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 offpath
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 1st Trip Experience--good but not sure of a few things...
#8878769 - 09/04/08 07:16 PM (2 months, 29 days ago) |
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Though I have smoked marijuana in moderation for several years, I never ventured to shrooming until a few months ago when I had my first and only trip to date. While always curious, I was never able to secure the logistics (locating a source, finding trip buddies, clearing the day, etc) until a good friend of mine (J) called me up to ask him to take a trip up north with him to his house. We went to university together but his parents house was about an hour and a half up in the mountains. J mentioned that he had scored some mushrooms and that we should trip. I figured that this would be a good opportunity since a) I trust J and b) had off from school and work on the Thursday and Friday and c) knew that the setting would be natural and safe.
We drove up on Thursday evening and then woke up early Friday morning and took the shrooms on an egg mcmuffin washed down with some orange juice. Im not sure how much we took since we did not measure (is that a bad idea?) but we each had about 4 or 5 pretty large caps I think. We headed to the Indian Reservation Park nearby, which is a scenic, mountainous park with plenty of lakes, streams, and trails. We found a waterfall and just sat ourselves down there, not feeling any effects quite yet. We were only about a half hour into it so I guess it was still early. Well, after nearly an hour we were still not experiencing anything "unusual" so we decided to just take a walk.
We ended up on an overlook and that was when I noticed the vibrancy of the leaves on the trees. There was a sheer glow attached to them, which presumably was an aura effect? I gazed at the mountainous backdrop, a meticulously crafted work of art, intricately brushed over with a fine paintbrush. I gasped and J, who I forgot was even with me, ran over to me and described that the huge tree behind us was breathing. I looked at it and while I could not see it breathing, I did take note that it seemed alive. I guess we have a tendency not to notice life in nature, but this tree was certainly a being.
I think I lost track of time at this point. We walked down the mountain and ended up on the beach of a lake. J and I had been previously engaged in a deep conversation about religion but soon the conversation dissipated and we sat in silence for a very long time. This silence was not awkward--it was a very comfortable, mutual silence. I suppose at this point we were both consumed by our own conscious, handling our own personal aspects of the trip.
I noticed a limping grasshopper on the ground and I followed it as it tried to relocate itself. I became immersed in this grasshoppers existence, pondering how it came to be and what would happen to him now that he had a bum leg. It seems quite ridiculous in recollection now, but I began to compare my life to this grasshopper, recognizing our similarities. I felt this deep connection with him but I knew that I needed to let him go. I stopped following him.
I stared across the lake and took note of the beautiful reflection that the trees cast on the still, serene water. The reflections did not appear to reflect the trees. Like the mountainous backdrop, they more resembled a painting. But then I saw that there were bodies being crucified on posts and there were people gathering around. I thought I saw a few faces I knew so I turned away and I ran to J. I told him I was very scared and I think I started crying--he comforted me and told me not to worry. We decided to walk away.
It was at this point that Js phone rang and we were both utterly confused. Perhaps its unbelievable, but he did not seem to know what to do with the same phone that he normally uses every day for calls and texts. I looked at my own phone and I was equally confused--it seemed like an inconvenient, obsolete contraption. We decided to walk back to his car to put our phones away--to be honest I think J was scared of his. I was not frightened by mine but I was indifferent and decided to just put it in the car.
In the parking lot we saw a group of older people hanging out with their dogs, presumably retired senior citizens since most other people would have been in work at this time. I was very frightened by them at first as these were the first people we encountered in the trip! I held on to J as we walked by them but then I managed to say hello. They greeted us with warm smiles and I felt better I think.
J and I went back into the woods and took a walk back to the waterfall. At this point, everything was so beautiful. I was "seeing" the sound of the crashing waterfall (especially when I closed my eyes) and "smelling" its deep blue color. I was enthralled by the merge of my senses. J and I were silent for this whole time, but we were lying next to each other on the ground. I felt closer to him than ever before and I kept on looking at him and marveling at how cool he is. He was doing the same thing I think and we kept laughing when we caught each other looking. I do not think it was sexually or romantically spurred--we were just being playful I guess.
We decided to continue walking down a trail and I remember how I was very much against a road sign that we saw---it scared me because I think it was so starkly synthetic in a beautiful, natural setting. It was very discomforting I suppose.
The park was not crowded so we saw few people there but the ones we did see were noteworthy. From a distance we saw a couple, probably in their late 30s, who were walking their dog. I saw them kiss each other and then stand in a long embrace before finally walking forward hand in hand. I was captivated by this--I felt their connection and thought it was beautiful. When we passed by them, they smiled and waved.
Shortly after we saw a few college aged girls who were on a run--I got very bad vibes from them and tried to hide behind a tree as they passed by. J had a similar reaction. I think we were intimidated by them or something. Perhaps Im generalizing, but in retrospect I think I noticed their superficiality in comparison to the elderly people and the couple we saw. I wanted nothing to do with them.
For the rest of the day we found ourselves just running around like children. We climbed trees and scaled hills. We dug holes and splashed water at each other. At the end of the trip I started to think about myself and my life. Except for the grasshopper part, I did not think about myself too much throughout the trip. Towards the end I started thinking about the problems I was having with my family, an ex, and finances and I dismissed them as pretty much unimportant and insignificant. I became aware of how impatient I am with my mother and, since the trip, my relationship with her improved drastically!
When we were done tripping, J and I gave ourselves a little bit of time to unwind and relax. Then we decided to just drive back to school. On the way, I found myself becoming more okay with the sight of roads, cars, buildings, etc. It was surreal.
Overall, I did enjoy the trip but it was quite emotionally tolling. I do not think it is something I can do very often as I have thought deeply about the trip since it happened. I know this is a very long post but I had many thoughts which I cannot materialize to words or that are just very personal and difficult to explain.
I might be ready to trip again soon but am waiting for a good opportunity. I recently moved to a new place and do not know how to obtain mushrooms. I had a discussion with a friend of mine here and he expressed interest in tripping with me. The only thing is that I kind of have more than friend feelings for him. Would it be a bad idea to engage this?
My apologies for such a verbose, drawn-out post. I tend to blather. But thanks to anyone who actually had the patience to read 
Edited by offpath (09/04/08 08:00 PM)
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Shad0w
In trouble again.
Registered: 06/08/08
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Re: 1st Trip Experience--good but not sure of a few things... [Re: offpath]
#8884930 - 09/06/08 12:29 AM (2 months, 28 days ago) |
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well.
Hmm.
The subject of your feelings could come up....
It is a possibility.
Is he available?
The fact that he wants to trip with you.... alone right? sounds kinda promising.
What is the worst case scenario you can imagine?
Best one I have is..... under the influence, the feelings of closeness intensify, you share a special moment.... maybe even erm..... "do it"
And then after the trip...... He ends up not wanting to go any further into the relationship.
OR maybe, the feelings you have for him start springing into your mind, and becuz you are scared he doesnt feel the same way you fight it off and end up doing/saying stupid things......
And then after the trip, you have to see him again.... but now he is even less interested.
If you could live with those kinda options.... go for it.
I think him wanting to trip with you is a good sign. But I wouldnt put all my eggs in one basket either.
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nosferatu1724
Mr Mojo Risin'
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Re: 1st Trip Experience--good but not sure of a few things... [Re: Shad0w]
#8886900 - 09/06/08 01:24 PM (2 months, 27 days ago) |
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very well written. i should have the same feeling by 11 tonight.
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