauty of your mind's creative vision. secondly my favorite hindu thinkers point out that the various avatars of Atman (the universe, the self, the universal self) are  merely temporary manifestations of what is eternal. They come into being and then they go back into the eternal non-being, therefore shiva as the key to the return to non-being is a constant force of change. Why should he not turn purple and green and decide to dance with you?

Just some ideas for you to dance with as you dance with the Hindu deities. They were illustrated to be worshipped that way...with fascination, wonder and playfullness.  Part of the reason they are such compelling Gods, in my opinion. They are not static at all.